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Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #5: The Darkened Clock (July 20, 2012)

I am standing at the foot of my bed in the dark. I look over at the alarm clock to see what time it is but it's gone completely dark. At first I think that there has been a power failure but I soon wonder whether I might be dreaming.

I nose pinch and can breathe through only my left nostril! (More on that later.) Still, this is enough to make me lucid. The room is deeply, oppressively dark and I feel like I'm losing the dream scene. I rub my hands together and although the dream feels more stable, the darkness in the room is deepening.

I rub my hands over my arms again and again and try to say, "Increase lucidity..." But the words only come out in this weak, breathy whisper. I want to make a break for the wall, act boldly like before, but my dream body feels faint and frail.

I go on like this for a good while, just weakening as everything fades and soon I'm awake. I quickly discover the reason that I could only breathe through the left side of my nose during the reality check -- I was sleeping face down with the right side of my face smashed against the pillow!

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I am at the edge of a balcony, slightly aware I'm dreaming and making considerations about lucid dreams. I am not afraid of the height because I know I can fly or hover and will not hit the floor if I fall. But that's not enough. I realize that I need not to be afraid of hitting the floor, because there is no floor. I make an effort to become fully lucid to do an experiment. I let my body lean forward and just let go of all fears and all doubts. My body goes through the dream balcony and I free fall. I only feel the uncomfortable sensation in the stomach, of falling in the void, for about 2 seconds and then its gone. I see the ground closer and closer but I also go through it and then I'm free falling in the darkness. I don't make any effort to stop it, I let go completely.
After a while, the falling sensation stops by itself and I find myself being laid out gently on a grassy patch under a tree at nightime. I feel peace and I feel like meditating. I decide to get up and do a walking meditation. I try to visualize a Buddha against the night sky. I can't. Instead I see a white light that starts from a point and expands into the shape of an angel like figure. From it I hear a "hello". The light shines brighter and I hear again "Hello, [my name]!". I recognize the voice of my guru. I don't just recognize his voice, I feel him! Hard to explain the entirety of what happens in these few moments. I feel overwhelmed. I wake up.

I was either traveling to China with my father, or already in China. I was in a store looking for a suitcase with a few dudes, then they were replaced by my crush, Jade. One of the suitcases had some glass compartments, and I thought, “they’d be perfect for storing food, even ice cream!”

I saw that my dad had tried to call me on my phone, but my phone didn’t have service anymore. I asked to borrow Jade’s phone, and when I started pressing buttons, the phone was beeping. Jade grabbed the phone from me, hurriedly putting the phone on silent so we wouldn’t be heard. I urged her to hurry up, as people started to gather in the room we were in; they made me uneasy. Some of those people were missing limbs, or were smeared with blood.


Just imagine the blood is a darker shade, closer to purple.

Suddenly all of the merchandise in the room was gone, and there was just a circle of chairs. One man sat in a chair and started sharing a zombie story. Jade got excited and wanted to join.

“Jade, don’t, we have to go.”

“Caenis, you have to do what I say!” Good to know she's demanding even in my dreams. Jade sat down next to the man sharing the story, and quickly began sharing her own zombie story.

I watched the crowd of bloodied and dazed people grow. Anxious, I abandoned Jade, making my way to the front of the store. The front of the store was dark, most of the lights had gone out. There weren’t any more humans, crowds of zombies passed me by. I peered in a room where a human corpse was sitting in a chair, with a severed zombie head on top of his. His head was crushed beneath the zombie head.

I found the exit and wandered the streets. Zombies and humans ran chaotically through the city. Zombie blood sprayed my right cheek. I wiped it off and decided that I wouldn’t turn into a zombie from coming in contact with the blood. I observed a few zombies get struck by lightning, and thought it fitting that even nature was trying to retaliate against the zombies.

I found a nice couple to travel with, and we walked to a Georgian city. We stopped in front of a large, elevated building. I looked up and muttered “No….” It was a train station. Though there were no zombies on the streets of Georgia, I knew zombies would pour out of that train station. People and zombies alike streamed out of the train station, and lightning struck the building causing an explosion.

My hand was torn or bitten off. Determined to not become a zombie, the couple and I suddenly appeared in a room. They amputated part of my arm in hopes that the zombie infection would not spread. “Cauterize the wound” the woman declared while stretching and cutting my skin. My skin was peach-colored and transparent.

First REM Terror

[I went to bed at 11:30PM yesterday and had this dream at 1:15AM, which makes me believe that it was in my first REM cycle ]
[Sometimes i wonder why i use this AM/PM stuff in my own DJ... but i guess i'll be nice, after all, it's hard to count to 24 ]

I was sitting in my room on the ground and watching some kind of musical show, where they've played "Songs of the Years" or something... 2009 and 2010 were listed on the side of the screen.
As i was watching this, i heard the noise of keys and heard that someone has opened the door and walked into the house. I turned off the TV fast, to make it seem like i'm sleeping already.
Soon after this i heard that the other TV in the living room was turned on and the same show continued.

I was wondering who this might this late at night, so i walked out to the living room, carefully.
I noticed that it was my old love and she also carried a bag with herself. She smiled at me and called me to watcht the show with her, so i stood next to her and we both started watching it. It took some time until i suddenly thought "What..? What is she doing here?!" I turned back to look at her and she was still staring at the TV. I became lucid here.

I backed away from her and suddenly i felt an unimaginable fear. I turned away from her and wanted to jump out of the window, but at that moment i knew that something was watching me and it wanted to attack me. I couldn't think too much, so i started flying around the room, while everything got darker and darker... it was like dark flames were trying to consume me. I kept flying in a circle and shouting in my mind "NO! I CAN FIGHT IT!" and similar things, but i couldn't really believe it at that time. [I was so scared and confused that i didn't really know what to do at that time].

