non-lucid

9/25/10

1.
I was playing an AvA match on global agenda (online game,AvA is basically complicated capture the flag) but like,I was IN it. Anyway, I turned invisible and snuck past my enemies,and when I was behind where they were firing from cover,I threw a grenade. Took almost all of them out. I then proceeded to try to capture an area,which was going fine until the enemies came back. I took care of them though,but then realized my team lost another point. So I went to go capture a different area,while all the enemies were trying to kill me. And there was this one hawk lady thing, shooting claws at me. But my gun jammed so I had to go back for a new one (which obviously was annoying). Anyway,after the match was over the place turned into a beach resort/theme park type place. And I went into this shop and put the shoes I was wearing back,and got different ones. Turns out the shoes I was wearing I had rented from that place but forgot to pay. Suddenly my mom was there and she said to follow her, and I did, and she took me to the customer service desk. Where the guy fixed the renting thing. Suddenly I was teleported to what I think was another dream..

2.
Everything was black except for someone talking to me about how to cheat halo. (I don't even play halo) Then I was in a room with my brother,and we both had assault rifles. Turns out we had to get through an area infected with zombies. (I had watched I am Legend,a zombie ish movie the night I had this dream) Me,of course being the zombie killing/strategist from months of playing Left 4 Dead, took charge (being that I always want to be leader,also had something to do with it) and we slowly made our way through the house without much incident. Except for my brother falling through broken stairs into a room with a giant mutated zombie dog. Which he made it out of. Then,we fell through the floor into a room that looked like the stomach of something. And there was this big grey blobby creature talking to us about some evil plot or another. About how he was going to become so powerful, but he needed this diamond thing. And he wanted us to find it for him. Then suddenly we're outside, zombies trying to kill us and all. We shoot the few that are there, and start to go on, but then I realize that shooting ones that used to know us, without killing them cured them. So I went back for a couple, and they helped us. Suddenly we're in a river in a canyon. Me and someone else crashed on this indent that led to a cave in the wall. (my brother wasn't there anymore) We found a platinum and gold diamond ring (rare much?) and we ran into the cave (cuz it was a store) to get another "fake" ring, so we could give it to that evil dude who wanted a diamond. And as I get to the jewelry counter, there's this little girl that's right next to me that thinks I'm her mommy. (or daddy don't remember) And I tell her that I'm not, but I'll let her get anything in the counter (it turned into one of those cheap prize things from arcades). And she got 3 rings. And then the dream ended.

End Times
Clarity: 4/10
Importance:3/10
Sleep: OK
Sleep Position: Unknown

The world is ending, sort of. I see to be the only person who's planning on surviving, but I'm not clear on whether that's going to be on the ruined earth of in space somewhere. Either way, I fill up several 2 litre pop bottles with water and grab as much food as I can carry.

The time comes, and I'm standing next to some sort of tall demon/monster thing. The earth begins to crumble and fall away beneath us in chunks. The monstrosity and I are left standing at the edge of a cliff, and we know the ground beneath us will fall away too. The monstrosity says falling down will give him a good view of the earth being destroyed.

The ground give way beneath us and we fall. As I fall, I see all the waters of the earth being compressed far below me into a glowing white singularity, accompanied by a voice like in a nature documentary describing the process. The waters expand again into a large sphere, and the remaining debris of the falling earth rains down into it creating new land masses.

The monster and I both land on this pristine new world. All pollution is gone now. The planet has been reborn fresh and pristine.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning. This night wasn't a good recall night at ALL. Three fragments... But! I had a lucid dream during the 15 minute nap I took when I woke up! Awesome!

Night Fragments
*I'm at a carnival, and I have just been on some crazy ass ride. The whole world is spinning and I can't stand up straight. I almost fall over and walk like a drunk. I drop my bus tickets and I pick them up again after alot of effort.

*I'm standing on a hill overlooking a huge, green meadow with my two brothers. There are blue inflatable pools all around and we run towards them. I feel the water and it's pretty warm. I think we jump in one of them.

*I'm sitting in my sofa, and my dad hands me a few papers. "Look for a part time job" he says and I start looking. I see a pizza delivery job.

13.17: Dreamtask Complete DILD
I'm in a corridor. The walls and floor are made out of wood. A comfy, light-brown wood, with a nice shine to it. I know I'm in a dream and I start walking. I repeat to myself "What should I do?" but don't come up with a good answer. Apparently I'm at the local pub and I decide to see what Tommy (the owner) has to offer me.

I walk up to the bar and I can see that everything's made out of the same kind of wood. There's no one behind the bar, but I expect someone to come through one of the two doors I see. A second later, Tommy shows up and he looks alot younger. "This must be what he looked like when he was younger" I think for myself and smile at the man standing infront of me. He has orange curly hair instead of being bald. He's pretty fit instead of being fat, and he's actually smiling! I still don't know what I am supposed to do... "Why the hell is it so hard to remember?" I ask myself and decide to just ask him for the first thing that pops into my mind: Kolaremmar. (it's a chewy, long, fudge candy) I try to ask for them, but no sound comes out of my mouth! I try a second time but I only manage to produce a tiny whisper. He still gets it and takes out three of them, and hand them to me. The dream is starting to get less vivid and I decide to stabilize it. I run my hands over the fine wooden counter, really focusing on the feeling and how it looks like, and after a second, I'm back on track.

