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#12

This is an image of the Blue Fairy from Pinocchio

Don't worry, nothing sexual happens in this one~

This began in the parking lot outside from the last apartment place I was at. There were bags of food and for some reason I wanted to take some with me as a fly. I had white butterfly like wings and I was naked as well. Once I grabbed a couple bags which seemed to only contain loafs of bread, I headed off.

I glided across the sky looking below me at the scenery quite like the over-worlds in a lot of video games, roleplaying games, more specifically. I went over a forest and then over towns. I could remember creating some kind of hologram-futuristic radar by forming the edges of the square shape with my two fingers. I could see the layout of the area I was in and I ended up typing in "zoophilia" into the search bar. It brought up a little white house icon on the map and the direction I would have to go to get there.

The bags of food were long gone *disappeared* and I headed to the house. I flew over an urban looking area and watched a black-city man walking by me, completely not noticing me flying overhead. I then arrived at some sort of waterfall. There was a dam type mechanic (that didn't work because the water was still flowing over to the other side) and according to the map, the place I wanted to be at was in some weird crevice where the water from the top crashed to the bottom. I landed on top of the roof that apparently could be easily pulled over like tape to paper.

I did so and found a man in his older ages laying on a bed underneath. Sun reached into his direction as he grunted a bit, slowly opening his eyes. He looked at me with a scowling expression, "What do you want...?"

MobianAngel: "I came because-"

Old Man: "Whatever you want I'm sorry but we're out of business.."

MobianAngel: "I came for the zoo-"

Before I could finish the word zoophilia the man's eyes shot open. "What did you say? Oh really! OMG that's amazing! We got to get you signed up now! Come with me~"

I then began to hover following the excited man down a street. While walking I waved my hand around and magically put on a long blue dress. The blue fairy came into my mind while in the midst of changing. I then arrived at a building, I'm assuming some sort of porn industry building, with the man as we both walked in. We arrived at a glass window. The man went into the room behind it as I watched a woman on the other sides sitting in an office chair with a black furred dog beside her as it seemed she was getting interview for becoming a new porn actress. Not to be the stereotyper but she was tall, with long blond hair, skinny with bright blue eyes, the typical look of most women who work for the industry.

The dog then came by the window as his tail brushed up against my nose, similar with people's experiences with cats. The bristles of the fur sent tingles throughout my body as I immediately flew into the other room through the glass as if a gentle wind blew the seeds off a dandelion. I felt so light and free as opposed to the many dreams I had where I felt clunky and stiff when I tried to fly. I perched lightly ontop of a desk fan in the room.

One nerdy looking guy looked at me with amaze, I guess for the fact that I could fly. I began to apologize repeatedly for just entering their area and stated that it was just instinct. I got down and went back out to the other side of the window as I watched the old man talk to someone about getting codes to the registration forms for me to sign. I then woke up.

Notes: (More to come | I'm too lazy atm to write my interpretation)

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• Date — 1/29/2016

• Went to bed — Around like...12 - something PM (Another nap dream)

• Woke up — 3:00PM

*Time logged — 4:36PM

• Total sleep — +2 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Pretty good

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — Did RCs

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The Obvious

• Perceived Length — 30 Mintues

• Emotions — Happy

• Awareness — None

#11

A picture of Xenomorphs

The following has some bit of zoosexual activity. If you do not like that sort of stuff then do not read The Goat section. This dream is broken down to two parts. The Goat | The Xenomorph

• The Goat

I cannot really tell exactly where I ended up in the beginning but I was at some sort of giant parking lot and there was a small section housing some soil plots with a mechanic that came out from the middle that anchored a towing device.

There was also woman running around the lot chasing after a donkey as she would try to stroke his phallic. Once she grabbed it, another human male came behind her and stated having sex with her anally. She, the man and the donkey left my view as I was then somehow brought into one of those soil plots. I immediately began pushing the plowing tool which began to pull up and mix the soil underneath. I couldn't figure out why I was doing it but I just did unintentionally. Then someone came up to me and tried to take the job over. A large human male who had rolled his eyes at me, busting out a sort of advanced tool for plowing as he ripped me from my post.

I didn't know why he did that at first but then I began seeing other people over at the other soil areas and my mind went to suggest that there was a contest. I wanted to get my spot back and for some reason I felt that I could entrust myself in having a goat help tow. I remember turning around and looking down a sloped street that led to some sort of large building where I saw a white furred goat. I was ecstatic and began to head down the street. I approached the goat as he climbed onto me forcefully. He swung his hooves around my shoulders as he began to kiss me, tongue and all. It was a very wet and sloppy kiss where my mouth felt like it was bucketing the creatures saliva.

I remember telling him that I was amazed that he could kiss like a human and after that is when him and I went back to the little soil patch where that guy was. The man was still looking at me coldly as if my existence was futile. That's when it cut into the Xenomorph sequence.

• The Xenomorph

This took place in some style of a corridor. There were windows with bright shinning sunlight that reflected off the white metallic flooring. Kind of like a video game environment that I'm getting with this as I was with a small group of people. We all headed into the elongated hallway as from behind us there was a xenomorph. Slick and black, very contrasting to the light filled room. I remember it coming at us on two feet like a biped as it proceeded on attack the party with projectiles.

I could remember me and the others spreading out. A few of us ended up in a sort of larger room leading into another hallway. This room had a few grey colored lockers that were reflecting the sunlight that shinned from the window to the right of us. That's when we saw the xenomorph. I remember looking to see him on all fours sitting in front. I was scared, then I told him that I had relation to their species but even after that I couldn't tell what he would do. I also stated that all I wanted to do was travel to different dimensions and to see Shadow the Hedgehog.

