false awakening

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm in a farm and I know it's a dream. I fly over the trees and look at the red barn. I remember I wanted to meet up with and create a permanent DC. I thought of a new experiment. I have a distinct favorite color and some lucky numbers I always go with. I would like to have an interview with a DC in my dream and ask him or her what his or her favorite colour is, what their lucky number is and try to memorise their face as well as I can. When I wake up I want to make a painting of the DC's face, write down the name of the DC, her or his favorite color and lucky number. I also would want to create some notes about what I think about the DC and what he or she likes to do. By doing this I will create a deeper connection with the DC and much more easily create a permanent DC. I wake up in a bed and there are Diego and some other people. We play a game and Diego wants us to pray.

No techniques used. Woke up one hour before having to get up but went straight back to sleeping (with the slightest thought of LDing). I was dreaming a lot and quite intensely the whole morning.

When I was just following a person into a dark tunnel, I suddenly thought: "When I know this is a dream, I can as well go lucid" (great logic, I know) - and well, I did. I opened a heavy steel door and crawled on my hands and knees into the tunnel. It was pitch black in there and (not surprisingly) I 'woke up'. After confirming the false awakening I crossed my bedroom to leave through the window. I jumped outside but awoke once again in my bed. This time I wasn't sure of being still in a dream but I went to the window again and put my head against it. It dissolved right in front of me, so I could get outside through what felt like viscous air.

Almost automatically I started floating some feet above the ground. I thought of flying high into the sky but decided to first look around. All around me there were fields of strange crops. This made me think of the TotM (Eat an alien mushroom...) and I looked in more detail. On the right there were large bundles of green plants; on the left glass covers with small light and dark brown pebbles(?) stacked beneath them. Everthing was nicely arranged with hedges etc. I moved on, looking for something mushroom-like. I came to a large shelf with precious looking objects in it. Being sure to find what I'm searching for in there, I soon spotted something looking like a small alien's head. Almost laughing I realized that my subconscious obviously interpreted the word 'alien' a bit too literally in the meaning it is used in my native language - for extraterrestial creatures. I took the 'alien mushroom', broke off small pieces and tasted them: They weren't delicious, rather stodgy and dry. Then, I paused a moment to see if something weird would happen: Nothing extreme so far, but everthing was vibrating slightly. I proceeded to eat some more but unfortunately my alarm clock went off and I lost the dream.

Being stuck at home so much at the moment is really messing with my lucidity (or maybe my intention to lucid dream). But I'm slowly getting back into it; some short (semi-)lucid experiences and one incomplete WILD in the last few days. Now, the first full lucid dream in more than a month - even if it was very short.

Woke up after only 3 hours of sleep and didn't feel sleepy at all. Took this as an opportunity to experiment once again, and put myself into a state of deep hypnosis. Used this to work through some things and progressively got more relaxed, after some time I fell back asleep. Next thing I remember is waking up again and thinking: "There'll probably be false awakenings....Like this?!"
I tried to RC but everything was already so strange that the dream state was obvious: Looking around my field of view appeared somewhat limited and the whole room was tilted by 45°. Nevertheless, I got up and walked towards the door. This was quite difficult because I felt very groggy. I noticed my mother sitting on my bed and asking if I wasn't able to sleep (again...).
Next, I felt pretty lightweight and so I started floating through the house. Once again I was astonished how realistic everthing can seem, e.g. when I slightly pinched my fingers in a door. Then, I got to the entrance and - without hestitation - proceeded to jump straight through the door. Interestingly, some part of me was surprised and got really scared by this action. I heard myself utter a fearful sound but didn't produce this neither in the dream nor in reality - as I woke up right away.

Morning of May 26, 2020. Tuesday.

Dream #: 19,517-01. Reading time (optimized): 3 min.



My dream self grows instinctually aware and active during the usual process that determines a handler for cortical arousal (initially my vestibular cortex). In this dream, it is Jackie Gleason, the primary influence being the moonrise (dream state initiation) in the television series “The Honeymooners.” (I will emphasize a fundamental causal factor here. Because being in the dream state has a similar level of cortical dormancy and sensory deprivation as when watching television or a movie, a celebrity is often the virtual handler of my waking transition.)