"Now I remember! I'm supposed to try out Dreamfruit" I tell myself and I ask him for some. I expect him to reach from behind the counter and grab me the Dreamfruit I've been craving for so long. He does exactly that and hands me half of a grapefruit, filled with all kinds of different colours. Exactly like the picture below. (I know, I shouldn't have expected anything) I'm afraid I will lose the dream before I get to taste it and I take a big bite, peel and everything goes into my mouth, and an explosion of sour/sweet bitterness fills it. I start drooling right away as I recognise several flavours: Lime, lemon, grape and orange. The overwhelming taste sensation de-stabilizes the dream and I get one more bite (this time it's pure sweetness) before the dream fades into nothing. But I don't care. I'd rather remember it all than trying for more, there's always a next time!

Amount of sleep: 8 hours

Food before bed: 100 mg B6

That's it! Finally after almost two months of craving, I get to taste the thing. Sadly enough it was something I expected it to be. My damn signature has been imprinted in my head, and when I think of dreamfruit, it pops up. Well it tasted amazing! I wonder what my next dreamgoal will be... Any ideas?



DREAMFRUIT----^

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

That is one of the most weird things I fell for in a non-lucid.

Dream 1: First scene in a room with a big window, a woman is crying in the arms of her husband. She desperatly needs to talk to the religion teacher at school, but she is forbidden unless the kids are in a speciality class, like physical education. The teacher is the only person that can help find Jesus's favorite meal: Giraffe Pie. You heard me. Giraffe. Pie. Can you even eat those? Anyway, I set out to find the pie for the crying woman. I find myself looking at a magazine with black and white pictures of women wearing 50's clothes. In the section on the left, there is a window with Regis Philbin talking. On the right, theres a giraffe category (?). I click it (yes, im on the comp) and it turns into women dressed up as giraffes. Apparently, theres a contest going on with that magazine. I close the window.

Dream 2: Stewie Griffin becomes lucid and starts doing awesome stuff (that bastard )

Dream 3: HUGE CHUNK HERE. I remember waking up and thinking that all my dreams were about school today, yet I see no school dreams yet. Maybe itl come later.

Dream 4: For the first time, I visit Dreamviews in a dream. I read a post of a guy and in his signature there is all his Dream goals and achievements. There is a list of how many times he shapeshifted into different things, like 4x Dragon, 3x Bull,... I think to myself that when I get better im going to be the Shapeshifting Master. The best shapeshifter in the whole freakin planet. I have yet to shapeshif though. For a pretty long time, I just think about things like that to myself while watching the post blankly.

Dream 5: I continuously go back to first dream in other dreams. I think to myself that Motley (DV user) must be a very religious person since he wants to turn into a giraffe (which is where I got the giraffe thing). I ask DCs if they avnt seen giraffes anywhere.

last night i had 3 dreams i can remember. tough two only really stand out

I'm standing in a room with various cast members from 'All my children', 'general hospital', and 'The young and restless'. (my co-workers now officially have me hooked)We all began packing our bags because we had to get ready for a plot twist, and apparently this plot twist involved us saving my brother from what was left of the cast members. once bags were packed Jason and Sonny loaded all the bag on to a plane, and we all boarded. Apparently sonny is Pilot. We did some funky 'stunts' in a 747, and then went hyper speed.

I woke up for a moment grumbled a bit, and went back to bed this time remembering to focus.

I was in my parents living room. and it was nice outside. I walked over to the bay window in the living room, and watched some rain clouds roll in. Then i saw it. A tornado. I began to panic. I ran to the basement, and i was just about to open the door to the safety room when I looked outside. There were people! (my parents basement has one side that faces the front yard because of the way it was build on a hill. This open side is mostly windows and french double doors.) Behind the people, a water spout was frantically running in circles inside the pond but never leaving.I questioned myself, and walked over to one of the doors pulling it open. The people rushed in, but there was no wind outside."I'm dreaming" I yelled, and a black priest walked over to me. He asked me if I needed to pray, and I told him "no". I felt myself loosing the dream, so I rubbed my palms together. It came so naturally I hardly had to think about it. It was almost like I'd been doing this forever. I looked back up at the priest, and told him "I'm not going to pray you pig, but if you turn in to a Sexy Sister and come to my room I maybe able to accommodate you." Hey it was worth a try. I went up stairs, turned around through the foyer, and headed down the hall to my room. I opened the door. The walls were still pink, the floor still soft carpet, and my bed was still by the door (when i left my parents 2 years ago i remolded. I turned my room in to a pirate ship. It had wood floors, old yellow parchment textured walls, and my bed was in the corner opposite the door.) I flopped down on my bed, and The priest came up, closed my door, and straddled me. (best dream control lesson EVER!) He pulled off his shirt, and I lifted my hands up I tried to get rid of some of his "extra weight" since he was not the thinnest man, but that failed so I gave him some nice round tits. It was amazing. I gave a man BEAUTIFUL breasts. S-he looked at the door "Someone it coming" S-he got off me, and hid in my closet (which now had the doors I'd removed). I rubbed my hands together just in case, and my boss Amy opened the door. She said something i didn't understand, and left. I looked at the clock, the time was now "7:gg:gg" I though Holy Fuck sweet! so I pulled out my cell phone out, and it was "8:8g:gg" I laughed, looked way and looked back, and it was "7:34:gg" This was to cool. I tossed my phone to the side, remembering the She-male I'd left in the closet. As soon as I stood I began to loose things, so I spun in one circle as I walked to the closet, and my ream stabilized. I opened the closet, and S-he smiled, and pushed me back to the bed. S-he got back on my hips, and i relaxed...