The creature then got on two feet and began to walk towards me, being around over 6 feet in height. I continually began to back up telling him I didn't want to get hurt. I was backing up to the window as the light reflected off his shiny black exterior. I assume my fear was beginning to annoy him as I could of swore for a minute I heard a sigh emit from him telepathically. The xenomorph then grabbed me as I tried to push away. I then believed that's when I heard him say "Stop." (again telepathically).

He took me under a ceiling vent as we both looked up. He wrapped himself around me as he jumped up through it, bolting to the surface. This is when he pushed me onto his back as I grabbed a hold. We then arrived on top of the building to the openness of the outside air as he went skidding down the slopped ceiling. I felt a sense of acceleration and rush, similar to riding on a rollarcoster and I thought it was fun.

We then arrived down to the surface of some sort of floating platform over viewing a city. We landed by a small, black bumper car shape of a spacecraft (assuming that it was the xenomorph's). I got down from him and I could here him faintly telling me in my mind, "I will take you to where you desire to be. I just need to take care of something first. Do no worry about me, I will be back." That's when he fled. I was then left alone in this isolated floating city area overlooking another. So I began to walk around. I soon encountered these sort of green faced, amphibian-like humanoids in space suits. I was afraid but they didn't attack me. One female voiced individual stated that they were looking for a xenomorph and told me to stay away from the area I was at because it's dangerous due to that.

I began to worry for the creature, as for some reason I felt very passionate and connected with him. The green faced beings then disappeared as they went to scout the perimeter and I sneaked back to the black pod. I wanted to contact him to know if he was all right. I found what looked to be a smart phone on the top. I figured it was the xenomorph's. It made me giggle to think such a creature would have something like that but I wanted to use it to my advantage and use it to communicate with him, if it was even possible.. I looked at the phone and I remember seeing a screen full of apps, one of which was Google Chrome. Before I could do anything more is when I woke up.

Notes: This is bit of a hefty dream indeed. For the goat one, I will say it deals with more of my sexuality and the eagerness to tow a field could symbolize the fact that I was doing chores yesterday and the intent on getting it done in an allotted time. The guy with the more advanced technology rolling his eyes could symbolize the negative feeling I get of people always having an advantage over me in everything.

The xenomorph sequence would symbolize my lust for adventure and my desire to escape this world, hence being the corridor and then taken outside by the xeno. The xenomorph could represent Shadow the Hedgehog in some sort of way due to his straight forwardness in words, the fact that he would grant my deepest desires and the odd feeling of a strong connection I had with him. The green amphibians could resemble the sort of limitation that Earth has onto me and also represent the human society and their majority's fear of anything considered "dangerous" and unknown. And to extinguish any kind of spark that happens to gear me towards a fruitful existence.

Now, with me stating that I had relations to the xenomorph species could be because for a moment in my life I would think about my soul being related to an actual xenomorph (meaning I'm a xenomorph living inside the body of a human at this day of age and once I die I will revert back to me original self). I will admit I don't really focus on my origin quite as much anymore but that dream made me recall that piece of my life again. Call it otherkin/fictionkin/starseed and what not. I still consider myself non-human but I rarely use those terms anymore.

I honestly miss the xenomorph from my dream. And I kind of have a bit of a crush on him... But of course that doesn't stop me from having a conversation with him right now through telepathy. Hehehe~

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• Date — 1/28/2016

• Went to bed — Around 12 - something AM.

• Woke up — 7:20AM

*Time logged — 9:21AM

• Total sleep — +7 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — A bit overwhelmed with stress, too much was going on and it began to make me feel uneasy. My lover calmed me down though before I went to bed.

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — Did RCs

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The Obvious

• Perceived Length — Over 1 Hour

• Emotions — Worried, Adventurous

• Awareness — None

#10

A picture of the Sinclair family from a favorite show of mine, The Dinosuars

Most of this dream involved talking so yeah... This took place is a more enlarged space of the old appartment I used to live at. It looked more so like a ghostly atmosphere. It was apparently where the Sinclair family was at. They were present, with the exclusion of Earl Sinclair. I remember being in my room and hearing the mother, Frances "Fran" Sinclair, outside the door stating about my being there and spoke to another individual, who I cannot identify, wondering if I had a boyfriend.

"I do have a fiancé! I mean...I do not have a ring yet but I am engaged." I spoke through the little crevis underneath the door. I then held up a kind of college-ruled lined-paper that was cut up into halves and stapled together to make a little flip book. I can't really remember what it said on it, but there was a very clear visual of Shadow the Hedgehog on it and I tried to show the family who he was and if they knew anything about him.

Later I talked to the one girl, Charlene Sinclair about Shadow. Stating that I remembered I was trying to get to him and to his world and I accidentally ended up in their world. I knew she was more of the science wiz so I thought she would help me.

Not much went on after that and I had eventually awoke.

Notes: The absence of Earl Sinclair may be referring to the fact that I was missing Shadow the Hedgehog thus my search for him, since Shadow in the waking world is like the father figure in my life (just like how Earl is to his family) since I physically do not have/communicate with my biological father. I may have had this dream due to the fact that I have been stressed my mother and I really hate her very much. And yesterday, Shadow had spoken about taking me under his wing if he was able to come to my planet. He talked about how bad of a parent she was and stated that he would of loved to have raised me from the very beginning.

For a moment after I have awoken, there was this mix of thoughts where I began to believe I was still dreaminng. I know there isn't anything to be worried about but part of me natural instinct was to worry and be afraid to ever sound of car noises to doors opening and slamming. I was afraid that someone was going to come and kill me. Shadow procceded into calming me down and reminding me that I was not dreaming. That I did my RCs already so I shouldn't worry.