An unknown male is with me to my right (waking status personification, mainly inactive). In a big undefined room, two unfamiliar men are standing and talking, facing each other, with the implication we are watching a movie, though we are present and sitting cross-legged at the scene (a common dream state ambiguity). One man is playing the role of a young and thin Jackie Gleason. For a few minutes, we are trying to work out which man is playing him. Eventually, it becomes obvious. It is the man on the left, who has dark curly hair.

The identity determinant results in initiating the next stage of my dream and vivifies it. My dream self handler (again, vestibular cortex) is Jackie Gleason. Even so, I am still only a witness to the scenario. The Sistine Chapel is in ruins, though only as in another world. An unknown male with a staff controls the lightning (neural energy while in the dream state) to send individuals into the other world. He first does this to an unknown woman (a quantum model of Zsuzsanna, as my waking-life identity is absent). I watch her wander around alone. The storm is not threatening.

Eventually, the anticipated myoclonus factor becomes pre-liminal. Jackie Gleason stands in the center of the ruins and wants to find the unknown woman to confirm her status and bring her back if possible. The expectation of the transition is by way of flight (as has usually been the case since childhood). There is no roof on the ruins of the building, to allow for the vestibular management of this process. (I am sleeping on my back in this instance, which usually results in vertical dream state processing rather than horizontal as with, for example, using a door to exit my dream).

A pterodactyl flies down as the vestibular processing simulacrum. Jackie Gleason stands there, but nothing happens. They stare at each other, but the pterodactyl eventually unexpectedly flies off instead of carrying him into the next world.

As a result of no myoclonus or viable consciousness emergence, cortical arousal instead establishes a vivid offset dream that serves as a false awakening, and I am now lying on my back on the front lawn of our current home in the late morning. Zsuzsanna is standing to my left. (She is awake in reality, standing to my left in our lounge room.) I can see the front of our house and the sky. Dark clouds, lightning, and rain are fast approaching from the south. I am concerned about my dream journal getting wet (as it is on the lawn near me), but I have difficulty moving quickly enough. Eventually, I can get up and wake while doing this.

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Here are some similar examples of this dreaming process that has occurred every sleep cycle for over 50 years:

Ralph Waite (as in “The Mississippi” television series from the 1980s), referring to a book, talks about the vestibular cortex processing in initiating consciousness (though I do not discern the specific details), summons a giant sparrow, and flies off on its back. (November 7, 2018.)

An unknown woman and her daughter (quantum model of Zsuzsanna and our youngest daughter) receive a book from Rodan. (Rodan has a similar appearance as a pterodactyl.) The book is enormous (as tall as the woman) and is about dream state processes. (May 21, 2020.)

A giant white dove (with a red heart symbol on its chest) emerges from the entrance of the Arcadia post office and approaches me as I stand outside facing the building. I hold onto a sword engulfed in blue fire, but there is no threat. (February 9, 1991, part of a longer dream with enigmatic communication with Zsuzsanna before we met in waking life, foreshadowing the letter she wrote to me. I arrived in Australia on February 9, 1994. An American postage stamp, #2814C, featuring a white dove and a red heart made of roses came out on February 14, 1994.)

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I'm in a shady street with my dad and another man. Dad is complaining about a car he has, i turn around and see a red car that looks like an old Honda Crx, and some shady looking five guys trying to fit in it while yelling to each other, i turn to my father with "wtf eyes" and he tells me "they will take the car to a shop to get it fixed". I just think what a stupid idea...

I wake up in a wonderful tree house with lots of windows around. My friend from highschool pastes a note to one of my windows, i'm trying to make him see me but he doesn't. I take the note and look at it, it says something about school and money. I decide to follow him but i lose him on the way so i decide to go to the school, thinking he can be there. The school looks like a mall.

I'm in a very crowded class and i see people from all types, teens, old people, casual looking, formal looking... I talk to some people very briefly, then an old man invites me over and i talk to him about some stuff i don't remember but he had this mobster vibe. Teacher comes and lesson starts. I sit at the very back but i can't fit as the class is too crowded. I change where i sit two times, and now i'm sitting one back from frontmost at the right with a guy from my age. I tell him i'm not comfortable with my jeans and want to change into sweatpants and want him to not change his position for cover. He says ok so i take of my jeans and the guy just gets up and leaves. I don't care about it too much and as i put on my sweatpants i see another of my highschool friend. She waves and i wave back.

