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    1. Tiny fragment | [27.07.2020]

      by , 07-27-2020 at 08:23 PM (Draeger's Dream Journal and Documentation)
      Tiny fragment
      Something moving in a room. Maybe having to do with a dragon.
      Categories
      non-lucid , dream fragment
    2. nothing much.

      by , 07-27-2020 at 07:52 PM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      brief HH of holding keys in my hand. I just remember the keys are from work and i use them to open the compactor room door. However IRL the keys went missing.

      I did have a jamie dream but i remember nothing about it.

      Vague sense of a longer dream but it eludes me.

      I'll have to figure out a better sleep cycle. Working nights 5 days a week really sucks. It's like jail.
      Tags: jamie, keys
      Categories
      side notes , non-lucid , dream fragment
    3. Dream - Drive Or Stay Home & Kairi's Light

      by , 07-26-2020 at 07:18 AM
      Date of Dream: SUN 26 JUL - 2020



      Dream No. 697 - Separated Sections


      Dream 697 A - Drive Or Stay Home

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, my family were planning on going to a holiday to Apollo Bay. My parents were discussing arrangements at the time such as who was going to drive there. It was supposedly going to be a long drive, so I suggested that I drive a portion of the way. I said to asked my mum if I could drive down the portion of the major road that was going to be straight, but my dad wasn’t having any of it.

      After I failed to get the message through to my dad, my mum tried explaining to him. He kept insisting though that I wasn’t allowed to drive and he said it in a mean and somewhat aggressive way. Though by now, I wanted my way and since my dad kept resisting, I snapped and said that I wasn’t going to go on the holiday with them at all and that I was going to stay home. The dream ended as I walked into the house to begin my home-stay and my parents and brother were getting ready to leave.

      Dream 697 B - Kairi's Light

      The dream started with me wondering around in my old house. A middle aged Asian lady approached me and brought my attention to some sort of video that Kairi had made to supposedly teach others about her light and its powers. As she suggested for me to watch it, I went over to the sitting room and sat on the couch as the lady set up the video and darkened the room. The rest of the dream was now a sub-scene, which was the actual video, the dream camera now actually immersing me in it rather than playing from the sitting room.

      The scene showed Kairi in The Final World and both Sora and Riku were also there with her; all in their KH3 appearances. Also, as the entire scene played, Kairi’s theme was running in the background. Kairi was saying something, insinuating that she used to have different powers but that she chose her current light powers for a reason. She then went to the group. Although they were standing equally apart from each other, it’s like the dream gave the illusion of Sora being in the middle and Riku was off to the side.

      And then the dream camera went to a close up of Sora, though I can’t exactly explain what he was doing persay, I think he ended up looking at me, studying me, but I’m not sure. But then the dream panned out again and that’s when Kairi was seen to close her eyes and then peacefully ascend somewhat, with when she was at the highest, she was glowing with all this light. When she descended again, she walked back over to the dream camera again to supposedly communicate with me. She did say more but I forgot what it was that she said. The dream ended after this.



      Dream 697 A
      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No

      Dream 697 B
      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No



      This is the second time I have successfully completed a task for a 'dream project' that I have set. I thought since Riku is my current dream guide, and he's from Kingdom Hearts which is a world that seems to have laws of its own, I thought I'd do something to give back to him for helping me pass all my university subjects as well as all the other times he's helped me in-dream. I thought that since the last KH game, Sora has gone missing; so the dream project that I have set is for me to incubate dreams where I may get fictional leads on Sora. The dreams form the 'assignment' component, and then in waking life, I'm going to write an imaginary report on my dream findings which forms the 'exam' component.

      For the assignment component, I set six compulsory tasks and one optional task to carry out in dream. The tasks are as follows:
      Task 1 - Have Riku take me to Shibuya so I can gauge the area that Sora has to survive in until IRL canon rescue via whatever game they make next.
      Task 2 - Conduct a supervised audit on Yozora. 'Supervised audit' meaning that Riku has to be accessible for assistance if Yozora gets bad in the dream.
      Task 3 - Get Riku's perspective on his connection with Sora.
      Task 4 - Pull Sora for a one-time 1-on-1 meeting with me so I can get his perspective on any matters.
      Task 5 - Explore the Destiny Islands to get some leads on Sora's homeworld or something about he himself. Riku can take me or I can go independently.
      Task 6 - Conduct an independent audit on Organisation XIII. 'Independent audit' meaning I don't need a dream guide in attendence.
      Task 7 (optional) - Get Kairi's perspective on her connection with Sora.

