dream fragment

Mom, dad, sister, yush, and myself were at a hotel. it was discounted because of covid. we started exploring outside and there was snow eveywhere. I was scared of getting my shoes wet but my family didn't seem to care. Everyone wandered off and it was just my mom and I. We did not say anything but just smiled at each other. The sun was shinning down on us.

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i was in a nintendo switch zombie game. The only thing the CPUs said was "im dying over here" and they would then chase me around. The only weapons were a gun and plasma grenades. I blew up a bunch of cars with the plasma grenades. there were hoardes of zombies. We were at a run down hospital. On the roof I jumped off the building. On the way down I was laughing thinking, "now I really am dying over here"

I had a class at either 9:30 or 9:45 am, so I rushed out of the house. I was late and didn't make it until 10:30,
so I decided to skip for the day and head home. When I got back my Mom was sitting on the porch because she
got locked out of the house.

Dream 1:
I was on a month-long road trip with my brother, around the U.S. Every night, we would stop in a different town and get dinner. In one town, there was a giant party going on, and I saw some guy dancing on the outside edge of a banister on the second story of a strip club before he promptly fell off. Clearly he was drunk, because despite falling 15 feet to the ground, he got right back up and continued dancing.
A few nights later, we met up with our parents who were also on a trip. My Mom had decided to invite my ex-girlfriend to go with them. Very awkward, considering I had invited my girlfriend to meet me there. I forgot exactly what had happened, but I don't think there was a giant confrontation.
After me and my brother got home, I made a remark about "surviving for an entire month in the wilderness" and he said, "Yeah, except I bought us dinner almost every night."

Dream 2 - fragment:
In my backyard at my house, we have a new pool. It's huge, and takes up basically the entire yard. There's a hot tub too, however it's half of the total pool area, so it's extremely big for a hot tub.

Remember last week when i was ranting about how unhappy i was that i had a 13 reasons why dream? Well, season 4 just dropped on netflix and I had no idea. Precog? I of course binged watched it inone night on my days off. I made sure to have a coffee from mcdonald's in my hand. and i toasted andtook a sip everytime Jessica was on screen. haha.


Jamie dreams.

I had a dream of maybe kissing her? I don't know it was really fleeting.

Another dream we were in my house but we came from a crawl space in the ceiling and fell into a ball pit. Like we were kids having fun.

Last dream was I was standing by my old street where i live when i knew Jamie. But where the library should be was a highschool where jamie was attendting... I was waiting for her at the end of the street. That's all of that one.

Hypnagogic Images

A flash of Captain Picard in a black space giving me the middle finger? I wonder why. Also it's very odd that i considered him a mv role model while growing up and i recently noticed his character has the exact same initials of Jamie... if anyone wants to know a little bit of where i get my sense of right and wrong from. It was from watching him growing up on TNG.lol.

Flash of asuka feeding me some strange dream japanese food. I was wondering if she's still around...

Was on a vacation at a hotel. Mom was there. I knew she was going to die in a few months and so did she. She said that she was really glad that we got to spend this time together and that I was able to appreciate her.

I don't remember many details about hanging out with her but the memory has a positive tone.

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On a bus I sat between two girls. I was inches away from one of the girls faces and was extremely uncomfortable. She on the other hand did not seem bothered. It sounded like they were speaking a foreign language. At one point I said "sorry".

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I was at a baseball game from middle school in the outfield. There were about 20 outfielders and I ran out there to join them. The outfield stretched enlessly back and at some point evolved into the grass of a music festival. Someone said to me "I can't believe you took acid during the game". This shook me because I did not remember taking any acid. At that moment someone hit a fly ball to me. As the ball soared in the air and I reached my glove out, the sky started splitting and changing colors. The ball seemed to be coming from multiple angles simultaneously. I kept running and running until I ran into a huge crowd of people. There was music playing and it sounded distorted but pleasant. I found a fancy bathroom which had marble (and I should have called bullshit at this point cause their an't no marble bathrooms at a music festival) I tried to collect myself. I thought "your mom came out here to see you play baseball" That sobered me right up and I attempted to leave the festival and head back to the game.

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I never made it out of the festival though because the festival morphed into some weird bob sledding course made out of mud. At the top of a hill, someone was handing out sombreros to be used as a sled. I took mine and put my ass right over the top part of it. The run was really intense. Even though I was going down hill, people were racing past me in the opposite direction. I veered to the left to avoid a collision and then I cannot remember anymore.

