Non-Lucid Dreams
Dragon dream I transform into a dragon at some point, it seems like an ability I have in the dream. I was getting mad at somebody. It was sort of in this like special bar like area, that seems to be becoming a recurring location. There are some of my friends there, I think. Sadly I don't remember having any sensation of my form in the dream, which would've helped in shapeshifting in a lucid dream. Also, I have been totally forgetting to use my mantra so that I'd get lucid; it works nearly every time, but my memory is horrible. School has also been destroying my recall. I know I remembered more of the dream in the morning, but firstly, I don't want my parents to see what dreams I have, idk why but it's embarrassing, and on school days I can't get myself out of bed so I wouldn't even have time to write down the dream.
Awake|Dreaming|Lucid Today is my first school day in a while and I dreamt about starting school. I'm going to school but forgot my phone at home so I didn't know where to go. The school is not like my real one. I end up in the school canteen and say hello to my friends. I remember Johannes and Max most, also Gabriel. We eat and I spill a lot of food. I drop a lot of rice on the floor and an old lady working there gives me a tool to clean it up. I say I'm sorry and will clean it up. I do so. I go into a store and notice that there are only women there. I try to act like I'm a girl. I see nail polish that is in my favorite colour. It's very light blue. I take it with me. I see an old acquainted school person. She is the one who helped me search for another school. I thought she was pretty IRL and she was still pretty. I am about to walk out of the store but meet a man with a guitar. He tries to hit me with the guitar but misses and hits the floor instead. The guitar breaks and I tell him that he should be careful with the guitars. I knock him down and realize it's a dream. The cute girl comes again and I feel on her face. In normal cases my face feels a little bit like sand paper in my dreams. I feel on my own face and realize it's not feeling like sand paper either. It feels like a long time since I had a lucid dream and I just want to stay in the dream for awhile. I walk out and recognize myself by the big slope next to Mcdonalds by my home. The dream slowly fades and I try to keep it up a while longer.
5th July 2020 Dream: I remember being at home with H. We were trying to sleep but couldn't manage for some reason; I remember having slept for an unusually low amount of time in the dream, one or two hours only. On re-writing this entry here, I have a vague memory of seeing the red clock display something very early, maybe around 6AM or so. We got up and put some shoes on, etc. We went outside, it looked early but not dark, though it wasn't bright either. We had been invited to go to some neighbour's house for a dinner time meal or something. The area outside looks different from how it should. A mix of my home town and the place where me and H live now. There are some leftover and unfinished construction works. We went down the road and around the corner over on the left side of the street. There was an open bit, like a plaza/square and it had some small concrete storage units of some kind. They had metal doors and H used a key to open one and he put in a gem, looked like a Tiger's Eye. But the top of the unit was smashed and rubble was visible inside from the top. This apparently didn't bother H at all but I asked him about it. I think H wasn't understanding my point and I eventually dropped the subject as we walked away. Before we went to the next place(?), H needed to have a wee or something; so he was going to walk over to the commercial estate across the way from our street/home, but it looked like a different commercial estate that I know of in the area. (Note to self, refer to original entry) I think I wondered why not just go home since it was closer anyway. But I think H was going to do something else while there. So then I decided to wait outside this neighbour's house that I thought we were going to. I thought of knocking, but felt afraid of getting it wrong, so I didn't. I remember having passing thoughts about my boots, about how I should probably take them off as soon as we got in, so I wouldn't catch any of their stuff or furniture with my feet. I walked back to the end of our street. For some reason at that point, I took codeine. I don't remember where I got it from, my pockets? I remember then looking towards the shops area. There were people about but not many. I didn't want to stare at them for some reason so instead I just looked up at the sky just above. Cloudy, excessively blue-ish, dim. But all of a sudden I could see clouds moving very fast in our general direction. I thought this to be strange and looked away for a while and then when I looked back it had stopped. In the dream I attributed that as some hallucinatory effect of the dream-codeine I took. Eventually I could see H in the distance, coming back. H now had a short and bright red impermeable coat with a hood. Not unlike red riding hood but more modern, and less feminine/more unisex in appearance. Notes: - Like in another dream I recently caught up on, again, if I had this dream now and had taken codeine in a dream, this could now be a big alert that something was off, since at the moment I know that I must absolutely not take any codeine since it could be dangerous for me to do at present. - Re-writing this dream entry here only a bit over a month since the dream, I still have quite decent memory of the visuals. - In the dream, it was foolish of me to simply disregard the odd sky/cloud events as being a hallucination; that in itself should have been enough of cue for a RC. -- Likewise, looking away and back and having seen such a massive change should have been a good cue ordinarily.