bad move because i woke up... D: I've never done a Lady boy before...(or rather as it seemed "had a lady boy do me") i hate myself for relaxing! BUT IT WAS SO FSKING SWEET!!!

However I know Today is going to be a great day. I turned a nightmare into an almost sexy dream.... hells to the yeah!

Yeye, it was a long time since I remembered a dream enough to write it down.

First there are some vague memories of playing trackmania with kim. Then I was playing (or experiencing) some other game that I think was oblivion. I was in a very dark hallway with a huge sword. Some undeads or something approached me and i had to slice them. Even though I was there myself, it did still feel as if I steered from a computer or something. For instance, I had to drag a mouse to swing the sword and it was somewhat difficult to time.

I proceeded through some hallways and corridors that were really dark with undeads here and there. Outside it was winter and really cold and windy. It was snowing those really small snow flakes that kinda stings your face when it is windy at the same time. The surrounding was quite different now and I had no sword or such. I walked around switching on lights to make it bright because the undeads wouldn't spawn then (lol i didn't realise before, but minecraft?). The place was some kind of apartment. Suddenly simon and some other friends that I can't remember was there. When I had lit up a part we said that it was a really cosy small apartment or something. It was a living room and some bedrooms.

I continued on to light more switches and realised that the place wasn't that small. I found a second living room with a really strange bass guitar hanging on the wall. I _think_ that I thought something like "Oh, that is a fugly bass guitar. It is only because this is a dream." or something but I didn't become lucid. I went down a basement (that I also lit up) and from there I found paths to the hospital culverts. I thought that was really cool because I have always enjoyed exploring the culverts. I saw a doctor that I followed. After a while I arrived at some kiosk thingy that were selling candy. I wanted to buy some. While standing there in queue, I took up my wallet to find two tio-kronor to pay with. I could only find one because my wallet were full of foreign money. Many were Australian, lol. I don't know where the other foreign money was from but many were really similar to tio-kronor and I never managed to find two.

I was in my car driving quite fast down one of the streets in my home city, Speedway, and heading for one of the malls. I was heading for Park Mall, though I was looking in the wrong place entirely, but I didn't seem to notice that. Somewhere in the back of my mind I knew this was a dream, but I didn't actively think about it, so I continued going about my business as if I was in waking life. There was someone beside me in the passenger seat, I think it was Tigress, and she was urging me to hurry up before it was too late. I could see tall mountains to the east of Tucson, which aren't there in waking life, the mountains there are rather small. But now they towered over Tucson and disappeared into the clouds, I couldn't even see the tops, and they were covered with thick forests and sheer cliffs. Finally I reached the mall and turned in to the parking lot, the mall was drastically different, too. There were so many trees around, all pine trees, it looked like the forest had moved in to reclaim the area used up by the mall.

Tigress and I got out of the car there, and we went to find what we were looking for, which was a specific pool that was out behind the mall. There was too much forest to park any closer to the pool, but the path leading there was pretty clear and easy to follow. Tigress and I followed the path until we came across something weird, something I haven't seen since I regularly created my own levels for the original Doom… What was referred to as a line definition problem, which was basically just a spot where the pieces of the world didn't meet up properly and the player was able to see out of the level and into infinity. But line def problems in a dream? How could that be? My dream wasn't a poorly constructed video game level!

I peered through a couple of these cracks in reality, and saw nothing on the other side but a blue sky. That was pretty weird, too. I looked through another of them and I saw a plane in the sky, writing letters with its contrail… I watched until the message was formed, then I could hardly believe what it said… It said, "James Still Loves You," with a large heart around it, what the fuck? Why was I seeing a dumb message like that, since I am fully convinced James never did really love me, he stayed with me for so long due to fear of being alone, and I was all he could get at the time… but now this? I was about to get Tigress' attention to point out the message to her when I woke.

I woke up on a bed that wasn't my own, but it was very familiar just the same, and I could hear someone whispering into my ear as I woke up. That someone was behind me on the bed, and he had an arm around me. I remained still and focused on hearing what he was saying, he was saying stuff like, "James loves you," and more shit like, "James will love you forever." I sat up and looked behind me, and it turned out I had been lying on James' bed and sleeping, I looked around the room, it was as cluttered with crap as ever. I got up off the bed, thinking this was really awkward, what would this look like when Tina got home, but then I decided I didn't care what it looked like to Tina.

