lucid

Created Friday 03 December 2021

Got a number of LDs today. There was a lot of other content, though I couldn't keep it in memory for long.

Dream 1 - TOTY Task Attempt - Office Raider

The visuals were dim and blurred. FA in bed. Said darkness didn't go unnoticed (the sun had long risen by that point). As such, I immediately regain awareness.

I stumble out the door and into a black void, where I fly backwards at high speeds. This warps me into the poorly lit hallways of a fancy office building, a structure made of grey marble, potted palm trees decorating each doorway. Such extravagance gave me a negative impression of its keepers.

In any case, this got me to thinking of the hero task, and, specifically, that I was raiding a villain's HQ. Once again, I called to Dryad to accompany me, whom answered the summons immediately. In this dream, she appeared as a withered birch, a head of leafless twigs for "hair". On my cue, we peaked through a doorway, and when the coast was clear, dashed past it. We repeated as such for each openings. Along the way, I had music from Metal Gear Solid sound in the background to suit the mood.

Upon arriving at an intersection, we were alerted to footsteps coming from behind. And so, Dryad and I ducked behind a tree to see who was arriving. In steps a heavily armed man, his body fully concealed in a suit of black polymer armor.1 If we didn't act fast, the guard would spot us for sure. Searching my person, I happen upon a pistol. I took aim, and fired, ending the man's life in an instant. Didn't feel too good about doing that. But, a greater concern lied in having caused an alert via gunshot. Luckily, this went unnoticed... for the moment. My companion and I hid the body at our hiding location, and continued our way.

Further ahead, we notice a wall safe at an alcove. By chance, it happened to be unlocked. I reach in, to find a metal orb the size of a soccer ball. It was peculiarly flexible, and seemed to have some kind of liquid inside. Was this the thing we were looking for? I messed around with it a bit, trying to unseal its contents safely. Dryad jabbed me with her elbow, a signal we weren't out of the woods yet. I darted from my surroundings and the object as I followed her out. All of a sudden, the orb popped, covering me in grey gunk. No idea what it was, only that it felt uncomfortably tepid.

We made it to an elevator door, when the dream started collapsing. I did my best to cling onto the environment, to no avail.

Dream re-entry five minutes later.

Dream 2 - TOTY Task Attempt - City Sneak and Graveyard Skulk


Scene 1 - Alleyway Suit-Up
The visuals were dim. Dream re-entry. I was standing in the middle of a run-down urban street, neon lights blinking under a starless sky. I resume the task, when I remember a crucial mistake from my last attempt: I wasn't in costume. I look to my person, to find I was already in my gear (black leather touring suit, combat boots, gloves, and biker helmet). In this dream, my clothes were also studded with spiky metal rivets, especially at the shoulders and in my glove's knuckles. Anyway, I call out to Dryad, who, appearing as she did above, again accompanied me once again.

Past an alleyway, I notice an office tower, the largest and least dilapidated site in the area. I make my way there sounding more sneak-theme music along the way. Halfway through, the scene warp.

Scene 2 - Zombie at the Mausoleum
Similar visuals. I was at the rusted cast-iron gates of a graveyard during an eerie, foggy night. The branches of dead trees fluttered in a cold wind. Lucky for me, my partner wasn't lost in this transition.

We continue past crumbling headstones, when, from the mist, a figure shambles towards us. It was a zombie, a long-desiccated husk of its former self, suit in tatters. Wasting no time, I tackle the thing to the ground, which de-animated the undead for good.

A short distance further, we spot a small mausoleum, the only structure of its kind in this dreary site. We guessed the entrance to an underground lair must be hidden inside. I shuddered to think what horrors would await us beneath. Such uncertainty causes the dream to fade away.

Dream re-entry attempt, with no luck. WILD attempt, but I doze off roughly ten minutes in.

Dream 3 - TOTY Task Attempt - Secret Office Basement

Scene 1 - Another Annoying Awareness
The visuals were slightly blurred. FA in an altered version of the upstairs bedroom at the far end. The mattress was closer to the door, and there were small tables that didn't belong there.

While looking around half-asleep, the door suddenly opened. Several relatives barged in succession, pestering me in some way or another. I could only groan in frustration as they chattered and made nuisances of themselves.

Pondering things further let me realize all these oddities, and thus, the dream state. I waved them goodbye, against some of their protests, as I jumped backwards into the closet. Warp.

Scene 2 - Office Raider 2 - Underground
Similar visuals as above. I was in the lobby of an ordinary office building, the walls colored in an unpleasant yellow. Resuming the task, I looked down, and found I was already in costume. I called out to Dryad, who immediately loomed in from behind.

With the groundwork set up, we went on to explore the site. I arrive at an empty teller's desk, when, suddenly, a commotion from the nearest exit. Two guards, each armed with military arms and faces concealed by balaclavas, were charging towards us.2 In turn, I rushed them Just as they fired, I shrunk myself down to a few inches in height, avoiding their shots. I weaved past their heels behind them, whereupon I restored my size to dropkick one of them at the back of the neck. The other turned to counter, but I shrunk once more. In response, he tried stomping me. I jumped under easily, upon which I restored my size to give a devastating uppercut square in his groin.

Both security officers were down, but a dozen more or so were arriving. There seemed to be no end to them. I was ready to throw myself into the fray, but Dryad stepped ahead to stop me. "I'll handle them. Now go.", she demanded. With no time to argue, I nodded, and left her behind. I glanced back, to see her arms erupt into tentacle-like vines, the wriggling mass fully constraining the entrance those mercenaries were using. For the time being, I could only hope she'd hold her own.

At a nearby wall, I noticed an odd looking vent. I flew there, and tried shrinking myself down to be able to squeeze through the grates. It took significantly more effort to reduce myself, at least 30 seconds in all. Anyway, I start running through the ducts, then chose to hover when I found I wasn't picking up much speed.