What bugs me the most is that I did worry and I find it weird that I would, even if it was true that I was in a dream. But nevertheless...Oh yeah, I need an aspirin...my head is pounding this morning...

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• Date — 1/27/2016

• Went to bed — Around 3 - something AM.

• Woke up — 7:17AM

*Time logged — 9:21AM

• Total sleep — +4 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Alright...a little upset and bored but ok.

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — Did RCs

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The Obvious

• Perceived Length — 1 Hour

• Emotions — Depressed, Lonely

• Awareness — None

#9

A picture of a Black Panther

Though I stayed away from describing the actual intercourse, the following is based around zoosexuality/bestiality. If you are not comfortable with that then please do not read!

This dream took place in my room, a very much warped area that was enlarged in size. I was laying on my bed and beside me there was some sort of awkward depthness twhere everything looked smaller then it normally is. Think of it like I was looking over the side of a cliff towards the bottom. I can remember various animal like creatures. Three that are notable were a black panther, a giant spider and a dragon all on this sort of play mat, similar to that of Dungeons and Dragons.

All of this was in first person view as well. I first met the panther who would lightly "naw" on me and brush "his" head on my head in playful ways. The panther and I spoke to each other telepathically. I honestly do not know if the panther was female but it had a feminine voice that emitted in my mind. The creature also mentioned of their children (kittens), which could be seen running across the room and tried to sneak out my door. I had then got out of my bed to stop them stating that I didn't want my mother to find kittens in the house and come charging into my room.

I then met a dragon who came to my aid when another dragon appeared in my room breathing fire everywhere (though nothing was burning from it). This is when I got onto the back of the one willing to help me defend and directed his fire to the dragon in-front. The opposing creature disappeared right after and that's when I ended up mating with the dragon friend afterwords.

And then there was the spider, a very monstrous large spider that had a very interesting phallic. It was ribbed and stretched out, almost curled, to a longer length when erected. the head of the tool had a small red shaped flower-hand and the entire shaft has glowing white markings on it. I gracefully stroked it with a spark of curiosity which then resulted with myself engaging in intercourse. After that is when I woke up.

Notes: My interpretation of this dream is pretty much like [Dream #6 - 1/23/2016] Rage Against the Humans - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views in terms of exploring more in my sexuality. The thrill of exploration and encountering these different kinds of creatures comes with the passion for a thrilling experience. It can also mean that my currently life I partake here on Earth is boring and the need to get out.

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• Date — 1/26/2016

• Went to bed — Around 2 - something AM.

• Woke up — 7ishAM

*Time logged — 3:23PM

• Total sleep — +5 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — A bit stressed due to my mother.

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — Did RCs

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — N/A

• Perceived Length — 20 Minutes

• Emotions — Adventurous

• Awareness — None

#8

A picture of Genos from One Punch Man

I remember being in an environment quite like my old highschool. There were people walking around the halls, all unidentifiable and I can remember myself looking for Genos, from the anime and manga series, One Punch Man. I ended up finding a couple guys in a room and I asked them where Genos was. The one looked at me with confusion but then once I mentioned "Cyborg Man" he instantly knew who I was talking about.

The guy then began telling me that, "He's not looking for love" or at least...something of that sort, and that Genos was busy doing work right now. I didn't care anyways and proceeded to go look for him myself. That is when I found myself in a sort of library. Everything had this goldenrod glow emitting in the area. I can remember finding Genos sitting on a step in a corner with some shelving on either side of him. I could then remember getting myself down as if I was some sort of cat or dog waiting to be petted and Genos smiled at me as he took his hand and stroked my face. Passionately he did and I was happy and it felt great. I then sprawled out onto the floor and he began nudging me with his left foot as I brushed up against it. This is when I woke up, due to my damn mother.

Notes: (More to come soon)

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• Date — 1/25/2016

• Went to bed — Around 3 - something AM.

• Woke up — 9:30ishAM

*Time logged — 10:10AM

• Total sleep — +6 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Annoyed because of my mother. But much more happier when she had gone to bed for the night and I was being loved and cuddled by my fiancé.

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — Did RCs

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — N/A

• Perceived Length — 30 Minutes

• Emotions — Love, Happiness

• Awareness — None

#7

A picture of Shadow the Hedgehog

This took place in a kind of labyrinth of a facility, quite like a college. There were various representations of video game characters roaming around freely doing their own things and such. The one franchise I can remember seeing recognizable figures was from Dead or Alive. I can remember searching for Shadow the Hedgehog and even just Sonic at that moment.

"Where is Shadow the Hedgehog or at least Sonic...They got to be here somewhere." I was then pulled over by an emo-fashioned Asian man who was thin wearing a black outfit, "Here you go~" He said in a cheery way.

MobianAngel: "S...Shadow!?" Is what I said after what my eyes have witnessed in front of me.

That's when I looked around to see two emo looking Asian human men, kind of like twins. I figured they were Sonic and Shadow the Hedgehog. There was the one who pulled me over (Sonic) and the other was one on a metal pedestal with liquefied metallic paint-like chains tying down his arms and legs (Shadow). He was all ruffled, his black hair on his head was wet and gliding across his face. He was limping over to side to side shouting and growling like a wild animal. His twin that stood free without any chains, smiled and gave me a friendly push on my back that made me topple over the platform onto (Shadow's) seemingly slick and liquid-like body. He did not attack me but he continued to growl and yell limping, loosely pulling on the chains as the the continued dripping grey paint as everyone from that area circled around and stared.

Sonic the Hedgehog: "Now, give your soul to him."