The walls soon turned into wood with missing planks, like it was an old wooden building about to collapse. I flew out of the wall and continued the "escape" along the street.
I constantly felt that terror as something was chasing me and like the whole world was against me. Everything got blurrier and i could barely see anymore as it was nighttime and my eyes were teary for some reason. I rubbed my right eye with one hand, then the left one too the same way, which then made me able to see clearly, but it was still dark outside.

I flew as fast as i could and i got to some kind of mountain and decided to fly upwards. I still didn't feel safe, i could feel that something was really close to me and that i could hardly escape it. When i almost got up to the top of the mountain, suddenly a ceiling appeared above me. That surprised me a bit and i fell back down. The ground was only some meters away now and as soon as my back hit it, i woke up.

[Ah well... i can't really put that terror into words, i was just overwhelmed by it. It felt like i wasn't allowed to be lucid at that time ]
[It really rare when i get lucid this early during the night... when i woke up i first imagined the time to be 5AM at least... but it was just 1:15AM]


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They Can't Kiss Right

[Had this dream at 9:15AM, a bit later than usually, because i woke up for WBTB later than i should've done so]
[Lol, it took me a while to find a somewhat good title for this dream, but it seemed impossible, so here you go...]
[Oh and i took 3 Negro candies yet again, for the menthol]

I was just trying to hide from an insane teacher, who i insulted earlier in the dream and she knocked me unconscious with a Tesla-Coil. I ran through the city and then found myself in another town soon.
The teacher was really close, so i decided to fly up into the air... Since i was able to do so, i became lucid.

The dream felt rather unstable and it was kinda blurry... i remembered that i told Dreamprofessor that i'll try to find him on this Monday, but i can't do it in a dream like this.
I decided to fly high in the sky and think out something else to do.
Soon i reached a huge bubble near the clouds... it looked rather strong, not like a normal bubble. As soon as i noticed it, for some reason i had a thought that there's a candyland like place in the bubble. [I have no idea where i got that...].

I got through the side of the bubble, but it turned out to be much smaller than i expected, also it was EMPTY... ah what a disappointment
I decided to leave this place if i can't even find a single gummycandy or something...
I flew back down to that town where i came from. I started floating nearby a long street. I just realized at this time, that the town was supposed to be near a lake, but the water was missing from it. This made me remember that i still wanted to explore underwater, as my last attempt turned out differently than i wanted it to. [I imagined the exploration to be fully underwater and not just a small part that leads to ground again].

Soon i noticed a pool further down the street. I turned around and imagined it to be bigger, then turned back to check it out. It definitely got bigger, but not big enough...
I turned around to check for other possible underwater sources. The other side of this street ended in a long street that was close to our house. I looked back and forth... it looked weird how the world merged two different towns together

I started slowly flying above this street towards the part that lead to my town. I was constantly checking around for some water when suddenly i found a nice looking pool.

There were some kids playing in this pool and it wasn't even too big, but i decided to try my luck at it... I jumped into the water and woke up immediately.
[Back with DEILD].

Ok... that was a bad idea... it seemed like this blurry dream didn't really want me to do anything good.
I moved on from this place, towards the closest market... i thought that maybe i could find something there...
I almost passed by the market while i was distracted by how the dream was trying to collapse constantly, i had to focus on stuff around me to stop it from doing so. [It tried to collapse multiple times earlier as well].

I stopped in the air and thought of going in the market building, but then i noticed two rocker girls standing on the grassy part near the market. Ah well... i thought that if this dream is so pathetic, then at least i'll end it in a fun way

I descended to the ground near them and to my surprise the dream finally got clear. But since i was already committed...
I checked them out for a while. One of them had black hair and fully black clothes and had a somewhat mean look on her face. She was standing near the wall. The other girl had blonde hair and looked a little more friendlier, with black and white clothes. They both had heavy eyeliner around their eyes. [Well, i like that style, so i didn't want to just leave them there ]

I walked up to the black haired one and kissed her. I focused on keeping my eyes open to not make the dream collapse on me.
She just kissed horribly, she didn't even move her mouth or tongue at all, she was like a plastic doll or something. I backed away from her shortly after and was thinking of an insult of how badly she kissed, but then decided against saying it out loud... after all she is a DC, she knew what i thought.
Instead, i walked up to the blonde now and kissed her too. It was somewhat better and her lips felt somewhat more life-like, but still not quite right. She didn't do anything either just like her friend, she just let me play around in her mouth without any interaction from her part.
I still got excited while kissing her and felt that tingling in real life again, but i could withstand it for a while... but not for long enough, it distracted me too much and caused me to wake up.

[Oh well... those girls kissed like dead weasels, not like i know what's that like, lolol... i'm going crazy here... ]
[Anyway, i'm really disappointed of this lucid. I wanted to meet Dreamprofessor or at least do something interesting, but when the dream is so blurry and unstable, it's not much fun and takes away from the experience.. ]

Yet again I can't remember what made me RC. I suspect I RCed out of habit, I don't remember the beginning of the dream at all either. I just suddenly remember using the nose plug and becoming lucid. It was dark again, and I had to use the nose plug twice. I didn't feel anything the first time, did it again and felt the air running through my nostrils. I was yet again concerned about moving my real body instead of my dream body. I think I tried to visualize my body moving initially instead of actually moving. I woke up quickly.

[This lucid happened at around 8:45AM]
[I took 19mg of Menthol too before i fell asleep after the WBTB, althrough i'm not sure if it's in any way relevant in succeeding in getting lucid, i think it was more about the setting of the dream]
[I'm getting kinda bored of mostly becoming lucid in our garden during these weeks...]

So, i got lucid in our garden like usually, i'm not even sure what was the reason. I was standing near one of the peach trees and it was night time and the dream was also blurry. I tried to stabilize with rubbing my hands together and thinking about how the dream will stabilize, which helped somewhat, but it was still night.
[I'm starting to think that if i would sleep in a brighter environment, these dark dreams would be more rare].