      Once again, Task 7 was optional, meaning I wasn't attempting to incubate it in real life, but could execute it if I stumbled upon it in a dream, which is what happened last night (this morning actually; the sun was up when I woke up and fell back asleep).

      So far I have completed Task 5 (Dream 693 C) and Task 7 (Dream 697 B). I still have 5 tasks (1, 2, 3, 4 and 6) to go before I write up the paper which I have given myself the imaginary rule of two days to write 'till it's due. The two days will be set once all 7 tasks have been completed.

      Lastly, although Riku was in the scene, I have not declared him as a dream guide here, because this felt like it was Kairi's spotlight and Riku was such an insignificant part of it, so much so that he didn't even shudder or speak.
      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable , side notes
    4. cxxiii.

      by , 07-25-2020 at 06:00 PM
      21st May

      Bits from one or two dreams? Didn't make notes in the morning, was too tired.

      Dream Fragment:

      I was in a desert or barren canyon type of place. I was driving some kind of motorbike, called the "MotorBeast" or something to that effect. I remember accelerating with my right hand and making note of the extremely loud roar from the exhaust. I did some acrobatics or was in some high speed sequence?

      Next thing I remember, different place, but related in some way. There was a dream character, he was simultaneously my teacher and an avatar of Anubis. But we had to fight and so he was like a boss of some sort. I remember chasing him through this dark and ancient Egyptian temple/crypt place. There was a dark red tint to everything and even though daylight broke through the ceiling in certain parts, it was still dark, like the exposure made dark places appear brighter but bright places appear much darker.

      I remember the character taunted me from behind a half wall and pillars. I couldn't reach him but shot him with a Torgue grenade launcher set to sticky mode. I remember the feeling of holding the weapon with only my right hand and the feeling of pointing it. It felt intuitive, but in retrospect it seemed far too light for what it was. After emptying my clip, the explosives went off in sequence, causing him heavy damage. He was nearly dead (I knew through some interface display?) but he was able to run very fast through a narrow hall crowded with unknown dream characters, which were his minions. I believe they looked like mummies.

      Eventually I caught up to him, finding him in a small room around a corner, where he was using some kind of self-bandaging ability (like in WoW). I tried shooting him to interrupt it, but I think something happened right after I did that, and the dream ended.



      Notes:
      - The bit where the Anubis character ran away at high speed when on low health now reminds me that some boss in Killing Floor did something similar.
      - The Torgue weapon was notable because I'd recently been playing BL3 and I always loved the Torgue shotguns in BL2; it should have been a somewhat obvious dream-sign here since it was somewhat out of place in the rest of the dream's context.
      - Though I didn't think of this at the time of this dream, I now feel as though there is a bit of a link between the motorbike and the Torgue gun since those guns are typically modelled after big engines and the like. The dream felt more randomly put together at the time but I feel like I could unpick it better now in terms of contextual/schematic associations.
    5. Dream - Kingdom Hearts In Shibuya

      by , 07-25-2020 at 11:36 AM
      Date of Dream: SAT 25 JUL - 2020



      Dream No. 696 - Kingdom Hearts In Shibuya


      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was surfing one of the Discord servers via my computer. For this scene, I wasn’t in it, rather I felt like I was spectating the scene via a live-stream being played in the server. Through the live-stream, I saw both Riku and Sora in Shibuya, sporting their relevant Shibuya appearances from the actual game. Then Riku spoke, and he said to me that the reason they weren’t saying anything is because they both wanted to have on their records, when they return home, that they maintained peace within themselves. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



      Dream No. 696

      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No
      Categories
      non-lucid
    6. Dream - Too Late To Study

      by , 07-25-2020 at 11:34 AM
      Date of Dream: FRI 24 JUL - 2020



      Dream No. 695 - Too Late To Study


      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, we were in the front yard of my old house. My mum was asking if my parents could attend study at Chisholm 311 because they were interested and it was close to home. I said to my mum that it was too late as the last intake was for semester 2 2020 and that had already passed. I did also say however that they could contact the Glen Waverley office (doesn’t exist in real life) and check with them in-case they had a different answer.

