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I had lots of short dreams, some were clearer than others. This is what I remember clearly.

I was at my local Walmart and saw Nick, a childhood friend but he didn't notice me. He was near the entrance and just looking past me, not directly at me, with a confused kind of look on his face. He also had a wild beard which was strange.

The next part I remember is standing outside a holiday home we used to stay in at a place called Moana in New Zealand. It was a sunny day and I was talking with my family, enjoying the mountains around me. The mountains were slightly different though; there were more of them and the layout was a bit different.

A dream I had just before another long one... I'm inside a mall again, or a store. It was sunny outside. I forgot when I first turned lucid but I do remember trying to summon a few people. The first person I summoned was Quynh. I've done that by yelling out her name and extending my right hand back.

The first time I tried, I was only thinking of her name. Nothing else but that. I then tried a second time but this time I would try and picture her whole face in my mind and see if that would work. I've done so and it worked a better than the last time. When I turned around, she did look something like the real one, but I still wasn't buying it. I was kind of hoping for a better feeling inside me when I saw her face, just like I did in dreams when I saw her about one year ago. The only difference I saw this time was she had a different hair style here.

I continued walking around the mall trying to get the real look of Quynh in the dream but eventually gave up and tried to summon someone else. There was someone whom I've never met before that I wanted to summon. It was a girl on Youtube, I don't know her name but she was the one posting dream journal entries on her channel. She looked beautiful when I first saw her, and still does probably but, whenever I think of someone as pretty as that, my sorrow for Quynh begins to fade away because I'm way too young to try and lose my freedom over some female who doesn't pay attention to me. But the idea of letting her ago without punishment still bothers me...

Dream - Lucid

I fell asleep, and knew I was dreaming almost immediately after entering the dream. It felt unstable and dim, as if I was only very lightly asleep. My mom and brother were there in the house as well.

I wanted to get out of the house. I tried to phase through some things to do so, like the ceiling and the door, but all were solid, and I couldn't get through no matter how hard I intended to (this is something I've done successfully many times in the past; I don't usually have this much trouble phasing through things). I decided to try to phase through a window instead. I went up to it, and slammed my body into it. I didn't phase through, but the window fell out, leaving me an opening. Woohoo! I went outside.

I was then walking down the road outside my house on a sunny day. My mom and my brother were there too, I think walking a bit in front of me. I, of course, had to fly. I got a running start, hoping this wouldn't turn out like earlier when I was trying to phase through things and having no success. I took off into the air, and was flying! I looked down and saw my mom and brother walking on the road. I was up over my neighborhood, flying over roofs and beautiful green treetops that were starting to turn with the seasons.

I was then starting to slowly lose height. I tried to think myself back up higher, but it was proving to be difficult. I finally gained a bit more height back, but it wasn't where I wanted to be; I wanted to fly as high as the highest treetops! I kept trying to think myself up there, but I couldn't get any higher than I was. Besides, I was starting to sink again.

I then briefly thought about myself being so high up, I could see the curve of the Earth; almost up in space! I thought I shouldn't be afraid of this height, because I'm dreaming, and I can't get hurt.

I then remember being outside someone's house. I decided I wanted to go in and explore. But first, I really needed to RC and make sure I wasn't awake (as if flying wasn't enough). I checked my hand, and I had 5 very short, stubby fingers, which then enlongated a bit, and I had 6. Yeah, definitely a dream.

I decided to try to phase through into the house. Of course, this wasn't working out too well. I finally got frustrated enough to where I finally phased through, and everything turned black with lots of purple flecks overlaying my vision (a common thing for me to see with my eyes closed anyway IWL). I also felt a very interesting sensation when I phased through, one I can't ever recall feeling before when phasing through things. As soon as I stepped into the door and things went black, I felt this warmth overlaying my body, like a soft, comfy, warm blanket being draped over me. I've felt that when meditating before, but never in dreams.

Spoiler for Explicit content:

I was then in a room that looked similar to my grandparents' old, old house, with this tall chair in the middle of it. I sat on the chair, and for some reason, started to grind on it? I then had an intense orgasm, and woke up.

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I was in my room, and so were Blake and my dad. My dad was sitting on my bed by my chest of drawers, and I was standing by my mirror on top of my dresser. I was changing clothes for some reason. I told my brother and dad to close their eyes. I then felt that I wasn't wearing a bra. Weird. I took my shirt off, and put on a light blue bra. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, and it almost looked like I still wasn't wearing a bra, but it was just extremely light blue. I felt kinda weird, but I trusted that they weren't looking. I then said
"Well I guess you can open your eyes now," before I put a shirt on.
Eh, whatever. They're my family, I doubt they'll look anyway.

