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January 20th, 2012

My recall has been pretty bad these past couple of days for some reason. I haven't been remembering any dreams before about 6am. I got my galantamine today though, so we'll see if that has any impact!


At a camp ground, someone was getting the shit bashed out of him by a bottle but he deserved it somehow.

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I was hanging out with Michel Gondry (!). He showed me a short film called 'Widen' and said that if I understood it, I could help him with his next feature film.
We were in a bedroom and he started by drawing three rounded pillars on a blackboard and asked me what they were. I said I thought they were people and he seemed disappointed in the answer. Then the movie started.

There was a scene in a kitchen where fruit and veggies and eggs were all bouncing around on the benchtop by themselves and started cutting themselves up. Then there was a part where these guys were pretending to shoot guns with their fingers. All of the footage was intercut with images of a sad guy sitting at a train station.

Pretty standard Gondry, basically


I didn’t get it.

This is a lot to remember, so it will be fuzzy.

The dream was similar to Groundhog Day, where I kept dying and restarting. Somehow, a bear was in my neighborhood, and it didn't like me. The first few times I just called animal control, who would take it away while it stared me down.

For some reason, they didn't come, and when I stepped outside, I was attacked by a large black bear. The bear was in full "I am going to kill you and use your corpse to entertain my cubs" mode. I run inside, and the god damn bear punches through the fucking door. My wife runs in with a shotgun. I wait until he breaks open the second, stronger door and aim. The bear grabs the shotgun and starts attacking it. Somehow, it goes off, shooting her, who is relatively fine with this but leaves me to fend off the raging bear. I fall to the ground in this exchange, and then, I feel the barrel on my shoulder. I hear a boom and what feels like a jagged rock jammed into my body. Whoever said you won't experience pain in dreams is a liar.

The dream restarts. I should note here that every restart has only me remembering these previous encounters. I call animal control the second I restart. While waiting for animal control, I see people playing with the fucking bear, who is my nemesis at this point. Then, I see some guy who does street break dancing walking to the side of my house, where I am standing by the window. Confused, I wait, and then, I see he is leading a pack of kids with the god damn bear. The bear is docile and fun until he sees me, at which point he goes into a rage and kills most people in the group to get to me.

I am running now, expecting an angry bear neck bite. I run into a museum or something. I see a large ledge that is opposite the museum entrance while the bear is chasing me. Carefully, I get down without hurting myself, but the god damn bear flings itself over.

With the bear frozen in mid-air, a video clip plays, like from Rocky Horror Picture Show, explaining how falls impact different things. Basically, the bear should be dead. It didn't believe that, and I flee trying to get out of the museum so the police or something can kill it.

In my escape, I wind up at a party in the museum because the building is massive. A guy who looked like Dave Foley gets a note that says "bear in bank." He immediately disperses the party. Panic in the museum erupts as the bear charges out of an area close to us with a body in its mouth at me.

There is a melee between the bear and I, so I can say, dreamwise, I wrestled a bear once, and I know I am about to die. I get an advantage, and like Simba fighting Scar, I flip him off the ledge from before, which is close to us. He stands up, completely on his hind legs, and just stares at me, with broken bones protruding from his skin.

I run, open a door, and I am on a field trip to Disney with my friends and family to a secret Disney science museum. The museum is pretty cool with moving side walks and screens explaining exhibit. If you face the screen, it will be the only sound you hear. There is a booth to get trophies if you saw X things. It's pretty interactive.

I rush through it because I am extremely paranoid, knowing the god damn bear lurking. The dream ends with my wife telling me next is the zoo with this really sad story about a bear who was attacked by some guy. I turn around and ask "Was it a black bear?" as my alarm clock (Machine Head's Locust) blares.

Also, my other alarm tone is Rick Ross' Hustlin', and I have 7 alarms that alternate between the two songs. So, sometimes I'd have that song leaking into the dream.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in some large building, like a museum or a student union kind of area. I was on the second floor. To my left was a balcony-like railing that looked out over the first floor. To my right was possibly a dining area.

My old friend Y was standing, leaning against the railing. I hadn't seen her in some time. I was happy to see her. And I was acting (and feeling) like I hadn't expected to see her. But I'm pretty sure I had been expecting to see her, like we'd made plans to meet here.

