non-lucid

Enjoyed a lot of alcohol the evening before, so no recall for the first several hours. Then I had some REM rebound and recalled these short dreams. In bed for a total of 12 hours.

Chelsea Clinton Playing Lacrosse
0527: C. I have to write a report on Chelsea Clinton. I am looking at the wikipedia page, but I am upset because someone deliberately removed all the images. Later I realize that it's just a written essay and I don't need images. Then I'm watching a women's lacrosse game on TV and Chelsea is the star of one of the teams. Her team is up 7-2 and she gets taken out to rest. The other team scores two quick goals to make in 7-4. I think I'm watching with my father.

GTA in SAV, Hangover
0630: D. I'm stealing cars and escaping cops in SAV, like Grand Theft Auto. Not much recall.

False awakening that I totally missed. I'm in my own bedroom and I'm still drunk (day residue). Everything is really weird, but I account for it as drunk stuff I did last night. I'm under the bed comforter but not under the sheets. I get up. I'm wearing a heavy jacket and a pair of swim trunks. My bedroom door is wide open. The water in the bathtub is running. I walk into my closet to change. I see something in the corner of my eye to my right. I think maybe it's my own reflection in a mirror. I move, but it doesn't which freaks me out. Turns out to be Dave who was hiding in my closet.

Comedy Show, Wrong Page
0808: D. I'm at a Dane Cook show in New York. In the first part, he's in front of a small crowd. Then as part of the big opening, this small section of seats separates and moves down into a large theater. Dane Cook continues with his act but it's like a classroom and everyone is following along with books and notes. I don't know what page we're supposed to be on and I panic. There's a girl sitting to my left and one in front of me. I guess we are in a group. They are upset with me and trying to get me to the right page. As I flip through the book, it becomes my dream journal. This happens a few times. Now Dane wants someone to read aloud from the book. We are at the far right of the theater and there is a microphone nearby. The girl to my left is supposed to read but she has lost the page too. I am embarrassed.

Touch Football, Libido
0921 D. I'm with a group of people. I sense they are friends but I don't recognize anyone in particular. We are in a convenience store, goofing off. Running through the aisles and knocking things off the shelves. The employees are upset. Then we divide into two teams to play football (day residue) in the middle of the store. I'm on a team of another guy and a girl. The other team is 4 guys. I don't think that's fair.

We have the ball first. Me and the other guy on my team alternate as quarterback. We basically ignore the girl and just pass to each other. The first time I catch the ball, I turn and see the other team running toward me. I think, wait, we said touch football, right? Not tackle, I hope? It's touch football and no one gets hurt. My team is successfully driving down the "field". The endzone is the freezers at the end of the store. I get the ball, run to the freezers, open the door, and place the ball inside among the frozen pizzas and ice cream. We win!

At some point I become lucid. I'm still in the convenience store but no longer in the group of friends. I have no control and the dream is not very vivid. I just know that I'm dreaming and there's no consequences for whatever I do. So my libido takes the lead. Naturally, I look around for the nearest woman and tear her clothes off. She looks to be in her thirties but I'm not bothered. Her underwear turns out to be some rather scandalous light purple lingerie. I move in and kiss her but this narrows my field of vision. I close my eyes and the dream fades away.

Lucid Supermarket, Libido
1021: C. I'm in my car, driving at night. I'm hungry and stop at a supermarket to get something to eat. The supermarket claims to specialize in lucid dreaming. I think at one point the store is called Lucida Monica Market. Then later it is La Lucida Market. But it's in Culver City (day residue), not Santa Monica. Inside it looks like a typical supermarket. I search up and down the aisles for something to eat but nothing seems appetizing. There are quite a few DCs browsing the aisles and also way too many DCs behind the counters working. It seems like they are all staring at me, waiting for me to ask for help. I feel a bit paranoid and shy.

Then I come to the aisle that is supposedly for lucid dreaming. The signs above mark the sections with various lucid dreaming topics. The one I remember is "Expectations". But the items in this section are just a bunch of mirrors, knick-knacks, and craft supplies. I struggle to see exactly how this is relevant to lucid dreaming.

Once again, I'm bored and my mind turns to sex but I'm not lucid as in the previous dream. I scan around me for the nearest woman. Like the food, nothing seems particular appetizing, so I continue to wander for a woman. Before long, the dream fades.