A minute in, I spot an opening to an underground site. By a glance, it look like a poorly lit metro subway station, though I'd sincere doubts such a place would be built directly underneath an office building. Surely, this must've been a secret bunker or such. I fall through a grate, and restored my size. It felt liberating to be away from those ducts. From above, I spotted a guard patrolling a catwalk. I stuck very close to the shadow of the walls as I crept around a corner. A wide set of steps was ahead, atop which was an open space. There, some dining tables were set up, tiki torches decorating the perimeter. A small group of figures were gathered, each wearing expensive dresses and suits. A couple in their late fifties almost spotted me, but I shrunk just in the nick of time to avoid their view. Once they were distracted in conversation, I hurried under their table, then rushed around another corner well away from the diners.

Now, I found at the entrance of a tunnel, a mysterious blue light glowing in the distance. I took a few steps in, when the dream began vanishing. I awakened shortly after.

Not a lot to say and I am on mobile since I am out of town. I have trouble faliling asleep and eventually doze. I am only asleep for 30min when something triggers the same WILD/OBE feeling as the last entry. I float up and start to roll in the air. I open my dream eye and try to put feet on the floor but every thing is broken into fractals. Again everything is very trippy. I just ride it out trying to stabilize the dream as I can. I try to interact as much as possible but theres not much I can do. Several minutes pass and I start singing and saying silly things. I make my voice sound like Optimus Prime and I state authoritative things like this is my domain. I control all things here. I am in charge by the power of the lord jesus christ. Eventually I start hering a voice that sounded like my wife challenging my statements. I dont recall the conversation but its ends in getting annoyed and I just say oh shutup and she does. Then I wake more and am stuck in SP. I kind of start feeling panicky like there is an evil presence and that adrenaline wakes me up.

#551 DILD 11:20PM

I had another early sleep LD randomly. I wan't trying at all but this is a good sign I might be getting back to normal. Sleep is still kind of hit and miss though. I was indeed having a hard time going to sleep and I took a Melatonin at about 10PM. Also, I don't really know what to call these episodes anymore. Its not a WILD for sure since there was a complete loss in consciousness prior and I don't feel like there was any micro awakening just before. I just find myself having what feels like a WILD or OBE. I am assuming its connected to my past randomly occurring SP issues. Maybe it's a Wake Induced Lucid Dream for the fact that I had been asleep but partial woke up. These are just labels that don't matter but I do wish I could know whats going on so that I may be able to exploit it in the future.

Anyway, lm myself so I don't wake up. I feel a big smile on my face and I am loving the sense of gravity being manipulated. I take effort to see what going on and I notice I am descending down on something that looks like a mirror or a sheet of glass. I don't see my reflection but it looks like a room in my house. I find myself feeling like I am laying in bed but I am noticing a lot of WILD like transition symptoms. Lots of trippy hypnogogia type stuff. I don't quite recall all of it now. I do remember something like some textured white plastic with red pulsating lights under it. This was the most vivid of all and was the image that really got me realizing that I am in a dream transitional state. With that realization, I feel mild vibrations (probably just because I expect it now) and I become weightless. I rotate and slowly roll over uncontrollably. I become very excited at this and feel my heart rate pick up. I instantly remember to ca

I decide to phase through it with out any issue. Their is a brief darkness and then I find myself underwater near some ancient under water structures. The sea floor looks odd. Sandy but full of bits of debris. As I move in the water I heard very trippy watery sounds that I cant describe. I find this to be interesting and move around and listen for a bit. I even start calling out and it feels and sounds about what you would expect for being underwater. That clears up and sounds more normal after a moment. I call out Hello? who's there? Just to try to get something to happen. There's no answer but I see an odd stone with some sort of unrecognizable inscription on it like a rune. The more I look at it the more it looks like some sort of carved item. I ask what this is and I hear a voice say, "It's a a stone tablet." but for some reason I interpret this as it's a key.

There is a wall in front of me with an indention the same size as the stone carving. I insert it and it the wall lifts up. I enter and there is no water inside at the door but there are lower levels with water pooled up. I see two stone braziers. One on each side with steps leading down into the pools of water. The fire inside them looks really fake but its lighting the room. I walk down a stone corridor and search several rooms but they are all empty. I think I forgot to have some sort of expectations here as nothing interesting is really happening. I then hear my son's voice. I don't quite know what he is saying but I turn and follow it. There is some visual disturbances and I half wonder if I am waking up and he's really talking. I ask the voice if that is really him and if he's just up getting a drink of water. I think I am talking in my sleep and just half awake now but I am not quite sure (I make this mistake too often). I am now walking down a new hallway that is slowly turning into a version of my house. The dream slowly fades away and I wake up.

Edit: I forgot to mention that when I woke up I saw a grid pattern on everything witl some random muted colors. I focused on it for a bit and it would distort and twist. This has been happening to me a lot lately especially after waking from a vivid dream. I am not sure what is going on but I kind of like it.

June 28, 2022
1. Car Toss (LD)
I’m coming to the front of the main house in The Meadow and suddenly realize I’m dreaming. I don’t want the dream to fade, so I glide to the front of the house toward the road and see a car approaching. I’m in a playful mood, and realizing it’s a dream character I open the door, grab him, throw him out of the car and continue driving down the road. I feel a tinge of guilt realizing that the character is still an aspect of my unconscious, and I don’t feel like doing it again. I drive down the road a bit further, yet my lucidity drops.

