Dream - Lucid I had woken up for a little while and I was having trouble going back to sleep. I decided to try to meditate to see if that would help. I cleansed my chakras and did some affirmations, and it worked! Not only did it work, but I felt myself enter a dream. I was lucid immediately, and it felt quite stable. I was in my room at my parents' house. It was set up the way I had it when I was in middle school/part of high school. It was dark and nighttime out. Of course, the first thing I did was call to Mike, but I got no response. Oh well. Onto other things. I decided to try to make some portals. I hadn't done that in a very, very long time. The first portal I made was to erm...a sex world where I was the only female. I figured since this was my dream, I could go wherever I wanted, even if it was just for pleasure. Anyway, I drew the outline, and it was the oily rainbow color that it usually is, and jumped into it. Details will be spared, but it was an interesting experience. I woke up for one part of it, but I DEILD'd back into it. When I went back into the dream and other things happened, I woke up and again had to DEILD. Upon the second DEILD, I found myself again in my dark childhood bedroom. I drew another portal and entered it. I intended to go to an astral world. When I got there, it was outdoors and sunny out. It had some nature around, so it wasn't like a city. I decided to try to change my outfit. There was, conveniently enough, a full-length mirror in front of me. I stepped away from it for a second, and imagined myself in a long, strapless, ballroom-type red dress. I stepped back in front of the mirror, and the dress looked nothing like I imagined, being a short, tight red dress -_-. I then tried again, and this time, it was a skimpy, see-through black lingerie type outfit. Nope. I kept doing it and getting different red and black dresses. I finally settled on a black one, I believe, though again, it didn't look like the one I imagined. At some point, I woke up and DEILD'd again. I was back in the dark bedroom. This time, I decided to try to get to Teraluna, since it had been awhile since I'd tried. I drew my portal, and was going to write "Teraluna" in the center, but I decided to just fill it in instead. I jumped in, and was then inside of another dark room. Hyu was asleep on a bed there. I figured he must be sleeping IWL. I approached him. "Hyu?" He opened his eyes. "Krista?" he said. He seemed surprised to see me. "It's been so long since we've talked," I said to him. I don't remember his response. I do believe there was more conversation here, though, of course, I can't recall it. -_-' We were then somewhere else, another world. I didn't see Hyu, but I was with a tall, thin person in a green shirt with a bob haircut. I thought maybe it was Hyu, but it was a woman...I saw that she had boobs. I was kind of confused, because it still seemed to be Hyu; I felt that it was, though the looks were deceiving. He told me it was him, and that he had just changed his form. Ahhh. Makes sense now. I do not remember all the details of every place that we went, but we traveled around via portal quite a bit. There would be times when I woke and DEILD'd, and I'd end up back in the dream with Hyu where we left off. I also know that he changed his form a few times, once appearing as the tall skinny Asian guy that he first appeared to me as. There were also points where I would do a finger count RC, but it would always fail; I would always count 5 fingers on each hand. Interesting. Finally, I woke, and decided to end the DEILD chain. I was a little disoriented at first, thinking that I was still in my room at my parents' place. I turned over and went to sleep, entering a non-lucid dream. ~ Dallas and I were going to have a wedding ceremony. We were already married, but we had to have the formal ceremony. It was to be at a church. I pictured us walking in from outside with many other people, me in my dress and Dallas in his tux. It was a sunny day. I was picturing it in 3rd person. Scene skip, though the wedding thing still applies. I was eating at a restaurant with a couple that looked to be in their mid-thirties. They also looked kind of country, and quite skinny. I remember the man had a country accent. There was someone else with us, but I can't recall who. The guy got up to go to the bathroom or something, and I saw on his plate three hot dog buns. They were not separated, but still whole without the slit down the middle being all the way through. I started to separate them for him. One of them looked very lopsided, and I was trying to fix it. He came back, and got onto me about trying to help him to separate his buns (lol separate his buns). He said it was rude. I apologized. I had only been trying to help. Then, I got up to go do something. When I returned, no one was at the table; it's like everyone had gotten up to go, and no one was watching the table. There was a bill on the table, plus an extra fee of $4 for leaving without paying. Ugh, frustrating. We hadn't intended that to happen. ~ I was watching some weird version of the movie "Hook", where Hook is redeemed and finds his