My dad then said something, and I turned around. He had opened up my second drawer in my chest of drawers, and apparently, I had Barbie dolls in there? He was brushing the naked Barbie's blonde hair with a toy brush. I also noticed the top drawer was slightly opened. It had ashes in it from my pipe. I figured if he saw it, he wouldn't really care much, so I stopped worrying about it. He then said something inappropriate about the Barbie, about how he put it back in there.

I was then looking through one of the windows by the front door, and I saw these flyers, one with Blake's picture on it, and one with mine. It looked as if I was sitting with some friends in an auditorium, and my hair was shorter, like it was when I was younger. I got excited, because we had tried out for something, and we had made it! I called for Blake to come and look.

We then stepped outside to read the flyers as well. There were two lists posted. I saw Blake's name on the first one, and pointed it out to him. He was doing some technical work for a play or some kind of show. I then looked at the other one, and replacing the picture of me from earlier, was a picture of me naked from the shoulders down. What. The. Fuck. Who got this naked picture of me? Where? WHY?!? I was baffled, confused, and insulted. The picture then started to move, and it changed its angle to being from the bottom, showing my butt and my vag as I walked. Wow. Privacy=violated.

At any rate, I had made it into the same play or show Blake was doing the technical work for.

Dream - Lucid

I was in my house in the kitchen with someone, I want to say kind of a butch-looking girl. I went to the fridge and opened it to find some wine. I pulled out the bottle, and there was only about a glass left. I said something to the girl about there barely being any left, so I was just going to drink it from the bottle. I pulled the cork and put it to my lips.

Dream skip. Things get interesting here.

Someone, I think this girl I know in waking life named Jane, had lost her parents (not so in waking life) when she was younger. I was watching the scenario of how how she lost her mom. Apparently, she had lost her parents at different points, first her dad, then her mom.

The story was that they were at a beach when she was very young, probably about 6 or 7, and her version of the story was that her mother was killed by being swept out in powerful currents or something. I watched the beach come into view from above. I saw it was a sunny day. The beach was secluded and rocky, and lots of areas formed huge, strong currents between the rocks.

Then, it was like I was playing some weird version of Sim Earth, and I started trying to get rid of the currents by placing waves between the grey rocks where the current got strong. This just pushed the current outwards. I kept trying, and it kept doing the same thing, so I just deleted my wave placements to make it go back to normal.

Then, I was watching the young Jane and her mother, both very beautiful. Her mother seemed like a very, very kind woman. They were standing in very shallow water close to the shore by a huge rock formation at the very left side of the beach. Something happened to where Jane killed her mother, though it was not on purpose, but an accident. She was stabbed through the middle. I saw the wound, and it was bloody, but not too bloody. The present Jane then had this horrible realization that she had killed her mother, after thinking for years it had been the currents.

Then, I was getting out of my parked car on a sunny day at this Catholic church in my town. I was going to meet either Jane or Jake, I'm not quite sure anymore. I think it was Jake. I had to walk somewhere though, so I got out of the car, and started to walk away from the church. I got to the corner of the sidewalk, and to my right, I saw a little ways from me, two HUGE grey dogs. No collars, no leashes. They looked like Great Danes. As bad as I want a Great Dane (I do want one in waking life), I did not want a run-in with these dogs. I turned to my left, and again, a ways away from me were two more gigantic grey dogs.

I started back towards the church, trying to step cautiously as to not startle the dogs. Well, apparently, I wasn't taking enough care in my steps, because first two, then the other two, started to bound towards me. Not out of aggression, but they wanted to greet me. I am very small, even in waking life, compared to Great Danes, but these were even more massive and muscular than their waking life counterparts. I was walking by the parked cars in the parking lot as they started to jump on me excitedly. One bit me on the arm he was so excited, but not hard enough to make me bleed, though I did still feel the pain of the bite.
"Down! Sit! Stay" I started to say forcefully over and over.
They backed off a little, but not much. Then, right as I feel like I was getting to my car (I don't think I was going to leave, but I needed shelter), a Golden Retriever started to join in on the fun.

At some point during all this, I remember calling Jake. He asked if I wanted to meet him somewhere else or something, and I said yes.

I also remember seeing a photograph of Jake as a child, I think it was Jake anyway, in front of a building with some other children. Jake was not smiling. He looked angry and sad. He had lost his parents (it was bleeding in with the Jane story at that point).

I know I'm leaving some things out of here, especially in the part where Jane's mother is killed. But the most vivid part of the dream was the dog part, seeing them and being jumped all over by them. Odd.