I walked up to Y and stood beside her, maybe kind of leaning against the railing like she'd been doing. All this time, I felt my mother's presence behind me. I may have heard her voice, too, as if she had somehow planned this meeting between me and Y and was now directing it.

Y was watching a movie that was being projected against the wall opposite the railing. The wall was maybe three stories tall. The projection was hitting the third-floor section of the wall. So we had to kind of look up to see it.

I'm not sure how we saw the movie: the wall was red brick; but the movie showed up just fine, anyway. I think it was a movie that we both liked.

Y and I had had some sort of small conversation. Just the sound of Y's voice made me so happy. I put my right arm around Y, not out of romantic feelings, but just because I was happy to see her again.

But Y was really put-off. She grunted something cold and nasty, even implying that she had some kind of sickness that I'd get by touching her.

She'd done this to me in the past. I knew she was just trying to freeze me out or gross me out so I'd leave her alone. I took my hands off her and watched the movie. We may also have continued talking about something.

Eventually we were planning to "meet for dinner." We walked away from the railing and over to the section of the floor that had dining tables.

But now Y changed into my friend H. H and I sat down at the table to eat. The table was a regular, round dining table, about 125cm in diameter, possibly covered over with a white tablecloth. But it was also crammed, both the table and the chairs, with all kinds of things, like household and personal items.

H and I were trying to sit down so we could eat. All this time I felt my mom's presence behind me. I may also have felt the presence of my old friend R. R's presence seemed particularly bitter.

Eventually I got sat down on a seat. But I was only halfway sat in the seat -- the rest of the seat being cluttered with stuff. I guess that H couldn't find any other place to sit. So she tried to sit on my lap. But something about my lap was making it really awkward for her to sit.

H was wearing a grey mini-skirt and a black shirt. But the mini-skirt kept riding up, almost revealing H's panties, as H tried to sit on my lap.

But now it seemed like H was getting into what I thought of then as a "slutty" mindset. She was really getting turned on by the way her skirt was riding up on my lap. Now she started to do it on purpose. She may even have been pulling it up with her hands and then putting it back down.

I might have started getting turned on. And I may have tried to make a move for H. But at this point, she may have gotten up and walked away. I may have been a little bitter about this. But I think I told myself that when H got back, she and I would just forget about it and have a nice dinner.

I only remember small fragments of this dream!

Basically I want to go to the movies with my friends, but throughout the dream things keep haulting our progress to get my goal done. And I never accomplish it either...
I remember this guy was trying to shock we to death at one point, and we got popcorn a few minutes later but still couldn't get into the movies...

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was walking up the stairs in a fire escape stairwell in an office building. The walls were white and the light was either incandescent or a warm-feeling fluorescent. There may have been one or two people ahead of me, guiding me. One may have been a pretty, young woman.

I was told something about the office where I was being taken. It had something to do with the difference between this place and my old office. I felt like probably nobody would even know me here.

The door opened to the office floor. Colorful Christmas lights were glaring somewhere at the periphery of my vision. The two people guiding me either disappeared or walked really far away into the office.

I was by myself in a corner of the office. It felt kind of like an elevator bank. But it was open to the rest of the office. I wasn't even sure why I was supposed to be in this office in the first place.

A young man came up to greet me. I knew him! (I don't think I really know him IWL.) I was so relieved to know somebody.

But the man didn't quite want to acknowledge that he recognized me, as well. Some people didn't like me, and the man didn't want to be seen by them as liking me. So he just treated me politely, but indifferently, like he'd treat anybody who came into the office.

The man may have told me that my old boss would be here to meet with me momentarily. In the meantime, the man said, I could visit the museum on this floor. The man walked me to the wall behind me -- the wall with the doorway to the stairwell.

Off to the left of the doorway was something that looked like a display. It was about the size of an animal display diorama in a museum.

The "display" was of something like a space station. It looked fake, like one solid, plastic piece -- almost like a Star Wars toy! But some part of it, I knew, opened like a door. From there, you would walk into the museum. The museum would, I think, be about the size of a hallway, or the size of one exhibit room in a large museum.