I was thinking aloud when I asked what I was doing in James' bed, he answered by saying I had been tired so I had been taking a nap. He looked at me strangely and asked if I was ok, he looked genuinely concerned, but I know that if he was really concerned for my wellbeing he wouldn't have lied to me repeatedly and he had been the cause of so many nights when I cried myself to sleep… that's not love. I said I didn't know how I had gotten to that room, but I was leaving, James got up and actually blocked the door, now he was asking who I was. When I was dating James, the entities living in my inner world would sometimes take control of my body, with my permission, to either do something or more easily communicate with James, and apparently he thought that had happened this time. I told him to get out of the way, he said I was not leaving until I put Shanna (my waking life name) back in control. I told him it was me, and I just wanted to leave, but he didn't seem to believe that. I then noticed he was looking behind me, he had a strange look on his face, a rather shocked look. I looked behind me and saw a demon there, rather nasty looking. The demon went right past me, picked James up, and threw him through a portal where the window of the bedroom should have been. He smiled at me and said there were still more levels of dreams to go… then I woke.

So now I was lying on a couch in a strange house, but I thought I knew what was going on. My mother and I had been visiting friends for dinner, but I had suddenly gotten really tired, so I had lied down on the couch and fallen asleep. I was hoping no one had minded. I sat up and looked around, there were cats everywhere, so I went after the cats. I was able to catch a few of them, which I sat there for several minutes per cat petting and hugging that cat before releasing the cat. The house was absolutely huge, and when I lost track of the last cat I was a bit worried that I didn't know how to find my way back to the front door, I had actually gotten lost in a house! Then I woke.

I woke up in a seat that was only semi-comfortable, it was on a bus? No, I thought as I looked around, it was a train of some kind, perhaps a subway, and I wasn't entirely sure of how I had come to be there. My confusion didn't trigger a RC as it should have… I looked around the car I was in and saw it was empty except for me and a boy, who looked to be about 15 years old… he had short black hair, he was wearing a white buttoned shirt with blue jeans, and he was looking at me with the creepiest look I have ever seen from a 15 year old… I thought I should get off the train, so at the next stop I got up and moved towards the door. There was a crowd of people boarding, however, and I wasn't able to get off. All the seats filled up quickly and the door closed, now there were no open seats except for one right next to the creepy guy, and apparently I had to sit. The other passengers were glaring at me and telling me to sit so we could go, so I finally sat beside the kid. He continued to eye me with a creepy look, looked like he might have been in a trance… At this time I woke again, but this time I woke into waking life.

Wow… A dream(Tigress/mall) in a dream(with James) in a dream(house guests) in a dream(strange kid)… some seriously nested dreams going on here…

Good morning
Yesterday, I had the most vivid dreams I ever had Everything seemed so real, although the things I experienced were so illogic. In addition I nearly got lucid during my last dream but something woke me up

1. I'm checking my mails on my laptop and see that I've got an answer to my request for practical training (for those who don't know, I'm studying Education to become a teacher). The message says that they noticed my request, but unfortunately the school I wanted to go had no place for a student (apparently all the free places were already distributed). That's why they offered me another place at another school. I was a bit sad about it, but I saw that my new place is just down the road where in reality an industrial zone is
Suddenly, I'm outsides on a hill so I can see my place. I saw something very illogical: the industrial zone had gone, there was a huge lake and in the middle of a it an island. This island reminded me of a Siberian one: big mountains, ice, snow etc. I just thought: "OMG, this isn't a school but a Gulag! How can I learn to teach children on such a lonely place". Suddently I began to fly, I see the island under me, I see a bunch of walruses. It's very cold and it begins to snow.

I awake, it's 2 am. I do a RC, shows me that I'm awake, scribble down some notes and immediately fall back to sleep.

2. I'm in a tunnel. There are a few policemen an a DC. I have to go to the toilet. So I wanted to ask a policeman were the bathroom is But I forget about it, because as soon as I walked towards the policeman, he asked me a few questions. Apparently, I'm a witness of an terrible car-accident, in which a rocket-propulsive-car is involved. The DC, who is the owner of this futuristic car claims that he didn't do anything. He claims that he didn't drive with an excess of speed. That's why the policeman asked me questions about the accident. I try to remember.
Suddenly I'm standing in a field, which is located near my home-town on a hill. I'm waiting for a bus (and there isn't a bus-stop). I see a car which drives at 150km/h. It doesn't take the road but short cuts over a field, so that it doesn't has to slow down to take a curve