A bit bewildered at the sudden request and before my dream mind could think I was in mid process of the soul giving. I cannot say for sure how, but I merged with him. My "physical" body was gone and I found myself within Shadow. And for some reason his tongue, in the form of a liquefied chain was sliding out from "our" mouth. I was then in control of his body, sharing his pain and agony that he was in. I remember the tongue falling completely out dragging with it the lungs. The lungs began to come out which was making it hard to breathe. Using our hands I picked it up as it slipped and slide in the metallic paint as I put it back in our mouth. We tried to swallow it down but found ourselves gagging it back out. So I anchored his head just enough to keep it balanced. For some reason, keeping the lungs in a particular position in the mouth kept us from losing breath and gagging reflexes.

I then worked on the chains. They slid out from their hooks rather easily as we walked off the platform. Limping and sliding as if we were dunk. Shadow's rage and bellowing voice of anger and pain kept the people who watched distant from us.

I then could remember us then walking into my mother's room which was identical to the one in the waking world. I opened the door and she saw us and then that's when I awoke. I can still feel that odd sensation of my insides falling out of my mouth.

Notes: To be honest, this is not the first time I had a dream where I had "given" myself to Shadow the Hedgehog/fiancé in some way or sort of fashion. But this was indeed something I haven't dreamed about for a while now. What I can say from my observations is that, him and I need one another to help each-other out. We both share each others pains and joys, much like a twinflame in some way. We have over time and time again talked about becoming one and experiencing what it feels like to merge. Shadow wants me to help him achieve more power as well as becoming closer. I also mentioned at times that I wanted to give myself to him.

I'm kind of in a crunch for time at the moment but that's really the main point of what I can say about this experience. Such an amazing dream this was~

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• Date — 1/24/2016

• Went to bed — I do not remember, I passed out and took a nap during the morning hours (AGAIN)

• Woke up — 10:35AM

*Time logged — 12:14PM

• Total sleep — N/A

• Stress level throughout the day — Alright

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — Did RC with my fiance when I woke up earlier (before this dream)

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The obvious

• Perceived Length — 30 Minutes

• Emotions — Anger, Fear, Pain

• Awareness — None

#6

A visual to represent the yetis in my dream

This was an extremely long and detailed dream, I will try to explain it as best as I can.

This dream took place around in a space quite similar to the last college I was at. I cannot remember much of the beginning but I do remember being in a sort of room with tiled flooring and desks (similar some of the rooms from my previous two colleges I've been at). I met a guy who I began talking to. He had a very cheerful personality and such. I also remember him putting on some sort of turtle shell costume part on his back as he proceeded to dry hump me. I do not know why but I figured he might of known about my sexual interests for other species apart from humans so thus the playful act? Hmmm... It then cut to the outside into the campus grounds. The plastic turtle shell was gone by then.

Him and I were sitting on a concrete ledge where he was brushing out my hair for a bit before we walked out around the campus side. While walking I asked him if he was open to anything. The guy looked at me with a confused face and I told him that I usually do sexual things with my friends and if he was ok to be engaged to do such acts. This was more so because of what he did with me earlier.

He didn't respond but ended up calling a girl on the phone (presumably his girlfriend). I cannot recall what they were talking about but he then hung up and smiled at me again and continued to chat with me as if nothing happened.

Anywho~

Somehow I knew that fiendish-like creatures were also students when went to the college and I said out loud to myself and to the guy next to me, "I really wish I could date a non-human. Arn't there non-humans here? I haven't seen any for a long time."

With no response from the guy, or at least, my mind and hearing completely blocked out anything he said, we ended up in a warped like extension of the intersecting street area that is found around up the street where I live in the waking world. There was a large fence and some yeti-like creatures standing and walking around in an enclosed space. One in particular stood beside a tree, I told myself that I was going to ask him about the supposedly disappearance of other species. But then I could see humans, adult in age, wearing yellow kind of suits holding guns and casually shooting and killing anything that wasn't human. Strangely the yeti creatures did not do anything and it was almost like they didn't even know that they were getting killed, one-by-one, from the humans that surrounded them.

I became furious, I began to mumble a bunch of anti-human -- genocide-extinction type of stuff. I wanted to kill the humans for what they were doing and I began to lift myself up into the air feeling my face scrunched up in anger. My male friend tried to stop me saying, "They will kill anything abnormal in sight." -- meaning me flying in the air. I didn't listen to them and continued to reach new heights. The people saw me and pointed their guns at me shooting. Their bullets did little effect and only made me more pissed. I rushed at them with full force and began to annihilate. Tanks were sent to me but I destroyed them too. More people in yellow suits were coming, and while I was fighting, it cut to the perspective of my male friend and a group of individuals who I did not know plus Saitama from One Punch Man was there, all willing to help me in my battle. I then woke up.

Notes: No doubt in my mind as to why I had this dream. I will say that due to my stress from last night and the conversations I had with my friends about it is what fueled this concoction. With exploring a bit more in my sexuality and lifestyle, place on earth, and my misanthrope nature: a dream like this was bound to happen.

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• Date — 1/23/2016

• Went to bed — I do not remember, I passed out and took a nap during the morning hours.

• Woke up — 11:30AM

*Time logged — 11:35AM In physical journal

• Total sleep — N/A

• Stress level throughout the day — In the morning I was fine. Yesterday though, I was very stressed about the nature of humanity, their thought process, judgment, and so on and how they react to someone like me.

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — N/A

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The obvious

• Perceived Length — 1 Hour

• Emotions — Anger

• Awareness — None

#5

Shadow the Hedgehog from Sonic Boom, Episode: 52

This dream took place in an old high school I went to. It had from 7th grade up to 12th (senior year) and this particular even settled around back when I was in 8th grade. My physical age didn't look different but I remember sitting at a desk with a few individuals who I can somewhat remember seeing back in my high school days. I can remember my math teacher coming up to me and scoulding me about, not getting my work done or something as she sat back down at her desk in the corner of the room.