Had a couple of non-vivid lucids and one kinda vivid one last night. I was going to wild, but i was too tired. Anyway, heres what i remember.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-6.5

I'm in the mountains. Its snowing lightly, and the ground is already covered in snow. I'm doing some tricks for a cameraman on a skateboard. My dad is also there. After a few seconds of photos, the ground starts to break up into x's. Like an x would appear and the snow would reform over it. It happened for a while and i didn't care too much, until it started to melt the mountain. People were being dragged down the mountain, and pieces of ice were cracking apart and falling into oblivion.

I start to run up the hill to get away from the parts that are melting, but i end up being dragged down. I gain control of myself on the way down and am able to jump over certain areas that are being destroyed. I see people falling into them going into oblivion. My dad says to jump over them at the right time. I then miss the next one and fall into it. I try to get moving back to the top, but the top seals itself and snow falls in on me. I accept my fate, and make peace with it. I can't breathe for a second, and am expecting to die. Then a screen comes up infront of me that has an infinite marker. I press it.

I wake up in a tool shop looking place. Not a professional one, but more like a hobby shop. I hear a lawnmower outside. I walk around some looking at shelves. On them are dead bugs. For some reason the thought comes to mind that my dad was trying to resurrect me by testing out how on animals. I hear the mower again and am happy that he revived me from the dead. Makes me feel like he loved me alot. The dream ends, and i'm happy.
This dream was at like 10:00 am after i kept waking up and going to sleep. That happens a-lot to me.

rest of dreams

In a fight with an old friend.

My mom killing people to go to a place sponsored by mcdonalds.

So i have failed to post a longer dream in between my last posts and this one. but i am without my DJ book atm so im using this for it's purpose right now.

its kinda a jumbled mess because i woke up and typed it into my memos on my shitty phone.

the first thing i remembered was :

i was in this big dark room with tables around and there were a few people around, but i only took notice to one DC. he was about 17 maybe, and had short blond hair and dark eyes and was really pale(now that i think about it, looked like ninja). he wasnt wearing a shirt, and he was running around in the dark, sneaking up on me and giggling. it was creepy, but apparently i liked it. i took a moment to sit on one of the tables a little further away from everyone else and "touch myself". That didnt last long or finalize its self, so i tried to chase the boy down, to see if i could ask him what he was doing. Then i noticed a room with light so i went into it. I was determined to find a mug, i think i wanted tea... but when i found the mug i heard a familiar voice. It was my first fashion teacher from highschool, so i went to go talk to her. I dont remember the conversation but my friend from college was there all of a sudden and my highschool teacher was talking to my friend like they were remembering times together. It was nice, then i woke up without waking totally from the dream.

I was now in a mall with my mom and aunt and uncle, but they were teenagers.. and i was trying to convince my uncle that he was to fall in love with my aunt, not my mom. That was odd, i woke up, and fell back asleep to another dream.

I was running through the streets, with a crowd in a big city, probably toronto, and i could sense a panic in everyone else. the more we ran the more people showed up and the more anxiety bubbled up. so i branched off and ran to the top of a building, i dont remember being inside it, but when i got to the roof i could see what everyone was panicking about. there was a giant boy, with dark hair and annggerr, as tall as the sky scrapers and he was only 4 buildings over. so i spotted this huge intricate structure that i knew i had to climb to be safe. out of no where i had a guide DC who i knew irl in grade 7(almost 8 years ago) who helped me climb. when i got high up through the twisted bars i saw a platform and i saw my mom.. i yelled at her not to follow me, that i'd be fine and she should go back down. (forgetting that where i was heading was safety, and that means i just sent her back into danger) so i turned a corner on the platform and found a big water slide. there were three slide tunnel options and i was scared. i jumped into the left one and screamed for dear life all the way down. i can vividly remember going through the tube flipping on my stomach and back, it hurt and i was soo afraid. i landed at the bottom with an odd feeling of calm.

i found myself walking through grass near some houses, and i found the boy again from the dark room. he was standing still and silent, with his eyes shut. i walked up and gave him a kiss. waited for his reaction, and kissed him again when he looked at me.

i woke up, had another pointless dream but after recalling this, i couldnt remember the last short one.