      Later on in the dream, I saw all these people at the playground across the road from my old house. I wanted to use the swings, however all the swings at the park were taken and so I felt somewhat gutted. Still I crossed the road and new swing appeared, just for me. As I was now swinging at the park, an old man ended up having a conversation with me, but I forgot what about. He was as a hologram and was actually a man that died in real life at age 85. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



      Dream No. 695

      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No
      Categories
      non-lucid
    7. Dream - Exposing Domestic Violence

      by , 07-25-2020 at 11:33 AM
      Date of Dream: THU 23 JUL - 2020



      Dream No. 694 - Exposing Domestic Violence


      I can’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was first of all driving down the main road towards Knox shopping centre. As I was heading into the parking lot, the shopping centre being very distorted in this dream, I was anticipating my upcoming rendezvous with Riku in MYER for him to take me for elevator practise again. He hadn’t turned up yet, so while I was waiting, I decided to wonder around the store.

      I came across a little girl who spoke to me in a very friendly way. I then walked over and saw a fair skinned, dark haired man, he wasn’t doing anything, but something felt off to me; I gauged that he was hiding something. When I ended up trying to question him, that’s when he became irritable. I then realised, he was the girl’s father and he had a reputation of being abusive towards her. Indeed, when I called him out for his behaviour, he became very aggressive and somewhat violent. However, I did not let my guard down and was throwing my weight at him and telling him where to go. As I was escorting the man out of the store, telling him how disgusting his behaviour was, the dream ended; Riku didn’t show up.



      Dream No. 694

      Dream Guide: Karla (Me)
      Lucid?: No
      Categories
      non-lucid
    8. Dream - Call Security & Royal Melbourne Lies & The Destiny Islands

      by , 07-25-2020 at 11:30 AM
      Date of Dream: WED 22 JUL - 2020



      Dream No. 693 - Separated Sections


      Dream 693 A - Call Security

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I had come back from shopping for something at Dandenong Plaza. I was now at home and was somehow in my parents’ bed. I was going to get in to have a lie down with Riku (in his KH3 appearance). However, my dad got in between us and was being very annoying. There was a digital clock in the room with a weird set of numbers and every time that went off, my dad would harass me to wake up and would not let me have a moment with Riku.

      Eventually, I ended up calling out these various 5 or 6 digit numbers, making the threat to my dad that I was calling security. Every time I called out one of these numbers, he’d stop what he was doing and leave the room, but it wasn’t effective at all as he’d come back almost immediately. The dream morphed into us being in my bedroom and my dad was being annoying again. I remember this being the last ‘security’ number I called out. Also, Riku was partially distorted for this whole dream and just as Riku was finally about to ‘un-distort’, the dream forced a wake up on me.

      Dream No. 693 B - Royal Melbourne Lies

      I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was initially at the Royal Melbourne show with my mum, checking out all the various attractions. It was only a short while before one of the grounds staff members came and took her away as it were. Unbeknown to me, she was actually working at the show. I ended up speaking to Jasmine’s sister who was also working at the show but specifically with the horses. She said that if I came back at 11:00 AM, my mum would be done.

      The dream scene then shifted to me being in an actual part of the Melbourne CBD and I was wondering around until it was time for me to go back to the Royal Melbourne Show. However, I wasn’t even back yet and I realised that they were keeping my mum for longer than they had said; she was basically their workhorse now. I now had to make my way there in order to get my mum back. Not only was I cross at the officials for keeping her, but being on my own seemed to make me feel somewhat scared and insecure. I feel like I needed help and so while still in the CBD, I went to look for a dream guide.