Tall shape on high building fragment A white, tall shape on a skyscraper. It might be day. I look down. Maybe the shape is organic and alive.
Jamie She showed up once. Found myself on a couch with her and she wasn't looking at me or talking to me. She eventually got and left without saying a word. Yeah, our dream friendship has gone pretty downhill over the last few months . I have pretty much given up hope I'll ever hear from her again. Sounds like whatever hope was left in her is pretty much gone also. I feel it. Nightmare Walked into my living room and saw my dogs head on the ground with his face twitching. I was shocked at that site and ran into my bedroom and my dog's severed head was there also. This time as well as twitching there was blood all over the floor. I went into the next room and asked my aunt what happened to my dog. She had a crazy laugh and said, "Well, He just looked so depressed I just decided to cut off his head! HAHAHA." Car Crash. Was walking around with riya from work outside ina field. We somehow ooka ride from someone. At a strange turnpike He lost control and the van slid into a super deep ditch. We hung on the edge for a second, and i said, "That's far down we're going to die." The driver said, "No we won't." We fell in and no one was hurt. I got out of the van and riya followed me. I realized i left my gloves in the vand and went back for them. Back at the van a board in the van was pushing upward. I lifted the board up and a small dog got out. I found gloves that weren't mine and ruffled through things until I found the right kind. Riya was behind me talking. We left the scene and wound up back in the same field. In the field I passed a blond woman with poofy hair. But she had really weird colours to her...
Date of Dream: TUE 28 JUL - 2020 Dream No. 699 - Separated Sections Dream 699 A - In Order To Sit The Exam I don’t remember much about this dream. To me, it only felt like a very short scene and that was it. In my voice, the dream was saying to me that in order to be able to sit the exam, Riku needed to sign some sort of form. A sub-scene then showed Riku (KH3 appearance) standing in the dining room of my old house while he was signing something, but the dream didn’t show what he was signing. Dream 699 B - Kneading Pizza Dough I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I can remember, I was in my garage and I was trying to kneed this pizza dough, that was sitting in a plastic box, into a specific shape. However, the pizza dough became extremely hard and so I had an extremely hard time kneading it. I heard that I should have started kneading it earlier when it was just freshly combined; apparently exposure to the surrounding air was making it hard. I looked up and my grandma as well as some of her friends and other members of my family were sitting at the edges of the garage. They were encouraging me but it seemed ‘torturous’ in a way, like they were making cute faces at me as if I was a kid and I grimaced at this. I then still wondered why the pizza dough was so hard to knead. As I squashed it together, all these Kingdom Hearts figurines suddenly came flying out of it and landed in pieces on the window sill. I went over to examine the figurines and make sure they weren’t broken in any way. The figurine at the front was Riku and he looked fine. I then saw other characters like Terra, Aqua and Kairi in the back ground. I then went over to Roxas, this set of figurines having ‘stick’ legs. Roxas’ current pose was a sitting one, but I could not get him to sit properly on the window sill. So I ended up detaching Roxas’ current legs and changed them over so that he could stand. He ended up successfully standing. I then went back to the dough in the box and suddenly it was easier to knead, either that or I seemed to apply more force this time around. The box also seemed to fill up with a tomato-based pasta sauce. Somehow, the dough broke into small pieces and went amongst the sauce, and then I got in and ended up bathing in the mixture. I can’t remember anything else about this dream. Dream 699 C - The Disney Stairs I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was at a shopping centre that felt like a cross between Dandenong Plaza and The Glen, but was identified to be Dandenong Plaza. On Level 3, I came across AD and she just seemed to plainly ignore me as we passed each other. Further up the corridor, I discovered that there was this huge attraction in Target called ‘The Disney Stairs’, which I had to go and check out. So I took the escalators down to level 1 where Target would supposedly be, but apparently I wasn’t there yet. I wondered where ‘The Disney Stairs’ was and soon, I saw a sign saying ‘To Disney Stairs’ with an arrow on it. I grew worry as I