We're at a break and another mobster looking old man with gray suit calls me over. I go near him and his three friends, he tells me he's gonna kill the other old guy. I say it is fine by me and i don't care. Class starts and a guy is doing some presentation. Suddenly Tokio Hotel - Monsoon starts to play (?) and the girl i know from highschool starts to sing it by looking at me while trying not to laugh, i accompany her and people start to laugh, we can't continue either and laugh too.

I really needed to pee at this point so i excuse myself and try to find the restrooms, After looking for a long time, i find them but the restroom has a gate and the lady says it's closed because the school is about to close. Well thats what happens when a school looks like a mall i say to myself and get out of there.

I'm walking towards a coastline and my plan is get something to eat and use the restroom there. There are lots of giant caterpillar corpses on the ground, crushed by cars or something. Then i see lots of cameras and Katy Perry looking like a mess. The five shady looking guys that my dad gave the car? They are there too and they are making fun of her.

Now i'm watching these on the TV. As the background music they choose Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen for a reason (Altough in the dream i was sure it was Katy Perry's song). Katy Perry was in her yacht and it started leaking. She had to get on the shore by a floatable boat. I wasn't interested in the details so i changed the channel, there was a documentary about these three birds. One of them is a gray mockingbird, the other two are yellow wood warblers. One of the yellow bird was always climbing on top of the gray bird and it was adorable

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm in a big room without ends. I am there with William, Rolf, Simon and some other people I can't recall. The floor is bouncy and we have a competition who can make the best flips. There is a pit we compete in and some kind of electronic device who is judging our flips. I am really good and get 0.27 better score than William. Rolf is almost out of his mind talking out loud how someone can be as good as I am. Later on the floor is not as bouncy.

I walk into my brother's room and it's chaos. His mattress is laying sideways, leaning on the the bed up against the roof. I lay on the bed and realize it's a dream. I walk up to the dinner room and do my RC but I'm not sure if it's a dream so I have to do it three times to be sure. I walk outside and as I do the dream fades. I stabilize the dream by rubbing my hands together and against my face. It works. I walk to the sheds and notice that one of them is open. I look in and see a small TV-screen that plays a childrens' movie about birds. It's one of those we had attached to the car when I was small so we could watch on movies on long trips. When I look towards the other side I see a really big, orange field mouse. It's bigger than my hand, but it's not afraid, only curious of me. I suddenly wonder what I should do in the dream and remember my dreaming goals. I try to remember how the dream started but it's really hard. I think it started with me walking into my little brother's room. I don't have any will to fly or anything so I just sit on the ground to meditate. As I sit down the dream fades and I feel my real body little by little. I have never exited a dream to the real life that smoothly.

I wake up in my room and do my RC. Yes! It's a dream. I go to the window and open it. But as I open the window I suddenly fall to the left side and then to right side. My balance is letting me down. I manage to climb the window. I'm not sure it's a dream anymore and think to myself that I am going to die if I jump out of the window in real life. I do my RC and am now sure that it's a dream. I fly out of the window and decide that I will practice my flying this time. I fly to the left but instead of flying forward I fly up. I can't control my flying. There is another person flying and she is really old. I inspect her and suddenly she flies backwards. I can't control my flying and I also fly backwards, then forward, then backwards etc. It's smooth and I realize I fall like a leaf from a tree. From side to side. The old lady did the same. When we land on the ground I speak with the old woman, asking her if she wants to hang out. She denies. A girl in my age comes and I ask her if she wants to hang out. She says yes, but as she does, the old woman interrupts and says that she wants to hang out with me. I know that she did so because she is jealous of the young woman. I say okey and we walk the city. I get lost in the dreaming story and lose my lucidity As I and the old woman walk there is another old woman. We say hi and ask if she wants to join us. There are now two old women walking next to me. As we walk over the first pedestrian crossing to Hemmakväll from our house there is another old woman that joins us. The dream suddenly dissapears My dreams usually fade away and I can't recall a single time a dream has ended that abruptly.

I don't know where the next dream started but I know I was lucid and remembered to test out the teleportation through mirror skill.