      Just outside the train station, Riku ended up coming (in his KH3 appearance). I have entirely forgotten how he was summoned and how he came. Riku had a cool, casual, and fun temperament, but by his energy, I also knew he could tell that I was scared. The dream still had a while to go but Riku never let me out of his sight and always stuck close by for the rest of the dream, as if he was fulfilling the role of a mother.

      It then became the scene where I was due to take the train to get back to the showgrounds and only in this scene was Riku seemingly not present. Rather than an actual train, the dream seemed to make me fly low across these railway tracks myself, as if I was the train…? However, I saw all these brick walls and various obstacles within the train tunnels and this freaked me out. As I sped towards the obstacles, just as I was about to him them, I thought, ‘if I hit them I’ll die!’. The time came and I hit a brick wall with high speed but I was not affected AT ALL and rather the brick wall itself crumbled apart. I was now on the other side, continuing the show, I thought ‘how could this be?’, but then I remembered that although not visible, Riku was still with me and so he must have protected me and made me cause impact to the wall instead of the opposite way around.

      I got to the showgrounds and Riku was physically human again, now holding my hand and letting me take him wherever I wanted to go. It almost felt like I was now attending the show with the boyfriend I never had IRL. Riku was still able to ‘mother’ me and protect me while laughing at various things we ended up talking about as well as looked at the attractions I pointed him to. We came to a pavilion with all these carnival games and prizes, the most significant one I remember was the ball in the clowns’ mouth game.

      While we were there, I looked down and I seemed to have all these laminated cutouts neatly ordered in my hands. There were four of each of my dream guides; (from left to right) of Riku, 18-Volt, and Dreamy WB. Riku’s were of his default KH3 pose. 18-Volt’s hair was bizarrely ‘too black’ but his skin was ‘too pale’. Dreamy WB seemed to have her OCT 2016 school uniform appearance with the two braids. It felt as if these cutouts were a part of the carnival game prizes, like a ‘collectors edition’ as it were.

      I was then back to talking with the real Riku and making him laugh. After going to some more attractions on the fairgrounds with him having his arm around me, the dream ended.

      Dream No. 693 C - The Destiny Islands

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I seemed to be at the Kingdom Hearts Destiny Islands myself. I didn’t necessarily spend too much time there. As I wondered from the coast with clear blue water and skies, I ended up seeing all this ‘dark, blue/purple’ crystal fissure-y stuff embedded into the cliffs. I decided to walk in the direction to see what it was about and as I kept walking, the rocks were all saturated with that crystal stuff, as if it were turning into the Realm of Darkness.

      However, I saw the other-side of the cliffs and made a realisation. I noticed I had ended up in a dry, barren, somewhat polluted dessert and came to the realisation that this was the wastelands from Jak 3. I remember that I had only walked in from the Destiny Islands though, so I this was not another dimension. I thought to myself ‘the sky is connected’. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



      Dream 693 A

      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No

      Dream 693 B
      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No

      Dream 693 C
      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No
      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable
    9. Dream - The Better Way To Go

      by , 07-25-2020 at 11:26 AM
      Date of Dream: TUE 21 JUL - 2020



      Dream No. 692 - The Better Way To Go


      I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was outside a distorted version of Waverley Gardens Shopping Centre, which in the dream, wasn’t a shopping centre at all. I realised that elevator usage was compulsory as my family were holding a celebratory barbecue for my brother at this place and we had to enter from the rooftop and go down to get into the actual venue.

      Fittingly, I saw Riku (for the first time in his KH Re:Mind Shibuya appearance) casually walking down the footpath, but off into the distance. However, I knew the dream put him there for me to get. So I ran after him, trying to get his attention. As I puffed and panted, I told Riku that my family were holding a barbecue for my brother and invited him to come (weird that I mentioned nothing about the elevator). Still though, he didn’t seem to turn around and so once I caught right up to him, I reached an arm out and tugged at his hood. He seemed to jerk a bit but gave no response and kept walking off, and then he was gone, so I thought he completely ignored me.

