lucid

I had probably the most realistic lucid dream I've ever had, it was just unreal, all of it was. I had 5-HTP before going to bed and did a WBTB+4hrs and stayed awake for 5m, with 8mg galantamine and 400mg choline before going back to bed.

[COLOR="#FF0000"]I became lucid at some random point, I remember it was not something that I even needed to do a reality check for I just knew. This was a very intense DEILD (atleast I think it was a DEILD) where I spent most of my dreams putting my fantasies aside and just going with the flow of the dream. The first dream I remember I was with a big group of people who seemed like they could all be my friends but they were not nor have I ever seen any of them. I drove some strange white car that was VERY fast, I remember a Ferrari pulling up next to me and then I slammed the gas and cut it off. After I got out of the car and I wanted to see what I was driving, it was a car where the whole body was a music stage... Their was a band playing on the car the whole time I was driving, weird part is they make no sound but all the actions of singing and playing on the instruments. I eventually left them and went up some stairs in an ally into a big apartment full of 15-20 people who knew me but I didn't know them. One guy called me smoker for some reason I have no idea why (I don't smoke).

I hung around and basically just mingled with all of these DC's as I would in real life, surprisingly enough they were all very convincing in being real people. I announced to all the DC's that I was dreaming and proved it by flying around the apartment, I tried to convince them that they were dreaming too and that we could all be real people sharing a conscious dream simultaneously (I don't really believe in shared dreaming but I wanted to humour my self). I don't why but some times all of a sudden my dream would become very blurry and then just become blackness, and then I would have to refocus a recent event that happened in that dream and then suddenly it would come back, this happened probably 20 times the entire night. Sometimes when my dream would fade to black and I would try to bring it back but I would be thrown into a new dream with completely different people in a totally different environment. But all the dreams were essentially the same, me on some balcony or in some apartment with a bunch of people I don't know.

Eventually after switching landscapes and people for the third time, I found my self hanging out with some people on a street at night, my brother was inside the dream though! I approached my brother first and said we are dreaming and none of this is real, and after that I don't remember the conversation, but my dream went blurry and I came back into a new dream at some balcony, this time my brother was their also, and he remembered whatever we discussed in the previous dream. On top of that we both saw my cousin wandering around and I remember saying "Holy shit! its Eyad!" my brother started to laugh. We both walked up to him, he looked either high or drunk. I of course started to explain to him none of this is real that we are in a dream, he doesn't believe me, so I prove it to him by flying around a bit. I told him that we might be all dreaming at the same time and sharing a conscious state and here was our chance to test the validity of shared dreaming, I told my cousin that after he wakes up he would text me the keyword 'DOG' as proof that we shared the dream, he said this is scary but he would do it.

Again the dream blurred up again and this time I was on an elevated platform outside with a train connected to it, everything was plain and I was alone this time. A train came by but it was a slow moving train with no walls just seating for the passengers, the passengers were all not moving and passed out, I looked closely and it was all of the people I was hanging out with in my previous dreams, I was thinking WTF is going on. I ran onto the train when it stopped and threw as many people on to the platform as I could before it left again, for some reason Master Chief was also on the train passed out and I threw him on the platform. He looked a little bit different though, as if he has been infected by the flood. The train started moving and I had no time to save anyone else, the people I saved woke up and one of them said "Smoker!!!!" in a stoners voice, he was the guy from the first dream that called me smoker. I asked him whats going on and he said he had no idea and just walked off with everyone else. Then all of a sudden Master Chief gets up, nods at me, then jumps on the train before it finishes passing by. He morphed into a giant flood monster and started eating the train till he ate all of it....After that the dream went blurry and I just passed out. [/COLOR]

01/03/13

Off With A Bang
I am in my Fire Valkyrie heading for the moon. I wander on the moon only briefly before I decide to go somewhere I am needed. I open a portal and go through from the moon to a fancy costume party of some kind. People are dancing all around, everyone is wearing a mask. I am thinking I should make an effort to fit in. I see everyone has a gaudy gold mask on… and that is when I realize where I am. I am in Assassin's Creed II. I look around wondering what my purpose there might be. I spot some of the courtesans and I remember Ezio moving among them to keep from being noticed. So I move over closer to a group of courtesans. There are several guards staring right at Ezio… but not seeing him… they're only seeing the courtesans' breasts about to fall from their dresses. I know where their minds are… I get over closer to Ezio. I hear him talking to the courtesans. The conversation pauses as he looks over at me but then they continue. They are trying to come up with a distraction to get the guards away from his target. A courtesan says they must all be homosexual… they don't even look at courtesans. Another says they are specially chosen and won't abandon their posts for anything less than something blowing up. I am right next to them now, I surprise them when I ask if some fireworks would do the trick. A courtesan says they have to disappear… they've been spotted. Ezio tells her it's ok, but what about the fireworks. One of them says the fireworks won't go off until after the target has left. I tell them that tonight the fireworks will start early then. I wonder how I can create some fireworks. This is a dream… it should be doable. I ask where the fireworks come from and a courtesan points. I head over there and find there is a man standing near what looks like a row of fireworks ready to go. He tells me I shouldn't be there. I decide to flirt with the guy instead of starting trouble… He isn't very attractive, my dream self is attractive… so I figure it would work well. I tell him I wanted to see how the magic happens, then we can watch the fireworks together. He pushes his luck and says he knows a private place we could go afterwards. I swallow my vomit and act like I like the idea. So I get closer to the fireworks. I hear the man who is Ezio's target talking, it sounds like quite a stream of bullshit. Apparently politicians have always been the same. So now it needs to go off. I ask when he sets them off. He says after the speech is done. I look closer at the fuses, and focus a little pyrokinesis to light them each. The fuses are all lit so I step away quickly. The man notices that the fuses are lit and asks what I have done, it's too soon! He says they were supposed to go off AFTER the speech! I tell him he said during the speech… he is frustrated… but it is too late now. The fireworks all go off at once, shooting up into the sky and exploding with quite a commotion.

I look back out at the guy giving the speech, he is now staring up at the fireworks looking quite annoyed. The man who was supposed to set off the fireworks seems more worried about himself, says they're going to kill him for this… no… they'll have to find him first… he disappears into the crowd, who are all looking up at the fireworks now. I don't notice when it happens, but when I look back over at the guy giving the speech, and he is on the ground, apparently dead. None of his guards have even noticed yet. I find their obliviousness amusing then I wake up.