place in the human world. Towards the end of the movie, someone says "run home Jack", like they do in the actual movie, but it jars something inside of Hook, and he remembers that his name is actually Jack, and he gets overjoyed as he remembers his true identity, and somehow gets to the human world, though I can't remember how. I then remember seeing a commercial in the movie of an older version of him being topless with only underwear on. He was very fat with boobs, and trying to cover up his nipples as he jumped around with other people on the TV screen. I don't know what he was advertising, but he failed to cover up his very large nipples at one point. Pretty sure it wasn't an accident. Something about breast milk. I saw some coming out of his nipples. He was talking about "alternative milk". I thought about how that wasn't possible unless you were lactating after pregnancy. I couldn't believe they put that in the movie. ~ I was "recalling" my dream adventure with Hyu, trying to put the details together. I don't remember Hyu being there at all. All the worlds were somehow linked within a story line that was chained together through children's nursery rhymes and such. I remember being in a city at one point, and my brother being there at another point. He was talking on the phone. I remember at one point being in a bathroom and pooping...a lot. I think these false memories made it harder for me to recall more details of my lucid adventures. Ugh. Dumb. ~ So more lucidity, and a visit with Hyu! Meditation really seems to help, and of course intention. I've also noticed over the years that I tend to LD more when I am laying on my back to sleep, which is not a common sleeping position for me. When I was meditating, I fell asleep, and I had been laying on my back as I usually am while I meditate. But there have been times where I haven't been meditating, but I've fallen asleep on my back, and even had a WILD that way. An interesting observation. I wonder what the link is between LDs and sleeping position? Does anyone have an ideas, or has there been any research done on it (formal or informal, it doesn't matter)?
Updated 08-03-2014 at 03:22 PM by 32059
Dream - Lucid I had written two books, and was in the process of writing a third. I don't remember the genre of the first two. The third was a very graphic horror book, and much longer than the first two, even though it wasn't finished yet. We were by a book shelf, but I feel like we were at a grocery store? Courtney S. was there with a few other people. She and some of the others had read the other two, and they really liked them. Courtney S. picked up the third one to read, and I took it from her; this was not a book I was going to release to the public. It was about some people being at sea and tragedies started to strike them, starting with one of the characters getting a cork stuck in her throat. It got way worse after that; there were sex scenes and gruesome accidents. It was a hardback book that had a red jacket with some sort of pattern on it. It looked like Christmas wrapping paper. It was wayyyy too big for the book. I tore some of the excess paper off the book. I had apparently made the book covers with a kit used to create them. I had not worked on the horror book for quite some time. I started to read it myself, and get myself into the mood to write the book. Some of it was written out like a play, with the characters talking in turn, having their names precede their dialog. I could picture it as I was reading it; I saw the lady who got the cork stuck in her throat speaking with another lady. She foolishly had the cork in her mouth. The other lady was supposed to call 911 when the cork got lodged in her friend's throat. Then, there was a scene that I didn't finish reading, one about a guy I know IWL named Jeff B., and it was a sex scene between him and I. I imagined him with no shirt. He was very sculpted. I felt strangely excited about reading and writing the book again, almost sexually so. I then remember seeing a grocery store aisle by the check out counters. ~ I absolutely know I dreamed more last night, but no more recall. I did go to bed late, and am up early for work again. I did my meditation yesterday. I like to meditate on my inner light and love. I always visit a monk in my meditations, and he helps to walk me through them. I cleansed my chakras, and let go of my anxieties and negative energy. It was definitely something I have been meaning (and needing) to do. Towards the end of it, I felt as if I was falling asleep, but I wasn't falling asleep; it was like I was falling into a very meditative state. My chest started to feel warm. I couldn't really feel my fingers touching the bed. I then saw a big purple blob in the middle of my vision, and heard a voice say "I am afraid my child will come home." I would liken this occurrence to the weird thoughts one has before falling asleep sometimes. I then came out of the deep state, but was still in a somewhat meditative state. I meditated for about 20 minutes or so. Gonna try to do it again today after work, though I am afraid I might fall asleep instead...I am going to be wiped.