      In the next scene though, my family were walking in the entrance of the venue and Riku also ended up being there (same appearance), so he did hear me in the previous scene. I looked up on my own at the elevator doors and began to shudder, though at the very last minute, I noticed that a well of stairs had appeared. Just as everyone was getting into the elevator, including Riku, I made a dash for the stairs. As I was going down the stairs, the dream seemed to show the rest descending in the elevator. My family were doing their own things, however Riku looked still but as if his energy was suggesting he was confused, like he knew someone was missing but couldn’t put a finger on it.

      Once we were down, I seemed to be isolated and I never saw my family or Riku again. They were supposedly at the barbecue, but I ended up at this weird convention with various people I had known throughout my physical life and online life. Our group then went into a smaller room and I was being bullied by the speaker who was a teacher from my high school. As someone was also bragging to me about their character that protects them called Michael, I looked down and realised I had a laminated 18-Volt in my hands to supposedly protect me. My attention was then brought back to the teacher who was yelling at me for not being at the front of the room, but somebody else stuck up for me. I forgot what they said though and that’s all I can remember about this dream.



      Dream No. 692
      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No
      Categories
      non-lucid
    10. July 24, 2020 Non-lucid

      by , 07-25-2020 at 06:26 AM (Deep Inside The Lucid Dreamer's Subconscious)
      I was on JMU's campus in one of the parking decks, I got into my car and it went uncontrollably backwards and off the side of the second floor deck into a parking lot. A cop pulled up and thought I was drunk driving so he tests me, I'm over by .02, I freak out and beg him to test me again, he laughs and tests me again and I pass, we both cheer, I'm trying to high five him but I'm falling backwards and to the side but I manage to high five him.

      I'm in the stadium now and there's a graduation or ceremony going on, I look behind me to see B, we make quick eye contact before turning away. My family is there too. At some point I think I'm on spongebob's 4d ride from King's Dominion but it has been massively gutted and it looks really broken down now. I'm in mario kart 64 on Mario's track at some point racing around. Then, I'm at some sort of market and it's night time, we're about to drive back home from JMU so I grab a few snacks and souvenirs from shops.
    11. cxxii.

      by , 07-25-2020 at 12:30 AM
      18th May

      Fragment:
      Last dream, in a place like Azeroth, Westfall.

      Something about Warcraft II and the Deadmines. Several passing thoughts about classic dungeons. Then a mix of STV and the dam at Dun Modr. But it had a lower tier which was ramped. There was a ship like the Juggernaut inside DM but it was more Alliance-like than Orcish. The front of it looked like an old 1800s steam boat or something. I remember having a view point from above the chimney and looking in and thinking that the model wasn't finished because it just looked like a tube with few shadows and straight cuts through into each deck of the ship.

      I then became aware of my body. I was sort of crouching but sitting on my bottom and became aware or made note of my genitals. I think H was present as a voice and we were talking. I said something about how "at normal size I'd barely be able to push my tip into the top of the chimney", which made me realise my scale in the dream a little bit. Even so, being giant didn't make question reality either as it should have. The dream ended soon after.



      Notes:
      - Although I often have passing thoughts that relate to this type of dream situation (being giant-sized and "playing" with things), it's rare for me to actually have dreams within these contexts and dreams involving some kind of sexual stimulation or play are not too common for me.
      - I used to mess around in private server versions of WoW that I'd run privately/on my own many years ago and would often change my character's scale to the maximum possible (usually 10 times or something). This dream may relate to that in some sense, and admittedly I'd sort of forgotten about that until re-typing this dream on this DJ.
      - I remember when I woke up I thought it was odd I could hear H as a voice but not be aware of H's presence physically within the dream. I remember it made me feel as though there was quite a deep level of immersion in physical terms.
    12. July 23, 2020 Semi-lucid and non-lucid

      by , 07-24-2020 at 05:58 AM (Deep Inside The Lucid Dreamer's Subconscious)
      I can't remember the dream scene but at some point I was walking and the dream looked very real and the idea came about that this was a dream, and I thought 'no that can't be true... wait is it?' and then I realized it was a dream and the dream exploded into vividness. The dream was a bit dark so I shouted "clarity now!" but the dream sort of warped, it reacted but did not necessarily light up, I was at the KC pool and a girl stepped backwards into me and was leaning on me.