Bedtime about 10:30PM
pre-bed 5MG Melatonin
@ 4:30AM took 200MG Caffiene
SSILD

113 I Didn't Mean To Scare You - DILD?/DEILD? 5:30AM

For some reason I am digging in the cats' food dish. I see there are a bunch of caffeine pills in it. I carefully pick them out and start eating the pills. I have a hard time swallowing them dry. I decided to lay down and WILD.

Suddenly, I am laying in bed. When SP kicks in. At this time I don't realize that I was in a non-lucid dream and think that this has got to be the fastest WILD ever. I try to do my normal transition but my legs do not feel floaty at all. So I just stand up and open my eyes. The whole thing feels so real and I briefly think that I opened my real eyes. Its all so vivid I think its real and I lay down and try again. I quickly realize that it was not real as I had been feeling vibrations the entire time.

I don't want to try to escape my house so I try to imagine myself in a new location. I choose the beach. I imagine the water and the waves crashing in while standing bare foot in the sand. It all feels like I am just trying to imagine something while awake.

I keep getting uncomfortable as it feels like my wife is rolling against me. I keep trying to adjust and get irritated because she is breaking my concentration. At one point I feel myself roll to my right against my will. I begin to think none of this is really happening. I realize I am still feeling SP vibrations and I should probably just get out of bed and go with the dream.

Suddenly, my wife jumps up and goes into the dining room. I follow her thinking I am probably dreaming this. It is dark but there is light coming from the window. She stops at the table and I crash into the back of her. She screams bloody murder and runs back into the bedroom and slams the door. She seems really pissed off at me and I feel bad. It is all so incredibly realistic that I loose lucidity.

I follow after her to tell her that I was sorry and didn't mean to scare her. I am embarrassed and mean to tell her that I really thought I was dreaming. As I reach the door I wake up. I try to DEILD but I already know I took too much caffeine and I may as well just get up.

I have really got to find a more efficient use of my OBE time... Teleportation?

DreamLucidAwake

Basic Task ii

I didn't sleep very well last night. It felt like I kept going in and out of a dream for over an hour. I hardly remember the dream however. One of the times I woke up though, I managed to become aware of what was happening. I took advantage of it and performed a DEILD. I soon found myself standing on the side of a street around sunset. Krystal and Lucia were there with me. The dream wasn't very clear. The scenery and details were very lacking.

I had the task of the month and the task of the year on my mind. The only task that came to mind was the second basic task of the month. The number I was thinking of was 76. I told Krystal and Lucia, "I'm thinking of a number between 1 and 100, what is it?" Immediately after saying that, they both replied simultaneously, "76." "It's no fun when you can both read my mind." I said. They laughed and the dream faded away again.

Advanced Task ii

It was nearing sunset in a city that reminds me of what I think I Mayan city would be like. I was running along the main road towards a temple. I then began running up the steps. Running eventually turned to crawling and I was exhausted when I reached the top. A man was there at the top of the temple. He grabbed my hand and helped me to my feet. He appeared to be the king of this city. He was wearing a crown anyways.

Standing on top of the temple behind the king was a large palace. On the right side of the temple I could see a group of people who were most likely the king's subordinates. On the left side of the temple I saw Chris, Claire, River, Krystal, and Lucia. The king welcomed me and guided me over to them. I became lucid around this point because I tend to associate the five of them with dreaming.

I was going to go over to Chris to talk to him, but I noticed Lucia somehow got her foot stuck in a hole. I walked over to her and pulled her out. I then went back to Chris and asked him, "Where are we and what are we doing here?" "Didn't you read the invitation? It should be in your pocket." He said. "I have a million things in my pocket you know. It's easy to lose track of things." I said. I reached into my pocket and pulled out an invitation. Most of it was either gibberish or simply forgotten. Basically it said that we were invited to the temple as honored guests for a traditional festival. I looked down to the city below and the city was filled with people and decorations. They set that up pretty fast.

Some time passed as I talked with other people about things. I think it was about some adventure I was supposed to be going on soon. Unfortunately I've forgotten most of what we talked about. I remember me and Claire were pissing each other off as usual. She tried to throw me off the temple at one point. I just transformed into a dragon and flew right back up. Later Chris handed me a box of fireworks and wanted me to launch them for the festival. He said he was supposed to take care of it, but he had something important to do with Claire. They ran off somewhere before I could even ask questions.

I walked over to River and asked, "Where should we launch these fireworks?" "Oh, I know! We can launch them from the launch pad!" She said. "This place has a launch pad? Can you take me there?" I asked. "Yeah, it's this way." She said.

This next part is kind of hard to describe. We walked to the side of the palace and there was some kind of ladder there. It was more like climbing the side of a cliff though and it was enclosed. For this reason I couldn't just fly up there. Or maybe I could have but was to stupid to think of it. I strapped the box of fireworks to my back. River went up first and I followed her. It was incredibly awkward and difficult climbing up. When we reached the top, we were in some sort of chamber with a helicopter pad.

We had about 20 fireworks or so. Originally I was just going to scatter them randomly around the room, but River wanted to arrange them into the shape of a smiley face. So that's what we did. If you looked at it from above, it would look like this . "I'm guessing you want a smiley face pattern in the sky, but I don't think that's going to work." I said. "Why wouldn't it?" She asked. "Never mind, this is a dream so I may as well work." I said.

We stood back and I prepared fire in my hands. I shot tiny balls of fire at each rocket to ignite them. I then plugged my ears and watched the show. There wasn't really anything significant for me to go on about except that one of the explosions was in fact a smiley face.

After the fireworks show, the king told me that it was time for the hot air balloon ride. Oddly, he said it as though this was absolutely necessary. He said I could only bring two people with me. I immediately chose Krystal and Lucia. We then had to climb back up that weird ladder to the launch pad. I didn't think Lucia would be able to climb on her own, so I carried her on my back as we climbed. On the launch pad an air balloon was waiting for us. We stepped inside and someone released the rope that anchored it to the ground. The balloon immediately began to ascend into the air.