Awake, Non-lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm in Florida, driving my little car to a neighborhood where there's a shopping center I want to go to, only to discover that it's been torn out, leaving empty lots and abandoned buildings. Some thoughtful people have already come to the area and put up posters encouraging others not to allow the area to become a “trash park.” The posters feature the URL to the website for this campaign, which is dontgointolimbo.com. [LOL! I'm not sure whether this is more amusing or disturbing.] I park my car next to a curb and get out. There are two women standing in the street, talking about what happened. I look at my phone and see that it's 6:40 P.M. That means I still have 20 minutes, so I decide to just walk over to the store I'd been intending to go to. [ARGH. I've been practicing checking my phone twice every time I want to know the time, but it's a relatively new habit, so I guess it isn't ingrained deeply enough in my subconscious yet.]

My mom comes into my room to wake me up. She tells me that P. [my younger sister] has gotten sentimental and has invited us all to come and meet her for a day at the beach in some town with a funny name, so I should pack and get ready for one. I think, Okay, I can miss church this once. The other St. Francis anthem isn't that hard. [My third night with that little cardboard-square bracelet brought about another completely convincing false awakening – this one even more convincing than the last, because this time, my awareness within the dream of what day of the week it was and what song I would be missing out on if I missed church matched up with reality exactly.]

Woke up for real. Thought to myself, Oh. I guess I'm going to church after all. I wasn't angry about the FA at all this time; I just took it in stride. Took some notes, then went back to bed. The next dream I had followed on directly from the previous one.

I'm driving in the car with my family, through a city. I look up from something I'm using to occupy myself (book or magazine, maybe) and ask, “Where in Gonk's name are we?” My mom answers with the same funny town name she mentioned before. It's nighttime, and we drive through a residential neighborhood on a cliff overlooking the ocean. We pass a succession of three street signs that read “Ruruoni,” “B-Ruruoni,” and “C-Ruruoni.” There's one big apartment house with a bunch of letter-shaped mylar helium balloons on the roof, spelling out “SOS SHOTS” [as in, the alcoholic kind]. There is a wild party with lots of alcohol going on there. P. wants to go to the party and spend the night in that building, but our parents won't let her, so we're having a family fight.

We're on the top floor of some kind of big, public building with lots of glass walls and a long staircase going down into the rest of the building. P. says to all of us, “Meet you at the bottom,” and starts going down the stairs.

[What's the deal? It's like my subconscious went, “Here, have a big family fight – it's been a while since you've had one in reality.” That kind of sucks. :-( ]

I woke up with the feeling I wasn't supposed to remember this...
well I did, so tough luck.

(All of this happened so quickly I'm not 100% sure if it's in the right order...)

There was a man in front of me in business attire, I wanted to say the word, "Templar" when I saw him, I'm not sure if I did or not though. He asked me what the password was, I told him I didn't know what he was talking about.

I noticed the presence of someone behind me, a seemingly friendly presence that made me think "Ally" I also noticed the area around me was Grey and full of fog, kind of like the animus from Assassins creed without all of the floating symbols.

The guy that made me want to say Templar mentally assaulted me (for not telling him my password?), I don't remember what it felt like as of waking up, but whatever it was, it made me clutch my head and double over.

-Happened at roughly the same time as above-

I am looking at my yahoo mail login, the fields are blank, and I can't remember my password, or what I changed it to.

Hi. I am new to this site. This is my first dream post here.

I was on the phone with either my mother or my aunt. My mom/aunt told me that my grandmother had died.

I felt bad that I hadn't been able to get back home to see my grandmother before she died. But it had happened so quickly, as such a surprise.

My mom/aunt told me that my grandmother had said something very nice about me before she died. I felt awful, thinking that I hadn't done enough to show my love for someone who loved me so much.

I may have started crying a lot.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Mmmbop. I had a few dreams last night after some heavy duty drinking. I recalled all three of them as soon as I woke up, which was cool. If I would have slept for an hour or two more, I would probably have had a few more. Still better than nothing!

11.00: Huge bathroom
I'm at my friend G's parents house. We enter their huge bathroom and it's awesome! The walls are covered in brownish tiles and there are like eight showers and a sauna. I admire the thing and talk to his mom for a while. I notice a bag of shrimp on a bench in the middle of the whole thing and I pick it up. I remember it being mine which I left there two days ago. They still look fresh but they're redder than they should've been.