Monday Night, 6/1/20

Finally broke my dry spell and got a lucid! Didn't last long but I'm happy for the change. I recalled a ton of dream plot from last night but I'll skip to right before the lucid section:

I was running down a deserted street in a suburban neighborhood, accompanied by a DC named "Chris", an in-dream boyfriend of a few months according to my dream memories. We'd just finished some schenanigans that ended with me shoving him behind a bush in front of his dwelling so he could finish getting dressed without the neighbors seeing him half naked. Don't ask Anyway we were laughing and running down the street and I started taking some leaps and jumps into the air as I ran because I was feeling quite happy and energized. I found that each jump carried me quite high, and I started to test just how high I could go. Soon I was floating up into the air. "Flying means dreaming." I muttered to myself because that sounded like a familiar phrase somehow. "Wait, I'm flying, so I'm dreaming!" I said. I glided along and spun around a bit.

"Woah, look what you can do!" Chris said from where he was running on the ground.

"You can do it too!" I told him, grabbing his hands and pulling him into the air. I let go and twirled him around in the air by making a circular motion with my hand. Right around then I heard my alarm start beeping. Chris and I stared at each other for a moment then the dream started to fade.

When I opened my eyes I had that heavy, difficult to move feeling that told me I could still go back into the dream if I wanted to, if it weren't for the fact that I had to get up to turn off the alarm. A little annoyed, I broke the connection to the dream by moving and went to turn it off. Tried laying down again but was too awake by then to get back to sleep.

Spoiler for Additional Notes:

Throughout the earlier dream I noticed a few strange things. Two or three times where items appeared as if by magic when I knew I didn't have them but looked for them anyway, my dream sign of a yet another toilet with no privacy that I could see from another room, and clocks multiplying from just one to three of them on a wall, all with conflicting and rapidly changing times. Then once I started flying that phrase "flying means dreaming" popped into my head the way a catchy commercial jingle might. It's a phrase I've repeated to myself in waking life many times, especially when going over old records for missed opportunities. A few moments after saying it to myself in the dream the actual meaning sunk in. I haven't done much with mantras in the past, but I think I'll be focusing on them more now that I've experienced the potential benefit first hand - and almost by accident!

Jamie dreams

Big contrast in Jamie dreams. In the first one all I remember is crying about Jamie, like she had just done something horrible to me in the dream. The next part I am talking to Data about it. He is being very stern with me, not sure about what, but he implies that I am doing something which is greatly pissing her off.. I have no idea what i could be doing that would piss her off. Maybe I do, but that implies (assuming she has some sort of uncontrollable psychic link to me.) she can sense vividly what I do in my day to day life even though we have not spoken in some years <--- I am having a very difficult time believing that at all. Since she doesn't talk to me personally, We have no real friendship or relationship, therefore She has no say in what i do or not do in my spare time. and I did message her a year ago asking about these dreams and if there was a connection. She has not written back so i have no confirmation of anything and believe well... nothing. I do however sense a change in certain desires in me, almost like a feeling like she has been praying for me?!?!?!? If so, please continue.

Next dream I run into her on a street and she is with a group of friends. This dream is 2 days later and she is all happy to see me like nothing bad had previously happened. This could be just me remembering how she really was sometimes...

Last is an audio only dream. she is talking into my ear and asking if we are to get married. Her tone is very loving. again. i still have no idea if these dreams are me going insane or if it is in fact her. Again my answer is: If I have to. And my answer also is: Not going to happen if she never actually talks to me.

Also had some annoying reminders of jamie. Mainly her birthday, these are not dreams. Years ago bad room mates stole basically everything I own ( including my entire set of anime DVD's "Maison Ikkoku." A series i watched years ago and said to myself If a woman can sit through this entire series with me and watch it I would marry her. So.. it's a rare series so i looked on ebay... and found that japan has released and all region blue ray, for a hefty amount. the delivery date was of course her birthday. I was almost tempted to buy it. But my budget has been horrible lately. Second reminder is: Season 13 of fortnite has been delayed yet again... Until her birthday: Damn you fortnite!!! I still play once a week, can barely stand it.

Crazy

I was in a highschool cafeteria, and I pulled out my mcdonald's coffee cards, ( i have currently around 30 free coffees.). And Jessica, from 13 reasons why was there and started flipping out at me. She thought me pulling out the cards was somehow racist. I was really confused. And really I've been watching star trek reruns and even dug into the TOS (60s hippies in space) for the first time. and this is what I dream about? come on!!!

also varioud flying dreams that don't make me lucid.