After we were really high up above the city, I looked down at it. It turns out we were higher than I originally thought. The city was built on top of a very tall mountain. I spent a great deal of time just observing the landscape below. It was really amazing. I think Krystal and Lucia enjoyed it even more than I did. They couldn't believe how amazing and beautiful everything was. I'd like to describe the scene more, but I don't think I would be capable of that. As the ride went on, I began to lose stability and things got blurry. I woke up soon after.

It began walking down the streets towards a Target store at night. I was walking down the street and felt the need to check my hands on the way there. The environment didn't feel so real at the time. I felt that performing a reality check would be a good idea. I looked down at my palms and only notice my hands. I never counted them, I think. If I do a reality check in reality I usually just read the word "Dream" on my left wrist. But something good did come out of this in the end...

I don't remember doing much inside the Target's store. I walked out of it after a bit and saw my father outside. I ignored him and walked over to the right side of the store. I saw a long way down to the far back of the store. There was probably nothing there. I walked over to that area and checked. On my way there I saw a recent friend I used to know in waking life standing in front of a store. Her name was Varaporn. She didn't look much like the one I saw when I was attending piano class with her but it still turned out good later.

When I finally reached the back of the store, I decided to go back to the front. As I was walking back, I saw Varaporn. I noticed she was staring at me, so I stared back and gave her one of my flirting stares. I looked away but before I continue on, she yells my name. I walked up to her to see what she wanted. Despite her not looking exactly the same as she does in real life, she was still good looking in the dream.

When I walked up to her, she escorted me to the store with a few other guys I used to go school with. One of their names was Robert but I couldn't remember the other one. The store we walked in to was a thrift shop. When were in there, Varaporn changed her face structure. I had no idea! She offered me "special services." At first, I was afraid to catch an infection from the woman. I made up an excuse and told her that my father was waiting for me. She didn't want me to leave but I also didn't wanted any diseases.

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At this time, I thought more about reality. I really wanted to have sex. Somehow I knew it was a dream but wasn't sure if I could still catch a disease. I did her anyways. I didn't want the dream to end already, so I walked up in front of her, made out a little, took down my pants, placed her on a sofa in front of me, took off her pants, stuck my penis in there(it felt like breaking), tried to thrust her but couldn't, made out with her some more and tired to thrust her while doing it, then I woke up.

2013-01-02

I was in bed. Realized I was dreaming, and got up from bed.

As I was standing straight, I was fully aware that I was dreaming, that I was in that body again.

I wanted to examine it, feel it, to check for differences from the one I'm in now, writing this.
So I did that, starting from my head and down to the feet. Touching the dreambody with my dreamhands, to see if it felt different in any way. It did not. It was the exact same body as Im in right now. Then I think I was done, so I left that state. Maybe I woke up to fall asleep again, or simply just went on dreaming "normally" again.

01/01/13

Split Consciousness
I am in my Fire Valkyrie heading for the moon. I land on the moon and look around briefly before opening a portal to get somewhere I need to be. I go through the portal and enter a place that looks like a scene from Assassin's Creed. This does not surprise me since I have been dreaming a lot about Assassin's Creed lately. What does surprise me is that someone calls my name. I look over to where someone is calling me from and I see there are lots of Templars. Four of them are holding on to someone who looks like Altaïr. One of the Templars is laughing at me saying I had better not try anything or Altaïr would be dead before I could stop it. I use Battery to call two bolts of lightning, one on each side of Altaïr, nailing the Templars holding him. That frees Altaïr, who grabs a sword from one of the four fallen Templars and runs it through another Templar.

They now have a fight on their hands. I am about to help Altaïr with the large number of Templars, but one of them is still laughing at me. He says I can only save one of them, though. One of them? Who else? He says there are far more of them than there are of me, right now there is a parallel world that just lost its Altaïr. I saved one and lost the other. I use Divide by Disturbed to separate into two people, and one of me opens a portal to find the other Altaïr they are talking about. The situation is practically identical, so I use an identical solution. Battery… the Templars holding Altaïr die… Altaïr grabs a sword and fights back. But they are still laughing. Do I really think there are only two worlds? There are others? Shit. I use Divide again, there are four and then eight and then 16 of me. I send other copies of me to other worlds tracking other Altaïrs. Having multiple copies of me in different dimensions is really disorienting. And not all the worlds are exactly the same, though the basic idea is the same. I free more versions of Altaïr to fight and the Templars are still laughing. I intend to make them shut up. Another Divide. 32 of me, 64… a Templar asks if I really think I can get to all of them. One of me enters a world where I am right in front of Altaïr… and he stabs me with his hidden blade, so at least one of me has been stabbed. I'm not sure how many of me got stabbed. I wonder why Altaïr has attacked me in some places. A Templar says not all of them are immune to their control. So in the places where Altaïr has attacked me I use Liberate by Disturbed to break any possible mind control. It has become hard to keep track of what I am doing where, though. I think maybe I did Liberate everywhere… not that it has any effect where there is no mind control in effect. The Templars are still laughing at me, saying I have missed so many versions of Altaïr, there are so many places where the Templars will now win… there's no way I can save them all, so I might as well give up… So I Divide again, splitting to 128, I have the strange sensation of being everywhere at once and nowhere at all at the same time. But everywhere is close enough to the same. Free Altaïr, use Liberate just in case it's needed, fight Templars. It is really disorienting, I keep hearing Templars laughing… but is it a bit forced now? Maybe I'm reaching their limits… so I Divide yet again to 256, splitting into way too many places at one time… I feel like I am going to completely lose it, so I set to the same task everywhere. Get right next to Altaïr and drop an Immortal Fire. There is a bright light exploding in my mind as 256 simultaneous Immortal Fire spells go of at once, and for once there is no Templar laughter. Just a bunch of yelling. I don't have enough focus to understand what the Templars are saying, but I am reassured by the fact they don't sound happy. I think there is a lot of cursing. I wonder if I have found all of the instances where they have ambushed Altaïr… or did the Templars win in some places… no time to really ponder that before I wake up.

Lost Children
I am in what looks to be an abandoned town, though most of the buildings are still standing quite well. I wonder where all the people there went. I am not lucid, but I know I have a mission to complete. I have been tracking a pedophile to this location. It is a known fact that he has kidnapped numerous children, but no one has been able to track him to where he is keeping them. I have been on this case for a while and I think I am getting close to finding his hideout. I sneak through the streets of the town, peering into windows of homes as I go. Then my attention gets drawn to an abandoned hospital.