Off to the left of this "museum" was a long hallway. On the right wall of the hallway, from the waist up, were windows letting in a lot of yellow-white sunlight. The floor of the hallway was blue.

I was now in "my apartment," which was rather large. The living area, which may have included the dining area, was three or four rooms long, with all the rooms opening into each other, only distinguished from another by the varying widths of their rectangles.

The place was empty of furntiture. But there was stuff everywhere on the floor. Nothing was cluttered, and maybe everything had some kind of order. But it mostly felt like I just had all the stuff I liked just laying around everywhere.

I'm not sure, but at this point, I think I looked like Lance Loud, from An American Family.



(In this photo, Lance is standing, to the far right. The mother, Pat, is seated, in the center.)

I had my phone to my ear, and maybe I was waiting for someone to pick up on the other end. I was looking down to the floor as I stepped over all the stuff I had laying around on the floor.

I think I walked over some vinyl records, in their sleeves, and over a really old cassette tape player, the cassettes for which were bigger than eight-track tape cassettes.

I probably started thinking about music. I thought of something that I really wanted to hear. I was going to play it. The music may now already have been playing. I still had the phone to my ear.

But suddenly I realized -- I'm almost all out of money! It's totally wrong for me to stay in this place with no money. I can't sit here listening to music. I need to get all my stuff reduced and organized, so I can get the hell out of here!

I may now have started putting together a plan for how to throw out a bunch of useless papers I didn't need, so I'd have less stuff to take with me once I left this place.

I was now in a house which was supposed to be the Loud family house. At this point I definitely looked like Lance Loud. The house had two stories. I was up on the second floor, in a bedroom which had been converted into an office.

I wasn't a member of the family. I was like a friend of some member of the family. But I had also been doing some kind of work for them. I had had tough times, and I needed to stay at their house. I think I had been staying at the house a couple of days, but now I was getting ready to leave.

Pat, the mom from An American Family, came into the room. I was reclined -- somehow -- either against an office chair and some small filing cabinets, or on a bed.

Pat sat down on something and told me that she knew I was planning on leaving the house. But she said she didn't think I actually had enough money yet to go out on my own. She said she was going to talk with the rest of the family about seeing whether I couldn't stay here a little while longer.

Pat stood up and left. I looked through the doorway. There was a short, balcony-like hallway, with the stairs on the end closer to me. Again, I'm pretty sure I saw the colorful glare of Christmas lights somewhere.

I was kind of relieved that Pat had asked me to stay. But I knew that I couldn't accept the offer, anyway. I didn't want any of the manlier men in the family to think I was just being a waste by sticking around here. I knew that if Pat made a good case for me, none of the men would say anything to my face. But I'd always have to deal with them showing me how they felt in other ways.

I figured that what I would do, then, if Pat got the okay for me to stay, was just act like I was going to stay here, after all. Then, when nobody was looking, probably when everybody was gone from the house or asleep at night, I'd just pack up all my stuff and sneak out, leaving a letter saying why I'd gone.

Dream #2

I was walking down the hallway of some movie theatre. I was in a huge line either for tickets or to get into the theatre itself. The wall to my left was just a plain, beige-colored wall, possibly with some kind of wallpaper that looked like thickly-threaded linen.

To my right was a wall that occasionally had narrow, tall windows, letting in the grey light of late afternoon. There were also occasional arcade games positioned along this wall. And somewhere there was a feeling of faint, flashing, multi-colored lights.

There were a couple of people, probably a man and a woman, directly ahead of me, talking about a movie. The woman was doing most of the talking, and she sounded kind of arrogant and pretentious.

Apparently the film the woman was talking about was a short film. The woman was speaking about the director of the film. The director may also have been a character in the film -- a comic kind of character who, even though he wasn't the main character, was supposed to "steal the show."

I may have had an image of this guy in my head. He may have been a white guy, kind of rich-looking, wearing a really garish, multi-colored tuxedo, and a hat that looked either like a wizard's hat or a dunce cap, which was also multi-colored.

I then looked off to my right, to a part of the right wall of the hallway that bent diagonally toward us, making the hallway narrower. On the sloping part of the wall was a poster for the movie the woman had just been talking about. The man was on the front, in his costume. He may have been waist-deep in popcorn.