2. Car Toss Part 2 (LD)
I regain lucidity soon after driving down the road a bit, yet the piece fell from memory

July 14th, 2022
1. One Eye Open (LD) My body feels locked up, and I don’t at first realize I began dreaming. I try standing up, and realize I’m dreaming. My left dream eye is closed, yet my right eye is open and I see that I’m in a kitchen area that’s constructed out of wood. I continue walking toward the window, which has blinds in front of it and the scene is quite vivid. I push my way through many layers of blinds andI jump out of the window and begin flying. The vividness of the dream increases and I begin flying toward a field. I’m amazed at how vivid the scene is. There are many people around the area, and I continue to fly around the scene.
2. Dream Spin (LD)
I realize I’m dreaming while at urinal, and begin dream spinning, seeing if it will impact clarity. I continue exploring for several minutes, yet many parts fall from memory.

July 15th, 2022
1. The Yellow Tower (LD)
I’m in bed and realize I’m dreaming. I stand up and begin walking, yet the dream gets hazy for a moment, yet the vividness begins to increase. I reach a window and jump out. The brightness increases and I begin flying. There is a very tall yellow structure that rises into the air ahead. I fly to the top portion of the tower and gaze around the surroundings, deciding where I want to go next.
2. Three People (LD)
I realize I’m dreaming while near three dream characters. I want to start engaging in a conversation with them. The dream begins to fade.

August 24th, 2022
1. The Orange Suset Cove
I’m staring at a large tree, and it suddenly dawns on me that I’m dreaming. I see a large black tree in the distance and begin flying to it, my lucidity rising even more. I feel that I want to keep the dream going for a while. I gaze into the distance at where the sun has just set. The deep orange hue envelopes the sky, casting a glow over a lagoon in the distance. The scene is beautiful. The are many Nordic type ships, which resemble pirate vessels docked within the lagoon, with engravings etched into the hulls. The ships are situated on each side of me as I fly into the lagoon. I then fly toward a building to my left, toward one of the upper terraces. I decide to start searching for a treasure chest which I feel will be on one of the upper tiers. My lucidity begins to drop and I enter a non-lucid.

September 30th, 2022
1. Mirror Gaze (LD)
I’m looking into a mirror and I suddenly realize I’m dreaming. The dream begins to fade

2. Hallway and Blackness
I’m in a hallway and realize I’m dreaming. The dream goes into a black void for a moment, and I really want to hold onto it. I fly into a street area andI go in and out of lucidity near this area, and feel excitement as I enter back into a lucid state.

October 11th
I realize I’m dreaming as I approach a hill in the twilight. I see an very interesting, large gnarled tree in the center of the hill area. The scene has a beautiful, ethereal fantasy feel to it. I get inspired to ask the dream what would make me most happy in life. I continue to appreciate the scene, yet the dream doesn’t respond. My lucidity fades.

October 16th, 2022
Money (LD)
I’m in an area where people are handing out money. I suddenly realize I’m dreaming and that I don’t need the money. I turn around and see tables with cake, and think that I can simply eat whatever I want! There’s a dark brown cake I’m interested in, so I pick it up. It appears to be cinnamon-nut flavored, and it’s pretty good. I turn and have another one after. I begin to fly toward a window.
*False Awakening
Many Rooms (LD)
I’m in a series of rooms and realize I’m dreaming. I begin making my way through all of the rooms which have beds in them. yet the scene continues to darken. I try to find my way down paths which I feel will contain a bit of light. The dream fades and I wake up.

November 5th, 2022
Terrace Overlooking The Harbor (LD)
I realize I’m dreaming and begin floating up along the edge of a massive building which overlooks a harbor. I raise toward the twentieth, thirtieth, then fortieth story. I’m overlooking a harbor with many ships in the bay and the scene is beautiful. I fly toward a nearby terrace and consider going inside the building. I decide to stay out on the terrace and notice some people lounging nearby. I continue to fly up and see another dream character in the distance. The dream fades.

November 7th, 2022

Winter Drive (LD)
I’m driving a car down a road in the winter time. I get the sense that I’m in a dream and I put my hand in front of me, seeing five fingers. I make a right and realize that I’m in a dream. I get out of the car in a parking lot and fly toward the nearest car, trying to figure out who’s inside. I look inside and see two people. The dream fades.
*False Awakening
Euphoria In The Meadow (LD)
I get the sense that I’m partially asleep, so I relax my body, slide my dream body out of bed and stand up, lucid. I ramp up my awareness. I walk toward the banister of the second story of the main house in the Meadow. I continue heading downstairs and I head outside into the road in the night. My awareness raises to a high level and I continue down the road. A euphoria comes over me as I reflect on being within an altered reality. I start walking farther down, approaching a lady on the road who is heading toward me. I don’t speak to her, yet continue appreciating all of the lights and shapes all around me, in pristine vividness. I walk farther and see all of the homes on either side of the road lit up in the night time. I consider going inside one, yet decide not to. I begin flying around, yet notice that the dream feels as though it fades as I fly higher. I decide to land and continue to simply walk. I shout out to the dream, asking the main source of my happiness. The dream responds with a low rumble. I then ask the dream to help me to become more lucid in the future. I’m deciding on a house to enter, and it seems that the houses morph into enlarged versions of cupboards. I continue to the left, looking at each of the houses. I notice that in this area, the houses resemble a shop type of area. There are sections in the back with many workers, most of which are older females. I continue to explore area in the back section. The dream begins to fade and I wake up.
Snowy Mountains (LDs)
I realize I’m dreaming. I’m at the top of a mountain, staring out of a glass window, and see snow drifting toward me. I fly through the window and see the snow continuing to fall. A slope heads downward, and trees meandering down the slope. I imagine I’m riding a snowboard, and continue drifting down the slope. I feel a rush of excitement and continue to snowboard down the mountain, carving through paths in the trees. My awareness is quite high. I continue for a minute or so, and make my way into a mountain area.
*This is the third part of a lucid trio, in which I lose and regain lucidity.. The first two of which faded from memory.