3. I'm in my bedroom, and turn my laptop off. Again, I have to go to the bathroom xD. But I open the door and I'm outsides. It's a beautiful day, it's hot and the sun is shining. I'm in front of a house. The house looks like the one in the night of 9/20. There is a fence and a woman writes with white colour a telephone number on it. The house is going to be sold. After finishing her "paintings" she takes a shovel and digs around the house. I take a look on my watch, it's 2:45 pm. The woman says to me that I have to help her. I take again a look on my watch, it's 3:05.
"I've got to go I'm sorry" is my answer. "I have to take the bus" xD
The woman gets a bit angry and says, that I'm looking for an excuse But I ignore her and go away.
Suddenly I'm in my house. I'm in a hurry because I know that I have a ticket for an exclusive Klaxons concert. I'm excited, my bus comes in a few minutes. I put on my sandals. I get a bit confused. Why am I putting on sandals? I take a look how I'm dressed. I wear a awful shirt. "I can go to a concert when I'm dressed like this!", was my first thought. I'm getting very distrustful and I'm asking myself where the concert takes place. I can't remember. I can't even remember what I've done previously. I want to perform a RC

AND than I woke up E
ARRRRR I was soooooooo close

Was hiking down a mountain. Got to near the bottom when I realized I had forgotten something. Against my personal ethic of taking care of myself I offer to pay a younger man to hike back up to fetch it, assuring him, truthfully, that it's not too far up. He accepts... I forgive R.

Rockin'
Clarity: 8/10
Importance:6/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm at a music festival. I know Gord Downie and the Country of Miracles are playing, but I don't plan on seeing them because I don't really like Gord's solo stuff. But the band I'm currently watching is really awful. So awful in fact, that they get pulled off the stage, and replaced with Gord Downie. I'm surprised to see a crackhead I know take the stage with them on the guitar.

So they start playing, and to my surprise, it's awesome! Song after song and it's all great. They even play some Tragically Hip songs like "Looking for a Place to Happen". After the show concludes, I walk away from the stage and see a woman rolling a joint. I approach her and ask if she has an extra nug she can sell me. Turns out she has lots. She hand me a nice looking bud, only a couple of grams worth. When I ask her how much, she tells me 50 bucks. I'm offended by the high price and we get into an argument. She's really rude and I tell her I might just keep it without paying her anything.

Her boyfriend shows up, an ugly old dude, and shoves me. He talks crap until I finally hit him, but my punch is weird, kinda slow and no power. The guy, who now has crutches, comes at me trying to use one of his crutches as a weapon. I grab his other crutch and wield it like a staff, nailing him in the head over and over, but still I'm landing weak blows.

I'm now concerned with my lack of punching prowess. I toss aside the crutch and decide to focus on the basics. Since my form is fine, I focus on drawing power from speed. I punch him a few more times, and my punches are improved, but they still don't feel right.

Bow Craft
Clarity: 5/10
Importance:4/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

Some local kids come to my door to show my their weapons. They have some swords and bows, although their bows are rather small and crappy. I take out my bows to show them and try to draw the string, but I can barely move it. I keep trying and eventually get the bow to give a little, but when I release it, the bow doesn't spring back and the string just sags. That's weird, I think, so I go to my room to fetch my other bow.

I enter to find two of the kids running around in my room, and that angers me. I yell at them and chase literally chase them out. My brother chastises me for being so mean.

In my room I see an empty case of beer, but it's full of melted ice. I worry it's going to soak through the cardboard and spill, but when I inspect it, it's not leaking. It must have been made to hold ice. But when I try to pick it up, the corner rips and water floods everywhere. I grab towels and blankets to soak up the water so it doesn't ruin the hardwood, but the more I try to clean it, the more water there is.

Water Park
Clarity: 4/10
Importance:2/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm at a water park with friends from high school. We run around the facility and I recognize areas from a previous dream. The bunch of us go on a ride aboard this huge wooden raft like boat down a river. Everything is fine until I spot this huge violent waterfall. I fully expect us to plunge over the falls and have the boat crash beneath the water nose first. But when we go over, the boat glides slowly though the air like it's made of light styrofoam, and we gently touch down in the water.

The ride stops for a moment and we disembark. We're waiting for it to start again, but the employees have all gone left. I see the other boats ahead of us traveling down the river. I walk back to the building that contains the change room to get my close, but it too is closed and there are no lights on. Several other people show up who want in.

I begin to worry because my wallet, clothes and car keys are in there. Someone tries the door and it's unlocked, we we all head to the change room and get our stuff out of the lockers. I can't seem to find the right locker.

Home
Clarity: 7/10
Importance:4/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I go out into the backyard to smoke some tobacco through a bong. I try to stay out of sight because it looks funny and I don't want the neighbours to see, but someone moved the table out in the open. There is a round patch of dead grass, dirt and ants where the table was before.

My father comes out and informs me he moved the table. As we walk across the dead patch, our feet sink deep into the ground. It's very soft. Where our feet sank in, an infestation of ants and insects bursts our of the ground from our foot prints. It's disgusting, and my father says we're going to have to tread the whole yard with pesticides.

I know where they are, and go into the basement to fetch the bottle. I enter a room and see it's set up like a laundry mat, with very old washers and dryers and a stack of wire carts suspended from the ceiling. I think it's a very cool find, left behind by the previous owners of the house, and I wander around inspecting things before I decide to lay down for a nap.