Updated 07-26-2014 at 11:55 AM by 32059
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening I'm attending my guru's teachings and a sequence of odd experiences happen. At some point he plays a drum in a certain beat pattern, without explaining its importance or decoding its meaning. Then he leaves his seat and a midle-aged lady student moves in to play the drum, trying to recreate the same sound. She thinks it's ike a mantra, that we can replicate to help our meditation. But she doesn't play it right. I feel some uncomfort, like knowing she shouldn't be doing it, but it's not my business to decide that, so wat I do is correct her and guide her to play the right beats. At this point I feel my guru's eyes on the back of my head. I turn around but he isn't there. I also leave. Then I am with my guru, but the timeline is not linear. I left with him and a group of select people who will stay with him for the next hours as he meditates and eventually doozes off in a more private place. He sits in the middle and we sit around on mattresses. We will be there supposedly for 17 hours, meditating and sleeping. At this point the lady hasn't plaid the drum yet, but then we hear the sound. The guru is a bit upset. Not only it disrupts this quiet moment we're meant to have, but this drumming sound is a sacred sound that shouldn't be plaid by just anybody. From this place here he sticks his eyes into the back of my head on that room, knowing all too well that my good heart enabled that lady to play that drum. So he closes his eyes, but he also gets out and personally ensures this lady is punished with temporary incarceration on a cave nearby. I just know all of this because I see it all happening in my mind. As soon as he leaves the cave (and during all that time he was just sitting straight, eyes closed in front of me), I sneak out from this room, to go see the lady. i feel guilty, because I encouraged her to play and taught her the right beats, so I should be incarcerated, not her. I sneak out of the room silently, everybody is meditating eyes closed or sleeping, so I assume no one seems me going. I find a way to communicate with the lady inside the cave and to say I'm sorry for her torment. I can feel the presence of my guru, of course he knows I'm there, the whole time we've been in more than one place at the time and our actions seem to be all interconnected. She is me and I am him and he is me and I am her. He is smiling from afar.
Updated 04-27-2014 at 01:05 PM by 34880
Today I started Anapana Sati meditation, as recommended by kadie. http://buddhist-meditation-technique...st-meditation/ I will practice Anapana Sati, before I'm ready for Vipassana meditation. I did it for 15 min. I was starting to feel very relaxed and didn't want to end. I will really try to do it 2x a day, for 15 min, for first week. Then 30 min 2x for a week, then for an hour. EDIT: Meditated from 10:45-11pm Had epic recall and epic dreams. Related?
Updated 02-06-2014 at 05:27 PM by 50242
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening (...) I'm on the road with some guy. He is driving, we're talking. Then we see something orange scattered at even distances, over the line between adjacent lanes. But it's not plastic cones! It's monks in orange robes, meditating! My friend is puzzled and wondering what in the world that can be. I just become lucid with the absurdity and I realize what it is. They know it is safe, they are aware where we are, they chose to sit in the middle of a road because it tests their confidence in the knowing that nothing can harm them. I get it and could join them. But instead I just float around, enjoying the beauty of this awareness. I start touching everything, I touch some statues, the rough walls of buildings, the tree leaves, the hair of people passing by. Everything I touch is simply perfect and overloads my mind with joy. After a while of this experience, I enter a not so bright zone. The night falls, there is an entrance to a non-lit park and a few homeless guys are sleeping on benches and on the ground, on both sides of the pathway. A couple of them looks at me like saying "hey babe, come here..." and I feel a chill and turn around in fear. Then I think what is the worse thing that can happen, considering it only happens whatever I allow to happen? If they rape me, I just wake up. So, I lose all fear and all I can feel is compassion. Instead of fearing a rape, I feel like offering myself to them as a gesture of my total surrender to the fearlessness. Automatically, I become naked as I walk through the pathway. They just can't believe what they are seeing. They actually are quite gentle to me.