November 13th, 2022
Following The Car (LD)
I become aware I’m dreaming in the front yard of the main house in The Meadow. I take a low altitude flight and head toward the mailbox, yet overshoot and end up on the road. I ramp up my focus and the dream scene becomes very vivid. I see a car coming with two women inside, and the visuals become even sharper. I head down toward the corner of the street, following the car. They head toward the first house around the corner and I decide rather than fly higher and risk having the dream fade, I head inside the house. Once inside, the dream begins to fade.


November 22nd, 2022
I’m standing in twilight and notice that something about my surroundings is strange. I suddenly realize I’m in a dream. I look around for something to do. I see a structure nearby and debate going inside. I head toward it, yet have a false awakening.

December 9th, 2022
I’m standing in the moments before sunrise. It appears to be autumn in a northern location. I suddenly realize I’m dreaming, and state out loud, “I’m in a dream”. I gaze out at the scene in front of me, taking in the beautiful autumn scene with hues of orange and pink, appreciating the lucid feel. There are many trees around and quite a few pumpkins on the ground. I try to hold onto the dream a bit longer, but I wake up

December 11th, 2022
Egyptian Goddess (LD)
I’m aware that I’m in sleep paralysis and begin to relax. I slowly sink down into the bed and simply slide out. I fight to stand up for a moment, then suddenly stand. I see a dark figure, and think oh it’s just one of those things, the figure not even phasing me. I climb toward it and stand on top of the bed. There is quite a bit of resistance, as if I’m moving through goo. I eventually make my way to the door and wonder what will be beyond – I wonder if it will it be a replica of the apartment. Once in the main area, I see that it’s essentially the same as the apartment I’m in. I look out the window and notice that all the windows in the building across are lit up in beautiful warm colors in the nighttime scene. I notice that the top window colors are exceptionally colorful. I notice an Egyptian style design on the fourth floor and want to I fly toward it. I’m not making progress quick enough, so I think of other flying techniques. I imagine jetpacks on my back, and quickly blast forward, my progress being made in intervals of massive speed. I make my way into the main room of the fourth floor. I make my way to the back and turn to see a large Egyptian Goddess of some sort wearing gold adornments consisting of a mask and massive wings. She is sitting on a golden throne, and there appears to be an assistant to her left. I begin to approach and the Goddess begins to take her mask off and the dream begins to fade. I then have a false awakening.

December 26th, 2022
Choco Bar (LD)
I realize I’m dreaming and stick my hand in front of me saying “I’m lucid dreaming”. I walk up and take a close look at the dream character in front of me. The dream persists a bit longer. I have a large chocolate bar, yet the taste isn’t very strong. I try to intensify it, but it doesn’t change much. I walk around the scene a bit longer and the dream fades.
*Bits of the middle section faded from memory.


January 10th, 2022
Lucid Hand (LD)
I realize I’m dreaming and decide to look at my hand, stabilizing the dream. I dream soon fades

Exploring The House In The Meadow (LD)
I’m lucid in the main house in the meadow and decide to simply explore rather than pursue goals. I make my way down the stairs slowly. I strive to remain present and enter the first floor area, into the kitchen. I then make my way into the living room where the Christmas was during the season. I feel that the dream is fading so I begin spinning and rubbing my hands. The dream begins to fade and I wake up.

April 25th , 2022
Orange Sunrise In The Meadow (LD)
I’m walking with dad down the driveway in The Meadow and my awareness begins to rise. I’m lucid and I’m mention to my dad that I’m dreaming while looking at my hand as I raise it out in front of me. There’s beautiful orange glow at sunrise as I walk down the driveway alongside my dad. The dream fades.

November 15th, 2021
Floating In Autumn (LD)
I relax my body, staying aware as a dream scene slowly starts to form. I find myself within my home, and float out through the front doors. I take in an autumn scene of the front yard and float up about twenty feet and continue floating down the street with my arms stretched out. Visually, the scene is amazing, with bright autumn colors displaying in full vividness through the leaves. I look left and right at all the intricately designed brick houses as I float down the street, remembering back to the street layout in past lucid dreams, and considering if I should enter one of the approaching houses. Each design is very different with some more mystical yet others more macabre. I decide not to enter yet, and drift further down the road. The road becomes a bit more dim and I notice a Buddhist theme front yard on my left, and more of an abandoned look to the houses on the right. I decide to enter one of the upcoming houses, and drift yet a bit farther, yet the dream quickly fades and I wake up.

I was lost and alone in a forest . It was quite dark and in the night . I saw someone calling out to me . it was a girl , standing on a hill . I don't remember her face but I remember that she had a ponytail . She was older by me but not by much . We approached her house and it was like a small wooden cottage . She introduced me to her Grandfather . He said something about not being able to connect with his wife . The girl elaborated and said that her phone is dead . I took her phone and fixed it , apparantely it had "problems with a grasshopper" as I described it in my dream . She was overjoyed and thanked me multiple times . I felt a strong sense of friendship towards her . The last time I felt something like this was an year ago when I felt a sense of Sibling love for a Dream character .

We talked a lot about other stuff that I can't remember but it involved schools and teachers . I kept guard on her 2 yo brother when he was sleeping alone in a room then her grandpa told me to check out the other house on the hill . The other house was in ruins . I went inside and it was dark , I saw a corpse of a man who was dead . I checked his phone and there were details about his death . he got murdered a few years ago . It was really suspicious to me that his corpse was still there like he was sleeping . The noticed the feeling , brought my hand to my nose to pinch it and took a breath . it came right through , I knew i was dreaming . i wanted to interact with the girl when I was Lucid and probably ask her name . I was in hurry and basically touched everything as I made my way back to outside . the dream was getting blurry . in frustation I started digging into the ground and eating mud , soil and grass . It tasted meh , The grass was sweet , the soil had no taste at all . The dream stabilized , Just as I stood up it fizzled out of control and ended .