11.00: Drugs class
I'm with Monica and we enter a classroom. We don't belong there but decide to see how long we can stay without getting caught. We each take a seat at a bench and look at the paper infront of us. I can see it's about drugs and different kinds of medicines. "Holy shit this is hard... I'll fail this test right away" I think and I look around. Monica doesn't look very happy either and a teacher enter the classroom. He doesn't notice us and he starts talking about drugs.

11.00: Fragment
*I'm talking to someone about how long it takes to take the bus all the way to my hometown. It will take like 1½ hours.

Amount of sleep: 7 hours

Food before bed: Beer

That's it. I'm thinking of experimenting with my sleeping cycles. Waking up after 4½ hours of sleep, then 6, 7½, 9 and 10½. And even then perhaps incubate a desert after each waking?

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

10.10.2010

Kissing and bombing... (Non-lucid)
10/10/10 (hehe)
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

First Dream:
I am in the center of Athens. I am with a guy and a girl. Suddenly we see on a tv, that this guy is a child-raper... So we run into a cafe and there are many children, who obviously know about him and start screaming! We panic and run ouside again. So we are trying to find a safe place. The roads are full of cops. The cops are short and fat police-women... We are scared of them though. :p So we sit in a quiet road. The dream changes. The guy and the girl change with two friends of mine. A. and J.! The place changes too. We are in a bar or maybe a party in a house, i don't know. We are sitting with two girls we don't know and chat, maybe flirt a little. I remember their names. It was Vassiliki or Angeliki and Thalia. So i am chatting with Ang. and J. is chatting with T. I don't remember what A. was doing. Anyway, at some point i see J. kissing Ang. and they leave towards a room (wonder why..??). I sit there with T. We stopped talking. Suddenly we look at each other, and we both lean (pretty fast) towards each other to kiss... But we miss... xD hahahaha Then i said: "Ok, aim my mouth" and I laughed. She laughed kinda shy. In the end i just grabbed her head cause she just couldn't do it... We kissed for a while, then i woke up.

Second Dream:
I am in my car (dream sign, i didn't notice) driving pretty fast, considering the road i am in. Suddenly i see a sign in the middle of the road. I avoid hitting it and try to remember what that sign means. Then i see an electricity pillar standing in the middle of the road. The is no way avoiding that. So i hit the break, and pull the hand break (really smart -.-). The car turns 90 degrees and stopps in front of the pillar. There are many cars that do the same thing and many others that crash on cars behind me. Next thing i remember, we are (the drivers) in a room with policemen. They say we shouldn't pass that sign. One of them asks me if i had drank any alcohol. I say: "Just a beer". (Yesterday I drank two vodkas and a beer. I remembered that in the dream, but i chose to say only about the beer! ) The cop says : "Yeah, we 'll see...". :p After a while i suddenly see nazi soldiers outside the building fighting with cops, shooting, breaking things and there is panic. I grab my ID, keys, cellphone and run outside. I try to find my car. I press the button to unlock the car, so i can hear where it is. I find it, get in and leave fast! Next thing i remember is being in the center of the city and hearing that a nuke bomb by nazis will hit the city. I start running around in panic. And BOOM. I wake up (second false awakening) hearing that i lost my right eye and right leg. I open my eyes. (My right eye felt like it was stuck exactly like it felt in my first lucid. You can read about it in my DJ.) I am really worried and think: "I really hope this is a dream". I am so worried that i don't care for a reality check. I just open my eyes and wake up. With a huge feeling of relief that i could still see, i sleep again.

I saw another dream, where i was in a fast-food restaurant. They made some really strange type of burgers, but i don't remember very well.

Hello I finally manage it to get back my dreams after 3 days. They are just fragments but it's better than nothing.

1. I'm in some dark house, there is an exorcist and an other DC. I have some kind of a mission i don't remember. The exorcist is reading something in latin, I have to repeat it and the DC explains me before each sentence what they mean. By repeating his sentences, I feel some kind of really evil power, I felt really uncomfortable. There remains one sentence to say, but the exorcist and the DC stop. They are terrified by that what they were reading. The exorcist says: "To stop him, you have to go down to hell for at least 3 months!" But I don't care and say: "Let's do this!"