Updated 02-05-2014 at 12:18 AM by 34880
This whole situation with D. is wrecking me up. Hardly sleep at all anymore. Around 6 am tried a WBTB with following meditation. Couldn't relax then the guy next door gets a delivery (on Sunday morning!!). Had a short dream about my cat dying. He died ten years ago. But last night he died again in my dreams. Maybe I should take a break from everything. It's just too much right now
I was meditating outside the house, on the east side near the door. It was night, or at least it was dark. I was sitting in a half-lotus posture on the grasses near the plants. I was mentally viewing the four corners of the house with a 'construct' of myself, trying to ensure nothing goes through the barrier. I started to go inside. I had to bring a lot of stuff with me; books, paper and stuff, and some kept on falling but I must not leave anything behind. My dog was there too. I told him to stay out. When I was inside, I noticed there was another dog. The sun started to rise then. I touched it and found it was real. It's a smaller, hairier one. Then another. I saw more of them around the plants. My dog was making that poor-me sound. I wondered how they got in and thought that when I let my guard down, they must have dug down the walls and the barrier. One poked at my dog's clothes, and my dog was on his back on the ground. I was in a restaurant. I was eating with some people. One asked where else to find a good Japanese restaurant. I tried to think but I can't remember any. I mentioned/praised the good food in the place. One said (Ate M?) that there's also separate rooms and they serve the food inside. I said that wasn't what I was referring to. I was in a restaurant (not sure if the same one). I was an owner or at least a friend of the owner. They were serving food to an (male) enemy? He was wearing a tux. There's wasabi and yellow rice. A friend offered to provide the wasabi, but we all said no. Something about his way of cooking it. Or the rice. There's yellow rice but inside it's still white. I was in a room, in a hotel, I presumed. I asked something to be done outside. I was on the bed. A knock, and I said come in. A maid went inside and said there was a delivery for me and that I should hold out my hand. She was on my left. I refused, thinking/knowing she will grab my hand and kill me. She suddenly screamed, and I jumped back towards the window. Someone grabbed me from outside the window; an enemy ninja. Then I heard shots or a shot, and the guy let me go; an ally from across the building was shooting at him. I had a quick view of the outside. When my vision went back inside the room, I saw the the maid has turned into a huge snake and was trying to escape up through the roof. I pulled her down (not sure if through kinesis or by hand), and I pushed her head through the wall and the window, and it got shredded. She was still alive; she's immortal. I pulled it back in a bit and shredded it back through, and I saw the eye get punctured. It looked more like a fish's eye. I saw the innards of the head. Slowly, I saw it starting to transform. The shredded bits started to become smaller snakes, but are still attached to the huge snake. I pulled her in to stop the complete transformation. I then asked her if she knows why I did not just kill her with my katana. I woke up. * There was a part where I drove with some people to the 'water' park down in South Luzon at night. I said that it's a shame we will miss the sights because it was night. I think my crush or boyfriend was there. (IRL, I have no boyfriend, and I don't recognize any of the people there.) * I was partially lucid. * Slept at around 8:38 p.m., and woke up after 1.5 hours at 10:10 a.m. I had a hard time sleeping. I drank a cup of coffee before to ensure I won't go deep down in sleep (I needed to work). I also tried focusing on my breathing, but I keep getting distracted by hypnagogic/hypnapompic (I keep going in and out of dreams) images. I read Psybermagick before sleeping. I also watched stuff.
Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid Lucid #157: True Faith I'm standing outside on a stone path at the top of a hill. There's an elegant white gazebo nearby and a few people milling about. I think to question my reality and I know that I'm dreaming. I remember that I wanted to try remaining completely calm and collected in my next LD. I sit down on the floor and rest my hands in my lap like I'm going to meditate. I try to relax my mind and just believe that I have all the time in the world. As I'm sitting, I look around me, taking in the sun and sky, the calmness of the day, the DCs passing nearby... everything about the scene. I announce that "This is my lucid dream." One of the nearby DCs, a young woman, hears me and stops, seemingly curious. She takes a couple of steps toward me and stands there, listening to hear what I might say next. I get to my feet and start talking about lucid dreaming to the broader crowd. I really go after it, announcing things like "All of this is my lucid dream" and "Whatever I believe will come true". I start getting whipped into a bit of a frenzy, throwing in several f-words, and saying things like "Say it with me now!!" There's a good-sized crowd of DCs right in there, maybe 20 people or so, all cheering along with me. When I shout something like "I can do anything!" they all shout in agreement. (Couldn't we all use this kind of validation in waking life?) "Do you know what's behind me? The fucking Colosseum, that's what's behind me!" I look behind me and the geometry becomes weird for a moment and I have to make a strange 270-degree turn rather than a 180. As I do, it looks like the outside of a huge stone structure like the Colosseum. I'm filled with excitement and I hear DCs babbling encouragement to me. For some reason things destabilize, though, and the dream ends without any opportunity to pick up from the void.