I woke up in bed and tried to DEILD back but nothing happened . i felt progressively increasing vibrations . I checked my phone and it had a weird phont and had 2% battery . I felt the feeling again , did an RC and got Lucid , I tried to wake up and felt but it felt as if I was glued to the bed . I mustered all my strength and woke up and my physical body moved too , leading me to finally wake .

In the earliest parts I can remember, I’m traveling on a ship with a friend when the water underneath starts to swirl. Soon, a whirlpool has formed, and we’re spinning around as the wall of water grows higher around us. It now seems to be just us in the water – the whole dream was a bit iffy on continuity – and I see a smaller spiral under the surface near me. I move away, but it follows. It strikes me that this thing is only after me, not my friend, so I pass them something which is supposed to be a useful tool of some kind and encourage them to leave.

I am alone now. The ship (or something, anyway) seems to be back, and there’s nothing to do but wait, I figure. I pull out a book—The Hobbit—so I can read until it feels like manifesting.

At some point, a dark, oppressive energic atmosphere begins to form—not something visible, but a feeling hanging over everything—and it does show itself – in the form of Bilbo Baggins. Simultaneously with this, I now seem to be Frodo. “Bilbo” starts going on an exaggerated diatribe about what an awful book “The Hobbit” is. This goes on for quite a while, interspersed with my occasional sarcastic responses. The continuity continues to be rather sketchy, with “Bilbo” occasionally disappearing and subsequently reappearing elsewhere, and once, apparently accidentally, walking into view undisguised before the previous one has finished talking, appearing as a figure cloaked in black, face hidden beneath a hood.

But then, a little later, it’s back to “Bilbo” again. He now has his own copy of “The Hobbit,” enclosed in a bubble wrap packing envelope which he’s holding by one corner as if it’s something disgusting. There’s a whole tub filled with bubble wrap beside him. I haven’t been taking anything that’s happened the least bit seriously so far—I’ve been treating it as if it’s some kind of unavoidable everyday nuisance rather than an actual threat—but somehow, in this whole improbable series of events, it is the bubble wrap that gets me thinking critically about what’s going on. “Bubble wrap. Why?” I say aloud. There is no bubble wrap in Middle Earth. I think it over just to be sure. No, it’s quite impossible. Couldn’t happen.

I then proceed to do the only logical thing one can do under the circumstances: transform myself into a cat and leap into the bubble wrap-filled crate. But it’s just then that the dream ends, and I awaken.

4.11.21

I was trying my best to fall asleep but was having difficulty. What seems like hours of an eternity was met with many " I should have not did this at work " " Why did I work so hard for so little " " Where am I " My energy was gone but my mind couldn't drift to sleep. Then out of no where I could hear myself breathing. I look around and realize it was dark outside and thought it was just day light not too long ago.

I began to panic because I needed to go to the bank and had things to do with in the day that was now lost. Disappointing but it started to dawn on me that it was unusual for it to be night. Where was my bed and why was I outside a car parking lot near a gas station?

I then reach the conclusion that I must have fallen asleep. I celebrated by jumping in mid way in the air and knew that I didn't miss the errands I had to take care of on that day. I decided that I'll probably be asleep for awhile considering how exhausted I physically was. I wanted to check out the scenery and see if I knew anyone in the gas station.

I went in and didn't recognize anyone there and made my way over to the counter to buy something. That's when I felt my lucidity growing weaker and thought to myself this is bad. I wanted to stay a bit longer on the dream but for some reason had trouble remembering techniques to stabilize the dream environment. I decided running to a different area of the environment would somehow change the outcome.

I made my way over to another parking lot and felt better for only a second in till the dream became extremely shaky. I look around and could see everything disappearing in to white abyss. I said "No" and then my eyes was staring up at ceiling and could feel myself breathing shallow and went back to normal. I was awake.

I performed my usual routine . woke up after 3.5 hours of falling sleep , studied chemistry for 45 minutes , did Reality checks , read dreams and did some visualisation , relaxed by a breathing technique and performed 3 SSILD cycles in the next 15 minutes and then fell asleep while focusing on an anchor .

though WILD didn't work outright and fell asleep , I had a false awakening in what seemed like minutes after performing the techniques and I just knew I was lucid . I walked out and it was nighttime . I went outside to see a great sunrise , one of the better ones I have seen in dreams . I went out of my house and started walking trying to find something of interest , suddenly a cop attacked me out of nowhere and the dream ended in panick . I felt the bed and was calm , I let images form in my head and one of them turned into another dream .

I was in another room of my house and saw my parents leaving , I knew I was dreaming but did an RC anyway . I wanted to try something and tried to phase through the wall . I got stuck in middle and It was a bit uncomfortable , though I did it with a push but just as I did the dream faded , I was so preoccupied with the wall that I forgot to take the anchor out of my pocket
. I woke up but tried to imagine a garden without moving . I saw a soft toy lying around and just as I touched it the visualisation became a full fledged dream .

It was a wedding garden , I saw a lot of people and lets say.... dream characters aren't my strong suite . My dreams end quickly when I am near them and they are always up to some whacky non sense . I started walking and they started following me , I willed them to stop and go the other way but it didn't work . I wasn't really concerned so I just kept running , I focused on the feeling of my legs on the ground and it was rough but it helped maintain my Lucidity . I was panting actually and it felt good . It was quite dark and I thought I had lost them but no they were just behind me , the shock of seeing them made me fizzle out of Lucidity .