I was kinda upset, that i had to deal with the darkness yet again... so i thought about flying into the house for first and imagined that the lights are on inside.
I started flying towards the house and passed through the wall, then stopped inside. The lights were definitely on in there, but the house felt empty for some reason, even while everything was in place.
I passed through the wall again and went outside instead.

I noticed a little bright light coming from near the outside table under the apple tree, so i flew there.
I descended down to near the plastic table and realized that it has some lit candles on it. I was happy that finally i found a "safe-haven" and i started thinking about my goal, to go underwater exploring. I didn't know how could i get there, so i also thought about trying to find Lucy... but then the darkness made me remember that it might give her too much of an advantage against me.

I decided with the underwater goal, but just as i wanted to move on, it started raining. The candle fires were put out immediately.
I created some fire in my hands to lit the candles again, but the rain kept putting the fire out... Then i decided that i'll try to do it the dragon way, so i breathed fire onto the candles, which lit them easily, but they were put out yet again. I even tried to use the matches that were on the table.. but of course they didn't help.
[I always wonder how easy it is to conjure powers like fire, but i can't deal with the darkness... ugh].

I thought that i'll need more serious tools here, so i hit the table, which collapsed into two pieces and it also turned into wood.
I conjured fire with my hand again and burned up the table, which now got a much bigger flame, the rain couldn't deal with it. I would've liked to stay and watch the fire for a while, but i decided to move on while i can.

I took one of the legs of the table and started flying towards a little bright white light along the horizon.
[The burning table leg was almost as convenient as a torch, as i didn't feel the pain as it was burning my hand too ].
I imagined my goal in front of me, that i want to find a place where i can go underwater and i started flying at really fast speeds, everything blurred around me.

Soon i found myself at a place which i somehow just knew that it was another planet. I was flying through a series of tubes, which lead to some kind of racer stadium. I just knew it without seeing the stadium itself.
The color of the ground on the planet made me think of Mars, as it was red-ish, but somehow it was even more familiar to me... at that moment i thought that i've seen this place in a movie before.
As i was flying through the tubes, i unintentionally fixated my look and woke up.

[After this i tried to go back with DEILD, but just couldn't for some reason].
I was laying in bed, looking at my eyelids, when soon i found myself in a regular dream, where i've actually posted this entry already and i had two comments, one by sivason and one by Matte87

[I'm a little disappointed in my lucids this week... hopefully i can get a third one in which i can finally complete my underwater goal...]
[I'll also try to make my awareness higher at other places too, not just at home, because i don't want to always get lucid in our garden...]

[The dream was at around 6:30AM]
[So finally had a lucid that i was able to recall well enough after laying in bed for a while after waking up.. it was in time, since my last lucid recorded here was 13 days ago]
[My recall is really bad these days and it even affected the dream, it was blurry most of the time]

I was running on a street in a regular dream, where something exploded and i knew that my mom was there at the explosion... I thought that it must be a dream, because something like this wouldn't happen. So i started running and just flew up into the air simply. I got lucid thanks to this.

As flying above the streets, i noticed that everything was dark again, like in my lucids these weeks... Like i don't have enough control. I wanted to change this, but also got scared for some reason...
I flew back to our house and i noticed that the lights are on in our outbuilding, so i flew in there, hoping to bring the light out with myself.
As i got in there, i found one of my cats doing something in a corner... I wasn't sure what he did, but he looked embarassed and started walking away.

I flew out through the closed windows and kept thinking about how i'll bring out the light with myself from inside the building. As soon as i found myself outside, turns out it didn't succeed.
Everything was still dark, so i flew up again and held my hands in front of my eyes to try and use my really light white hands and create daylight from them. I held them in front of me and then moved them away, focusing on them blurring my vision, so maybe the lighter colors will remain... but it didn't work much.. it only got lighter a little bit. [I was kinda bored of this darkness already, it just happens too much since a while].

Oh, i was part of your dream? Cool!

Some kind of fear feeling got over me yet again as i was in the air and suddenly a black kitten [who i recognized immediately, it was my cat, Kormi] started flying at me really fast. He got to me and "climbed" on my hand and i felt a huge pain. For some reason this cute little kitten was scary. I wanted to get rid of him, but he kept holding on my hand and anytime i moved it, i felt that unbelievable pain.
I flew into our house, hoping to lose him while passing through the glass window, but he was still there, hurting even more...

Then i realized that all i have to do is think positively. So i started thinking about how this is just a dream and nothing should hurt me, everything shouldn't be dark outside.
This seemed to work, because my kitten disappeared finally. I flew out of the window yet again and now it was around 7:30PM in the dream, judging by the amount of light the environment gained. [So it wasn't that dark anymore, i could see well now, but it was getting dark soon].

I was happy that it worked and in my happiness, i flew up to some electrical wires above me and started chewing on one of them. I thought that it's funny that these would be deadly in real.
They tasted horribly though, just like rubber... I thought about that they should taste like gummycandy, but it didn't seem to work, so i left them.
I noticed some electrical storm really far away in the horizont, i wanted to go and check it out.
I had a thought that the cables empowered me, so i changed to super speed flying and headed that way. While flying at extreme speed, i let out some kind of electrical pulses out of my body and they zapped the air around me

When i got to the storm, it was kinda disappointing.... it got really tiny and not that huge as it seemed from further away, so i left and went back to my starting position.
While flying back that way, i remembered my goal, i wanted to find Amy Lee, to ask her some things. [Along with questions about how to befriend Lucy... after all they are both DCs, so she might know].
I flew out to our street and made a remark on how there were no people anywhere. Then i landed on top of a big transformer that is standing at the end of our street.

Amy Lee

I kept thinking about Amy standing on the other side of the transformer and i was turning around to summon her. As i was turning, the transformer was tottering as the air moved it, but i didn't feel unsafe.
Soon after this suddenly the environment shifted around me, now i was still standing on the transformer, but was in our ourbuilding. [Which's ceiling got much much taller].