thought it was an elevator going down, but eventually, I see all these people going down a narrow, weirdly formed escalator. I wondered why it was formed the way it was and someone said to me that it was good practise for the actual ‘Disney Stairs’. The escalator was moving terribly fast and the steps were very narrow, so I had step on at the right time or I’d fall. I thought Target would be 1 basement level below, whereas we actually went down many ‘mysterious levels’ to eventually end up in Target. We approached the ‘Disney Stairs’ scene which was actually a Christmas set-up which looked more miraculous than any one I had ever seen in real life; it was a corridor full of ‘Christmas’ leading to an unknown journey path. Mickey was at the front of it and seemed to be the curator for this event. There were twelve of us and so he told us that we’d be in three teams of four; blue, red and white. Mickey then told people to start coming up but they all hesitated so I decided to go up first. As I approached Mickey, I realised Santa standing just inside the corridor, which was actually Riku dressed in a Santa suit! Mickey said to me, “And I see you have a special relationship with Santa”, which proved further that this was actually Riku. Whereas the rest of my teammates were going to get a plain white robe, I got this elegant cream coloured robe with dark teal patches on it and fine beading; as if it cost $500 to make or buy. Just as I was about to go over to Santa to start the adventure and potentially be greeted with a hug, I woke up. Dream 699 A Dream Guide: None Lucid?: No Dream 699 B Dream Guide: None Lucid?: No Dream 699 C Dream Guide: Riku Lucid?: No The exam is the IRL response I will be writing to Kingdom Hearts (imaginatively) once all 7 dream tasks are completed.
Date of Dream: MON 27 JUL - 2020 Warning! Depending on the reader's judgement; Dream 698 A may make mentions of mature content such as sex and/rape. Please avoid reading if this ought to make you feel comfortable or you are Under 18. The dream character expressing the concerning content is 'Nathan'. Dream No. 698 - Separated Sections Dream 698 A - A Boy With Big Problems I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was in the hills, in one the supermarket, when I ran into a couple of girls currently attending my old high school, wearing their PE uniforms. However, it like the girls recognised me and were really happy to see me. One of the girls told me that it was ‘Wellness Wednesday for them’ and this is why there were at the shops. It was eventually that I saw some girls in the academic summer uniforms; but then what I saw next shocked me; a couple of boys in summer uniform. Since when was this a co-ed school? There was one boy that really caught my attention though, and this was for the wrong reasons. Just by looking at him, I could tell that he had violent tendencies and therefore huge mental problems. I found out that his name was Nathan. It wasn’t very long though before he started acting up towards me and that he actually wanted me for his own ‘desires’ as it were. I tried to get away from him, but he was really forceful and would actually be really violent to me if I tried to leave; so I was basically trapped. The dream no longer played in the supermarket, but Nathan seemed to be a consistent theme in all the scenes. However, to my relief though, my dream guides seemed to know what was going as Dreamy WB walked into the scene to try and get Nathan off me. She managed to provide a distraction and told me to led me to wait in the ‘staff room’ of the complex. For a while, I was just dawdling in there until someone came into the room and told me to get out. I did, thinking that Nathan was finally dealt with. Though as soon as Dreamy WB had gone, Nathan came back and was threatening himself on me again. I needed to act fast and decided to call for a male dream guide to see if they would yield a better result. I decided to call for Riku and somehow managed to summon him without Nathan detecting me. What was even more satisfying is that Riku had walked into the scene (KH3 appearance) and Nathan didn’t even suspect that Riku was there for me. Riku came and sat on the ground, prompting me to sit down in-front of him. However, I thought that in the current position, Nathan would be able to whisk me away and use me. So I asked Riku to bend his knees out slightly so I could go back in towards him a bit more. I ended up lying down with my head on Riku’s lap as he then looked up and started to speak to Nathan. Despite the severity of Nathan’s actions towards me and his obvious mental illness; Riku didn’t raise his voice to Nathan at all or even insinuate that he had a problem. It’s like Riku knew not to flare Nathan up or that’s when Nathan