I think I see movement over there. Maybe that's where he is. I sneak over and get close to the hospital, and I do seem movement this time. There is a tall bald man pulling a little boy along by the arm, and the little boy is crying. I recognize the man as the pedophile, he is my target. I think maybe I have been playing too much Assassin's Creed because the man seems to faintly glow yellow. An assassination target. I have to get close to him when he doesn't have a child with him or it could become a hostage situation. So I tail the man into the hospital and he shoves the child into one of the rooms, locking the door behind. He is now alone. Now to get close to him. Looking around I see some rubble on the ground. I pick up a large rock and chuck it at the guy, hitting him on the side of the head. He doesn't seem hurt, but he does seem annoyed as he looks over and sees me. He says I am too old for him to have fun with, but not too old to kill. I throw more stuff at him. Mostly rubble on the ground. Rocks… pieces of wood… an old coffee mug… he gets more pissed off with every piece that hits him. He says he is going to have fun killing me slowly. He comes at me, as it appears that I am unarmed. But that weird yellow glow isn't the only thing I have brought from Assassin's Creed. He runs right up onto my hidden blade, practically stabbing himself. He has a shocked look on his face since he hadn't seen a weapon in my hand. I stab the bastard again to make sure he is dead. There are children locked in many of the rooms of the hospital, some of them aren't in very good condition. I call the police and real hospital and before long there are children being led out, some walking on their own, others being carried and given IV medication, all of them look traumatized. Their ages seem to range from 4 to 8… I am glad the pedophile is dead, though in a way it seems like it was too easy for such an asshole. I am still thinking that when I wake up.

11/2/2012
From the beginning of this dream I knew I was dreaming. I really don't remember how but I did. It starts out in a warehouse with my roomate and my friend. I first off know that I want to fly and I begin to use the trick that I read about with lucid flying by focusing on an object. I swear I would focus on an object and then zoom over to it throughout the warehouse. Then for some reason I don't remember what happened in between this and the next scene. In the next scene I am flying overhead my friends who are driving in a car. They drive off a cliff and I fly down into the water that the car is sinking into and pick up the car to allow my friends to get out of the car. Then as we are in the water swimming I have the desire to fly back up on top of the cliff. At first I can't do it for some reason. Then after a second I focus on the top of the cliff and fly up to it. I take off from the top of the cliff and fly through the sky showing off my skills to my friends. Throughout this entire dream by the way, I am telling myself "oh my god I finally had a lucid dream I can't believe this". Then I forgot what happens between this and the next scene. In the next scene, I am in a glass elevator that is within a dam on an island. I remember flying around the island and really thinking this elevator is cool because it takes us up and down the waterfall of the dam. Next scene..haha. I am at a hospital area waiting in a line and I remember that I read that expectations in lucid dreams allow for something to happen so i test this. I really want a coffee so i go over to a counter in the waiting room and say that I expect a coffee to appear after i turn around. The first time i turn around it doesn't work. However, the next time I really try to expect and when I turn around I see a coffee on the table. I am freaking euphoric at this point and really can't believe this is happening. Next I decide to check out the bathroom in the hospital and I walk into a stall that is very dirty. I practice expecting the next stall to be pristine and clean and I walk into a stall that is just as I expected. After this I don't remember what happens..but I find myself in a room with my roomate. On his computer he has loaded a game of Mario or something that takes place on an island. The moment he starts the game I am transported to the island and find myself soaring over Mario's island. Me and my roommate discuss how cool it is to be in the game and flying over this island. After we explore we decide to drive home. I remember driving in the car and listening to the Lucid radio. I can't freaking believe that I just had a lucid dream and I tell my roommate that I need to write it down so that I remember it when I wake up better. Then I wake up.

The dream begins with me pushing a girl out of my dorm window because she keeps trying to seduce me in front of my girlfriend. I push her out of the window and she lands below me in my friend's dorm still alive. Because my friend hates her as well he proceeds to kill her. The rest of the dream I am paranoid about getting caught for this. After he kills her, we destroy her phone and he gets rid of the body. A short while later we are called to a meeting at the mall in which we think we will be interviewed for the murder. Luckily, when we show up it turns out that the meeting is only to teach us college students how to make sandwiches. After the meeting I am walking through the mall and I come across a shop that is selling jeweled beats.
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Two black guys with dreads are selling them and they talk to me and make me laugh really hard. They also sell me a cell phone. As I leave I am holding the cell phone in my left hand and I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket. I take out the second cell phone and notice "wow, i don't have two phones! I must be dreaming". Now lucid, something exteremely weird happens. I wake up in my bed sitting upright with a very heavy blanket over my head. I know this is not my blanket so I must still be dreaming. Once I figure this out unfortunately I wakeup for real.

This may be one of my weirdest dreams yet! I don't remember hardly anything from it but here's what I remember.

For reasons I can't remember, I was called upon to go down underground to join up with some warriors and save the world (from what? I have no clue or memory) and I had to get there by going down the bathtub drain which opened up just wide enough for me to go down through it. Towards the end of the dream I realized I was in a dream and made sure to remember it when I woke up so I could share it with my friend since we always have fun laughing about our dreams and how weird they are

I woke up shortly after this happened

Bedtime about 12:30 am
Pre-Bed Alcohol
WBTB - Missed alarm. Too sleepy or drunker than I thought?
Sleep interruption at 6:30 up maybe an hour fitful sleep after that.

113 He's Already Dead! - DILD 9:30AM... ish

I am at my house. I wake up from my nap with the baby but I am on the couch. There is family from my moms side in my living room. I see uncle C next to me and my dad pacing. I realize my son is missing. I get worried and ask uncle C where R is.

C: He went with them.
Me: Went with who were!?
C: With all them to make arrangements?
Me: What arrangements? What are you talking about?
C: They are picking a plot for them to get ready for the funeral.
Me: Who's funeral?!
C: Your PawPaw.
Me: WHAT? WHY?
C: For the future.