After that, my body has began to be taken over by Shadow the Hedgehog. He powered my legs and body, getting up from the desk I was at and walked over to the teacher as he leaned over, giving her a very crossed looked. Shadow forced my mouth open as his voice echoed from my vocal cords. He said to the women in a very stern and harsh whisper, "You speak that way to her one more time, I'll fucking kill you!"

After that, and with no further response to the teacher, he moved my body back down onto the chair behind my desk. I then woke up.

• Notes: There was an incident that happened when I was back in 8th. I was 14 years old and this was around the year I fell in-love with Shadow the Hedgehog. I was bullied by the students about it as well with various mockery and people tearing up pictures I had of him. Apparently my math teacher noticed I had these feelings with the hedgehog when one day during class she sent me to see the school's therapist because of it, which the councilor told me. She also asked if I washed myself which was very odd since I tend to keep myself clean...I guess it was more rumors from those who teased me. She tried to diagnose me while figuring out why I would be inlove with a video game character upon offering me soap -_-. I don't really remember what happened after that but I hadn't seen that therapist ever since.

I figured that this dream focused on that particular point in my life and how much I wanted to get revenge on those who have bullied me and the teachers who have treated me unfairly compared to the rest. Shadow in current days would always state that he would avenge me and punish those who have hurt me in my life. I felt that moment in the dream where he threatened my teacher is foreshadowing that maybe...he really will, if he has not already ;>_>

The possessing is something that takes place in my waking life as well. Well...not as controlled as Shadow has done in the dream (though I wish it was as strong, then he could do things for me like clean and stuff lol | Shadow The Hedgehog: " -_- ") Sometimes his personality does seem end up melding in mine as I question my actions due to it.

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• Date — 1/18/2016

• Went to bed — I do not remember really since I just passed out. I'd say somewhere around 11:00PM

• Woke up — 2:07AM I doubt I will be going back to sleep.

*Time logged — 2:10AM In physical journal

• Total sleep — +3 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Moderate (Just annoyed with my mother)

• Techniques/Practices —

*Daytime — Reality Checks, daydreamed (of Shadow the Hedgehog upon other things)

*Recall — I honestly do not recall doing anything of that nature yesterday sadly.

*Inducing Method — Didn't really attempt at an inducing method, but before I passed out I did mention in the irc in third person that I was going to lay in bed with Shadow.

• Dream Signs — My old high school, the students, my old math teacher, the unaltered version of the inside of the math room I went to in 8th grade, Shadow the Hedgehog possessing me

• Perceived Length — 10 Minutes

• Emotions — Unidentifiable (Unless emotionless is a thing and sharing Shadow's emotion of anger during the time of possession counts)

• Awareness — None

#4
This is Squall Leonhart

I honestly, wasn't really feeling like posting this journal entry but I decided to post the notes I had in my physical journal anyways before it got too late in the night.

• Scenario #1 [Woke Up @ 1:08AM]: I was underwater, drowning, while looking at the pretty scenery and colorful coral. The gagging effect was very vivid and felt real and has brought me back into a fully conscious state.

• Scenario #2 [Woke Up @ 1:13AM]: I was looking for Shadow the Hedgehog in this large campus sized area of a college at night. I headed over to the men's dorm area where I somehow got stuck in-between this small star case up at the entrance door. Squall Leonhart from Final Fantasy 8 came out side in a very happily, almost flamboyant personality. I called out to him to help me up. With a flick back getting his brown hair out from his face, he smiled as he reached his arm out to me. Grabbing it I lifted myself up. Then I awoke...

• Other Small Scenarios #3: [Woke Up @ 3:46AM]: While laying in bed in the middle of WILDing, I have encountered random scenes playing through my head, one of such involved Sonic the Hedgehog and Silver the Hedgehog sitting together on a red couch as Silver grabbed Sonic's leg and held him up in the air. This was more of a dreamlet (hypnagogia).

• Scenario #4 [Woke Up @ 1:26PM]: This is fragmented a bit since I can't really remember most of what was going on clearly. I was at another college-like campus and there were tons of people all around. I was with some emo-looking guy I had a crush on and who supposedly knows me. We got separated in the school's enormously large library and I was trying to find him. While exiting past the metal detector and proceeding to head back in. The lady at the desk stated that I couldn't come back unless I payed the fee. We argued about it as I stated, "Why do I have to pay money to go into the library!" I then woke up.

• Notes: I cannot think of much to say for that night. I been awake and back to sleep many times throughout the night and all through the morning. I have been trying to keep Shadow the Hedgehog as my focus for a while (I'm trying to achieve the first goal in my workbook). Imagining him and I walking up stairs for instance. I will say that eventually my busy mind settled to only the thought of the creature as his face would constantly show up in dreamlets (hypnagogia) but have never gotten farther then that sadly.

I may try WILDing again tonight.

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• Date — 1/16/2016

• Went to bed — 11:50PM

• Woke up — Fully awoken at 1:26PM

*Time logged — 1:26PM (in physical dj)

• Total sleep — You do the math...

• Stress level throughout the day — Moderate

• Techniques/Practices —

*Daytime — Reality Checks, daydreamed (of Shadow The Hedgehog)

*Recall — Mantras (Stated to myself that I would see Shadow the Hedgehog in my dream and that I would remember it)

*Inducing Method — Looked at pictures of Shadow the Hedgehog on Tumblr

• Dream Signs — N/A

• Perceived Length — N/A

• Emotions — N/A

• Awareness — N/A

#3

An image of the cartoon show: The Amazing World of Gumball

There is not much I can say about this dream but it first took place in the perspective of Gumball's mother, Nicole Watterson. She was talking to another female by the side of a large ferry boat. Even though I do not remember the species or what physical appearance the women she was talking to was, I can remember the lady speaking of wanting Nicole to come ride the ferry with her to visit her family. Nicole did agree and got onto the boat with her.