I realized that the film wasn't a short film. It was feature-length. And it was the film we were all heading in to see (or buying tickets for?) right now.

I had been telling myself that I really didn't want to see the movie. I really didn't like the director. But now that I'd seen the poster, and now that I realized the movie was feature-length, I decided that I actually would like to see it.

Finally got lucid again!

I was in a movie theater, and there was a game before the movie, like a gameshow. Me and mike rigged the game so one of us would win. Then the movie started, and it was beauty and the beast, at the scene where belle and the beast were dancing, but it was live anction and there were several couples dancing. I got up and the movie screen faded. The movie became real life. I started dancing with a girl. We spun really fast, and I didn't even realize it, so she got dizzy. I asked how I could make it up to her. She pointed to a picture of a red dragon. She told me I could slay it for her. I smiled and said I could slay three.

I walked away from the scene, towards a grassy field. I suddenly realized that eveything that happened couldnt possibly be reality, and became lucid after doing an RC. I came to a fence and tried to do a flip over it, and failed miserably. There was a lady on the other side wearing a black and yellow jumpsuit, like the ones professional NASCAR drivers use. She did a flawless flip. I asked her if she could show me, but before she could answer, I woke up.

The night before last I had a dream that I was making a movie with a few other guys. I suggested using one of my Aunts homes as a set, even though it was crumbling. At one time it had been a mansion. It was a house I made up in my dream.

I also had a recollection of another house I had dreamed of several months ago. That house contained Hell.

A man offered his services as an artist. He started to draw to show us what he could do. He was amazing. He drew the road with the tar that goes back and forth and is used to fill in little cracks. Showed how he could make it look 3D by using perspective.

He started making these glowing green lines to come towards the viewer, and anway from the viewer in different directions using simple one-point perspective. Then he drew people who were like ghosts. They were blue-green and flew through the air wiggling like fish as if swimming towards the viewer, and they were really moving. It was like he was painting a movie.

I also saw two female figures. They were both perfect, but had different dimensions. I was judging which I preferred. I then had a moment of clarity where I thought I might be dreaming, then had a false awakening.

I recently had a similar dream where I was living in a movie. This time I was watching from the outside, but the movie seemed to be very similar to real life.

I had this dream yesterday, but I have to record it. Many details are now lost.

At one point, I was watching a scene from ancient history mixed with pre-history. I was in Rome. There were people who had captured prehistoric lions. Someone ran by with a giant lion.

There were three black Tyranasaurus Rex's tied up to a horizontal post like horses in the old west. This was an extremely cool visual.

I had positioned myself to watch this movie where I could see a really nice view. I showed a DC this epic view of a mountain in the back ground under an ominously dark sky. There was a valley in front of the mountain with trees on either side.

Dream skip to where I am on a flying square. I'm on with three young lady's. The square starts tilting. I can barely hang on, and one of the ladys is making it hard for me to hold on.

I tell her to stop what she's doing and I grab on to one edge with my feet. That's better.

Then I'm on the ground with one of the ladys and I lay'd a giant sloppy kiss on her. I was happy about that.