I woke up again but I waited for images in my head to arise and they did . I was sitting at my study stable in the dream and then I saw a group of tiny birds above , a white one fell on my lap , then I saw a black one which didn't have an eye or a beak but just a black "shape" for a beak . I felt something was off and knew it was dream but confirmed it by nose pinch . I went to the mirror and the birds from earlier just disappeared without a trace .

frustated from my previous dream , I wanted a place without dream characters . I had planned it beforehand and it was based on a cartoon called Doraemon I watched as a child . Basically he had a mirror , if you enter the mirror you will find a mirrored version of the world without any humans or animals . basically a sandbox . I tried doing this with my mirror . I tried to go through it , I pushed harder and found myself melting into it . I was on other side and It was like a mirrored version of my room ..... the only catch was that I saw my uncle there and he didn't look normal . He had a HUGE WIDE smile on his face but it looked as if it was "compressed" by his chin and by god his chin was pointed and really slim , he had no lips and it made him look terryfying . Then I saw my father and mother like that too , They advanced towards me . I normally don't feel strong emotions in my dreams so I wasn't scared a bit ( though it certainly was offputting ) but I didn't want the dream to end so I walked through the mirror again and then I just fizzled out of Lucidity .

Today I had another LD and I went through the mirror again , they were still there . Seems like I have made some subconscious expectation that I will always find the entities when i enter the mirrors in my dreams and I really like this to be honest . Its so cool to have some consistency and persistence in a completely random dream world

WILD. Vibrations. Suddenly, I feel like I am standing, I reach with my hand and can feel a wall with wallpaper to my left and a carpet under my feet. No vision yet.
I follow the wall with my hand and take a few steps. I want to open my eyes, but it feels risky. Instead, I stabilize my dream body - I touch my face and proceed downwards. I begin to see. I inspect my body and legs under my nightie - everything looks realistic.

I decide to try the TOTM task - have fun with your clone. My plan for this is to use a mirror to clone myself, pulling my image towards me. And maybe repeat it a few times.

I walk around the room and look at the bed. My body and R's are there. There's a wardrobe next to it where a large mirror should be. I think to myself, there should be a mirror here, and when I look again, it's there.
My reflection looks slightly different than me but nice.
"Hi," I tell her. "Give me your hand."
She stops mimicking me and takes on a life of her own (good!), but there's still a glass wall between us. I reach out to take her hand, but the mirror is solid. I remind myself that the mirror doesn't exist and try to use more force, but the glass doesn't let me do it.
Then there's a big TV next to it, which I can stick my hand in without any problem. The stuff inside feels slightly wet and foggy.
The mirror also changes size and position whenever I turn around.
R, meanwhile, has woken up. I talk to him for a while and ask if he knows how to get my other me out of the other side of the mirror. He offers no advice.
I decide to kiss the other me. For the first second or two, I feel cold glass, but then I feel soft and warm lips. I make it into a long kiss with my eyes closed, as a silent goodbye.

I leave the room and want to go to the workshop to give the chance to the ring task. Is it even possible to do two tasks in one dream? I don't know, but I don't care, and the cloning didn't go as planned anyway.

I walk through a couple of rooms that aren't in my house IRL. The last room has an industrial feel, with rough walls, a series of steps to a lower level, and a tiled floor. The door to the workshop isn't where I expect it to be, which confuses me for a moment, but then I see a door a little further to the right - it's glass, sliding, with a motion sensor. When I walk up to it, it opens.
The workshop is a lot bigger than IRL, but a little darker. There are three benches, one with semi-finished jewellery on it.
I look for some material suitable for a ring. On one of the benches is a large piece of gold, more bar than wire, high karat (18k or even 22k). It looks too thick for a ring, but I take a closer look. It's at least 10mm thick, definitely too thick for a ring.
While I'm thinking I wouldn't even be able to bend it, I wake up.


Notes:
- While being completely invested in getting my reflection from the mirror, I completely missed that there was another me in the room that could be used as my clone - my body in my bed! I have to try to "wake up" my "real body" one day!
- That chunk of gold would be worth something around $50,000. I certainly wouldn't mind finding something like that IRL

Crazy

Was on a dirt road outside some restaurant. Went inside there was a group there. They were being really noisy. Some strange bald Native American girl started attacking me for no reason. Her head was shaped like the people in "Coneheads." The group pulled her off me and they all left the building. I went outside angry and everyone from the group was in a large green bus. They talked to me for a bit and then pulled out of the driveway.
I saw someone at the other side of a pond watching me. He seemed familiar like someone I work with and I called to him. His face distorted and i became lucid. I kept telling him I knew him and that this was a dream. eventually he walked away and the dream ended.

I don't know Why I waste so many lucids on telling people that it is a dream...

Wrong

I was in some living room when a young girl came up to me and said I could touch her. I was like, "wait. How old are you? Can I see some ID?" or something she answered twice both times giving a different age. Both were underage answers and I felt like this was a bad situation That I should just leave. I remember getting up to leave and that's where the dream ends.

Jamie?

A dream with Jamie in it. She seemed a lot taller than I remember, and she wasn't talking to me or happy with me? not sure.

What started out as trying to find more about a VR Undertale/Deltarune plot eventually devolved into a meta-commentary about how my dreams tend to change a lot. Within the dream, there were a few figures that appeared to be changing the dream for their own benefit, and one of the figures .

• Dr. Cor[..] appeared to want to kick off the events that lead to me discovering that they were making my dreams' environments unstable, I remember his name having 3 syllables to it in total
• The Eggsmith A mysterious figure that was obsessed with luxurious bathroom equipment and bathing. He's probably why I tend to see extensive bathrooms and comfortable equipment in my dreams. interestingly, a miniature trans pride flag was dangling from the big sink he created. I vaguely remember seeing him in another dream, in which he was represented by chicken eggs on legs. He was also a capricious and whimsical figure.
• Jim hall (approximate name) The creator of a lot of arcades and recreation in my dreams, as well as probably some cinemas, He warped the environment into his domain, a funhouse, and summoned me to come see him. Eventually another dreamwarper thought I knew too much and put me into a false awakening.
• Chara (ya know, the kid from undertale) Disappeared and appeared randomly, was ambivalent to the politics of the dreamwarpers, and appeared in both male and female forms.