3rd person, this image of vast blue sky and white clouds, even on the ground, which is perfectly flat and reflective, reminds me of salt flats, and in the distance there's a bed with a body lying on it, and a figure walking towards it. The dream zooms in to follow the figure, a middle-aged man here to return his lover's soul to his body, the man in the bed, 20's/30's ish, curly blonde hair. There's a second body on the bed, a naked woman, and unexpectedly, when the man revives and sits up, the woman sits up too. (Woke up. Back to sleep.) While reading an article on the internet, I start thinking about the symbolism of owls as messengers or representatives of wisdom, and that the information they deliver is always reliable even without knowing the source. After some more internet browsing, ending up looking at TV listings, I decide I need to get away from the tv/internet, I should go meditate, clear my head. (Disappointed I didn't actually get around to meditating before I woke up, I'm curious how that would have gone.)
> For some reason construction workers and the color yellow come to mind, Possibly also hay and sand and a desert. The construction workers might just mean that I haven't thought of this dream very much prior to writing this. UPDATE: I think this referred to the next Fallout video game! I'm not sure how exactly but I'm certain! (I decided to leave the above text, As I wrote it at about 3:40 AM, There.) > Recalled Dream #2. This one all started after Mother came home and I'm not sure if I was already sleeping for a while or not but she came upstairs and I tried to sleep as well as I could once she turned the TV on and started watching Dark Shadows, The 60s TV show in the same room I was in. (These are awake parts.) I (Dreaming) saw a resting (Probably sleeping) vampire in a coffin with a disembodied brain to his right side and a tube going from the brain to his feet. A woman had walked in on him while this was happening and she screamed and I knew he woke and had a difficult time not draining her of all her blood; I thought of her offering him some of her blood by her arm and that may have transfered to the dream. I then fell asleep deeper and was in the laundry room and thought of a cat, I think. We've had stray cats around here in waking life. I then went out the back door of the laundry room and thought to make one sound a whole world or to meditate on one whole sound in the distance. Meanwhile an episode of the TV show must've ended because the Dark Shadows music popped up in my dream with water receding from an area where I saw someone in and this was like a video game; There were magical portals around him/me and Xbox 360 notifications at the top of the screen which didn't always show up (As I may have been going through menus or in and out of the dream?) that said that someone wanted to play with me. Someone had died and the portals showed up, One was green and one was purple and another was another color. The Xbox 360 controller was hot and I had to keep moving it to not be burned and then I went in the house in the laundry room and I knew Father would wonder if I was going to bed as it was late; I think he asked me if I was going to bed. Also, I knew in the dream that it was 3 AM when I had the dream though this part about knowing the time might have applied earlier. > ? As of 12:08 PM > Lego Island 1-Esque; I was looking at Lego island top-down as if I were playing Zelda or the first Sim City game and I was shooting Donuts to Nick and Pizzas to the Brickster. Giving donuts to Nick made him go faster, Giving Pizzas to the brickster made him go slower. Lego Island was a much bigger place and there were at least two hospitals though I think there were three or four or more; One was in the southeast corner and one was on the west side and this time the Brickster wasn't targeting every single building, As far as I know he was targeting the hospitals and police stations. I also had a budget for the donuts so I could only shoot so many donuts to Nick at a time before I had to wait. At one point on the east side of the island I thought of eating donuts while I shot some to Nick.