I noticed a macho looking guy on the ground below. He shouted something at me, but i don't remember it. He seemed to trying to tell me something important, but i didn't care much about it.
For some reason i was able to look through the wall without any effort at this moment... I noticed a DC walking away from the building outside, and she had a black hair and i thought that it must be Amy Lee.
I put my head through the wall and looked down at her, she didn't look up at me, but her eyes were on me and she was smiling at me like she was planning something bad. [I knew it for sure now, she looked perfectly like Amy and i was happy that my mind was able to recreate her so beautifully ]

I flew outside and landed behind her as she was trying to leave the garden.
I wanted to say something to her, but suddenly hear someone behind me, shouting "CAREFULLY!".
I looked behind me, and it was a naked girl, who's body was made of plastic, only her head was human. I just knew it that this was the same guy who were standing near the transformator before... he just changed.
I turned back to Amy, not caring about this random person, even while i had a thought that maybe he/she was the one who brought Amy here.

Just as i looked at her, i heard a howling sound and she started transforming into some kind of monster... It was like a werewolf, but bigger and had some unrecognizable parts on itself.
That weird person behind me said nothing, but i heard in my mind as he/she was thinking "I told you".
Ah well... how could i know that this was just a trick and not the real Amy? I flew up in the air away from this monster, then woke up.

[I guess this dream wasn't so bad, despite the fact that it wasn't that clear as they are usually, but that's thanks to my recall... gotta work on it more now ]
[I'm going back to sleep, since it's just 7:30 when writing this entry, so i hopefully be able to post another LD today ^^]
[11:40AM Edit: Well, couldn't get another LD, sadly, just some regular dreams and a sleep paralysis ]

21.06.2012

The Prince of Light (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being picked to be in some sort of class. I walked in. The room was pretty dark, and only ominous light shown from hidden places around the room.

Each desk was set on a stair step, and their were also desks opposite those desks on the other side of the stair step.
I walked around awkwardly, trying to find a desk. Almost all of them were taken. I decided to pick one right beside a girl I thought I knew.

After everyone had settles, a weird air set over the place. All of a sudden, everyone turned into a different person. They were their same "person", just different attitudes. They became very slow and almost unresponsive. For some reason, I was unaffected.

The "camera" went up to the top of the stairs. It showed an immediate drop off to the floor below.
A shining boy flew in. The "camera" focused on him. He had snowy white hair. He was standing up on something. I assumed that somthing possessed magic that gave him the ability to fly. He had kind eyes, and a dazzling smile. The whole being of him just sparkled with pure white light.

21.06.2012

Exploring (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being in some sort of small cave, exploring or something. A boy was with me. He had brought two flashlights with him. Ignoring the other flashlight, I just shot light out of my hands. I thought nothing about it.

Another little creature was with us. It was very hyper, and we had to shine our lights on it wherever it went, so we wouldn't lose it. My lights started to dim, but I quickly renewed them by willing them to brighten and extending my arms out further.

I realize I'm having a FA.
Everything is oddly dark, even outside of my room, as I approach the balcony I see a glimpse of light coming from outside, but when I open it the light dissipates and everything is pitch dark.

Woke up

[This dream was at around 8:40AM or so]
[Haven't had a single LD for almost a week and half before this, so it was time ^^]

I was just escaping some huge ogre and it's bandit friends who were coming out from our outbuilding, when i decided to fly away from them. When i flew up into the sky, i just thought to myself "Oh... how can i fly up here? Oh yes, i'm dreaming!"
Of course i got lucid and really happy, the dry spell was broken

I descended down to the earth and just looked around a little. It was night and i was standing in our garden. Some things were shining a little, so it wasn't totally dark, but dark enough to get lost in it.
I wanted to create daylight immediately, so i looked up to check out the sky.
I found the Moon, which was pixelated, just like in an old videogame. I held both of my hands high above and focused on moving the Moon with telekinesis... It happened surprisingly fast, i was able to move the Moon back and it disappeared behind some clouds.

Since it wasn't enough to make daylight, the next thing to do was bring up the Sun.
I held up my hand again, but now pulled towards me. Soon the Sun showed up and it was moving quite fast towards me. Even while it was on the sky, daylight was nowhere, so i was focusing on that, but it didn't want to happen.
I let go of the Sun since it was coming at extreme speeds towards the garden.
After a short while it just crashed into the wall of our outbuilding and destroyed it. It looked more like a huge pulsating yellow ball.
[At that moment i thought to myself how disappointing it was. I expected a real sized Sun ].

Well, i didn't really want to check out the Sun from close, since it was that small, i lost interest in it.
I looked around yet again and was thinking about that i surely need daylight if i want to wander from there... I noticed a pink-yellowish beam coming down from the sky to the earth in the landscape. It just lighted up everything around it, but it was too far and i didn't want to go through the darkness to reach it.
I decided to fly up to our house's roof, since it was somewhat lighter, but when i was about to do it everything got dark. [I thought to myself that it can't be the end of the dream yet, it didn't feel like when my dream ends].

I realized that it was a tricky darkness, to make me think that i woke up, but no, i stood still and waited, focused on getting to a lighter place, when suddenly my vision blurred and when it got back to normal i was in a new place already.
It was some kind of bazaar and it was daylight finally. I started walking and let out a "Whooohooooooo!" because i was happy that it's not dark anymore. [The daylight here was blue for some reason].
I looked around the bazaar and it was really surreal, the vendor booths were placed in different levels on all sides and even above me and some of them looked like they were floating.

I flew up to check around, when i noticed a vendor that was selling different kinds of desserts and things like that. Someone was just buying something from him and in the meanwhile i reached out for a little biscuit like food. While reaching, i thought to myself that it must taste sweet. Just as i thought that, the biscuit suddenly had a chocolate cover with some sugar on it.
I took it and started eating it... it tasted good, but nothing extraordinary...

I looked around and at the other side of the counter i noticed a HUGE cupcake

Similar to this, but it was flatter and had a cherry on top.