I wanted to add that I'm atheist and don't believe in those concepts of hell and so on. I really missed an opportunity to become lucid

2. I go to university and I have a long (4m), metallic bar, which is at the same time a saw. I have it to cut my apple when their is the next break. I lay it under the seats. Next to me is seat with a sign, that this seat is only for disabled person. A not-disabled person sits down. The teacher is angry about that and he has to leave. In the meantime, the teacher holds an audition about different disease, which affect the nervous systems.

(I only remember fragments)

In a supermarket with a boy with curly red hair.
Putting up posters of him.
Him being very happy.
Something happened to him, he died or left or something.

I wake up in the morning, not remembering much, So I decide to lay still and try to give myself sleep paralysis or something.. eventualy everything goes silent I wake up.. but do it again... and again.. and eventually a picture comes into play... I see, Im lying down in my bathtub.. looking to the left of me, The dream is a bit grey, and a tiny bit blurry, But I see the tub is filling with water... RAPIDLY. I tell myself "Screw this, I dont want to have another drowning nightmare." I shake myself rapidly to remove the numbness from my body BTW THIS was the most advanced Sleep paralysis I had... all other times I didnt even have a dream. And after about 3 seconds of struggling I wake up... I try to sleep again but I figure oh well...

I really need to stop being lazy and start posting my dreams here again, I had a dry, no-dream spell and I got lazy. Anyway!

I was laying in my bed, I was really hot, but I was too tired to do anything about it. I looked over to my closet, It was a projection screen television about the size of two and a half doors. On the screen there was a picture of a bird of prey soaring in the sky, the picture had some static fuzzing around, but not too badly I got up and grabbed the remote that I somehow knew was right next to me and flipped the channel a few times. Same thing on every channel. I pressed the guide button, there was one channel that didn't have the bird of prey, G4. it was reviewing some romance/drama Japanese anime game/movie, I wasn't interested. I flipped through a few more channels and realized that I was missing a large portion of the list, not that I ever watch most of it, I thought about how it was pointless to have so many channels and not watch any of them, but the thought passed.

there was more, I think the rest had something to do with the corner of my bed, but when I try to recall it, all I can think about is a fuzzy memory about a doll head, but it doesn't feel right, I'm probably thinking about it too hard and my mind is making things up.

This is a dream that is important to me because it reminds me of how much of a jerk I was and maybe still am and how much remorse and regret I feel for past mistakes.

I was my old school playing field. It was different; there was a large gate where there was not one before. I was walking through the gate and B was there. I was eager to talk to her but she strangled me with a bicycle chain. It was cutting in to my neck slightly.

B is a girl I used to be friends with and had a massive crush on. I haven’t seen her in years and we parted on bad terms because I was a complete asshole. Anyway...

I was then sitting at a large table, still sore from the chain. My neck was red and bleeding slightly. I was really upset but I still wanted to go and find B and apologise to her for what happened in the past. Also at the table were some old school friends. I looked around and saw that we were in a big hall and that there were lots of tables with people sitting around them. It was loud; people were chatting and joking around with each other.

I noticed that I recognised pretty much everyone in the room. There were people that I knew well and people that I barely knew. It was sort of like everyone I had ever met was in one big room for some kind of event.

I mentioned to my friends that I wanted to go and find B. For some reason they didn’t want to let me go. They dared me to make out with a girl sitting at a table nearby us. I recognised her, but she was someone I barely even knew. She was pretty ugly and I had no desire to make out with her, but I got the feeling that it was the only way my friends were going to let me go off and find B which I really felt I needed to do. They called the girl over and she came and sat on my lap. We made out but she was a bad kisser, although for some reason I had a hard-on.

Finally I was free to look for B. The next thing I knew I was sitting at a table across from her. She was wearing a black suit jacket and a red low cut top. She was just staring at me sternly. I felt really bad about what I had done in the past and felt so desperate for her to forgive me. I was struggling to explain to her how sorry I was about everything. She just kept staring at me. I continued to apologise but she didn’t react.