I am about to say that he is already dead when I look up and see my grandfather walking into the living room. He looks really old and tired. Near death. Someone is has him by the arm and helping him walk. Then it dawns on me what Uncle C was talking about. My grandparents are making arrangements and picking a burial plot for their own funeral. (They actually did this in real life long before they got sick) I remember all of this and I point at my grandfather and and yell, "HE'S ALREADY DEAD!"

Fully lucid now, I forget about all the DC's in the room. They completely vanish. I stand up and jump and dance around. I can see something like bright moon light coming in from the windows and it casts a vivid shadow of my dancing self on the hardwood flooring. I just feel happy that I recognized a dream sign. I almost lose lucidity but I remember myself. I decide to try making fire from my hands again. I rub my hands together and get some feeling in them. Then I hold them up before my eyes. I close both hands into fists and focus. I try to imagine a flame in my palms as I slowly open then. I get nothing. Now the dream gets dark. I realize the living room is empty of all furniture. I rub my hands again for stability and then decide to just interact with the dream to keep it going. I dance around again like before and see my shadow again. I think maybe I tried too hard with the fire and now the dream is breaking up. I feel panicky now and decide to just go outside. I easily open the front door but it leads into a dark and empty room about the size of a smallish walk-in-closet. When I shut the door behind me the dream ends. My son is a wake and fussy.

This was the second of two lucid dreams from the morning of New Year's Day.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #52: The Obsidian Tower

I'm in a doctor's office, waiting awkwardly nearby while he examines some patient that I don't know. I'm a bit bored, so I think about the morning's previous lucid dream and how close I came to not recognizing that I'm dreaming. Things start to feel strange to me, so I hit the nose-pinch and become lucid.

I walk out of the office into a hallway and start looking for "Exit" signs. I'm excited to see one at the end of the hallway. I follow it and happily, there's another leading me further on. A tightly-packed group of DCs strolls through the hallway, taking up the entire thing. I "excuse me, excuse me" my way through them and work my way to the next "Exit" sign. This one points me toward a stairwell.

I begin to worry that I'm very high up so I decide that I need to get downstairs as efficiently as possible. I leap over the railing, intent on jumping my way to the bottom. Unfortunately, I just land in an untidy heap. A lady walking up the stairs nearby yelps when I crash-land. She hurries toward me and asks, "Are you okay?" It's pretty embarrassing. I tell her, "Thanks, but you don't need to worry about me."

I hop back up and then leap over the next railing. It goes much better this time, and I hop all the way to the bottom like this, and it's probably 6-8 stories' worth of stairs. There's a long hallway at the bottom and as I walk along it, two boys of about 12 go running past me, one chasing the other. The boy in front is holding a handwritten note and the boy in pursuit says, "Give that back!" I stop them both, saying, "That's mine now", and pluck the note out of the first kid's hands. They register no objection to this and quickly wander away.

The note has 6 bullet points, each with a sentence. At the bottom is a phone number with the area code "666". (Yikes!) I read every sentence and try to memorize them, but they're very random and strange. One was something about the sky. I really work at the memorization task but the content is so random that it feels hopeless. After I've read the note, I follow another "Exit" sign that leads me outside.

I'm in a large, outdoor courtyard on a foggy morning. Across the courtyard from me is an obsidian tower made entirely of glass. It rises high into the fog and its top is entirely out of sight. I remember my goal of seeing the Pyramid, but this tower has really grabbed my interest. I float up into the air and start guiding myself toward it. One lady in the courtyard shouts, "Wait, how are you so tall?" I wonder for a moment whether I'm just growing to an enormous height and not flying at all. I double-check -- nope, there are my feet. (Oddly, they are clad in loafers.)

I start involuntarily flying backward away from the tower instead of forward toward it. I decide to see what happens if I simply turn around and put my back to the tower. Fortunately, this works well and I keep drifting toward the tower (now at my back) as I rise. I whip through several layers of fog before perching on the tower's stone roof.

My friend AJ is seated up there, looking out over the city. "Congratulations!" she says. "It's a great view from up here." I have to agree. The sky is brilliantly red now, and somehow I can see the courtyard far below, almost as if the fog was one-way. I can in fact see a great deal of the city from here. I wonder whether the people that I'm looking at can see me back.

"So what am I doing all the way up here?" she says.

"I'm not sure, but I think you've got it pretty good. I had to work my ass off to get up here!"

She laughs and soon my vision fades to black. I try to DEILD but then AJ says, "Hey, you're actually still up here. You just can't see anything." I try to think about what I could do to get my sight back, but in a few more seconds, I'm really awake.

This was the first of two lucid dreams from the morning of New Year's Day. What is it with me and holiday lucid dreaming?

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #51: The Thragian Age

I'm walking around a museum during a special event about "The Thragian Age". There are cool, semi-magical artifacts displayed all around, including a floating stone wheel that turns on its own and glows with strange white energy. A waitress offers me a drink from a tray. She's dressed in a sparkling blue skirt and a jeweled mask that I assume is also from the Thragian Age. I wish that I was better studied in this "Thragian Age" (or had heard of it at all.)

Wife walks up to me dressed in running shorts and a t-shirt and says that she feels "underdressed". I say, "Me too. And I'm tired. Let's nap." We curl up under a nearby table. I feel momentarily frisky but quickly reconsider when I remember where we are. I decide that while I'm sleeping, I might as well try to WILD. I close my eyes, wait for a dream scene to form and...

...find myself walking outside along an empty road, fully aware that I'm dreaming. It's also clear to me now that the previous scene was also a dream. I feel happy and confident as I jog along the road and start narrating to myself: "I'm in a lucid dream and I'm going to fly to the Great Pyramid." I take to the air near an overpass, swoop under it, and head for a distant set of mountains.

I fly for a while when the wind starts blowing against me. I really try not to fight so hard this time, saying, "Show me what you want to show me." I relax, and the wind turns me back toward the city. I fly for a while over houses, tree-lined streets, and people milling about in their yards.

The sun is bright and the wind is cool against my skin. A gust from the side makes me bank toward the city's downtown. I'm no longer concerned with visiting the Pyramid and I'm just enjoying the peace and the moment. I fly for a while longer, but before I reach downtown, the dream ends.

Camp:
I don't exactly remember this dream all that well all I know is that I was going camping with my scout troop and we had to fill out a small packet. There were also other campers there.