It just looked so good that i couldn't leave it there. I took it with me and flew away. I immediately took a bite and it was just sooo goood
I decided to try and find Lucy, but even while i knew i should think about her positively, so she won't attack me, i just couldn't. I had negative thoughts just as i thought of her name and i got scared that she'll just trick me again.
I flew up higher from the bazaar, where then i noticed a flat transparent blue surface floating above. I flew higher and descended onto it. I had no idea what it was, but i didn't really care either.

I was thinking about Lucy, to summon her somewhere near, while still nomming on my cupcake time-by-time.
[Maybe next time i'll even bring a cupcake like that for her ^^].
I noticed a virtual picture of a brown haired girl on a wall and i immediately knew that it must be her picture, but for some reason i expected her to be blonde now... not sure why.
As i was just about to go there, the picture slipped down from the wall and disappeared into the ground...
Then suddenly a huge iPad-like screen appeared at that same wall. It had MSN Messenger open on it.

There were all kinds of unknown to me contacts on the screen, but i thought that maybe i could talk with Lucy on it... So i typed in her name in the search bar and her picture popped up, but she was blonde now.
I clicked on it and sent her a simple greeting:

- Hi.
She answered in almost a milisecond:
- Hey?

I was just about to ask her something, when suddenly i felt my left leg itching, so i reached to scratch it, but my real hand moved for some reason... I woke up...

[I didn't even expect my real hand to move at that time, it never happened yet that i was still seeing the dream, but my real hand moved instead :/]
[Somehow i should get over my fears about Lucy... but it's harder than i thought]
[At least the cupcake was tasty ^^]

I remember seeing some guy jum from telephone pole to pole and seein my grandma and my cousin. Next dream was a DEILD, and I remember thing getting extra black. I flew a little bit and fell. And I also remember touching and eating a bunch of clovers to stay lucid.


I also remember being a quarian infiltrator.

Something After Me

[Had this dream at around 3:30AM, without expecting it at all, i was just normally sleeping ]

I was on the street close to my old school with my sister, when i got lucid, not sure why. I started running down the street, while my sister was yelling things at me, but i didn't care.
As i reached the end of the street, there was a huge hole in the ground and there was nothing anywhere anymore, like the whole ground disappeared. I couldn't see anything further in the landscape either... [It was somewhat like the end of the world or something].

Without any second thought i just flew up in the air in that same direction. I didn't know what i wanted to do, i just wanted to fly somewhere.
As i was flying, i thought about rain, so it started raining suddenly. It was good flying in the rain, but then something distracted me.
Suddenly i had a feeling that something/someone is following me. I had no time to look back, but sometimes a picture of a girl was flashing in. She had wings and her body was fully made of darkness, only her face was somewhat lighter.

She looked somewhat like this, without the weapon and her skin was made of darkness.

I wasn't sure what to do, so i kept flying faster and tried to get lost of her. [I think i lost some of my lucidity here, since she wasn't that scary actually].
As i was trying to escape, everything around me got darker and darker, when once i just popped out of the darkness and fell onto a wooden floor. I found myself in some kind of old shop.
[I gained back my lucidity here fully].

I looked around, but couldn't see anyone. As i was browsing through the stuff in the shop, i found a tiny mirror. This reminded me of the TotM of June, so i picked the mirror up.
It was too small for even my hand to fit through. I focused on it and wanted it to grow bigger, which somewhat succeeded, but still only my hand fit through, not me fully.
I took the mirror away and imagined a bigger one around me... i imagined as i walk through it... as my imagined self walked through the mirror, suddenly everything turned black.

I heard a noise and found myself in the shop again, but there was an old shopkeeper now too. [I lost lucidity here].
I told him to stop making noises, because i'm trying to fall asleep. I told him that i live in the shop....

[So yeah, i lost my lucidity which is not so usual for me, meh... My dream self was 100% sure that she was sleeping in the shop... no idea where i got that from]



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Brown Haired Girl

[This dream was at 8:30AM if i remember right, some time after my WBTB attempt]
[I fell asleep multiple times after it, but for some reason i still remember it well]

I was in our garden when i got lucid, i don't really remember what happened before.
As i got lucid i instantly remembered that i should try and search for Dreamprofessor. I thought about creating a door somewhere and walking through that to the place what we arranged as a meeting place
I also thought that i might try to find Lucy first and maybe bring her with me to Dreamprofessor...
I turned around in the garden, ready to go and do these, but then i noticed a short, light-brown haired girl in the garden.

She looked similar to this.

She looked really clueless and like she was searching for something. For some reason i got a feeling that she is related to Lucy in some way and i unintentionally summoned her with my thoughts before... I walked close to her and asked what is she doing, but i got no answer, just a glassy look.
She never looked at me, just at my hands or my legs. It seemed like she has some mental problem, so i stopped asking her things.

I decided to leave her there and go on my way... while walking away i noticed that starting from the neighbour's garden everything was dark like it was night there. Only the area near our house and garden was sunlit.
I was wondering about how to get out of there, since going throught the darkness wouldn't be a good idea... So i just decided that i'll create the door on the top of our house, because up there i can easily see if something goes wrong.
[Maybe i could've just tried creating daylight everywhere else or something, but i didn't think of that].

I stood near the wall and then started flying upwards, but it went suprisingly slow... I looked down and got totally surprised: That same brown haired girl was holding on my legs.
I looked at her and she still acted that weird, she wasn't looking at me, just at my legs and sometimes at the environment near us. She was also mumbling something during this time, but i couldn't understand.
I tried to shake her off my legs, which succeeded, she fell down, but grabbed onto a brick in the wall. [The wall had lots of bricks and things that can be grabbed on and it was also much taller than in reality].

She kept climbing towards me with that glassed look. When she got close, i tried to kick her off the wall, but i couldn't. I decided that i need more power for this. I charged up and let out a powerful force push from my hands towards her.
She couldn't hold on anymore and just slowly fell down to the ground.
I was satisfied that i got rid of her, but then i suddenly woke up....