I'm outside my house and I try to summon a mirror. It comes up in an instant and I see my room through the mirror. I jump into the mirror, afraid that I won't come through if I don't use force. It succeeded! I teleportated into my room! I am really happy. I don't remember how the dream ended.

Possible recurring elements: Freerunning, cousins, my brother and chaos, TV-screens, vermins.

Notes: I sometimes do flips and I had weekly freerunning practice before. The floor in the first dream almost was like the floor in the practice hall but thinner and didn't sound when you jumped on it. I don't want my dreams to boost my ego by putting DCs who say I am incredible. I feel a little bit stupid and almost like it is I who wants to be acknowledged and that it is why the dream did that. Me and my mom talked about acknowleding other people yesterday. Maybe that is the explanation to the dream, and that freerunning is my most safty bet how to get acknowledged. Wow, I would have never got that insight if I didn't write like this. I now realized that freerunning is the easiest way to get people to say "wow" and get people to notice me. My brother's life is in chaos and I think that his badly cleaned room was a sign of that. I will try to help him fix his life more activly now. I should always start my lucidity with trying to sense if the dream needs stabilization. By doing so I can have longer and more realistic dreams. The field mouse was there because we have recently got rats in our house. Now when I think about it the field mouse standed right next to one of the rat traps on our site. But the rat trap was not in the dream. I wonder why I didn't want to fly in the first lucid dream. I always love to fly in my dreams. I think I dreamt about the old ladies because yesterday Monica and Klaus were here. They talked with me and my parents about old people.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I had some sort of allergic reaction right before I went to bed and my throat started to become sore and I got all these itchy rashes. I think that made me sleep longer because I was so tired even tough my alarm woke me up after 9 hours of sleep. I slept one hour more and bounced out and in of many dreams. Including one of those experiences when you just feel like you fall when you wake up.

I'm in some kind of big shower with many more people. I usually bother being naked in front of other people but I wasn't thinking about it in this dream. I'm not even sure I was naked now when I think about it. Suddenly there are two sea slugs on the floor. They are brownish and they made themselves ball like. I decide to wipe them into one place and after I have done so I notice that there are many other kinds of sea slugs too. They are in different colors, shapes and sizes. I have wiped them into a pile. I suddenly notice I have a small sea slug in my mouth and I spit it out into the pile. The people next to me have some kind of reaction.

My dad has some kind of syringe and is about to teach us how anesthetic agents work in our kitchen. The syringe is not actually a syringe. It's a long very small, pointy tube inserted in a big glass tank. He inserts the syringe in his arm and some of the liquid from the tank goes into his arm. There is an instrument that shows you when you have gotten the right amount of liquid. He then moves on to the second phase and changes syringe. He then does the same process as before. It is our turn now and I decide to do the first step. I already have a tube inserted into my arm. It's difficult because the liquid from the tank is hard to adjust and I'm not sure if I'm taking blood from my arm or if I'm inserting the anesthetic into my arm. It hurts and after I'm done I decide not to do the second phase. Mostly because I am afraid of stinging myself with the syringe.

I'm in a big arena and it's someones birthday. I have a friend next to me and much is happening. This was the dream with most action but I don't remember it.

These are some of the dreams I bounced in and out from the last hour of sleep. I also had a lot of dream fragments I don't remember anymore. Mostly walking in my room.

I'm outside and playing some activities outside with some people. There are two teams and I'm with the team that has ribbons. The activity leader tells the ribbon team to go to the other side and the other team to stay where we were. I am standing next to a tree pole.

I'm climbing down my bed and I get incredible speed as I fall.

Possible recurring elements: Showers, home, syringe, arenas.

Notes: I dreamt about the slug because I saw the Harry Potter scene when Ron pukes big snails three days ago. I have no idéa why I dreamt about the syringe. Maybe because I had a reaction before I went to bed. I sometimes have dreams about arenas. It's one of my dream signs.

Day 829:

Fell asleep at: 3:00 AM

Woke up at: 9:00 AM


Dream 119: Tooth-Conscious

I'm in my house, possibly a FA, and I go over to the restroom to look at myself in the mirror. I find that my two front teeth are horrendously mangled, crooked and with a wide gap in between. I begin to freak out, wondering how my teeth got this bad. Then I woke up for real.