Flying:

(First day of the new year and a lucid dream! THings are looking up for me!)

I was driving my Dad's car (I'm 14 in real life) and I knew that I shouldn't be, but I was just trying to get back to my house. When my dad caught me at a hotel, he said that he was very disappointed in me. When I was standing outside of the hotel with him, everything just felt weird and so I did my hand reality check and sure enough, my hand had four fingers. However, instead of doing my real task which is to transform myself, I decided to fly. Alas, at least for now, my flying would not work, I could only jump slightly higher than usual.
It's funny actually because the hotel's printed slogan on the side of the building was "Providing rest for DC's"
Anyways we went in and my flying attempts still failed. I then thought "Hey, lets just ask for one" Sadly this didn't work for now. Me and my dad walked down through and airport were we met up with my mom. My grandma was also there and when she asked if I was happy to see her I said "Not right now, I'm lucid dreaming!" Walking inside of Walmart now, we also met up with my 8 year old sister, who when I asked for a jetpack, she made one out of thin air and gave it to me. If only I was that good. I used it to fly around and kill the piggies from Angry Birds that were now flying around as well. When I had finished this, I flew down opened a bucket, and a giant veggie monster made out of grapes and the like coming out of it hypnotized snake style. After a little bit of him coming out I shut the lid back on him. Then I woke up.

Using this topic to write a few of my dreams down from the last 2 months.

11/2/12- Gay friend
I am at a friend's wedding and the best man comes up to me. I know this guy to be very wealthy, and I have known him for a long time. We talk for a bit, then he tries kissing me. I push away, telling him I am not gay. I hear news that he is dead days later.

11/2/12- Godfather fighting arena
Don't quite remember. Only thing that comes to mind is a big dirt track, in which me and someone else are fighting with guns. Appears to be right outside a huge mansion. Third person dream.
Vague dream involving a me and a stranger fighting each other with guns while driving on a big dirt track. I recall seeing a giant mansion overlooking the track. It was a third person dream that felt more like a crazy movie than an actual dream experience.

11/3/12- Caught my dad cheating on his wife :/
I go to visit my dad at his place of employment (His dream location, he does not work there IRL). It appears to be an office job, seeing as there were cubicles everywhere. I looked everywhere for my dad but couldn't find him. I heard a noise coming from outside a window and saw a rather unpleasant sight. My dad was in the process of having an affair with some woman from his work outside. She was propped against a car and dad was taking her from behind. I quickly looked away and sat down crying because I never would have expected my dad to do such an awful thing to my mom.

11/3/12- Parents divorce
My mom finds out about what my dad has done and they end up splitting. I try to keep them together by telling them they should try to work through, but it was all for nothing. My mom ends up getting custody of me and my brother, and my dad is basically left with nothing. He leaves the home a broken man and me and my brother were left feeling awful for what had happened.

11/10/12- Famous dude in town
Someone famous was in town. I lived in a really small town, no more than 200 people, and this celebrity is visiting because he was born there. I remember going outside of my mobile home and seeing the celebrity down the road. I'm like "cool, it is just another guy." I then went back inside and the dream got creepy. I picked up my pillow from my bed and it was stuffed with bees and ants. I of course drop it and run like a little girl. As I leave the house Slender comes up to my face and I wake up.

11/10/12- "Fun" at the arcade --Dream edit. WTF is that supposed to mean?!

11/13/12- Secret room in the mansion
I was exploring a mansion when I found a secret room behind a huge painting. The room was not very big, only about 15x15 feet. It seemed cozy enough though with a stove a table, and a robot. I also saw this beautiful chandelier above the table. Oh yeah, did I mention the robot? He started telling me a story about how he was created. The man who made him hid him away in this secret room to keep him from the evil designers of the castle. It was only meant to be temporary, but sadly the creater of the robot slipped and died on wet concrete outside the castle. He was paved over and his dead body is still mixed deep into the walkway outside the castle to this day. The robot took the liberty of showing me where the man had fallen. I could see no record of him being in there, but the thought alone was sad.

11/14/12- I was talking to Randy D. about AWANA. I was on this hill at a camp I went to a few times, and then out of nowhere I hear a sound. Coming from over the hill came a bunch of Indians, some with guns, some with blowdarts. One yelled through a bullhorn that the end is near. I run for the camp at full speed, trying to hide. I tell everyone else to run, but I just try to find a hiding spot.

11/16/12- Failed non lucid sex in 2 different dreams.

11/17/12- Assumptions
I was hanging around a 12 year old girl playing games but people around me start assuming I am doing bad things to her. I try to defend myself, but nobody seems to want to listen to me.

11/17/12- Mocking
My brother laughs at my failures while I play a video game. It appeared to be a racing game, but I got myself into quite the car crash. I was unable to recover.

11/17/12- Calvin and Hobbes cancelled??
I know this cartoon strip is long gone, but this was the center of the dream. I hear news on tv that the famous cartoon strip got cancelled by the author, and I take the news badly. The guy who made it happened to live on my street, so I talked to him about how his comic has touched so many people and a lot of people love his work. I convince him not to stop making it, and he makes a television broadcast explaining that someone on his street showed him just how much people love his work, and that he was just so touched. He said that he swears he will never make the comic again, no matter who wants him to.

4 years later and I am not 100% certain this is the same dream. The world is in a mass panic: Fires, chaos, people turned evil, anarchy. One of the worst of the worst people was crucifying people in a mall parking lot. I know the guy as a Christian from a few years back in the dream. I end up getting caught and put on the cross. I start reasoning with the guy and eventually he allows me to leave. His friends tried to stone me but he stopped them just in time. He distracts them as I make my way out of there. I see some more of his followers and they start acting like I'm their friend. They decide to try to help me, but I am cautious. The dream continued on to a fight with some monsters in a huge castle but I have forgotten the details of that part unfortunately.

11/25/12- Keno
Parents were playing a 4-player variant of keno, I volunteered to play, but they said it wouldn't work with only 3 people.

11/27/12- Choices for homes
My parents make me a deal. I can get either of two homes. They both cost $350/month, and they would belong 100% to me. I just have to decide which house I like better. I was faced with a 2 story fixer upper, or a really nice, small mobile home. I have to literally crawl at some points to get around on the inside of the houses, because for some reason I had a problem with movement and the hallways were narrow. I was considering the small mobile home when my mom yelled at me to choose the larger one. I ended up with the larger home.