My nap is interrupted by voices calling me, and I remember we are supposed to have family visiting. My aunt is in the doorway and I feel a cat curled up on my head. I begin to yell "Cat on my head! Cat on my head!" after an old Kids in the Hall sketch. The cat very friendly, practically hugging me. It tucks it's head in the nape of my neck and begins to make a horribly strange sound.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG


23:20 GMT – Sleep

Fragment
I’m on some meeting and I am extracting energy from both my surroundings and the instructor who is talking.

2:20 GMT

Business fair
I’m on Mercado da Ribeira (a market in Lisbon). There’s some kind of fair going on and I see my friend Alfredo there, talking to other people. I also need to talk to him. I wave at him and he makes some sign that we’ll talk later. I’m behind a desk and showing some samples of some aromatic butter-like substance, in different colours and odours. Two foreign visitors are enjoying the smell of a lavender-butter when by my left side appears my most recent ex-boss. She tells them something in a very rude way. I don’t remember what, but included the word “shit”. They are shocked at her manners. She admits she is a bit stressed but doesn’t think she said anything inappropriate. While she waits for their reaction or answer, she goes away meet this other group of people where my friend is included and the two guys open up with me. I tell them she used to be my boss and that they have no idea... They showed solidarity with me but I tell them they should still close the deal with her, despite everything.

Crazy kid and vacation at resort
I’m on some tall building. As I entered and climbed the stairs I noticed it is practically empty, with just a few neighbours on the lower floors. I go to some top floor, looking for something or someone and enter an apartment, which I sense like mine or a place where I’m temporarily staying. It is totally empty, but my cat is there. Some windows are open and I rush to close it (because of the cat). Then some friends arrive and with them is an evil kid. He keeps playing with a knife and saying he is going downstairs and kill the neighbours. I tell him to behave and he also threatens me with the knife. Now I’m pissed and I confess I fear for cat, who is vulnerable around a deranged kid like this. I use all my best psychology skills to change his attitude but he improves just a little bit.
Then I talk to my friends and we’re exchanging stories about tourists in trouble – like these guys who stayed at this sleezy hotel with a code to enter the room instead of key (which in itself is ok) but then the owner of the hotel would sell the codes to some mafia guys who would kidnapped people in the middle of the night, for human trafficking. Not nice. I remember I will be travelling again soon and hope I don’t happen to stay in such places.
Then we all go outside and I realise we’re on some type of touristic area. One of the friends needs to go to her apart-hotel to get something and I see we’re in some kind of beach resort.

5:15 GMT

Marrying a cousin
I’m on some room similar to my older room at mom’s house and lots of family members are there, including my mom and my cousin R. I don’t recall the entire conversation but my family is convinced we should marry – me and my cousin. They say it’s not a consensual decision, that they are not happy about it, but considering the circumstances it is the only solution. I wonder what the hell justifies that? I’m not pregnant of him or anything. When I was a kid I had a crush on him, but that was it. My cousin is looking at me, anxious for my answer and I find this all very odd.
I walk around the room and find my Tanto (a Japanese dagger) broken on the floor – the grip separated from the blade. I fix it, upset that someone had broken it and I turn to my family and tell them no. I don’t want to marry my cousin, I don’t have any reasons to do so. Why are they even considering such a stupid thing?

My mom pregnant
Later I talk to my mom alone and she tells me she is worried. She recovered 3 of the 4kgs she had lost with her new diet. She says its not because of overeating, she thinks she is pregnant. I’m totally surprised, but the “worst” is yet to come. I ask who would be the father of the child and she tells me it’s my father. Then I’m totally shocked – they are separated for more than 10 years now and there’s no way they can get along ever again. How the hell this happened? She says she does not plan to get back with him, that it was just an accident and that’s why she is freaking out.

Shrink to atom size
I’m on a bathtub and decide to do RC. I realise I’m dreaming and get lucid. I decide to shrink to atom size. I close my eyes, because I decided to try it this way when I was awake. It is kind of working, I feel myself shrinking. When I open my eyes I’m about the size of a human finger. I see two huge people approaching and we're on this enormous room (bathroom) with an endless table by my right side, that looks like a tall platform on top of really high columns. I close my eyes again and continue shrinking but this time I almost wake up and have to make an effort to stay “on”. When I try to open my eyes I feel my “real” eyes opening and have to stop not to wake up. Then, when I feel I’m more stable on the dream, I open my eyes slowly, but all I see is darkness. I no longer have body or shape, I’m just consciousness in a dark void. All I see is very faint clusters of white dots, like distant stars or galaxies. It actually looks like outerspace, but I try not to judge the result. Probably the atomic world looks like outerspace.