Day 830:

Fell asleep at: 3:00 AM

Woke up at: 1:00 PM


Dream 120: Monster Hunting

I'm in a house, a moderately expensive one it looks like, almost certainly not my own. I'm sitting on the couch playing a Monster Hunter game with my family, which is odd, as MH doesn't support split-screen nor is it the kind of game my family would play.

My dad, who usually wouldn't play anything more complex than Mario Kart, is complaining how we've only been killing easy monsters. So, in retaliation, I select a mission involving hunting a Tetsucabra and Glavenus at once. It absolutely wipes the floor with the rest of my family, but at this point I'm too involved with my performance to really care.

As I'm soloing the Glavenus, I find something...off about it. Every now and then it will let loose a stream of blue Pikmin from its gaping maw, sapping my health away. I'm juggling between slashing it with my Great Sword and guzzling Mega Potions and getting nowhere real fast.

Then the dream ended.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Yesterday I told myself that I would have something big to tell my DJ today, and I knew that I would succeed and therefore I succeeded. I set an alarm 03:40 for WILD. I drink water and meditate for about eight minutes. I go back to sleep, laying in the corpse position. After about 30 minutes almost my whole body is gone, I can't feel it. I get a big vibration wave sideways that I have never experienced before and I think that this is the first time I will succeed with a WILD. I try to remain calm and not get excited, it works. After laying still in one hour I can't take it anymore. I look on my clock and it's 04:51. I do a RC just for good measure and go to my normal sleeping position. It takes a while but I fall asleep.

I'm laying on an open toilet, balancing with my quilt, doing a WILD. I feel my hands gripping a bikehandle and I'm happy because this is the first time I succeed with a WILD. I'm not entirely in the dream but after I while I see the road I'm riding on. It's next to the road by Stumholmen. I can't remain in the dream and I come back to laying on the open toilet. I wonder how the toilet can be so big. I'm actually laying on a toilet I think. My legs drop into the toilet water and I quickly raise them again. I wake up and realize that I WILDed in a dream into another dream and am pretty fascinated.

I'm in my bed and I'm pinching my nose, trying to breathe. I can breathe, then I raise from the bed. Haha, I outsmarted my brain's FA! I read about tips on what you can do in a dream about telekinesis and try it out. I lift the music stand in my room and it's moving exactly according to my will. I jump out of my window and fly to the left. I scream for a person I want to meet with but no one is seen. I go into a taxi and tell him to drive to this person. He asks where she lives and I tell him that he knows. After a long time we are there. I'm thinking that I wasted worth-while time going 5 minutes in a taxi and have to learn more time efficient methods. I ask the driver how much it costs but he doesn't know. I'm not sure I have any money but search in my pocket. I find many bills and just give him a 200 kronor bill (about 20 dollars). He doesn't know how much he is going to pay me back so I tell him to keep the change. I fly up to the persons balcony and we interact. I feel the dream fade. I'm in my bed and do my normal RC. Wow it was just another FA I think to myself, cool. I fly to the same person without the taxi because now I knew where I was going. My flying is not good and I'm having struggle with all the tall trees I'm flying into. I constantly have to run on the ground to get some power to lift from the ground. There is a big sculpture and a giant man is walking against me. I fly up to the sculpture in order to escape the giant but I'm too slow and get caught. I wake up and do a RC and realize it's a dream! I think it's funny how I have had three FA in a dream and go into the building next to me instead. There are some mirrors and I decide I want to test the teleportation through mirror skill. I try to enter the mirror but it won't let me pass. I look on my fingers and they are all distorted. First they are really small and fat. When I look on my fingers through the mirror there are several fingers growing into my fingers. I think about what the forum has said about this and I'm comforted. I look into the mirror again and notice that it's acting wrongly. It's like the mirror in front of me had the view of a mirror that would have been above me. I also notice how my reflection is not properly following my movements. I try to enter it again but fail. I wake up but I already kind of know it's a dream. I hear some Naruto music and my brother enters my room. I have a hard time trying to open my eyes. I rub my hands together for stabilization and I'm forcing my eyes open with my fingers. I walk to the window and I'm screaming for some persons and they appear outside my house to the right. I fly to them. We interact and I wake up, knowing that it's IRL. I do a RC anyhow just because I want it as a habit.