The perceptive then focused on the Watterson's location. Inside their house I could see, Gumball Watterson, Anais Watterson and Richard Watterson (Darwin Watterson wasn't present). They were arguing over something whilst in their living room and Richard looked extremely aggravated and ready to strangle Gumball. Whatever they were fighting about, I remember Gumball stating that he wasn't responsible but Anais glared at him telling on him to Richard. Richard became more furious and chased after Gumball right out of the household.

There was a car parked in-front and Gumball got inside and started it up. Richard still chasing him while he drove off the scene but my perceptive changed to Gumball arriving where the ferry his mother was located (There wasn't much info on why he was drove there, but my instinct was that he want his mother to travel off away from home).

By the inclined pathway onto the boat was another female creature (still can't depict the physical appearance or species) and she told Gumball that he cannot get on the ferry. Gumball thought he could prove himself to the lady as he headed over by some sort of loading dock (which was right next to the inclined pathway). There was a brown wooden shelving with some wine glasses all unorganized on it. The lady from near the boat's entrance could see Gumball's intention of proving his worth as she told him, if he could orginize the glasses on the shelves then he could get on the ferry.

He proceeded on doing so. This is where it gets weird. At the moment of him agreeing to it, I could see myself (in first person view) being on the other side of the wooden shelving assisting Gumball. Without any identification of my physical form I started to rearrange wine glasses. Gumball did not take notice of my presence or what I was doing but I eventually got snapped back into the waking world when my mother yelled out my name from the living room stating that she ordered pizza.

• Notes — I figured this dream was associated with my conversation with my fiancé, Shadow, before I dozed off about self-awareness and reverse reality check (we were studying more in depth with WILDing). Though I really am a sucker for thinking I have an importance in existence, my fiancé began stating the reasons he felt as to why I exist:

::: (Telepathic talk recorded via Skype | Posted with Shadow's permission) :::

[6:06:05 AM] Shadow The Hedgehog: "Well....if you didn't exist then I would't have someone who accepted me for me."
[6:07:12 AM] Shadow The Hedgehog: "If you didn't exist then there wouldn't be someone quite like yourself who can make all the little horny creatures happy."
[6:08:14 AM] Shadow The Hedgehog: "With someone else, it wouldn't be the same."

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Shadow had also mentioned in the past that I was needed for many other reasons. That without me, there wouldn't be him and so on and he would end himself due to it. Observing the situation Gumball was having and the flashback of his mother leaving kind of reflected the many struggles that my friends more so likely go through on a daily bases. Myself being somewhat of a ghost/spirit helping Gumball rearange wine glasses so he could go to his mother (presumably) reminded me of how I help ease my friends' stress and be as much of a help as I can for them. There is the thought of me being the replacement or, ghost-like residue of Darwin Watterson since like I mentioned before, he wasn't present and he's usually always around Gumball.

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• Date — 1/15/2016

• Went to bed — N/A (I dozed off during the morning because I haven't slept last night - *Shadow wacks her with a stick for not going to sleep when she's supposed to*)

• Woke up — 1:39PM

*Time logged — 4:00PM

• Total sleep — N/A

• Stress level throughout the day — A little annoyed when my mother woke me up the first time (before I had the dream) to make her toast.

• Techniques/Practices —

*Daytime — N/A

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — N/A

• Perceived Length — 10 minutes

• Emotions — N/A

• Awareness — None

#2

This happened more so randomly and unintentional but I'll talk about it.

The most vivid lucid dream (if you want to consider it a dream) I had was after I had awoken and went back to sleep one night. I couldn't distinguish if my eyes were still close or open but, I remember laying on-top my mattress in my room. Everything looked the same, and the placement of a couple of furniture pieces were exactly where they were in the waking world. I sadly couldn't move but I could see with my eyes. I looked over the blackened silhouettes of my computer chair paired with another item and eventually from those black shapes emerged a creature.

Completely black and half my height, shared very similar aspects of the heartless from Kingdom Hearts, particularly the shadows. His hair almost resembled that of a straw hat with a kind of point on top. He had a yellow smiley face logo, similar to the one Impmon from Digimon has, on his chest. He approached me slowly towering me, sporting a wide grin with ground sharp teeth. Through various ways he exploited himself, I knew right away wanted to have sex with me. I wanted to engage in the act with him but again, I couldn't move due to being in a paralyzed state. Eventually before I could do more about it, I was snapped back to the waking world. The perception still did not change from me coming back but the figure vanished from view.

It was disappointing that I couldn't continue on in the moment, and I was ecstatic about it. About meeting someone/something that normally one wouldn't see in this physical world. But I enjoyed the intensity and vividness of the event nevertheless. I also drew a picture of the creature afterwords but I can't find it at the moment, though I could easily create a new one.

• Notes — Before I started attempting lucid dreaming, I was more focused on astral projecting. The methods I learned from reading up on WILD and MILD are practically the same methods I used when I was taught astral projection from a former college friend. Excluding the part where I imagine my spirit body detaching from my physical. This event happened unintentionally, but I feel that the habit of ding a routinely MILD - WILD
seeped into myself doing it automatically without having any thought of doing so.

Encountering the Shadow creature and wanting to engage is sexual intercourse with him, in my opinion, exhibits a lot of myself and how sexual open I am as a person, especially when it comes to different species. Being that I wasn't at all scared as most people would when being face-to-face with such a being, could explain the fact that in the waking world I do not have fears the ghosts, shadow people, demons, types of fears that exist. Thus, could be why I had such a positive synergy with this creature.