My guru’s mandala fortress and reversed gravity
Then I close my eyes again and think of next task (this one set by me). When I open my eyes I am on some house. I decide to summon a portal, like the blue water-like portal I saw some days ago in a dream. But I fail to do so. Not even a ripple in the time-space continuum. So I stick to the mirror approach. I find a wardrobe with a mirror on the door and I think I want to go meet my guru. Then I cross the mirror and find myself on this green area facing a huge wall, like a fortress, in front of me. I see some guy at the top of the wall and decide to fly to there. For some reason it is not easy and something is keeping me from flying to the top. I am blocked like 1 meter away from the top but this guy gives me a hand and pulls me inside.
Once inside I see this plateau, with lush gardens and some pretty houses. There’s a group of people around some table I presume are his students and I ask them where can I find our guru. A hippie like blond bearded guy tells me he will be at the casern at 7 o’clock. I wonder where is that and what 7 o’clock is he referring: mine or this place’s? I think tht maybe my guru is not asleep at this moment and therefore I cannot meet him, but I’m not sure if it works that way – Buddhist teachers are said to be always available to the students, always!
[On awaking I looked for the meaning of casern and found this: In fortification, caserns are little rooms, lodgments, or apartments, erected between the ramparts and the houses of fortified towns, or even on the ramparts themselves; to serve as lodgings for the soldiers of the garrison. This confirms I was indeed in a fortress.]
Then these guys just leave to go somewhere and leave me alone. I decide I can’t wait until 7:00, if it’s mine 7:00 because by then I will be waking up. I look around and find a second wall in the centre of this fortified town – a fortress within a fortress - and decide to go there. This time I manage to fly directly to the top of it.
I find a second group of people – more of his students – also around a table on some lovely terrace. They are eating and I decide to join them. Once again I ask for our guru, but this time, from my right side a head leans forward and I see my teacher’s face looking at me, surprised. Hi say hi and ask if it’s ok that I looked for him. He says “Sure, why not!” But then it’s hard to chat with him, with all these people around and someone between us. Anyway I had prepared something to say but I feel maybe I should wait for him to talk to me. Then he starts joking around – his face transforms. First I think – could he be just a DC I’m projecting, but his signature was so real. Then when the transformation ends, he has the face of Mao-Tse Tung. I laugh, because that’s something he would definitely do to jerk around with us. I ask why he changed his look to Mao and then he changes again and he’s now an old lady with white hair, glasses and granny’s clothes. He is just being himself.
Then everybody gets up and my guru flies away. He actually went down to the lower level fortress. From up there, where we are, it looks like a giant green lush valley. Others start following him, although a bit clumsily. I fly to join them and my guru is telling his students how they need to improve their flying skills. Some of them are really at basic level. Managed to jump down here, but lit off, no way. So I show off by flying graciously around, as a dolphin swimming in the ocean. I flip, I swirl, I go up and down, pass by them high speed. Oh, ego.... then I realise above us is not the sky but very high ceiling, kilometres high ceiling. I go there and put my feet on it, trying to walk on it like a fly.
Then I remember the reversed gravity trick, which I never tried and decide to put it t test. I think about the guys down there who might get hurt, but at least my guru will for sure be just fine. Still I make a wish that nobody gets hurt and I say “reversed gravity” and all of the people and objects that were down below start to fall to the ceiling and I laugh, as it is quite amusing. Then I reverse it again.
I go back to the ground and everybody is dispersing, to practice on their own, I guess. I find my guru sitting under a tree and go meet him. He asks me why I am so persistent in following him? What do I want from him? Do I want to marry him? I laugh and say no. I tell him with this exact words “No, I don’t want to marry you, I’m simply hungry and thirsty (of knowledge)” and I feel it in my heart with 100% conviction. He smiles, like I just gave the right answer and he tells me not be so impatient. He tells me things will happen on due time and that I had to understand that I am already having privileged access to him and that I should think about that. Then he gets up and goes away and I wake up.

6:55 GMT – Wake up

(I guess at 7 a.m. he needed to be at the casern )

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

0:00 GMT – Sleep

Nothing...

4:00 GMT

School play
On some house with some girls. We are being prepared by hairdressers and dressed up for some photo shoot. One lady tells me to sit on a chair and that a hairdresser will spray my hair, nothing too elaborate. But when I sit she asks me something totally absurd, like to take my hair off and I reply that it won’t come off as it is attached to my head. She looks upset and leaves. Then another colleague takes over but this one wants to dye my hair. She is preparing some dye and I feel really worried, because she is a total disaster, she mixes all the wrong dosages, spills on the floor, I mean, she would burn my hair with that disastrous concoction. One of the girls on some other chair is Vera and she looks at me also worried. For some moment we think this is maybe for Candid Camera or something like it and she gets up and looks for cameras behind the mirror and so on.
I also get up and am on my way to some other room. First I pick up some tiny plaque with a number on it and stick it to some board on the wall.
Then I meet a group of girls – one that I recognise from school, called Liliana and they are sharing food. Once again I have to say I’m vegetarian and they look shocked and tell me the usual crap that I will be undernourished. I tell them, I’m vegetarian for 10 years, do you think I look undernourished? And I pose with my fantastic body  They shut up and I say “There’s your answer”.
Then I finally realise we’re all being prepared for some kind of show, like a school play. Families of the youngsters are coming to see it. One guy is taking it so seriously that he is freaking out with nervous. A girl tells him to calm down, but he is trying to command the troops and has prepared everything to the ultimate detail, including a serious wardrobe.
The girl was losing her patient but when she sees the wardrobe he prepared, becomes totally charmed, as well as all the other girls. Everybody dresses up and magic happens. No one’s a kid anymore preparing for a school play, instead we’re all nobles on some kind of real life fairy tale and everybody is just incarnating its role. Some girl wears a princess dress and even birds and butterflies are following her around.