[I probably woke up because of the noises my family made during this time... sigh]
[Maybe i should be less distracted by things like that girl and only aim for what i planned to do originally... ]

My grandmother allowed my sisters and I to stay at her house and watch TV until her favorite shows came on. Ten minutes before her favorite show airs, we pile into her car and she takes us to a hospital. We didn't go inside, we just walked around the grounds. The hospital looked like my old house, and the hospital was next to Barry Street. Barry is my father's name. I was extremely confused for a moment in the dream.

On the hospital grounds an old man was performing a marriage ceremony for two cats. We met up with my parents. My sisters decided to go into my grandmom's car, and I my parents'. I realized in the car that my sisters were being driven straight home, while my parents were going out to Lowe's. Inconvenient, since I had to pee.

I have no idea how I became lucid. I did the noseplug, and that was successful the first try. By that point it was very dark, I thought maybe I had woken up. I tried imaging myself rubbing my hands together—nothing. I was afraid of moving my real body or fully waking up. I decided to move what I thought was my real hands, and rather than feeling friction, they felt tingly. I was still dreaming. I stared at my palms, and I managed to stabilize my dream a little. I then counted my fingers, and there was an extra on my left hand.

I remember also reading text as an RC. I was on a crowded bus; someone had hairy lumps on his chest/chin. I don’t remember what device I was reading off of, but when I glanced at it a second and third time, the sentence that initially made sense turned into nonsense. I decided to float out of the roof of the bus.

I also decided to crawl around the place, it helped a little in stabilizing my dream more. I felt a little bit of sensation on my limbs, but not as much as I would expect. I had to focus on how everything feels in order to feel any sensation.

So I decided to do some metal bending. I did it simply with thought, and don’t do any cool moves with it, so it was not as exciting as I thought it would be. I decided then to fly. I sprouted wings and took off. I couldn’t feel my wings, and had to focus on their movements if I wanted to feel them at all. I felt no air movement while I was flying. I flew around a fort, and I saw some monster decoration on the ground. I saw two other men flying with bows and arrows. I began following one, but then realized that I could summon my fiancé! I saw a portal next to me and threw myself into it, tumbling. I was in darkness again, and rather than stabilizing I decided to wake up.

Dark Market

[I had this dream somewhere early during the night, around 3AM i think, possibly in my first REM cycle, so it didn't last long and was kinda dark]

I was in a supermarket of some kind with my mom, she was checking the shelves for groceries. It was really dark in the market, which is really unusual since they always keep the lights on, even at night. So i decided to check reality by hiding behind a counter, then looking back at my mom and imagining that she will be at a different place. [I hope it makes sense].
When i looked at her, she was suddenly much further than before, it would've been impossible for her to get there that fast, so i got lucid thanks to this.

It was so dark in the market that i didn't see much. I wanted to get out of there, so i started hovering in the air and i flew fast towards some tall shelves. I flew through it, but i just got to another row of shelves in the market. I kept on flying through these, but i always got back to these same looking rows. I felt like i was trapped in there... Soon i woke up...

[I couldn't do much other than this, probably since it was just my first REM cycle my control wasn't that good yet or something like that...]



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Underground Fish People

[This is a dream from around 6-7AM, but i'm not exactly sure]
[In this dream i totally forgot that i wanted to meet up with Dreamprofessor, so i was mostly just following the "story" of the dream, so i didn't really change things...]

I was in a supermarket again in the beginning of this dream, althrough it was well lit and a lot of people were walking around. Someone asked me to give her a box of butter from the shelves and i couldn't see who asked me to do it, like that person was invisible... so it got kinda suspicious and i got lucid.

Suddenly my environment "shifted" around me and i found myself somewhere underground in a cave like place. I noticed lots of fish people living their life down there and i also got turned into one of them.

They looked similar to Fizz from LoL.

It was a kinda weird feeling, since i didn't turn myself into a fish person intentionally.
For some reason i've got a feeling that if some of them notices me then they'll try to attack me, so i decided to keep low profile and try to sneak around them.
The cave had a really tall ceiling and there were huge square shaped hills made of clay everywhere... most of these hills had little windows, they probably served as houses.

I carefully climbed down from the clay house that i was standing on. I hopped into the water and looked around. A lot of fish people were swimming in the water instead of walking on the clay hills, so i decided to try and sneak around them on top of a long clay hill.
I jumped high in the air and landed on top of it. I've got a feeling that they'll easily notice me up there, so i turned invisible. As i was advancing, sometimes invisibility has just ended, so i had to renew it.
After a while i noticed that this invisibility is not gonna stay for long, so i decided to turn into a shadow instead. I literally turned into one, i had no body, i was just "sliding" on the ground like a normal shadow.
[I felt like it was the best camouflage i could think of].

Or at least i thought so, until i almost got to the end of the clay hill. I heard a loud voice of a fish king, i didn't see him anywhere, but i just knew it that it was their king. I got scared and turned back into my fish body from this shadow form. I started running towards the end of the hill, when i noticed a huge whirlpool at the water. I just knew it that the king must be there, so i wanted to get out of this place as fast i could... well the king thought differently. I got pushed into the water by some huge water hands or something like that. [I don't remember exactly what did it].

I found myself underwater and noticed a huge fish monster in front of me. It had tentacles coming out of it's body, had a huge shark-like face and it's body was covered in coral all around.
It let out huge roars like he didn't like that i was an intruder.
I started swimming in circles around it, thinking about how to defeat him... I suddenly got a harpoon in my hands while thinking this, but i couldn't get close to him as those tentacles were waving in all directions.
It started blowing bubbles towards me... They seemed harmless, but i dodged them just in case.

He got even mad because of his missed bubbles and started blowing more and more towards me, but i just kept dodging them, while the water was shaking more and more violently.
I was just about to dive in and finish him off with my harpoon, but then suddenly everything got black... I don't remember what happened after this, i think i lost lucidity fully.