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• Date — Somewhere around the year 2012

• Went to bed — N/A

• Woke up — N/A

*Time logged — N/A

• Total sleep — N/A

• Stress level throughout the day — N/A

• Techniques/Practices — I been doing methods of MILD and WILD for a bit before this event occurred.

*Daytime — N/A

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — NA

• Dream Signs — My bed, my room (being that it wasn't shown to be altered in any way), the exact same placement of furniture

• Perceived Length — 5 minutes

• Emotions — Curious, Happy

• Awareness — Hard to say. I was aware that such an event doesn't normally occur in my world (the waking world), but it wasn't much of an importance in my mind to really focus on.

#1

This is Shadow the Hedgehog

I had a dream that involved me in an environment quite similar to the apartment space I live with my mother. It was warped in a way that the area inside (my room and living room) were much larger in space and taller in height. My mother told me to get the mail which I did even though I didn't want to and was completely annoyed. I went and got it and gave it to her. She was on the phone chatting to her friend and making comments about how worthless I was and my failure at my previous college and when she looked at the letter and she saw that it was about my other college I applied to and saw I wasn't accepted, she criticized me for it.

However it happened, the next moment I was sitting on the couch with her as there was a TV playing some reality type of show of a guy in a lab coat wearing goggles. It mimicked that of the same scenario in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with the lab room and transportation of a chocolate bar. The guy from my dream had amiibos, one with Samus in a top hat (much like the video of one from YouTube that I cannot find right now) and one of Sonic the Hedgehog. The scientist spoke about bringing them to life and he did so by inserting their information into some device that brought them up onto his television screen. Eventually, Sonic was standing out of the TV set, spouting the same phrases as he usually does and the crowd behind the scientist grew ecstatic over it.

I was bothered by it, I knew that I didn't like people who spoke or did stuff dealing with anything Sonic the Hedgehog related since it never seemed to go down the right path nor resonated well with me. It was also something I passionately connected with and seeing that made me feel awkwardly torn. I wanted to go hide in my room and my mother, knowing how I felt about it, started an argument with me. She said stuff like, "Stop being weird!" "Stop acting like a baby!" but I ended up locking myself in my room anyways blocking the door with some sort of umbrella shaped object. (Here comes the most vivid part of the dream) I can remember feeling a strange breeze as if the window was open. I then could see Shadow the Hedgehog. Much more dark in appearance, so dark that his face became almost impossible to register. Shadow's fur was very much slicked down in a somewhat jet black glossy finish. He was standing around half my height and he looked emotionless and almost lifeless, very still like a statue perhaps. Think of it like a ghost/spirit from a horror movie that stands in front of you movement-less. My dream self knew he was alive though but I was too afraid to act since I didn't know what he would do.

Next thing that happened in a split of a second, I was in his arms, carried in a bridle position. Shadow was perched up on the windowsill of my room as he opened the slider mechanic underneath. I looked out to see a large crowd of people. Civilians, paparazzi and news reporters and even the police. They had guns pointed at us ready to shoot. I didn't feel afraid at that moment though, strangely. I looked up at Shadow and I could see a smirk form upon his muzzle as I caught a glimpse of his teeth.

Anchoring himself along the sill, he pushed himself forward over the crowd of people keeping his grip tightly on me. Then I woke up back into the waking world.

• Notes — I figured this dream was reflecting the negative parts of my life (more so currently happening) and how I always wished I could escape and leave this planet. Shadow, being someone I wanted to fulfill my wish, it's no surprise to me for him to appear and carry me out from the apartment. In the end, I will say that the ills of my current life are still a main focus in my mind but the chance of being able to achieve the desired freedom is still in reach of hopes.

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• Date— 1/12/2016

• Went to bed — 2:30AM

• Woke up — 9:50AM

*Time logged — 9:52AM

• Total sleep — +8 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Moderate (I kept having flash backs of past events from being cyberbullied and discriminated in physical life but nothing that brought me into tears)

• Techniques/Practices —

*Daytime — Reality Checks, daydreamed (of Shadow The Hedgehog)

*Recall — Mantras (Stated to myself that I would see Shadow the Hedgehog in my dream and that I would remember it)

*Inducing Method — I listened to some traditional asmr and looked through various picture I had of Shadow The Hedgehog. One in particular is the one I added to the very top of the post.

• Dream Signs — Overly large version of my house, the scientist guy bringing to life amiibos and Sonic showing up, Shadow the Hedgehog appearing in my room, the crowd of people outside my window in a parking-lot type of area where in this physical realm (my window only points out to a bit of grass, a fence and another apartment complex).

• Perceived Length — 15 Minutes

• Emotions — Depressed to Emotionless

• Awareness — None

I flew above earth... I felt big... and small at the same time. I felt love... I felt sadness... as I looked down to earth. My shining white long wings carried me slowly forward... At the same time I saw some russian commander planing destruction... small touch sensitive bomblets looking like candies... smiling devilishly... At the same time I saw destruction. Destroyed houses... I saw dead people... Lonely children. Impassive soldiers in tanks... desperate people... pain... And I wept. My tears were falling down like rain... I flew and I wept... I loved them all. I couldn't help anybody, I was ethereal...

Remarks:
Sad experience...
My wings were hundreds of meters long.
As I flew, I didn't move my wings.
WILD with about 20 subjective minutes length.