11/27/12- Leadership role at church
I am only 17 years old, but I distinctly remember being in a nonexistent part of our church that was located next to where the bathrooms are now. I was leading a high school group, but I never did any work. There were 2-3 other adult helpers, and I just got them to do the work. I then walked out of the room, and saw a teen boy and girl run into a room together and lock the door. Knowing myself, you can probably guess what they were up to. I then went down the hall, and saw many rooms, and people in each one. They looked like sex rooms, like a girl in each one that would do you sexual favors for free. They were there by choice, not by being forced.

12/5/12- Went to camp!
I have had a few of these kinds of dreams. Just out of nowhere, on the day camp starts we decide to go, unprepared, hoping for the best. Apparently I almost missed going to the beach because I had to study for something.

12/7/12- Powers, grandpa dies
I do not remember a whole lot from this dream, but it has impacted me a lot.
I visit my grandparents every Tuesday, and sometimes it just gets boring and irritating, and I suppose I just got kind of sick of it.
In the dream, I was kind of grumpy, and not having that great of a time at my grandparents house, then we just kind of left without really saying goodbye. Next thing I knew my grandfather had died. It really hit me hard, since I left him on bad spirits. The last time I had seen him, and it was like I didn't even care. I didn't want to believe that he could just pass away whenever. Later in the dream I was talking to people about powers and stuff that I had. I remember seeing someone levitate above the ground, and I said I have been able to do that all my life. I breathed in, and I jumped in the air. I soared forward until I ran out of breath. I then fell to the floor. The guy talks to me and tells me that it is all a matter of holding your breath. It has nothing to do with control, powers, etc. Just hold your breath, and jump. It was cool to finally hear an explanation on my flying abilities in my dreams.

12/11/12- Went picking Jalapeno-cherries, got in the way of someone, then started picking broccoli.
12/11/12- Visited the newspaper place I used to work at, someone was parked in back stuffing their van with thick papers.

12/14/12- Secret B&B mansion
This is a dream that spread over a few days, perhaps even weeks. I am assuming I just had a few dreams about it in the same night.
I remember hearing about a mansion with many secrets tucked away inside. I heard someone was plotting something vile and my family just had to know what they were up to.
I went with my parents as they spent time with the owners of this establishment, meanwhile I was getting into some trouble. I remember getting a tour of the place, but most of the time in the beginning was spent in one room. There was a very fancy dining room table in the middle of the room my parents and the owner of the mansion had dinner over. I sat in a corner and played a gambling game involving cards and a magician's hat. I listened in on their conversations and everything sounded right, but there was just something wrong. I looked over my shoulder and saw a door in the next room over open, and there was like a toybox with stuff coming out of it. I stood up, walked over to the door, and was just about to look in, when someone stops me from behind. He tells me I must be 'one of them' to use their stuff. I do not quite understand. The next meeting time comes, and we come to the same room. They flip the table over and it turns into this big royal pool table. It looks really neat, and the four of us start playing, but for some reason they kick me out and I go back to my gambling game. I end up making a few bucks, but my parents leave without me noticing. I look outside the door and see a dresser in front of that curious room. A man comes up behind me and says that I must be part of 'the brotherhood' in order to have a room here. I ask what that entitles. He tells me that the brotherhood is basically a family that helps each other, cares for one another, and does not want to see another harmed. They do their daily chores, but in return get freedom and friendship. I for some reason want to move out of my current house, and see this place as a really cool thing. I ask to join the brotherhood and they give me a room. I see into the room next to mine and inside is a teenage boy with a computer and a bed. He just kind of welcomes me to the brotherhood without leaving his bed. I go to my room practically leaping for joy as I can now have my freedoms.

I can do whatever I want on the computer whenever I want, I can go whenever I please. I have near to no responsibilities. Time-skip a few hours. I am now downstairs. This is a large room, probably about a 30 foot roof. There is a really nice marble counter with dimmed lights. The kitchen is inaccessible to the normal person living there, but the maids and workers and butlers can access freely. I see 3 people standing around, and someone calls out that it is bedtime. One of the girls gives the maid who was in the kitchen a hug and starts bawling because she has to sleep. It isn't that she doesn't want to sleep, it is just that she does not want to be alone. I feel much sorrow as I see this girl crying, just at the thought of not seeing her friends for a few hours. This scene starting from when the time-skip happened replays, and I end up going to bed. The next morning is here, and I am already outside on the porch, with all the other residents beside me. I decide that this is not the place for me, this place is designed to house: the Lonely, the homeless, the orphaned, the broken. I had a home, both parents, and everything else I could need. These people had nothing. I didn't have the right to live there. I saw many teens standing around. They say we can take a walk, play in the yard, etc. We were free to do whatever we wanted. They had just one rule at this point though. Let the ladies go out first. If a lady leaves, then we must wait 5 minutes before we can leave. So a few women leave, then it goes for 3-4 minutes with nobody leaving the building. Just as it is about to hit 5 minutes, another girl walks out. I start talking amongst the guys about how this one girl Cheyenne looks cute. I stare at her from across the huge yard. I start thinking about her, then the dream soon ends.

12/16/12- Celebs are in town!
This all took place in what felt like an abandoned mobile home park. I remembered spending time with some celebrities, which if I remember right were Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, and Miley Cyrus. I felt as if it was just last week I had so much fun with these three, just hanging out, being friends. They promise they'd return one day and they finally do. I see them and we meet up and sneak into this abandoned mobile home. Inside is the motherload. Alcohol and drugs of many kinds. It was a loser's paradise. The place just looked like a wreck. There was nobody else inside, so we just kinda enjoyed our stay. We all did drugs and drunk a bit but I was not really too much in favor of it. The dream ended up with sexy time with one of the celebrities.

12/21/12- Bible study strangeness
I do not remember much. I just remember this huge lion thing. It seemed like it was a dude in a costume or something, and it licks the back of my neck. Our group has dinner, and then this thing transforms into this huge worm, eats the leader of the study, then shows himself to be a demon king.