I was at my house, in the garage. I was looking at my home gym, and was thinking of setting my bench up, so that I could lay on it and relax. I remember seeing Rach A, and we were talking about kids, and how people look after them. Rach was eating candy, and she offered me a piece of it, which was in a round container. The candy was crunks. Rach held up the candy, but now it looked like sheets of paper. On the candy it said made in 1995. The handwriting was pretty messy but was readable, and writing started off big and ended smaller. I thought it looked cool, and really wanted to taste and feel the texture of it shattering in my mouth. Scene changed, Daytime I was now at a market place, in which I could see a outdoor eating area. There were people eating outdoors. It had a Italian look and feel to it. I somehow knew what the food tasted like. I left the eating area and was faced with some lady wearing a Burqa (Turban), and a man. They had a basket full of bread rolls, and tried selling me some. They had a lot of bread in baskets. I walked down stairs intending to buy bread there. I remember dropping something, as if I had my hands full. I was approached by a couple, which helped me pick the items up. I reached down stairs, and a guy was sitting at the table, and he was telling another man that he had to do something with his life, as it was slipping away from him. I had a scene come to me. It was of a fighter and he was in between rounds, getting worked on by the cut man. The cut man was injecting steroid/cortisone into the man's eye brow. (In reality, I was asked what I would like to do as a job, if I could choose anything, money no option. I love combat sports such as UFC, boxing, and would love to be a cut man, so I could see all the action and get paid for it.) Dream Fragment, I remember hearing or thinking of meditation, in which if you focused on your middle eye when meditating, that you would get stronger sensations.
Fragment: I dreamed that I was working at a copy shop (I currently work at a copy shop, but this one was different). I was the only one there, and I was trying to help one customer, but I wasn't familiar with the machines and I couldn't find the right printer from the drop down list. As I struggled with this, the line built up until the whole store was full. I then realized that I was dreaming, and as someone started to complain I made an announcement to the entire store "This message is to inform all our customers, that this is just a dream in my head. None of this is real, none of you need copies, and I'm done." They all started to yell and scream at me for how irresponsible I was being, so I made a mental association to link the concept of fire with the concept of paper before snapping my fingers. All of their hard copies instantly erupted in flames. During the confusion, I walked out, but then woke up. It was after going back to sleep that I had the next dream. Saving Captain Jack: I forget how it started, but Captain Jack Harkness (the lead character from the show Torchwood) had been kidnapped and was being dissected. Of course, because he couldn't die, this was a pretty awful thing to do. I was trying to save him. Seemed like there were also aliens who fed on human misery. At first they thought that completely and utterly blocking me out from saving him would provide the most misery. I told them that misery is actually strongest when there's hope, and that they should offer to allow me to see him, but also take that away, as it would provide a better "meal" for them. Both sides understood that we were trying to game the other. They took me into a big elevator, which turned out to work kind of like a wonkavator, going all over the place. Apparently, it was voice activated. It didn't take long before I realized we weren't going anywhere near where we should be. On the elevator, I ran into a man in a wheelchair. He said he would help me. But for some reason, I didn't trust him. I told him that I needed a handshake before I could know if he could be trusted. He extended his right hand, I extended my left and said "no, with the left hand". A bit of backstory. In my dreams, I have engineered the left side of my body to absorb, while the right side emmits. I wanted to absorb some of his "energy" to determine if he was indeed a threat. A left handed handshake is essentially and instant "I now know you" in my dreams. In any case, with the handshake came a sensation like an electric shock. We both recoiled. He exclaimed "WHAT ARE YOU?!!" and rolled back slightly. His human form then began to waver and he started to look more like a realistic version of an ape that Dr Seuss might draw. I tried using telekinesis on him, but it didn't work. It was official, he was fae. For the first time ever, I managed to get some degree of telekinetic purchase on a member of the fae, but I couldn't thrash him about. He was being very confrontational and just wouldn't let up. So I switched gears and decided to use my TK on his eyes, which popped. That was done. Now to address the aliens. I went over to the panel, told them the address I wanted to go to (which was back where we started), but they pushed a button labeled "lies" which overrode the previous and subsequent commands. I then decided to escape and try to make it back there on my own while they were out. I used my teleportation technique. I closed my eyes, fell backwards, and through the floor. I