would become uncontrollable and bad things would happen. Riku actually simply smiled at Nathan, connecting with him like a friend, and said to him, something like, “I think you should go and see Mickey. It’d be good for you”. And to my surprise, Nathan left the scene on his own and did not come back this time. I also knew what Riku was really doing. It was Mickey that was going to give Nathan a good roasting; Riku basically insinuated, in a disguised manner, to Nathan, that he had problems and needed counselling. I can’t remember anything else about this dream. Dream 698 B - Dirty Bathers I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, family friend couple EW and JW were at the beach and apparently they were recalling a phone call that they had gotten from my mum, asking them to wash my sandy bathers while they were at the beach. The wife JW had taken my cobalt coloured bikinis and held them over the water, waiting for the waves to wash over them ten times. Meanwhile, EW and their baby were standing on the sand, listening as JW counted the number of times the waves had washed over the bathers. As soon as JW said ten, she stepped back from the ocean and went back to EW and XW. EW had pulled his phone in order to film proof for my mum that the bathers had been washed. However, as EW was filming and JW was now holding XW and my bathers, XW took a swipe at the bathers and they immediately fell on the sand, taking the family back to square 1. I can’t remember anything else about this dream. Dream 698 A Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & Riku Lucid?: No Dream 698 B Dream Guide: None Lucid?: No
1st July 2020 Fragment: Long dream but recall up to this point was poor. About halfway in, I was going through a busy-ish city centre with some other dream character walking along with me. Then a very obvious dream sign appeared, a tall woman in labcoat, walking away in a different direction, possibly wearing nothing else. She had flat and very black hair, reminding me of one of my cousin's hair or come to think of it, a sort of Cleopatra hairstyle? I recognised the dream sign and checked the fingers on my right hand, but for some reason I didn't realise I was dreaming and I didn't make further checks. Something about my fingers seemed distorted but the number was correct. I didn't remember to do any physics checks oddly and I think I was also distracted by whatever my previous dream objective was. Later I either had a micro awakening or another pre-lucid moment during which I automatically reflected on what had happened and how I'd been unable to realise I was dreaming, but again not realising this irony. (Missing recall) Different part of the dream. I was somewhere kind of dark. Some dream character was showing me something? Then some of this characters pet spiders appeared on the ground out of nowhere, individually one after another, there were only a few though. But for some reason in the dream I let my phobia sort of return and take a small hold of me, mostly because of the first spider. It was a black and yellow/gold patterned orb weaver, about the size of a large hand. Even in my temporarily panicked state I realised that it seemed more afraid of me, but I couldn't shake the feeling of unease. (Missing transition) Another part of the dream sequence where I was at some modern-ish looking house. I was not myself, but a character for the dream plot. I was some kind of elemental creature but I don't recall any details of my form or appearance. There were four other humanoid creatures of similar elemental nature. There was an absent character that had created us and one of the other creatures had been created right in front of me. She appeared in a cloud of white smoke within a glass room, which I was standing outside of. The glass enclosing this "room" made it more like a container or cell of sorts really. Notes: - This dream was a particularly good pre-cursor to the lucidity I had later on (4th August). -- At this point I had been becoming more diligent with my reality checks but not quite so much just yet. Currently at the time of writing (13th August) I am far more diligent with my RCing though there are still situations under which I should be checking but still am not quite so often. - My primary issue with my RC was really the fact that I gave up on the first try but this was made much worse by the fact that the dream itself caused distraction from my RC procedure, something that I'm a bit more careful. - The bit with the spiders was somewhat unusual in that I haven't been letting this affect me at all in waking life but it may have been around the time when I've seen bigger ones around the house more recently. - This was the first dream with spiders for quite some time now, I think.