Dreamt that I talked to an old friend, like if we were friends again. I was suprised that they messaged me on discord all of a sudden, but we had a good time on catching up on eachother...we dug the battle axe. And everything was alright.

Not much to report this week.

Recall has barely improved.

Do remember 2 Jamie dreams. They were so fleeting it's hard to tell if they were good or bad. Regardless, it's nice to have any Jamie dreams. I'm still surprised to this day that she shows up almost weekly in my dreams for over 2 years now. I've never in my life had a consistent dream sign like this before.

Hello there, here's a few of the things I remember from my dreams last night, taken straight out of my physical dream journal. Still learning how to make things look nice, but here it is

• I'm in a home that seems to be made up of two houses. All of my family and many of my friends are here. It's a pretty good time. Then I learn that a friend from college is getting married and I feel some type of way about it for a bit before getting back to the gathering. Later, we have to looking for the fiance, since he isn't at the party anymore for some reason.
  
  That plotline takes a backseat once I see my cat jump from the second floor of one of the buildings into my arms. After I scold her a bit, I put her down and start talking to my cousin about some pretty good cake. It looks pretty moist and while it does taste good, I'm not really feeling like eating it now, so it turns into a sort of game of hot potato between my uncle, my cousin and myself.
  
• I take more allergy pills than I need and I gotta figure out what I'm gonna do with the allergy pill that's currently in my mouth while hiding all this from my mom as I am talking to her
  
• I'm trying to put in eye drops. for some reason, they've taken on this almost gelatinous look to them and the only way to get them is to unsqueeze the bottle.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I had some sort of allergic reaction right before I went to bed and my throat started to become sore and I got all these itchy rashes. I think that made me sleep longer because I was so tired even tough my alarm woke me up after 9 hours of sleep. I slept one hour more and bounced out and in of many dreams. Including one of those experiences when you just feel like you fall when you wake up.

I'm in some kind of big shower with many more people. I usually bother being naked in front of other people but I wasn't thinking about it in this dream. I'm not even sure I was naked now when I think about it. Suddenly there are two sea slugs on the floor. They are brownish and they made themselves ball like. I decide to wipe them into one place and after I have done so I notice that there are many other kinds of sea slugs too. They are in different colors, shapes and sizes. I have wiped them into a pile. I suddenly notice I have a small sea slug in my mouth and I spit it out into the pile. The people next to me have some kind of reaction.

My dad has some kind of syringe and is about to teach us how anesthetic agents work in our kitchen. The syringe is not actually a syringe. It's a long very small, pointy tube inserted in a big glass tank. He inserts the syringe in his arm and some of the liquid from the tank goes into his arm. There is an instrument that shows you when you have gotten the right amount of liquid. He then moves on to the second phase and changes syringe. He then does the same process as before. It is our turn now and I decide to do the first step. I already have a tube inserted into my arm. It's difficult because the liquid from the tank is hard to adjust and I'm not sure if I'm taking blood from my arm or if I'm inserting the anesthetic into my arm. It hurts and after I'm done I decide not to do the second phase. Mostly because I am afraid of stinging myself with the syringe.

I'm in a big arena and it's someones birthday. I have a friend next to me and much is happening. This was the dream with most action but I don't remember it.

These are some of the dreams I bounced in and out from the last hour of sleep. I also had a lot of dream fragments I don't remember anymore. Mostly walking in my room.

I'm outside and playing some activities outside with some people. There are two teams and I'm with the team that has ribbons. The activity leader tells the ribbon team to go to the other side and the other team to stay where we were. I am standing next to a tree pole.

I'm climbing down my bed and I get incredible speed as I fall.

Possible recurring elements: Showers, home, syringe, arenas.

Notes: I dreamt about the slug because I saw the Harry Potter scene when Ron pukes big snails three days ago. I have no idéa why I dreamt about the syringe. Maybe because I had a reaction before I went to bed. I sometimes have dreams about arenas. It's one of my dream signs.

1. Took a car to a modify shop and had a long talk about what should we do to the car

2. Mom told me she wanted to go and see her childhood house. We went there and it was cosy

3. I was a soldier and a guy who is older and probably outranking me told some refugees are almost drowning and we have to save them. The reason for them to be drowning could be an invisible enemy boat he said. We went into the water and we swam aimlessly

4. Cool sex dream turned into a multiplayer game and i almost got lucid but i could feel my real body and slowly waking up. I fell into the dream once more and she was airing the room. My stupid ass decided oh i missed it, i can wake up now!