[I don't really remember when did i wake up from this dream.. probably it transitioned into another one...]
[Too bad i couldn't finish off the fish monster, it could've been an interesting fight... :/]

This one is kind of old and happened right after my last entry.
I haven't really found the time to write it down until now.
My dreams are also getting kind of long, which is amazing, but also kind of a pain to write down.


The time is ticking.
I have no choice but to diffuse the bomb, there is no way we'll get out of the explosion radius in time.
I quickly grab an electric screwdriver from my back pocket and start removing the digital clock mounted on top of the bomb.
There is less than one minute left on the timer.

"Hurry up!"
"Shut it!"

Removing the clock reveals a highly complex maze of cabling.
Screw this!
I remove the electronics as well, in the hopes of finding a simpler set of cabling leading to the warhead.
Fortunately I am right. The whole electronics are wired to the warhead by only two thick cables.
I can do this!
But my short burst of confidence is quickly shattered by a rather troublesome discovery.
The warhead is nuclear.
How the fuck did this happen? How did anyone manage to acquire a nuclear fucking bomb?

A quick look at the dismantled clock reveals that I have 7 seconds left.
I decide to cut one of the cables at random.

"I know this setup! Cut the red one!"

I move my knife to the red cable, but it shifts colors with the other yellow one.
Whenever I switch, the cable colors switch as well. It's impossible to cut the red one. WTF!

Seeing the last few seconds run out, I notice that I'm not really scared to die.
I wonder why that is.
Oh...

Yeah...
I start rubbing my hands but am interrupted by the bomb hitting zero and audibly powering up.
Well... this is not good. I might wake up because of that.
I think about quickly portaling the bomb away before it goes off, but then I notice that it is plugged into the wall with an extension cord.
Really?
I unplug it and the warhead turns off.
Lol.

I resume rubbing my hands but I am yet again interrupted, this time by the DC that was with me.
I unsummon him because I have no time to deal with DC's right now.
I need to stabilize the dream and get my second lesson in time dilation...

... I'm in Haven with Yuya and Liv.
I have trouble stabilizing the dream but eventually manage to get there.
Once stable I immediately get back to doing the awareness technique from the previous dream, sort of to show off in case Yuya tests me.
But she doesn't. There is simply no need, she is fully aware of my thoughts and how aware I am right now.
Liv is curious about what we are doing and I have a difficult time explaining it to her.
She is unaware of the difficulty of remaining in a dream or the concept of stability.

We walk along a path that I remember. I've been here before but I cannot quite remember what I was doing.
Then I see the water pools, yep, this is the fighting practice area.
Yuya starts walking onto one of the pools and I follow her.
Walking on water is second nature to me nowadays, but thinking back, it's the first thing that Yuya taught me when I met her again.

I suddenly get goosebumps and instinctively power up and take a defensive stance.
Huh? It was Yuya.I felt the shock of her suddenly powering up.

"Nice reaction!"
"Cheers. What are we doing?"

I barely manage to block her attack as she blinks towards me.
Without my recent training she would have knocked me unconscious with this.
I'm kind of in the mood to fight her now, I wonder how I compare to her nowadays.
I smile.

"Awareness Hyu."
"What? Oh, you've got to be kidding me! During a fight???"
"Why? Are you scared that I'll slap you across the face?"
"Hahaha, alright, let's do this!"

I awaken the dragon and charge towards her.
She easily blocks all of my attacks. No surprise there though.
So far so good, I manage to remain fully aware of my surroundings.
The fight is pretty tame, I don't get myself into uncomfortable positions, have I gotten closer to the skill level of Yuya?

She summons her pressurized spheres.
Well shit. I forgot about those.
The spheres are horribly dangerous and difficult to fight against.
She basically creates 5 water spheres about the size of a basket balls.
Then she compresses them down to the size of a grain of sand.
I'm not even sure how it's possible to compress a liquid at all.

The pressure of these spheres is immense. They can be used both defensively and offensively.
She moves them around telepathically at extreme speeds and can make them burst whenever she wants,
releasing the contained water at extreme pressures, cutting through anything in their way.

You really can't let them touch you unless you don't mind loosing a limb.
Fighting against them requires a lot of blinking, which causes stability problems due to the distorted vision.

It would be rather useful to have my katana right now, but I'm not using it in a practice battle with Yuya, it's too dangerous.
I don't use the dragon eyes either, because the thought on using them on a friend scares the shit out of me.
In return she doesn't use her water extraction technique, which I wouldn't know how to fight against.
I only saw her use it once in a fight.
Within a split second she extracted the entire blood from her enemy and he died on the spot.
It's a really scary technique.

What am I doing?
I'm thinking too much. I should look for openings instead and strike whenever I see one.
But Yuya is way too skilled to provide such an opening, I'll have to force one.
I create and launch spheres of compressed energy at her. Those are rather explosive and fairly dangerous.
I got the idea from her water spheres. Attacks of compressed energy have their advantages.
They are much more efficient against single targets.
The technique is also cheap energy wise, so I can cast it a lot, making it an ideal tool to get someone off balance.

She is moving 3 of her water spheres into a defensive position to cope with my relentless attacks.
Time to get serious.
I make an aggressive blink, right in front of her, and try to strike her with a fist.
This is obviously not going to work, I expect her to blink away.
I'm using a multiblink attack, which is very difficult to perform.
I try to feel where she's going to blink to to dodge my attack and blink myself to the new location simultaneously.

Blinking usually has some sort of cooldown, making this impossible, but using enough energy it is possible to force it.
The energy required to do this is ludicrous though, so multiblink attacks are extremely exhausting.
But you basically put your opponent into a position where he is forced to multiblink as well to dodge the attack.
Yuya and I are skilled enough to do it about 4-5 times in a row, but after that everything hurts.
Your aura is completely unstable at that point and takes seconds to recover, during which you cannot focus your energy at all.