27th June 2020 Fragment: Long dream but details faded. Remember being in the mountains, by myself. It was a sort of twilight hour. I remember looking under what was a false boulder and there was money under there, a few thousand euros and pounds. There was a message saying I was to take as much as I wanted. I stuffed it all in my shorts pockets. Then I remember thinking about going back home or something, I felt like I was lost in an unknown country. I arrived at a hotel place of some sorts and H was there in the role of a generic servant or something. (Transition/recall gap.) In some kind of big store. There's only a few people around, it's day time and not much artificial lighting is needed in here as it seems to be adequately lit naturally. Then this group of guys comes in and they are a bit stocky, not fat though. They are going to rob a vault at the store. They do so and there isn't much fuss about it, apart from the odd scream from a woman. I hear them talking or something and they managed to steal 6.2 billion. I think about how much money that is, and how it looks so small physically, as they only carried a few sacks of notes between them. I remember maybe being in the car with them and talking about their robbed loot. Notes: - Although I remember having this dream since it wasn't that long ago, none of the visual recall seems to be coming back really, so in that sense I can't consider it very memorable at this time. - I remember there was a fair bit of dialogue in this dream, but this is typically amongst my most easily lost details.
Some more DJ catch up. 24th June 2020 Fragment: Dream about going into a doctor's office, either alone or with H. Doctor said they needed to do a biopsy and that it was going to be in one of my shoulder blades?
Shape fragment I see a shape, possibly a line or deformed line of some color, maybe white.
Mixed fragment I am some girl, probably in the teens, and I might somewhat have the role of Buffy from Buffy the vampire slayer, but in the dream I hadn't discovered that yet. There was something with a father who might have done something bad with someone he keeps calling. At some point I am together in some forest or jungle with another girl, having discovered my role. At some point my view flew into the sky, as if it was in a game and it was showing that something is happening. I really need to get aware again, right as I got a bit less aware I stopped having lucid dreams so it's time to do that again. It's just a bit hard for me to remember where I was 15 minutes ago when I reality check, so I get stressed since I need to do it often as well.
Jamie 1 Just a flash of her putting a parcel together. Is she going to send me something? Jamie 2 Being on a street during the day with jamie and she is being distant saying she is looking for another boyfriend... Wait I thought she wanted to get married. I'm still waiting, pining and hoping. But she doesn't reach out to me at all.... If I wing up marrying someone else, it's because I had to settle for someone else under duress... anyway i see she is on a dating website. She then messages me through the site saying "LUV U!!!" I swear at times she is two separate people... I'm still waiting for that message for real tho.
Person fragment There was some person, I see some red, maybe a shirt, maybe at my home. Maybe the person was kidnapped at some point in the dream plot.
Last catch up entry for today I think. 23rd June 2020 Fragment: Remember seeing Discord. I had been removed from the Nx server, as it was no longer on the list. My friends looked shorter too. I soon realised A wasn't on the list anymore and I presumed I'd been removed from their friends list. I checked my Steam friends list and saw the same again. In the dream I remember thinking this was unsurprising, but all the same, disappointing. It made me feel as though I'd been used, and made irrelevant past a certain point. Notes: - This part of whatever dream it was from surely came about as part of my emotional processing of a few things, but primarily from a wariness so as to not let myself be lied to or used. - In the dream I think there was some subtext of libel against me.
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