12/22/12- Lucid- "Hey DC How do you know me?"
I realized I was dreaming at the beginning of the dream. I asked myself what I should do and the first thing to come to mind is ask all the people around me how they met me, or how I knew them. I was in a restaurant and saw some people I recognized, but many I didn't know. I came up to Mario and asked him about our first meeting each other and he said it was a Christmas service at our church. I talked with another older couple and they said they didn't know me. I talked with another person who went in depth on how they knew me. Successful experiment.

12/22/12- Lucid- Sneaking into my neighbor's house...
Okay, I was a little pervy on this one. I was at my house and had the bright idea to meet up with my neighbor across the way. I sneak across the street and behind her house. I go into the window and in her room. She is barely dressed. I start talking to her and she doesn't seem to find this strange. The house seems kind of nice and they seemed pretty well-off. I give her a hug just because it was nice to see her, and she kinda gives me a strange look. I wonder what is wrong and she tells me she probably would have given me a hug willingly had I asked. So I then asked and she gave me another hug. I thought I heard one of her parents coming closer and I panicked causing the dream to end.

12/26/12- I'm sharing the details of a movie I recently watched with some children from AWANA

12/26/12-At a restaurant with family. Someone comes up and starts complaining about their incorrect Figis order. (My parents used to work at Figis)

12/28/12- Thrift store
Me and my family walk up to a thrift store. I forget why we came, but I ended up talking to the guy who owned the place for a while. There was some cool stuff there. He had his kid with him. After a while, my family started to help move stuff out as people bought items. We basically did volunteer work for the guy so the customers wouldn't have to carry their heavy items. After a few hours, I walked outside with my brother and then a woman asked me for money. She spoke as if I promised her money but I didn't have any myself. I walk past her, and end up going into a big wal-mart that had a fun-zone. After a long walk into the arcade room I saw about 3 kids inside, and a bunch of games. Kris started playing a game, as I just watched.

12/29/12- Deathmatch game
This whole dream takes place in a big building. It felt kind of like a warehouse. There was two floors, but the second didn't have a full roof, it was more of a platform. The building had bathrooms, and shelves that lined the walls. As I walked into the bathroom, someone stops me and notices me from making Epic Rap Battle videos. I say it is nice that he knows who I am, but to not tell everybody, and I go about my business. I tell my brother about this, and we agree that we have probably made more Epic Rap Battle fan videos than the original guys. The rest of the dream is all about a game of deathmatch with non-deadly weapons. Think laser tag or nerf fights. There was about 8-12 of us running around with various weapons: Rifle, pistol, knife, saber, swords, sniper rifle, and more. There were two rounds. I remember two specific events: One, between rounds I saw this extendable saber (Kind of like a light saber, but solid and not a laser) for $0.99, so I pocket it. The other event is I had a rifle and shot someone 2-3 times in the head but they weren't eliminated. In this game you get shot and even though it doesn't damage you, if you sustain what would be a lot of damage, you fall over and act dead. The guy didn't want to play correctly so I ran the other direction and he shot me twice in the back. I fell over dead because I actually cared about the rules.

The next 4 are verbatim from a physical DJ.
12/30/12- Future children
Dream about children. My mom took care of our kids with us. I was grumpy and asked for advice with the one child I had, whereas Kris (My brother) was creative and fun. I looked back on my parenting skills and thought that I was not a very good parent, but my mom said I was doing just fine. There is some strange scene about a wall coming apart, and Kris fitting it over the room in a creative and awesome way.

12/30/12- Nightmare, Harry Potter dream

My first nightmare in months, before that, years. Harry and Voldemort are fighting, doing the whole Expelliarmus vs. Avada Kedavra thing. Harry wins, then the dream repeats. Somehow something in the story shifts, and Draco is going against Voldemort. Harry is following behind, but he seems different, weaker, not as confident. Voldemort easily kills off Draco, then goes to Harry. He uses a simple Avada Kedavra on him and kills him. Then Voldemort sees me. He shoots the curse on me, and I die. I roll over in the snow, and am alive again somehow.He kills me again, and it hit me bad this time. I open my eyes to see him right above me, staring right into my eyes. He is wearing a black hood, all skeleton. His eyes are the most horrible shade of red. He is a black skeleton. His appearance is loosely based off of this I believe. He Avada Kedavra's me again, and I roll over in the snow. He hits me again, then again. I try rolling in the snow, but he hits me twice in the back, right where my heart is, and kills me instantly.

12/30/12- FA/ paper route

Suddenly I find myself doing paper routes near my old house in Marshfield Wisconsin. It is just me and my dad in the car, and I start to talk to him about my nightmare, and how scary Voldemort was when he appeared right over me. As we turn into a cul-de-sac, I see this huge transformer looking thing coming down the road. We continue doing papers, and it comes up behind us. I miss a tube, and have to go out and put it back in. Turns out the driver is friendly, and that transformer thing was just a decorated bobcat tractor. We talk for a few minutes and the dream ends.

12/30/12- Random discussions at starbucks.

So the whole reason I can see myself as being here is to wait for my mom to pick me up. As I am drinking a slushie, I am talking about some dude's performance that I just watched. I ask someone nearby if the guy is new or something, and they reply that he isn't, he just sucks. I tell them that I have been practicing with my yo-yo for about 3 years without much progress. Then someone, Gracen I think, starts leading the conversation with provoking questions and comments. I respond to one of his questions and he notes my response as being a good one. The others tell me to keep quiet so I don't give too much information about myself and to keep making statements such as the one I just made. I saw Jessie with a Bible, and a book inside about understanding girls. She explains that it is just as difficult to understand girls for her as it is for guys. I explain that I understand girls a lot more now than I used to. When the dream ends there is a conversation going on about how bad smoking is. I share that my mom smokes and that she puts small amounts of baileys in her coffee every day. Just as I bring this up my mom comes in and I have to go.
I suppose this dream was about the future as well, because it doesn't correlate well with the way my life is now.

12/31/12- Various fragments
1. Something about like an evil neighbor, had some invincible minions
2. Was supposed to do some dance in front of a bunch of people
3. (Same dream as previous, different scene) Some game about stopping kids/dogs from touching chairs
4. Was promoted from 1st to 2nd grade in a school that felt like it was in a mall.
5. Some girl sits down on a beach while she strips

That was a lot of writing... I Hope I keep the dream journal up to date from now on.