      At another point I went lucid again and was in a room on the floor looking up at someone on a bed, I started rubbing my hands together to try to get the dream to stabilize. I looked up at the person and said 3x3 is 9, 4x4 is 16 and they just sort of looked at me, the dream suddenly went very blurry and crashed.

      I was in my bed on my back looking up, I was in that in between state where my body was stiff but I could move, I felt my left kidney tensing up and it was very uncomfortable, this happened a few times and then it switched to SP, I was in my bed and the room went dark, I didn't think I was going into another lucid, I suddenly thought 'Okay so this is when I astral project... astral project!" and I tried to will myself into getting out of my body but it didn't budge.

      I also had a non-lucid earlier where I was in a house, everything felt off, it felt like I was alone there. My vision turned to an interactive overview map of a beach resort, my friends' faces were icons on different parts of the map, I felt like I hadn't been invited but then my face icon popped up at a location and I thought I had now been invited. Back in the house I needed to get ready, the upstairs seemed like an unfinished attic. A rat ran up to me and I thought that I didn't want to be sleeping and have a rat near me. I went downstairs and in my mind if felt like a very intricate basement that went deep into the ground, again it felt like I was alone, I went down into the basement through a hallway into a room and I could see a rat casually hop into the room and look at me. I felt strange and decided I needed to get out of there as the place felt haunted and I felt like it was going to be a struggle to find my way back upstairs, I walked backwards in order to keep my eye on the room, I could see another smaller room attached to the room lit up by itself.
      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid
    13. First lucid in a while!!!

      by , 07-23-2020 at 02:56 PM
      ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
      7/23/2020
      Fell asleep at ~1AM.
      Woke up at 6:30AM
      Woke up at 8AM, wrote down 1 tag
      Woke up at 9:30, chilled for a while and wrote down 1 tag

      What to work on: Using SSILD and becoming lucid
      ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
      Dream 1: I was out front of our house and lou manillo came to tell me to water the grass this weekend. After speaking with him, his father came out and told me to water the grass this weekend too.

      Dream 2(partly lucid!): I was at some school and had been working out really hard. I did some sort of circuit around the school. After I wanted to go home and had to use Evans car. After starting his car I couldn't find a brake. I went slowly and just avoided things, I wasnt able to stop often. I played around by pressingthe park button to stop, I tried lifting the gas pedal and also dropping the steering wheel. The steering wheel idea worked. I was driving and was vividly taking in the scenery. I was in an urban area with lots of homes. The roads were very inconsistent, sometimes pavement, sometimes really sketchy dirt roads. I recognized some landmarks every once in a while and tried to get home. I realized that the geographical area makes no sense, its always changing. This combined with my experience of the malfunctioning car made me lucid. I wanted to get home as fast as possible and it started flooding. At this point the car was basically a floating cushion and a steering wheel. I floated up with the car until the floot brought us to the top of a tall building. I grabbed the top and the flood started to recede. I climbed on top and wanted to fly home now. I was looking around and thinking about how I could fly because I knew at that point that if I tried I wouldn't make it, I would just fall into the water. The flood started rising and falling again. Thats the last part I remember from the dream.
      Categories
      side notes , lucid , non-lucid
    14. 7/22/20

      by , 07-22-2020 at 03:32 PM
      Lucid Diving

      I am watching something that one of my friends posted on social media. It is a video of herself talking about how you should not limit yourself to just one boyfriend or girlfriend. As long as you don’t do anything to make the other ones jealous, you can have three of them or so until you get married (three at once, that is). She makes an analogy to buying a car. This speech surprises me and kind of upsets me, because I didn’t think she was that kind of a girl. I think about making some reply to her…

      …I am sitting somewhere looking at a picture of a house on the internet. I realize that this house looks just like the one that is in front of me across the street. What a coincidence! Then I think that perhaps I should do a reality check. Sure enough, it’s a dream.