I'm in an apartment in Queens with most of my family. They're watching a movie on TV, and I'm generally just chillin' and playing some kind of Soulsbourne game.

Eventually, it's time to get going, and my cousin makes fun of the way I run, so I get a running start in order to send a flying kick at his head. I'm not sure that the blow lands, but it at least got so close.

Bed time routine: screens off at 10, in bed by 10:30. Drank honey and MCT oil mixture with tea brewed from Calea Z, mugwort, damiana, bobinsana, blue lotus. No galantamine or DreamLeaf supplements this time (wanted to see how the herbs alone afffected me). Mindfulness meditation just before sleep.

I'm in a house with some strangers in an unfamiliar city. Someone was coming for us,but right as they arrived I slipped out, walking right by them and acting natural. They come for me, and I cannot escape. They threaten me, I don't know why. I wake up, 1:55 AM
I am with my sisters, Lisa and Tina. They are taking me somewhere, even though I am tired. I sleep in the backseat of the car. We arrive at a swimming pool, they jump in without me. I jump in next, but I jump too far and am above the concrete on the other side; I float back to the center, and am not falling into the water, so I push from the ceiling into the pool. When I climb out, there are other people in the pool, and I'm self concious of the way they look at my scars. I remember I had my tattoos in this dream.
I tell Tina that the gravity above the pool wasn't working right, and that I had to check to make sure this was in fact real. I look at my hands. OH! LOOK HOW MANY FINGERS! This is in fact, a dream! Tina doesn't seem excited by this revelation. I tell Lisa, she thinks I'm being weird. "Thats why the gravity didn't work! And thats why YOU (Lisa) aren't pregnant right now! None of this is real! My right eye closes, and the dream starts going dim. I ask Tina to lead me back to the car because I can't see. On the way to the car, my vision is replaced with a 3DS screen map, showing my location and movement. I try to explain this to my uninterested sister as we step into the car. Except now its a train car, its WWII era, many men and women sit in the car with us. Everything is so vivid. To my right, a very young and handsome Steve Rogers orders some food from the lady with the trolly. He turns to me and smiles. I know dream are all about expectations, so I try very hard to believe that he will kiss me. The dream fades and I wake up. 5:54 am.
Back in the dream, I immediately look at my hands. Too many fingers. I'm at the pool again, but as I leave it is now a restaraunt.I am old, and make a scene so that we will get kicked out. I lose lucidity as I follow the dream plot. We leave and are now shopping for shirts. I have to pick something for my husband, he is helpless. Also younger. I am now myself, in line to buy a shirt. A young boy is in line ahead of me, trying to use a credit card. The cashier asks for ID, and he shows her a picture of an ID on a tablet. She asks again if this is really his card. He admits its a joke, but she pushes a button and an alarm goes off. We are now waiting for the police. The people behind me are crowding, and I ask them to back off. An attractive girl with turquise braces and several tattoos apologizes. I compliment her tats, we have a conversation about them. I tell her I love the little peace sign she has, that I want something similar, that I want it to be a reminder for me to Smile and Breathe. I wake up (6:55), and draw the peace sign on my hand. I've been trying to figure out what symbol to use for this reminder, and the dream has just given me the perfect idea.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm about to fall asleep and I see a very detailed picture for just a fragment of time. It was an open risifrutti with a spoon in it. I couldn't have made that picture up myself I think. I think that I might succed in seeing some more pictures or HI since I haven't had any memorable experiences yet. There are waves of white coming sideway over my closed eyes after some time and my left arm is getting some big sensations, alsmost like itches all over my arm but more dull, but nothing spectacular.

I'm with my little cousin David. We are hanging out and watching a serie. I'm not sure but I think I was in the action of an episode we were watching for some time. I know that it was a really long dream and I'm frustrated I can't remember more.

Possible recurring elements: My cousins, TV

Notes: I only slept three hours three nights ago so I had to stabilize my sleep scheme and havn't written since. I'm starting small with this little dream but tomorrow I will have much more to write! I also read Sageous WILD Session 1: Mental Prep Part A and did some reverse RC yesterday. I noticed that I always moved my tounge when I repeated my mantra a week ago and thought that it might disturb my WILD because you are supposed to relax your whole body. I have trained to think without moving my tounge since and I'm really getting better. I tried seing the text instead of moving my tounge but it's really hard. Is it just me having troubles with my tounge?