focused on what was just outside the elevator, and that's where I ended up. Misses: I then tried repeatedly to get to Jack, but found that I kept missing. I have to visualize where/when I want to appear, they had been, and would be, doing these sorts of dissections for a while, so I kept showing up at the wrong place and time. It actually seemed like they were prepared for me, like they knew they had a problem with a guy randomly showing up, killing a few guards, and then escaping. I couldn't save him. Meditation: I decided then that I needed more control. So I performed the teleportation, except this time I cleared my mind. As I tumbled in this place outside of space and time, I folded my legs into a lotus position, my hands in a prayer position, and I began to meditate. I cleared my mind. Thoughts moved in and out like the passing wind, but my mind became still. I found that the lotus position helped me anchor into the meditation more as the kinesthetic sensations held a small portion of my awareness on my body, and it's odd position. This, combined with the sensation of falling, anchored me very well into this dream meditation. After meditating for only about 10-15 minutes, I decided that enough was enough. I "landed" in an attack from which I could find no way out. It was very vivid though. I remember feeling the dust and dirt as well as seeing the light streaming through holes in the roof. I decided I would teleport again. But this time I was more lucid, and realized that I didn't have to go save Jack because he was just a DC and not really someone suffering who needed my help. Sex: I find the next bit a little unfortunate. It's annoying because it's so common. When my self-esteem and confidence were lower, I had fewer sexual dreams. Now that I've overcome a lot of my anxiety issues, I find that my confidence and subsequently my libido are soaring. This often results in my LDs turning into sex dreams. It's like when I become sufficiently lucid, my brain asks "So, what do you want to do?" and my libido yells "WOMEN!" This was an interesting one, because it involved combining meditation, yoga, and sex. It was fascinating, but ultimately I didn't accomplish anything that I set out to do. Accomplishments: That all being said, I did accomplish some awesome stuff this morning. 1. My powers worked on the Fae for the first time. 2. I meditated in my lucid dream again (which is more difficult than I make it sound). Both of those are pretty big deals.
Updated 07-27-2013 at 02:37 PM by 64466
Comment: So I got tired of this heat plus other distractions reducing my ld count and decided to try with G Preparation: I had pre bed insomnia, too wakeful plus nagging thoughts. Still, I decided against setting an alarm and going for a natural wake. WBTB: Of course, I missed my desired WBTB but decided to go ahead. I was very sleepy due to the heat so walked around a bit. As soon as I took the pill and went back to the bedroom I saw this huge moth (a real one!) that came in last night and we couldn't catch it. It started flying around and caused me some additional wakefulness. I tried to ignore it and went to bed. Started my usual induction mix and internal dialogue was fine but I felt too alert bodily to be able to fully fall asleep and be absorbed by those dreamlets/HI. Here are some that I remember, some were lucid, some not, I don't think it matters much in this case. Mini-dream: I am somewhere and to my right is a guy that I identify as Xanous. He is holding some kind of a brush that I next take and inspect. White bristles, strange shape. I wake up. (Not much time to observe appearance, but in my mind it was him) HI/dr: The head of state HI/dr: The best lucid dreamers in DV [Names] HI/dr: The tree of plenty from HMM game HI/dr: A very large tropical plant plus other greenery Micro-ld: I am standing on my grandma's balcony and it is night. I can hear nice music playing and look down to see a strange guy in front of the building. He is performing for a new place that has opened up just in front of grandma's. I have positive feelings towards the guy as he reminds me of a friend of mine. But most importantly I am very happy to have finally made it to a dream. The air is very stuffy and warm but I feel some kind of pleasant power in the air. I try to move my head to look around but meet some resistance as if my dream body isn't quite ready yet. I'm thrown out of the dream and into my super awake body. I try to go back to sleep for some time but in vain so I give up and go to meditate in the other room. I spend appx. 50mins meditating then go to the restroom. Moving from thought to thought and by means of association I remember my phone, see a quick phone image along with the thought, then another image quickly flashes by - the true location of my phone. I have looked in the place two times but couldn't find it before. I decided to give it another try, this time a fully thorough search until I got out every little piece of crap from there. And at the bottom was of course - my phone! Background: I bought a new phone but put it somewhere in a hurry in April, while preparing for guests. I totally forgot about it in May, looked for it everywhere in June, gave up in July and decided I would ask a DC where the hell it was. Asked a few times, got some nonsense and the best answer that came from DCs was "outside". Well, it was inside and not outside. Lol! Anyways, one task less.