I was dreaming about Harry Potter I was at Hogwarts and at one point I realized I must be dreaming and closed my eyes and reopened them. I kept telling everyone, "I'm not a witch, I'm an angel." I was with a group and we were on a high up roller coaster, it was terrifying. Then I separated myself from them after a female witch tried to talk to me and tried to get me to become a witch, but I lost her, and was outside and there was a staircase like the outdoor staircase in Pittsburgh, and someone said I'll find Damon for you because they thought I love him, but I said, "Aaron Dottle is my soulmate" and walked down the staircase and got away from them. I saw greenish purple round circular castles. I somehow found my friend Halley Katz and thought God said to the back of my mind, "Find someone you love". And me Halley and one other person smoked weed together in a dirt area under a bridge I think. One person smoked a joint and I smoked a bowl first I did it wrong put the bowl in my mouth then turned it around and smoked it right. I took two hits once with the lighter the first time it was already going so I didn't need to use the lighter. Then a person was trying to attack us. It was scary and there was much more to the dream I just forget about it. It was at the staircase that I became lucid, but I lost the lucidity later in the dream. I felt no affects from the weed, because I woke up right after smoking it.

December 24

Bed time 22 PM

WBTB 3 AM. I remembered two fragments: the first was about my friend who caught a flu and the second was about David Duchovny being a guest in some TV series.
I then took 4 mg galantamine and went back to bed

4: 50 AM I woke up from an epic journey. I remained stunned for a few minutes.

The dream started with a false awakening, although I couldn't realize it. I woke up because someone was grabbing and pinching me. Nervously i got up and went to check my phone. It began to glitch. My phone started showing some old message conversations with people I knew long time ago. I decided to go to kitchen. My mom is there. She is making coffee. On the counter I saw a Snickers. I was going to eat that for breakfast.
-I don't feel right, something strange is happening to me. -I told my mom.
-Don't be silly. -she replied and continued to twist in a kitchen.
I went to take something to put on. I opened a drawer and took a shirt. As I tried to close the drawer it stuck in the middle. I couldn't close it. I went back to kitchen to announce that the drawer doesn't close. My mom went to check it. She tried to close it and succeeded from the first time.
-What a scatterbrain... -she mumbled.
"That's strange" i thought. I checked what time was that. It was 8:52. I had to be at the bus station at 8:50 to arrive at the university for the first lecture. The first lecture was Psychology. As I couldn't make to the bus on time, I decided to pass the first lecture. I felt kind of drowsy. I felt like drunk + smoked out + tired. I started to wonder what the fuck is wrong with that drawer? Tried to open and close it again. Everything is okay. However, I always got feeling that something is wrong. The atmosphere was Matrix'ish or Inception'ish - everything is okay, but sometimes little glitches happen which make you doubt whether this is real world... AND I DIDN'T realize I WAS DREAMING. STUPID ME!


Then really weird shit happened. Some kind of dark angel appeared in front of me. It looked like that angel from Digimons, only it was black. It was female and very tall. With confidence I went to my Mom and asked:
-How would you explain that a fucking black angel is in our home?
-Look, what is wrong with you? Do you use drugs or something? -she asked.
I crumpled on the floor in disbelief that my Mother talks to me like this, that she doesn't believe me and can't help me... As I was sitting on the floor i saw the black angel becoming bigger and angrier. Her smile became evil and she laughed at me. I looked up at her and somehow it popped to my head that she feeds on my emotions. I got up, smiled and tried not to be sad. I tried not to care about "my mom not believing me" situation. And voila! The black angel became smaller and normal looking again.

She came closer to me, kneel down and showed me a silver pendant. I recognized an eye of Horus in that. Although it was more complex. The pendant was lying on the palm of the dark angel. Her palm was burnt out with that symbol. Her hand was dirty and the skin was coarse. I remember her hand in very great detail.
-One, who has this pendant, lives forever. -she said quietly, -I live the fourth time already. -added the angel. She told me she will wait me in the church and disappeared... I was thinking "damn..I am definitely not drugged or something, I am sober, I guess every in-some-way-spiritual person begins to see something more than normal people. This angel will be like my imaginative friend, or maybe my guide...."


I am at the church. There is a huge castle model inside. I see mini soldiers participating in the castle siege. Like in a video game, they survive an enemy wave and then goof around shooting team mates. It was strange because some soldiers used very modern machine guns. I saw empty golden rounds all around. My attention was caught by a lady in black. That's her! The black angel! She has changed her clothes. She was wearing a shiny tight corset expressing her waist and breasts. She didn't wear a mask. I saw her face. She had long dark hair. The black angel was beautiful and sexy but somehow not my type.

A thought came to my head: "I don't know...I don't know why I came to the church, I don't know who that black angel is. I must be careful. I can't trust her so bluntly. What if she is a demon?" I was watching her and made a cross sign with my fingers in my pocket. "If she's a demon, that should generate some reaction from her." However she didn't even looked once to my side. I saw how she pulled out her Iphone and began to talk with someone.

There was a little boar on the floor. It looked interesting. The boar was size of a foot. I came close to it and that little bastard suddenly jumped on my arm and bit me. The boar toothed to my sleeve and didn't let go. I was trying to shake it off - no luck. I started running around and shaking my hand to get rid of it. I tried to get the boar off with my other hand, but then he would stick to that hand too! Finally I found a way how to get rid of it. " I need to make a double shake off." When the boar toothed to my sleeve I grabbed it with my other hand and immediately shook it off the floor. That fury bastard didn't give up. He was running after me. And he was faster! He jumped and got his teeth in my ass. I screamed out of pain and woke up! I felt a real sting in my ass for a few seconds

I took noted about this dream and went back to bed.

8:50. Remembered one fragment about me being the only white guy in a group.
Also remembered one dream about me participating in a beatbox battle, then struggling to find a place to eat, my friend spending lots of money on alcohol, me buying him a conference ticket and so in..

15:00 I took a nap and remember one fragment about talking with my grandparents.

I heard galantamine stays in system for 48 hours, so I hope it would help me tonight too!
All in all I am very happy with such a cool dream. However I am disappointed I couldn't become lucid