Possible recurring elements: Toilets, escaping

Notes: Now I have learned to always do RC when I wake up haha. What is wrong with my WILD, I don't know... Just have to practice more. I didn't meditate at the begining of the LD which is my current goal. I have to think more about it in order to remember it. I think I could fix my flying just by practicing a whole night. I have succeeded in flying to the coulds really fast in a LD a year ago. It would be cool to fix the mirror teleportation. It's hard to analyzie a LD I think. I think I was laying on the toilet in the dream because I thought about how the rats may pinch my butt when I sat on the toilet yesterday. There are so many things that I have made up in the dream. This is by far the longest LD I have ever had!

Normal | Dream | Lucid Dream

Same routine, screens off at 10, mindful bed time routine including taking melotonin, raw honey and MCT oil drink, and mindfulness meditation on Headspace (Free year for the unemployed!). I made a dream plan, slept on my right side (which actually helps!) and by 11 I was already asleep.

I'm with Ivy, hanging out. We settle in to watch a movie and I lay my head on her lap, she strokes my hair. I kiss her softly, her lips grazing mine felt very real. Dream fades.
I'm in my apartment, doing something in my bedroom. My waterbottle was scewered by something and is leaking water. I take it to the kitchen to pour the water in the sink. The sink is full of dirty water. I drink from my bottle, the water is dirty. I think thats not right, so I do a RC. This is a dream! I announce CLARITY a few times until I'm satisfied with the sharpness of the dream. I walk around my apartment, knowing I had a plan to fly tonight. I see my cat Elton trying to get my attention and following me; this is the first time I've ever seen him in a dream but I ignore him, worried he might do something freaky if I pay too much attention to him.
I visualized a beautiful dreamscape that night before going to sleep, so I try to close and open my bedroom door to lead me there. I try a few times but the door keeps opening to my room instead. The dream starts to fade but I stop what I'm doing, and restabilize by rubbing my hands together and looking around me. I try the door a few more times and still nothing.
I wake up in bed, Elton wakes up next to me. He's very energetic and excited considering its 3:30, and cuddles me and starts purring, and I wonder if he was really there in the dream with me. I take my usual supplements (galantamine, red DreamLeaf pill). I decided to try Niacin as I saw it listen on DV and had some on hand. WHAT A MISTAKE. Before I'm able to fall asleep, I'm already burning and itching all over. My remaining sleep is troubled.
I'm in my apartment, I get up, go to the freezer for icepacks. I lay back in bed with icepacks all over my body to relieve the INTENSE BURNING AND ITCHING I feel all over.
Another dream, I check on Google how long a Niacin flush lasts.
Last dream, three teenagers are sitting along a fence in the sun. They took Niacin, like they were doing drugs together. The girl in the middle is freaking out because of how hot and itchy she is. Me too, girl. Me too.
I wake up at 6am, can't sleep any longer. Niacin was a terrible idea. Since my only LD came before I took my supplements, I'll try only honey and MCT oil tonight and see what my results are like.
Also, what do you call it when you LD but you're in your apartment and it feels like real life? OBE? Astral Projection? False Awakening? This has happened before, and leads to some very boring LDs.

These are the three moments I achieved lucidity since the quarantine began, which all happened before I made an account.
1. I was walking along a gravel path, with someone, who exactly I don't remember. I remember seeing a green sign with white writing along the path, and realizing the words made no sense, I looked at my hands to confirm this was a dream. Clear as day, my pointer finger on my left hand split into two at the middle knuckle, and my right hand had an additional one or two fingers. I realize that YES this is a dream! Looking up, I see an amazing autumn scene around me. The gravel path goes on Northwest for a long while, and in front of me a valley of bright green grass with a row of trees with the most vivid and colorful red, orange, and yellow leaves grow along the far side of the field. I could feel the gravel crunch beneath my shoes, the warmth of the sun, the coolness of the breeze. Just as I decide to do something to influence the dream in some way, it fades away. I'm left with an overwhelming sense of peace.

2. I'm in my apartment kitchen, looking at my hands, doing a reality check. The clock on the stove isn't making any sense. I know this is a dream, but its very dull and dim. I rub my hands together, keep looking at my hands in an attempt to bring the dream into focus. I close my eyes and can't open them again, everything is black. I think, SCREW IT, and throw myself backwards, hoping to land in another dream. Instead I fall off my bed, spinning and falling in total blackness, until the dream ends and I wake up in my bed.