The reason I'm using such an attack is to nullify an immense advantage she has over me.
She doesn't need to stay lucid. She lives in this world, I am merely a visitor.

Here she goes.
2 Blinks... 3, 4, and finally a fifth.
The energy in my fist has completely dissipated due to all the blinking, and she can now easily block it.
I land on the water surface and have difficulty remaining on top due to my now unstable aura.

I attack her again, purely physically this time, as I neither of us can focus any energy.
Whoever manages to focus his energy first will have the tremendous advantage of launching the first serious attack.
I might have the advantage on this, dragonic energy is extremely unstable by nature, so I'm used to it.
I should be able to focus my energy before my aura has fully stabilized.

I can feel my aura tingling. This should be enough!
I focus energy into the tattoo stretched over my right arm and quickly cast a fire based attack towards Yuya.
She dodges it by blinking.
How the hell can she do that???
How is her aura stable enough already to blink?

I screwed up big time. I casted this before my aura stabilized, and now it's completely messed up again.
Yuya is over me charging towards me. She's casting a spell.
Shit, I can't do anything.
The water surface collapses beneath my feet and I am dragged underwater.
She's controlling the water, increasing it's pressure attempting to hold me in place.
I see her splash through the water surface still charging at me fast.
She is wielding a trident.

But she's overconfident. She's in her element, so she thinks I must be at a huge disadvantage.
Yet, even though I do not control water, I can make good use of it.
My aura stabilizes and I create an extremely strong electric field in front of me.
Electrolysis! I split water into hydrogen and oxygen. The correct mixture is highly explosive.
She realizes what I've done too late and I ignite the mixture with a fire sphere.

Oh shit. I didn't think this through.
The explosion is huge and we are both catapulted out of the water.
Everything is extremely foggy because so much water evaporated and water drops are going everywhere.
I can barely see. This is really dangerous, the dream could collapse.
I don't even know where up and down is.

I decide to completely ignore my vision and rely on my sense of global awareness instead.
Good call! I sense 5 sources of compressed energy approaching. Water spheres!
I quickly locate Yuya's aura and blink towards her.
I catch her slightly of guard and manage to land a focused hit.
She blocks it fine, but still.
Focused energy attacks are better to avoid than to block.
They cause all sorts of vibrations in your aura making followup moves difficult.

I try to chain a few attacks together but quickly feel the exhaustion kicking in and I back up.
Most of the water has come down and my vision becomes useful again.

She performs a blink attack.
Shit! She's going to chain them up.
We blink a total of 4 times.
It hurts so much.

This keeps going for a few more rounds.
One of us performs a multiblink attack and gets us both completely out of position.
Then it's a race to the first attack and a matter of somehow defending against it.
It is absolutely exhausting.
My limbs become insanely heavy and I start to loose the ability to focus my energy properly.
We fight for maybe a total of 15 minutes, which is actually quite a long time considering the speed we're going at.

"Alright... let's call it a draw..."
"No... I win."

Oh come on. She's just as exhausted as I am, she can barely stand.

"You lost awareness of your surroundings."
"Fuck my life."
"Haha. You completely forgot!"
"..."
"And guess what? You're still here."
"Huh? I thought the goal of this was to remain aware of my surroundings."
"No, that's not the goal at all. The goal is to have deeper dreams. The goal is to remain here for longer."

...
Wait what?

"Hold on a second!"

She got that grin of her face.
That "she knows everything" grin.

"You're telling me the heightened awareness thing isn't actually necessary to stay lucid???"
"Of course not! How would you pull that off for multiple hours in a row?"
"..."
"I said your awareness level was too random, we did some training to fix that."
"So you're saying it is already fixed?"
"I am now convinced that it is already fixed."

Woah. That was fast.

"So.. what are we doing now?"
"Teaching you to let go."

Let go? Let go of waking life?
Not thinking about it all the time and rather focus on the dream?
Of course... she told me many times before...

I take a quick dip in the water to get rid of the smell.
I'm sweating like a pig.

We walk back towards Yuya's place, discussing dreaming and being awake.
I mention Dreamviews, which I haven't done very often before.
Yuya tells me to say hi to fOrceez and Dark_Merlin.
Liv doesn't say a word. I don't think she's ever seen Yuya and me fight, that must have been quite intense for her.

Damn... I'm so exhausted.
Why do you even get exhausted in dreams?

"Why wouldn't you?"
"Eh... yeah..."
"Indeed."
"So, what do I do against it?"
"... are you serious?"

>_<

"You sleep of course! Or did you think I would sleep just for fun?"
"Well... now that you put it this way."

Liv leaves us and we quickly get into bed.
Goddamn I'm exhausted. Every muscle in my body hurts.

"This is a problem"
"What is?"
"If I want to sleep I'll have to close my eyes."
"So?"
"I might wake up?"
"zzz, you've picked up a lot of nonsense"
"I have?"
"These 'dream rules'. Darkness is bad, don't close your eyes. Don't talk. Yada yada."
"Yeah, I kinda have, haven't I?"
"I know the not talking one is nonsense, I talk all the time."
"It's no different for closing your eyes."
"I know you're right. I only wake up because I'm scared that I might. But it seems hard to get over."

"Pff... hahahaha"
"What's so funny?"
"Hurr hurr, I'm a badass dragon, I can fight a goddess of water and do all sorts of shit."
"Yet I can't even close my eyes.... haha.... I'm sorry Hyu, but this is funny."

It kind of is.
Screw it. Let's do this shit!
I close my eyes.

"You know, when you exploded half of the fucking training pool you didn't see anything either."
"That didn't wake you up, so why would closing your eyes do so?"

Yep, my thoughts exactly.
I open my eyes again to sneak a closer look at her.

WHAT THE FUCK?
How am I awake? What is this shit?
I'm a bit mad, but happy to have made progress.
I take some quick notes and go back to sleep.