Here was a lucid dream where I had fun but ran into some serious dream control trouble. Still wondering what I might have done differently here.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #9: Sunny Day "Sleep Paralysis" (August 14, 2012)

I'm walking outside of my childhood home on a bright, sunny day. I'm drinking in the scenery "lucid living" style. I get the sense that I'm dreaming and find myself lucid.

I'm calm and I rub my hands together, enjoying the beauty of the scenery. Everything looks very vivid in this dream, with none of the darkness I'd struggled with before. Just to check, I ask for "maximum lucidity" anyway, but nothing additional happens.

My hands look surprisingly normal so I study the sky for a while, enjoying the look of the clouds and the fact that I can stare into the sun without feeling any discomfort.

When I try to move, though, I suddenly realize that I'm flat on my back, completely paralyzed. It's as if the idea of my physical, paralyzed body is intruding on the dream scene.

I struggle to move for a bit, not succeeding. Finally, I attempt an in-dream out of body exit. (This would be a second dream body exiting what I know is my first dream body -- a delightfully weird idea.) I manage to peel a second set of arms out of my paralyzed arms. As my new head and torso start to exit, though, the dream scene collapses and I'm awake in bed.

This one's a real head scratcher. I'm not sure what I should have done differently here apart from trying not to get that mesmerized by the dream scenery. Perhaps I just need more practice with OBE-style exits.

An alternative idea that I had was to imagine that I'm getting dragged down into the ground. That's a bit too "Nightmare on Elm Street" for me, though, so I don't know!

02.10.2011

Flight at the beach (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I found myself in one of my meditation/healing groups. The meditation was almost over when I noticed that I have been there for a while. I wondered if I slept through all the meditation as I could not recall what happened. I was also surprised that I could not recall the healing sessions. I knew that usually people comes to me asking if I could give them a healing, but I did not recall giving any, so I started to think that something funny was going on.

I entered into an elevator. The elevator was all gray and it had a pale light. The elavator did not have buttons, but started going down on itself.

I realized that as I was dreaming, I could travel with the elevator. I really missed my dream beaches, so I focused on finding a beach as soon as the doors opened.

After a few moments, the doors opened and I could see a very bright sunny day and a swimming pool. I realized I was at the Melia Alicante hotel swimming pool. I used to go a lot to this hotel when I lived in Spain as a child.







I was surprised that I ended up in that pool and flew a little bit to make sure that the beach was there as requested. I also wanted to check if it was the hotel indeed. It was very sunny and the sky was very blue. There were a lot of people at the swimming pool. I was going to jump in the pool when the lifeguard told me to shower first.

I decided to shower, but then, to fly at high speed and feel the chills. I flew very fast over the beach, feeling my wet dream body drying under the sun. I flew for a while when I saw a big wall. It was around 200 feet tall. A dream character told me it I could jump over it without flying. I did jump over it a few times, some of my jumps were backflips and it was kind of fun.

I was about to attempt to Astral Project when my cat awoke me.

Myself and a bunch of my friends were in a field. It was a bright day and we had set up tents for the evening. One of my friends, Fred, had found out that someone had broken his glasses. He had picked them up and the arms had fallen off them.

It was a relatively hot day, and so everyone decided to wear breathable tight fitting clothing. I chose to wear my brand new thermal pajamas, and felt as though people were looking at me kind of funny because of it. When I got to roll call (in my old roll call classroom) Armstrong had shown up wearing his red morphsuit. Mr D, Tim, Armstrong and I had a discussion about how morphsuits were more suited than thermal pajamas. More people started showing up, all wearing morphsuits. We then proceeded to a lesson in the classroom. It was about maths, and decision making. We learnt a formula which was quite difficult, and then a second formula with everyone said was much harder. It was explained with a 2x2 checker board with chess pieces on it, with arrows pointing all different directions.

Date: 08-06-10
Length: 10 Minutes
Vividness: 10/10

I was in our vacation home in La Baule, France.
I was in the living room sitting on the orange couch by the window.
My sister, Marin, was sitting at the table, my girlfriend Dakota was right next to me, and my youngest sister, Manon, was on the white couch, opposite to the one I was on.

I had a lit cigarette in my mouth, and I began smoking it.
I remember preventing myself from inhaling the smoke by just blowing it out without actually sucking in.
I've never smoked before, but in the dream, it was a very casual thing, like I had done it many times before.
I kept telling myself that I wasn't addicted, and I could stop when I would want.

After a couple seconds, the cigarette went out and I realized it was because I was smoking the lit end.
I got up to get a lighter and found one on the table across from the bar.
It was a sleek, metallic one that stayed lit when you press it down.
I found Dakota's scorpion one next to it and thought I should tell her.
I walked back over to the couch and Manon said she had something to show me, but she wouldn't.

-frenchblablabla