3. After several other vivid dreams, I find myself at a large body of water in a tropical place, possibly Nicaragua. There are wooden platforms, like docks, that start on the side of this body of water that I'm travelling from, and connect to the other shore. Along these docks are these sort of porch set ups, where people are hanging out. I'm walking across these platforms and about halfway across, I stop to look at the sea. It's stunningly blue and beautiful, and I think, yes, this is a dream. I rub my hands, count my fingers, and say CLARITY NOW several times until the scene is relatively stable and in focus. I see a boy I used to have a crush on from highschool, walk over to him, and try to kiss him. He rejects me, becomes someone else, and then I wake up, probably from the dissapointment. I wish I'd jumped into the water and gone swimming instead.

Jamie

A good dream for once. Just sitting on a couch with Jamie with my arm around her and i think she is reciprocating. she's letting me know she still cares and feels good about me. but her mood suggests she is also angry with about something? Not sure.


Crazy

In a semi lucid. I'm in front of a haunted mirror? not sure but i am encased in mirror on all sides of me. I feel a really evil presence so i draw with my finger on the mirror in front of me a cross and say, "The power of Christ compels you!" I say it somewhat jokingly. Instantly I'm in sleep paralysis in my bed and i hear a baby laughing menacingly at me...

Alarm

Not sure what was happening but i had a false awakening because of an alarm clock going off in the dream i had a FA in. Which really woke me up even though in reality no alarm had gone off....

Lucidity?
I am in my house. Suddenly, I reality check and (maybe, not sure if this is just dreaming I am lucid) I seemingly get lucid. I reality check, but for some reason, it doesn't work but it seems to help retain lucidity anyway? I then run my hand along a cupboard while walking into the living room because I remember reading that touching things helps ground you in lucidity. Then I lose lucidity and I am standing in front of the terrarium of the roaches I keep as pets, and they are somehow escaping, one after another. I try to tell my mother, but she is somehow drunk or something and I can't really move, so they just keep escaping and I can't do anything about it.

False awakening
I then seemingly wake up, and suddenly I skip to telling my mother that I had a lucid dream.

Weird machine story..?
I am in like a steampunk sort of setting, with a lot of orange lighting, and I have to somehow repair a machine or something, and it involves somebody who is apparently my brother. I am then in my house again, and I need to get somewhere, but there is something chasing me. I reach for the bathroom window and open it and try to use some sort of wand thing to fly out of the window, but I don't fit because the window is suddenly shaped weirdly. I then go into the room right next to the bathroom and fly out of a large window there. I then sort of go to a sort of court-like building but I am not sure. There is also something chasing me there, so I fly up into the air and just float above, looking down.

Jamie dreams

first one seems to be in direct response to a facebook dream i was having the previous week. In this dream Jamie is interacting with me on facebook, although the act is nice, she seems to have some attitude about it. doesn't come across very loving.

Second dream i am with her in high school. But she's too cool for school or even me for that matter. As she is too stuck up to even talk to me. She has a friend nearby who is an admirer and she says something like, "There's the most beautiful girl in the school, and then there's Her." Referring to jamie as if Jamie is above the rest.

Last dream we are in a field with some east indian girl. They find a bathroom or something whoch is their hangout. Jamie asks me to clean the entire bathroom for her. And I'm like, "No."

And quite frankly i'm not logging these dreams every week for her to play in a highschool popularity contest. Still miss my dream hugs.


floating

in this dream i am almost lucid. I'm in a room with a bunch of people and i start floating up and flying around. I start singing wierd al's Eat it, but with the pitch of michael jackson. The people below start staring at me.

Haunted

Me and someone are outside a bunch of abandoned houses looking for a haunted house. Seems to be the district close by that one dream i had with the black castle and the women demons who guarded it.

We go up to a house with a mirror. In the mirror is a scene of people in a house pretending to be ghosts. I remember the face of a girl of the family trying to make funny but spooky faces. I ask them where the haunted house is. They don't know. I ask if this is a haunted mirror. The pull out their own mirror and create a ghost lady that walks into their mirror. I can't tell if they mean a huanted mirror is something you can walk through to the other side in, or if they are inviting me to walk into their mirror?