From 10/6
Dream 1: Flea Market/Operatic Theme Park
(I am using first names of my friends because there are so many people in this dream that it would be really confusing)
I was at some sort of mixture between a flea market and a corn field in an abandoned empty lot. I was sitting in one of the rows waiting for the guests of an unknown friend's party to arrive. It was about noon. The first people there with me were my friends Madison, Evan, and this girl I met twice Bella. There was also some other girl who was friends with Bella that doesn't really exist. Then my friend Adam walked up and everyone jumped up and started rubbing his hair because he got a new haircut. Bella and I got really annoyed with waiting so we went back to her house. It looked more like a purple hotel room. The made up girl was also with us. We were talking for a while when both of them said, "It's time you went to the bathroom and took your hair down for the party" (my hair had been in a bun). I went to the bathroom and took my hair down and it wasn't at all poofy like it usually is when it has been up for a while. I went back into the purple room and they asked where the party was going to actually occur. I looked at my phone and I had texts from my friends Hannah and Helen. They were both telling me that the birthday girl wanted to eat at this really gross and tiny hamburger place right near our school. I told Bella and the other girl that I refused to eat there. I texted Hannah and Helen back saying that I was going to find a good sushi restaurant near school so we could eat there instead. I left the hotel and started walking. I walked past our school and somehow ended up on a different street that runs in the same direction on the other side of town, even though I didn't ever turn. I looked ahead and I saw this big arch/bridge over the street. I walked through and I was at a zoo. My friend Anna was looking at the penguins. I continued walking and there was a giant rollercoaster going over me. My friend Daisy was also standing under the rollercoaster, but she was filming in my direction with a video camera. I started skipping towards her. Daisy's best friend Willa was hiding behind Daisy and started singing a high opera note.

Dream 2: Dessert Research Lab
I was some sort of waitress at this restaurant. All of the walls were covered in window, and it was in some sort of big city. Everything on the inside of the restaurant was white, and there were flowers everywhere. I walked up to one table full of elderly people. I was trying to show my boss something. I then announced, "Donuts for old people!" They were eating these weird donuts on sticks.

10/7
I have three fragments. I remembered a lot more detail but the second I got up to write them down I barely remembered them.
Dream 1: Scandal
I was at some sort of villa and this boy Jacob wanted pictures from Japan. I was offering him pictures from my trip but he really didn't want them. He kept saying that he needed some kind of scandal.
Dream 2: Dr. Liar
Someone was pretending to be a doctor, I'm not exactly sure what else happened.
Dream 3: Twin Liars
My friend and her twin brother were both lying to me about something, I don't remember what.

Today
Dream 1: Slightly surreal
I was at school but I didn't have class. It was last period and my friend Anna was in dance class and she was supposed to take me to a party after school. I was getting really impatient so I decided to take her car and drive myself to the party early. Not only was it weird because I was just taking her car, but I have never driven in my life (and I hadn't in the dream either). When I got to the party Anna was there. We decided we would go to a park in the woods that Anna said she loved to go to when she was little. It was in the woods. We were standing in a dry riverbed. There was a slide into the riverbed and then a slide down the hill (the hollywood hills) into the San Fernando Valley. We went up to the double sided slide and one of the people at the party decided to slide into the river. I started telling them not to because we had just been standing at the base of the slide and there was no water so they'd crash into the ground. They went down the slide and landed in a pool of water. The rest of the party decided to take the slide into the valley.

I'm having some marathon REM cycles lately. Today, no supplements or unusual food but I drank some caffeine late in the day that kept me up late.

Ectoplasm Game
1038: D. I have the vague sense that this was really long, but my recall isn't great. I'm in a house with my mother and sister. But the house is unfamiliar. We are talking in the kitchen. The sink is full of dirty dishes. My sister is leaving tomorrow? Water is important for some reason.

Then I sit in the living room and play a video game. It's like Prince of Persia where I'm running and jumping along walls. The character looks more like Aladdin though. Sometimes it seems I am playing the game, other times I am in the game. I am leading around a princess, trying to escape a castle. All around, there is bluish gooey substances called ectoplasm. If you touch the ectoplasm, you'll become a ghost. I think it's blue because it's absorbed all the water. So as we are escaping, we also have to reverse the magic and save all the water.

But it's an inevitable part of the game that the main character will become a ghost. So there's one scene where I jump and can't avoid the ectoplasm. When I do, a retail box of the video game opens and there are souvenir water jugs inside.

fragment
I no longer have my Civic and instead drive a pickup truck.