Overall, I'm probably going to have the plot of this dream resolve in another night.

Oh, I also remember this playing during some segments of the dream for some reason.

Morning of February 5, 2020. Wednesday.

Dream #: 19,406-02. Optimized 2 minute read.




I have a turntable set up in a featureless, unknown location as part of a large console to use commercial music sections in new mixes.

I become annoyed because, although the music is playing through my headphones, it is also blaring through the speakers, and I do not want to annoy other people in the room. There may be a short or a loose jack. I stuff tissue paper in one input.

The setting changes. I am in an unfamiliar library. Many other people are here. I now only have a turntable on the floor near a bookcase. Although I am still thinking about mixing music, I notice a group of interesting little books on a shelf.

They remind me of the vintage Little Blue Books (Haldeman-Julius Publishing Company) I once had, but they seem to be a periodical as there are issue numbers on them, published each week since the 1900s. I read some of the content. On one back page, a couple of sentences are curiously at an angle, overlapping others. I can still read the content regarding 1930s women’s fashion. There are many pages featuring crafts. Two unfamiliar boys intend to sit down while they face the bookcase. They accidentally stumble onto my turntable. I shout at them after they fall and again when I see a crack in the middle of the tonearm. (It is flat and made of cream-colored plastic). I believe they should pay for a new tonearm. A bystander watches me.

Arnold Schwarzenegger approaches. He commands me to stop yelling at the boys. I spontaneously punch him, and he goes flying backward, all the way to the other side of the library. He transforms into a shoddy black and blue plastic robot that seems like an oversized hollow toy, with limbs that are flat in profile and somewhat skeletal. It lands on its head near a bookcase.

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If you are knowledgeable about dreams, you know that arm swinging is a spontaneous physiological stimulus for emergence from REM atonia (physical immobility while sleeping). Protoconsciousness (here as Arnold Schwarzenegger) induces this response. There is a correlation with the cracked “tonearm,” cleverly directing me to gain muscle tonality and arm mobility for waking.

My dream’s cerebral phasing stage (seeking and reading text) included vestibular phasing ambiguity (the illogical angles of the superimposed sentences revealing a conflict between my imaginary vertical orientation in my dream and my body’s horizontal position while sleeping).

Arnold Schwarzenegger becomes an unrealistic robot as in 1984’s movie “The Terminator.” Movie influence is often predominant in my dreams more than associations with real life. Protoconsciousness often personifies as either a celebrity or an unfamiliar person to block associations with waking life from a personal level. The robot’s infeasibility correlates with REM atonia. (Dolls or statues are other indicators of this type of metacognitive awareness.)

The robot’s colors are an incidental correlation with the phrase “beaten black and blue.”

Stuffing tissue paper into one input correlates with putting tissue paper in one’s ear to block sound while sleeping.

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Not really and memorable nlds. No jamie or anything else.

Lucid

Started I was in the passenger seat of a car with a blond woman driving. Wasn't sure how I got there and didn't think about it much. It was a semi desert road with foothills nearby. We parked at some store and the woman got out. Became lucid while waiting for the woman to come back. She came back and suddenly I was in the back seat. I mentioned to the lady driving that it was now a dream. The woman was a man now and some other NPC character was in the front passenger seat. The man disagreed. And we kept talking about it. The man asked where do I wanna get dropped off? I said in a city. In the back of my mind I wanted to look for Jamie. I forgot about that right after.

We stopped somewhere and now entered a building still arguing about whether or not it was a dream. I said, "Do you remember what happened before you were driving around? I don't. And you were a woman before and now you are a man!" We were in a large room now with a very high ceiling. As if to demonstrate my point I jumped up and started flying to the ceiling. I then dropped from really high and landed on my feet. The dream started fading so I wanted to slow down time. At first I was going to try the hukif technique. Then I asked the man for a watch. He had one and I pulled it off his wrist, he was a wrinkly old man now. At first it was a face watch and I was looking for the second hand. The man showed me his other watch which was digital. Now mine was digital. I was going to try slowing down the second hand when I woke up.

Created Friday 08 October 2021

Got three LDs (well, maybe two-and-a-half) plus a dream to note. Quite a haul. Although I'm reluctant to do so, I'm gonna keep the entry practically in its completion No point keeping things bottled up forever...

Spoiler for NSFW - Implicit naughty things:

Scrap Group 1
Vaguely recall riding around in a forest. I get aware, I fly out of the moving vehicle. This LD didn't last long.

Dream 1 - School Subway Station False Awareness

The visuals were slightly blurred. I was in a subway station. Folding tables and seats were spread throughout the walkways, where I was seated. So too were a bunch of teenage kids. I "recalled" we were in a history class, of which had to be moved in this public transit area due to budget cuts. For related reasons, our primary teacher was unavailable (figured she was on strike, or something). Thus our having a substitute, dark haired, light skinned middle aged lady in dressed in black.

A few minutes in, the other students and I were handed a worksheet on early 20th century history. The teacher starts giving a lecture on such. But, I'm bored out of my wits, so much so that I drop my head on the table and fall asleep. Although the teacher sounded fairly annoyed, she continued her lesson without further delay.

During my nap, I figure out how unlikely this scenario was. I thus gained false awareness (lacked presence of mind to be truly lucid). Of course, I shrink myself down to a few inches, whereupon I run around making a nuisance of myself. I catch the attention of a passerby, a blonde gal wearing a blouse and skirt, but she was too young for my tastes. So, I warped her appearance until she was of more suitable age (maybe a bit older than intended, at least eight years older than I, but no matter). The lady chases after me for sport. I try dodging between her ankles, but shes seizes me quickly. She places me at eye level, scrutinizing the tiny figure in her hands. She questioned what I was even planning, which I admitted I was just enjoying myself. In response, she opted to do likewise, the insinuation being that it would be entirely at my expense.