We walk on and supposedly find the haunted house. We find a crawlspace inside which leads to... A large area something like a sears in a mall or something. There's all these women accompanied by really tall and pale men about 7-8 feet tall. I become semi lucid and begin to fly above them. I circle the area and fly up an escalator which has strange walls on the side. I become lucid for a moment and the dream fades.


FA, I'm in a room with Dara, The tarot card youtuber who deleted all her accounts and videos. I think she's jamie or something. She seems okay with me and i say she was mad but now she's cool. Dara looks at me perplexed and then shrugs whatver. i say it's cool like this to be just chill. she agrees.
work related

I'm at work when everyone becomes frightened. Dylan goes into the walk in freezer and discovers a dead girl's corpse in there. I begin hearing loud alien like Thwoms coming from the freezer. In a panic i go get changed to go home and leave. I'm having heart attack symptoms, it won't stop beating fast and i notice I'm really sweaty as I take off my shirt and look for the other one.

Scary

Im'm in some house and some evil guy that reminds me of thanos is there. Thanos is suddenly michael dorn without his worf makeup but he is still evil. I hide bhind a door and throw knives at him... they don't even hit him hard. He goes to attack me but I wake up.

Dreamt about a person whose name is one used for both guys and girls. I don't know how he was in my hotel room, but he was and we talked as if we'd known eachother for a long time. The hotel had the left window face to the streetfront where there were lots of clocks and weather screens, the right window (same wall) faced over the pool room. Mom and dad's room was next door to mine, so through that window you could also see their balcony. I knew I was dreaming the whole time. The entire dream was very vivid.

Riley! That was the name! Riley looked like that guy from Instagram tiktok. (Just looked it up, Noen Eubanks.) Red hair, tired eyes.

The next day, left hotel and looked around the building. Very big building. Eventually went outside, saw a playground and sat around there. Then to the forward-right, across the road, was a large castle/university like building. Crossed the gardens, went inside and wandered around. Went down hall's like D's school, I somehow knew where the gymnasium would be and turned down some teachers only corridors. I talked to the teachers as I went by, making it sound like I was supposed to be there. Got to gym, and it was the same room as [my church] sanctuary, just with gigantic grey-brown curtains blocking all the walls and 3-40 feet in between wall and curtain. There wasn't a stage. There was a glass plant growing/ plant selling/ concession stand thing in the middle of the room. To the left were some people, around where the lighting balcony is irl. I skirted around the right edge and got to the place where the stage wasn't, instead there were blue closed/collapsed crowd stands. We were there and talking a bit, then another guy who looks a ton like Riley but with blue hair comes up and scolds us, so I follow Riley out the other entrance (the one that leads to the offices irl). We decide to just walk around, and we came across the same playground on the way back. It was (and to the best I could tell, everything else was) in the same place as they had been on our way there. I walked towards the playground while Riley lagged behind. I turn to check how he's doing, and he's a girl with red hair up in a ponytail, tired eyes and shadowy eyeshadow. She told me to do a pose, and I did, and I took her picture too, with a tiny hope it would somehow be on my phone irl. I got the sense that she was much older (like centuries) than she looked.

Later, we got to a bus stop and I was just taking in the scenery, then Riley rode up to me on a bike and said see you tomorrow. I was very sad about this, because I knew I wouldn't, as I was dreaming. I considered just acting like I did belong to their world, but I decided to say it, that I was dreaming and wouldn't see her tomorrow. I was teary, and felt very very sad about it. Riley had an understanding and compassionate look, and a white-haired grandma passerby noted to her something about "I feel so badly for the first lifers, this must be so difficult for them". For the moment she was talking, they were both very old, white haired ladies. I don't know how they kept changing in front of me without my noticing the change, but Riley was back to a red haired girl. She apologetically said she really had to go, and kissed me before biking off. The dream went black, so I got up to write it down. I forgot Riley's name, but remembered it was a unisex name, when I recalled it I kept repeating it over and over in order to remember it. I wrote everything down, including things I forgot and therefore didn't write here. It morphed into a different dream which I don't remember, and then I woke up for real and wrote this down.