8:00 GMT – Wake up

9/23/10
I am in some sort of competition with a man who has brown skin.
I had more but I woke up and stayed for too long in bed trying to recall the dream and went back to sleep again.
9/24/10
I go out with a black girl. But my parents don't approve. I think she wore a light blue top. And I see her in a mall. I saw nothing else.
Again I'm sure the dream was longer but the same thing as yesterday happened.
I will put my dream journal nearer to myself that way it will be easier for me to take down the dreams.

I am in a room. I notice subconsciously that it is a starting room and there are about fifteen other people in the room with me. We are all told that we have to sort out among ourselves who is in which team. I go down the first slide along with 3 others, 4 people go down the second slide and the seven people who do not go down the first or second slides go down the third which is a lot smaller than the other two. I see bars near it. The people in the first two slides go down and we end up in a beautiful landscape. We're told to go find the flags and that we have 30 minutes. My friends and I go up into a vineyard and find a flag on one of the posts. Then the time is up. We look around the other side and discover that there is another flag there. We are sucked back up the slides and start again. This time I am in the third slide and it's like an ice cave down there. The dream finished there.

I am going to some country in Africa. Apparently Mt. Everest is there. I am in a room of people who seem to be celebrating something, I have the feeling that it has nothing to do with me. I feel like we're probably talking about mt kilimanjaro but I just roll with it. It's time for me to go so.. I am instantly zapped there, of course.

Upon arrival there is a sort of carnival/festival thing going on that is also somewhat reminiscent of a renaissance fair. I was wandering around and looking at things for sale. There were a lot of fireworks and children gathered around. They all started spinning on the ground and then exploded into huge bursts of color.

There is a woman selling big boxes of rice candies. You know, the kind that have the rice paper over them and there's always a sticker or something in every box. Those. We had a long conversation about them and she gave me a big box of all of them. Upon tasting them though they tasted like the boca/veggie chicken nuggets with chocolate all over them, which, isn't very tasty, at least in dreams.... I haven't tried that in waking life.

Anyway, I ended up somehow getting a memo that I had to go back to Oregon, so I did. Upon arrival I was somewhat bitter that I had to leave so soon. After some conversations it was decided that I could go back and possibly choose another place to visit.. So, I went back, and I think I was meeting my mom there. Because when I got there I was in the middle of a huge plains where there were monkeys and rhino's and in the distance I saw a huge lurking lion. I knew that there were things that I should not take my chances with so, I jumped into what was, er, a weird buggy-golf cart thing that had a bubble of glass over it. It felt safer in there, anyway. I began calling my moms name and wondering where she could have gone off to.

I found a school that had a fenced gate and went inside, there was a giant monkey who was chasing me, and those things can get violent. We were both pulling back and forth on the gate to the school until it seemed to be more of a dance than anything else. My mom came out of nowhere and the monkey rested his head on her shoulder and went to sleep. She said she had to go.

I turned back to the school which was only one or two rooms and looked pretty dingy. I could hear the faint sound of drums echoing from inside so I ventured nearer. D came walking out holding some drum sticks, smiling. He said he just got out of band practice and that things had gone really well. I told him that was awesome and kissed him on the cheek. We started walking away holding hands, and then we heard music coming from back inside of the school. D got pretty upset at this, saying how they were all loading their instruments up when he left, and now he could hear another drummer in there. We went back to Oregon.

Dream changed/completely different dream

I decided to go to Eugene, OR. I'm not precisely sure why. I think I decided to move and go to school there at some point during this dream. It started out that I was visiting, then changed to I lived there and it also resembled San Francisco (hills where all the houses were all squished and mushed up against each other).

I'm walking up a hill that is san francisco-esque, when I start looking at a window in one of the houses. There is lots of art work and weird hieroglyphic writing. Someone calls my name and I turn around, it's some tall guy who is blonde and looks oddly disproportionate. There's someone in there that I'm supposed to see, but I don't know who they are. I begin painting a piece of glass for some reason, and the tall blonde guy comes over and takes it from me, "what are you doing? That is not how you paint, you do it like this," and he begins taking globs of paint and just sort of throwing it onto the piece of glass. "You see, I am a genius, watch as I make masterpiece."

I shrugged this off and he just gave me a nasty smirk. Some people came in and said that we were going to X (not sure where). We all walked outside together. Blonde guy began putting paint all over his face and chest as we walked, and he started talking about how great he is. I think I said something along the lines of, "you're not all that great, and you've never made a masterpiece in your life."

He smiled and turned to me and said, "I like you, because you are right. I only do these things because it fits the strange persona that I would like to convey to other people. Teachers think I am great because I can just do something completely weird and off the wall that they don't understand and they think it's brilliant, while you see that I am just a regular boy who wants people to pay attention to me."

I think the dream ended around here.





Oh yeah, at some point during the dream I was walking around with a video camera and making music videos. Lots of songs kept playing over and over in my head, all different ones.