It's then the giantess pretends to try to eat me, clamping her teeth just inches from me. Even then, I get spooked enough to try to placate her. I fire a slow, arcing wave of energy, soothing her to the core. She's so impressed, she states she'll keep me for "a little while". Uh oh. Not what I was expecting.

This scene repeats several times. In later instances, the giantess actually tries to eat me. She gets as far as gnawing on my shoulder, when I again try assuaging her with soothing energy. Even then, she claimed she'll still eat me eventually. as she reckoned such energies would magnify upon my being digested completely.

Don't recall how, but I awaken a few minutes later.

Dream 2 - Palm Dryad's Embrace

Dreamlet to lucid dream. The visuals were mostly clear. I was floating in a cloudy blue sky. Upon feeling cold winds, I was sure I'd successfuly phased into a dream state. I could never get enough of it...

A minute in, I decide to land, and ponder my next move. I find myself in a field of clovers many acres wide, suburban houses bordering miles away. Things got a bit unstable. I brush at the plants thoroughly to keep in things in check. With that settled, I decide to try and dilate time. I call out to the dream to grant my wish. Instead of such a request, time beings moving in fast forward. All around me, rows of clovers sprout, grow, wither, and rot, and the cycle would begin anew. This, in the span of just a few seconds. Similarly too, did a one-story, cool colored house ahead of me (which somehow was displaced to be just a few dozen yards away). I watched as it crumbled from disuse, only to be suddenly remodeled. Its last form was a bit taller than initially. More pertinently, a bunch of devices were sticking out of the roof and front walls, each primarily made of some unknown ceramic polymer. Was this the future? Or rather, what I perceive the future would look like? Although not what I intended, I was very much enthralled by the experience.

Around then, other urges get the better of me. I look around for any intriguing figures. It's then I spot a palm tree haphazardly placed nearby. On closer appearance, the palm had a feminine figure. All of a sudden, the tree warps its appearance, and begins moving towards me. It now had the likeness of a woman, impossibly lithe, and similarly tall. Her head was (quite literally) an oversized coconut, palm leaves brushed back as if long hair. Despite lacking a face, she could speak.

The dryad catches me in her limbs, holding me high in a tight embrace. Her "skin" was fuzzy and rough, just as would be expected of a palm. However, it was also comfortably warm. The nymph topples me into the ground. A very... wild, primal experience ensues.

But, minutes into the act, the dryad gives me a dire warning. "I cannot control myself much longer. Leave while you can, or I shall devour you.", she bellows. I didn't pay much heed, not that I needed to. That is, until her head cracked open, forming itself into a maw of jagged thorns. It wasn't a conventionally pretty sight. But, such danger, no matter how terrifying, proved, for a lack of a better word, enticing. I wasn't going to escape. Even after the monstrous dryad made earnest attempts at chomping at me, I made only the most necessary efforts to avoid her.

We went on until the dream faded. Re-entry a few minutes later.

Dream 3 - Specimen Cage Match

The visuals were dim. Dream re-entry into the void. I allowed myself top sink deeper, during which I think of tasks, settling for the superhero one.

Warp a minute in, I land on a darkened space. Cold, diamond-plated steel composed most of the room. At two sides were wide, hardened glass windows. Blue lights blinked from a malfunctioning terminal behind the window furthest from me. Many of the surfaces were in similar states of disrepair, if not outright cracked and dented. No doubt, some violent encounter (or series of such) occurred here. This gave the atmosphere of an abandoned sci-fi lab, and that I'd been trapped within a "specimen cage". Was the hero organization reduced to this, I wondered? Forced underground in the remnants of its former greatness? This didn't bode well...

In any case, I projected the shadow flames, which soon left behind most of my gear. Only thing missing was my left glove, which was instead replaced with a disposable blue latex glove. No matter, moving on. I then called out to my teammate/opponent, who I was sure was lurking nearby. Indeed, as soon as I did, a figure emerged from the shadows. To my surprise, it was the dryad from the previous dream. She wasn't anywhere near as tall or inhumanly thin (if still wiry), though her blank face and hair of palm leaves left no mistake with whom I beheld.

Without delay, I goaded her to a fight. The dryad slunk back to the darkest corner in an attempt to lay an ambush. Just as she'd vanished from view, she sprang forth. But, the attack was easily telegraphed, and I pushed her aside. Again and again, the tree spirit tried the same trick, to no avail. Eventually, I struck back with a five punch combo. As she flinched, I shrunk myself, ran beneath her feet, then restored my size from behind, where I hit her with a double neck chop. This maneuver KO'd the being in an instant.

Was this victory? If it was, it certainly was a hollow one. For one, there was no one else to spectate. More importantly, there seemed to be a serious mis-match in ability. There was no contest, no challenge. No stake at all. It just wasn't a satisfying conclusion.

As my mood darkened, so too did the dream. I woke up shortly after.

I had this werid dream between the time woke up after going to the bathroom after a previous waking up. The thing is in the dream-it looked like I was in my paternal grandparent's house. I was passing bying what appeared to be the living room area and the door was shut but I could see someone who kind of looked like Draco Malfoy from Harry Potter. He apparently was worried about something. Somehow went I enter the living room it turned into my parents' suken living room and I was somehow at the top of the 1 and a half steps going into the dinning room (well I was in the dinning room but I was sitting down)- now something unusally now is there was a very high-back chair which was in the middle of the bottom of the only actually step-between the dinning room and sunken living room- but Draco was still sitting on the couch-like he was at the beginning and he was talking to whomever was on the chair. I don't remember if I got the entire conversation or not-but what I did get is the voice (and I knew whose voice it was-Voldemort's from HP)-telling Draco about "deafeating both of their enemies" and I knew somehow that one of the enemies was me (it's obvious whom the other enemy was- Harry Potter)