I was in the Mensa of a unknown boarding school, someone was complaining about the knives being nearly unable to cut buns at all, I told him that I already knew knives which were completely incapable of cutting buns and that at the boarding school I was talking about (Talenta) the spoons were used to cut the buns instead of the knives (this is indeed a true story out of reality, god those friggin’ knives…). I was making myself raw sandwiches (with cheese and salami) which I would toast back in my roam where I had a sandwich toaster (again these sandwiches came unchanged right out of the reality, along with the toaster). As I returned from the Mensa (happened with a small gap, and strangely I was in Talenta) I was talking about something with one of the housemasters (which strangely was not older than me), something different came up and he went outside followed by 2 girls, I had something to do for a moment as well. After that I went out to search him in the building, and after a short moment I found him in one of the bureaus. I saw a sort of tooltip over his head, which a title (it was pretty long but I don’t remember everything, something like “…Anti-Khaak-SSSe”). With another gap I met up with my girlfriend and another girl my girlfriend knew, in a big building which was new to me, it was pretty bright and the roof was mostly made out of glass.
They were playing games in a N64 like console; it had generally bad graphics on the screen (you even had to readjust for every single game), but it was equipped with all types of controllers for all limbs and a virtual reality device. Somewhere in the middle of these games we went over to another TV in this building, which was left from us. For some reason they started to watch a Hentai (porn), and apparently I already knew (from ratings or whatever) that it was a pretty bad movie. I saw 2 girls strapped to crosses and there were 2 other girls talking about how they were bad and something devil like. For a moment the TV faded and I saw the scene like reality. One of the restricted girls said: “And you call me a devil!” to one of the free girls, which actually had blue skin, black hair and a thick strange tail. Without saying anything she got rid of that skin and the tail, which apparently was just a costume. I got pretty bored of this and since rape was about to be happening in this movie I had no intentions of continuing to watch this; we were at the console again.
At some part of the game I was in the virtual reality interface and I was seeing earth from space, I still saw a cube which had something to do with the game and there was a lot more blue surrounding earth, likely water. From there on it was 3rd person for a while and I saw a shuttle flying towards earth, and a voice explained me a lot of partially correct physics (like a documentary). I got to see a small thermal video of this shuttle, still flying down, where I saw how the heat builds up at the tip of the shuttle. At some point the within the thermal video the shuttle entered the ring of water, and the voice told me that at 5000°C a C-Liquid would be generated at the tip of the shuttle, which would stick to the shuttle and keep the heat there, I also started seeing normally again. This C-Liquid was black. And that at a higher temperature (5500°C I think) this liquid would gain fat like properties, making the liquid still stick to the shuttle. But the liquid would then be unable to stick together to a big bubble on front of the shuttle like it did before. I saw black streams of this liquid flow besides the shuttle.
After another short gap I found myself back on earth, the topic was still (space) travel. I got to saw a lot of unrefined glider and rocket prototypes. The voice explained that some of those rockets might soon take us further than anything has done before. I was still in a documentary but got my body back, I tested one of the glider prototypes. It was square shaped with a few fins and a round section in the middle, equipped with some sort of round gliding blade (whatever it really was, hard to explain). It was pretty small, maybe 50cmx50cm. However without any special power source it was able to carry me downhill without me touching the ground once and it was also pretty easy to control. It wasn’t perfect but the construction was pretty neat actually (that is if it would work in real life).

Our family now has two iPads. A black iPad first gen and a white iPad 2. I'm watching a movie in my room on a couch on the wall opposite my bed (this couch does not exist IRL) and am under a blanket. I am watching the movie on the black iPad and eating chocolate glazed donuts at the same time. Every time I pull a donut from under the covers the chocolate scrapes off on the blanket and the screen of the iPad. I'm looking out the window too, it's nighttime. My brother might be with me. I also remember seeing the white iPad on my kitchen table.

Making Movies


I am with a bunch of guys and we are making a big movie with a small budget, all I remember is mixing some fake blood up .

My partner and I were watching some movie (which must have been a Ring movie). There was a kid. Suddenly his eyes turned shrunken and dead and then Samara appeared behind him.

So i was high and i sleept .. then cus i saw a movie and it had 1 cool girl .. at the morning i woke up several times and had stress about smthing .. then sleept back and i was in the restaurant i work usually.. , so then i was working working there were too much dishes idk alot of stuff and there were like 4 waitresses 2 who cook and myself..
so i was working then i asked do i work toomorrow , they said no just satturday .. ok.. and it was just 12:00 am and .. i was like wtf everyone's leaving? i mean , restaurant closes at 2:00 at night and kitchen at 23:00 Lol.

then somehow.. i was walking down to the (warehouse) and there was a girl ... that girl i saw in the movie @The.Covenant '' the blonde'' @
then i took her and started kissing her everywhere but remember when i asked my self why is everyone leaving.. i also said and know that i am dreaming ;D..
then after kissing her we like teleported or walked fast i dont remember exactly to a bridge.. she started getting naked and i started having sex lol.. then in middle of it.. i hear from somewhere.. @HEY RastaMan@
i am like wtf?
then again .. @Hey Rastaman..@ wtf... 3 times he said that.. then idk i started losing lucidity control and woke up.. But i keept my eyes closed cus i wanted to go back to the same dream..
i entered the dream but the prob is , i was thinking about bridge.. and i was like fasttttt walking to the exact place where i was with the girl and i loosed control then and woke up ..