Updated 07-20-2013 at 03:44 PM by 61764
Date: 7 June Total sleep time: 8+ hrs Pre bed: SJW, B6 Sleep quality and WBTB: I have been sleeping like a sloth all week long. One thing I have changed in my WBTB routine was to switch from using an alarm to using natural wakes. This has worked out partially fine. I do wake up naturally 2-3 times after sleeping 4-5 hrs. I think that in this way I am allowing my body to determine the best time for WBTB, instead of me forcefully using the alarm. The only problem is that, out of fear not to cause insomnia and possibly due to laziness, my WBTBs were not as serious as they should have been, thus not raising alertness to desired for LD levels. Will have to work on that. Dream recall: While my recall has been somewhat reduced by my sleepiness, I have additionally been skimming my dreams. I have been putting only keywords instead of journaling, which has allowed me to...sleep more. The dreams weren't too interesting, so there wasn't much that I have missed apart from a brief lucid yesterday, that I couldn't access at all. I think that's fine so far. WBTB: peppermint oil capsules Dream1 DILD: I missed the transition. I suddenly find myself in front of my parents' place but the way it was a few years ago. I spend some time looking around, feeling happy. Then the neighborhood begins to morph into other buildings from my home town, so I stop staring at them, because I feel that I am causing the change. I check out my hands and they are in a mudra. After yesterday's discussion, I now wonder if I should try meditating in the dream or try to recall a past memory. I spend too much time in idleness and the dream escapes. I find myself in the void. I feel that if I wake up I can successfully DEILD back. I am in the void and not back in bed yet but get confused because I feel my body? Obviously this is my dream body and some dream is starting to form, but I think that I am in my bed feeling my real body. In real life I am sleeping in my bed, but the body I feel while in the void is sitting in a chair. I am too dumb to realize that this is my dream body, get irritated with the strange position I have assumed, try to change it and lie down? I struggle in the dark. Then I wake up in another dream. Dream2: Short FA, where I am in bed, reviewing the event and now completely sure after the dream that whatever I couldn't remember yesterday was indeed a very short LD where I didn't get much done. I wake up (left side) for real and take key notes Dream3: An elegant Asian woman talks about investment opportunities. She recommends that Western countries allocate 50 percent of FDI to China and the other 50 to Malaysia. This interview happens during some event. While this is happening I hear a piano playing. It is part of the melody from Mika's Grace Kelly. The sound is astonishing. Fragment4: A classmate follows me around kissing me. While it feels pleasant I try to avoid him because I have a bf. Fragment5: Me and a friend enter in a luxurious store where they sell toothpaste. It slowly changes and is now some kind of bar full of hookers. Fragment6: I look into the nearby building and Christian Slater is there with more hookers having some night party Fragment7: Me and bf, no comments ---------------------------------------------------------- Progress with this month's goals: - Do 100 RCs (added) - notice real life DS 100 times and RC (added) - 10 proper WBTB attempts -> days (3/10) - 10 morning RCs (1/10) - 2 proper WILD attempts (0/2) - task flexibility - journal flexibility
Updated 06-08-2013 at 01:18 AM by 61764
I've had at least 3 or 4 dreams in the last few weeks where a shaman is teaching me how to make ayahuasca, find psilocybin mushrooms, identify salvia, or make mescaline tea. The shaman is almost shapeless, I don't really see him as a person or anything else, I just know he's there. I don't remember a name either. It's always in the same place: the edge of a grassy field near the woods. There is always a fire and sometimes meditation or drums. We haven't actually used the entheogens in any of the dreams, he just showed me how to make or find them.