      I go down to a pond (or river, perhaps). I decide that it would be interesting to go under water. The pond is kind of dirty and murky, but that doesn’t matter too much since this is a dream. I dive in. It is difficult to see, so I call out for more clarity or visibility, or something. The water lightens up and it is easier to see. I think I also do another reality check to reinforce my lucidity. I dive down to the bottom. I think it would be neat to see how far down I can go, even through the bottom, so I kind of start digging into the sediment. Then I think I have a false awakening…


      …(Not sure if this is the same dream. I feel like it was.) Instructing students in a lab. Part of the lab involves using a microscope (in my dream it’s called a laser scanner, or something). I don’t really remember how to use it, and I try to get someone to show me…

      Fragments

      …There is a mem about some political figure. I look for this online, in the context of Star Trek…

      …Something involving a scene that, earlier, I was supposed to remember and sketch for some reason (I think). There is a stop sign hanging from the ceiling, and some tough superhero-type guy there. I know at some point he is going to knock the sign down…
    15. Literature Class

      by , 07-22-2020 at 01:16 PM (Life's Recollections)
      Awake/explanation
      Normal dream
      Lucid dream

      I have a slight dream fragment from the earlier in the night where I was moving around in some kind of winter tundra station filled with cameras and automated patrols. I don't know what I was doing there but I kept destroying/hacking cameras and trying to get deeper and deeper in. I think this was influenced by a recent playthrough of BioShock.

      A more complete fragment from right when I woke up: An older (say, 60) white man enters into the office of a younger (say, 30) black man and they begin discussing some kind of manuscript for a book that the younger man has written. He offers it to the older guy, who sits down in a chair and begins to read, and quickly he tosses it onto the desk and seems disappointed. He says something like, "why are you wasting your talent writing something like this?" and I realize (as an outside observer) that the relationship between the two is that the older man was a mentor to the younger at some point, and he feels the younger man is selling out with this writing.

      They begin having a back and forth discussion, with the older man suggesting things like that the writing is using a basic structure and that it's totally derivative, and the younger man pushes back pointing out great works that use basic structures, but he also seems like he is self-conscious about it too. At some point in the discussion there's a tipping point and he simply asks the older man to leave his office. The older man stands up sadly/angrily, and walks out.

      I see him some days later wandering into a literature class at a community college. Now I'm with him, and as we enter the room there are 4 students sitting at a semi-circle table, with their professor in the middle, and they're all holding books and seem to be having quite a good time. There are three girls, one boy, and the professor is a woman. As we walk in, the older man apologizes for joining the class midway through the semester and the professor waves it off, saying that the focus in her class is more on finding your own way to connect with literature, and that you don't need to see some curriculum to pull that off.

      At this point, the boy (wearing a backwards cap and a black t-shirt, he has some stubble as well) speaks up and points out that I looked like I had my reservations (I guess I did, any class I've ever taken that wasn't a strict teacher/student relationship has usually been a nightmare) and in response he simply held up a piece of paper with a watercolor spiral on it, blackish-green. I blinked, and he said, "when I first tried this I was embarrassed, but I found out that something that helps me focus on a book and think more deeply about it is to draw or paint something simple like this with one hand while I'm reading it. I don't think it's really art, it's more like a fidget toy, but sometimes I choose colors that remind me of the story."

      The older man seems impressed by this and we exchange looks, then the blonde girl wearing a white top on the very right side of the table nervously smiles and says, "Hi, I'm... Serenity-- you can call me Serenity if you want-- my middle name is Hannah?" Everyone at the table laughs. "Nobody calls me Serenity," she finishes. The girl to her right (one space to our left, with shoulder length brunette hair, and a burgundy top) begins to speak too, but in the middle of her speaking
      I woke up, and couldn't tell you anymore for the life of me what she had started to say. She started with her name too but it's now lost to the aether.

      I thought the idea of drawing repetitive art while reading was pretty good too when I was asleep, but now that I'm awake I'm not so sure, lol, in theory it sounds nice but in practice it seems like a pain in the butt and like it would just make it way harder to focus. Maybe if it was an audio-book.

      Updated 07-22-2020 at 01:20 PM by 24709

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