than i sleept back ... i had weird dream lol . i dont remember it but itt was like damm it was also funny.. there was in a Tram Station[google it if u dont know what it means] a chinese lady and chinese man they both used rock o.o , they started pissing.. like dogs.
everyone was laughing and he was saying why u laughing at .. rofl i was laughing alot too.. then i saw a old lady at the right or what it was.. i forgot and she started pissing too i think lol.. so weird.. then something happened i had like powers.. that the moon was coming down or so and i did smoething with my hands and i stopped it on a specific location.. i went near it and it was so big .. then i started moving my hand and doing things it started like being changed.. like from an planet to metal stuff or like the paris Tower..

thats all i remember have fun ;D

Lucidity: 0
Vividness: 2

I am currently at the library. Obviously it looks nothing like it should. The lights are also dimmed for some odd reason. I'm scanning through their collection on manga. I now run across a manga called "No Bra"(This manga does exist! It's really fucked up, but it's hilarious and the story line ain't half bad). I pick it up, and I begin to skim through it. Soon, a smokin' hot brunette asks me to come to her house. I don't refuse and I go. This girl is actually lesbian. She has a blonde girlfriend. The brunette says that she wants help filming a zombie movie with her girlfriend. I decide, ah what the hell? Sure! So, we submerge the house in about 2 1/2 feet of water now. We set up animatronic zombies. We begin to film. I'm holding the camera. The blonde almost instantly gets taken underwater by the zombies and gets "eaten." The brunette is scared to death by the zombies. So, she runs into her dark closet and I follow(dur, I'm cameraman). She closes the door(which should be impossible with all the water). Now she turns on a small flashlight, only to reveal that more zombies are here in the closet. The zombies now approach her as she screams in horror. But then I awake.

Non-Drean/Comments
Dream
Lucid

18.01.2011

I am with a friend and we are walking. We reach a place where there is a cliff on our left and some bars and ropes near the edge. At about a few hundred meters there is a big house floating. Actually no, it's not a house. It seems like a medieval town where there are a lot of houses close to each other and there is a big castle at the center with tall, sharp and aggressive towers etc. So something like this, really huge floating in the air. And below it the ground is so far away that i can barely see it. I think about it for a second. I become lucid without RC or anything. I run and jump off the cliff. I start falling down, but it is pretty easy to stop and float. Then i fly up to the top of the cliff. The feeling is really good, much better than the first time. My friend looks at me with an excited-shocked face. I do some flying around and invite her to come over, but she hesitates.

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I take part in a theatrical play or a movie... Some weird-dressed and -make-uped women are chasing us. As we are running i realize it's about the movie so i 'm not scared. We reach a place where the floor collapses. It's something about the movie. There is a funny amusing feeling in it. After we fall, we start running in a big ring. We stopped every few seconds, but i didn't get why we were doing this...

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I wake up in a friends car. There are two friends in the front. I am lying in the back seats. I get up. One of them says something about the place we are going. I say that we shouldn't be late, because i have a rehearsal with the theater. The driver says:
"Should we go back then?"

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I am at the reahersal. There is a friend next to me. A guy comes to us with some pills in his hands. One handful of green ones and one with red ones. I guess we had to take one.
"Which one should i take?"
"You should already know that"
"Noone informed us about pills. We didn't even know there is any agreement for us to take pills"
I took a green one. It was like weird nuts.

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I am in a weird place with many corridors and a lot of people. Looks like a supermarket. I become lucid, not sure how. I look at my hands. They seem fine. Oops. One finger is half transparent. Hey! there is an extra finger. Now they are all twisting. Hmm and now my nails are growing fast and they look awful. OK that's enough! I wander around. I am on my knees. I tried to get up but it felt really unstable, so i kept on going on my knees. A guy falls right in front of me. He stumbled on a bag and fell on the floor. I kinda laughed. Suddenly my eyelids got really heavy and i couldn't hold it.