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[Monday, September 17th, 2012]
(Alex stayed with me last night. We both had some lengthy discussions and came close to a fight, but we settled it rather civilly and got
somewhere. We talked about chakras, spiritualism, Budhism, techniques, and philosophy. Alex got too loopy to stay awake towards the end and
but we had a rather heated... physical debate before sleeping. Then we passed out talking about silly things like turtles and fireflies and my
computer's lights. xD The last thing I remember is focusing on my root chakra to try and feel it. I had some interesting dreams when we finally
slept, two of them. But only the last bit is coming to me right now...
The first dream involved chakras- but isn't complete enough to worry about for now.)

OH- WAIT NO- I was in a barren grassy landscape, and in a walled off area. There were me, and quite a few orphaned kids. In the center of the walled off plaza was grass and trees, but it was dry. Around the wall on the inside were buildings and rooms for us to live in. In one the bathroom area, there were showers and toilets and urinals and lockers. In the locker room, I remember a bully picking on all the weak kids, as if he were the only government here. He always picked on kids, but this time he was picking on real-life old friend, John, awkward, with red hair and heavy freckles. John was tired of being picked on, so he kicked the bully as hard as he possibly could in the go-nads. It looked like the most painful thing. I was like "HELL YEAH, serves you RIGHT!" though. That's as far as I remember from that dream.

The second dream-
Me and Alex are in a Super Arcade Warehouse. In the very center is a fantastic, extremely-sophisticated Mario-themed adventure roller-coaster
tower ride. The building's lights are dimmed for a mysterious effect, but are offset by red and blue and green neon lights for excitement. The ride
itself is a red steel spiral, all the way to the top. There are different levels where we have to complete a puzzle or a challenge to continue on to the
next. Me and Alex sit in the center and it starts to rise to the top, going around the spiral on a track. Once we rise to a certain point, a piston
pushes a red steel disc-floor to our level and machines re-arrange the challenge. The first one is a game of balance. The disc-floor will tip and turn
depending on where you stand, but it takes awhile to go 'really' off-balance. On the otherside of the floor is a (!) button. We both get out and
instantly, the floor is tilting towards us. We run to the otherside and slam the button down, only to have it tilt quickly to the far side. We jump
quickly back to the car and it automatically starts back up again. We high-five and wait to the next level. The next one is different, we have to
climb some stone spiral stairs to get to a "hall-way" like section. In the straight-section are floating blocks, hung from rope and at the end is a pole
with a round platform at the bottom. We both punch the shit out of a block, she grabs a coin and I find a mushroom. I'm curious to see how they
actually taste and pop it in my mouth. It tastes like cardboard, and I feel no different. Alex slides the coin into her pocket and we both grab the
pole and stand on the round platform. It takes off upwards and we arrive at the next level along with the auto-piloted car. But for some reason, my
completion-ism isn't as strong as usual and we decide to leave. It's getting kind of late anyways, we leap off the spiral back down to the
tilt-platform and it tilts far enough and drops us down onto a bounce-pad at the bottom. We head out and I eye the games and other attractions. I
notice that no one but a single man occupies the arcade. He's wearing a bartender/Gambler outfit. We reach the door and I wake up

Snap (LUCID)

[Finally! Woop woop! Only, I'm pretty uncertain on the chronology for some parts. You'll see.]

While at a traveling carnival, I run into my sister with a group of her friends. They're discussing what they should go do next, since recently a bunch of extra people joined their group and now there are maybe too many people for them to travel together. As a joke, I walk up and join, pretending I don't know that I'm exacerbating the problem. Suddenly, I notice that there's a younger girl in the group who keeps shouting for everyone to shut up. She must think that if everyone quiets down, then the discussion will go more smoothly. From the perspective of the wisdom of years, I realize that she's not going about this the right way. I walk up to her and encourage her to quiet down and be more mature. She stares at me as if suddenly realizing how annoying her behavior was, and then she sincerely thanks me for my intervention. To the group, I point out that we can just split into two groups and meet up again later.

Later, I ride a roller coaster. All you do to get on board is to grab a horizontal bar that's connected to the track above you. It's a very scary ride, because the only things preventing you from falling to great injury or death are your grip strength and your arm strength. As the coaster starts moving, I start to fear for my life. I try to secure my grip by looping an elbow over the bar, but it's difficult to adjust your grip safely while the ride is in motion. The coaster rounds a corner and heads down a downward slope, gathering speed. I see that at the bottom, the track turns sharply to the left. "Oh no," I moan, praying that I can withstand the G forces. Somehow I do, and shortly afterward, the ground rises beneath me and the coaster slows so that I can get off.

Of course, doing so is almost as hard as getting off of a ski lift, so in the process, I drop my notebook and pencil. I try to go back to grab them, but I almost get hit by the next car. I'm forced to dive to the side and seize another car going up the hill. Then I realize that I've switched tracks, and I'm about to go all the way around the ride again. First, I'm confused as to why they would design the ride to make this possible. Second, I'm worried that they'll be mad at me for going around the ride again without paying a second time. Third, I realize that the much more pressing concern is that now the ride has a second chance to kill me.

At some point later, I'm discussing lucid dreaming with someone, and I decide to do a reality check by plugging my nose and breathing in. To my delight, it works! Next thing I know, I'm standing in my childhood bedroom. [Maybe I had a false awakening?] I do the same RC again, and it works again. But I'm not totally convinced, so I do it one more time, making sure that I've totally plugged my nose and there's no way that air should be able to get through. It still works.

Awesome! Time to get to work. I remember that I have dream goals, but, nevertheless, the first thing that occurs to me is that I should look for a naked woman. I'm alone in my room, but maybe I can conjure one into my closet (which is currently closed). I decide that the first thing to do is to turn on the lights in there. I'll be able to see if I've succeeded by looking at the gap beneath the door. There's a faint light coming from it right now, so I snap my fingers to try and turn it on all the way. It flickers a bit, then goes out completely. Lol. Maybe I should try to work on some dream control, first.

I'm glad that this dream seems to be easy to maintain. I figure that's probably because it takes place in a very familiar location; namely, my own house.

At some point, I decide to dive through a big glass window on the second story. As I'm banging it with my arm, testing its strength, it occurs to me that this would be very dangerous in the case that I actually am awake. I do another RC, just to be safe.

At another point, I open my closet door to discover that my parents have been storing a lot of creepy presents in there. I mean, all I can see are boxes and bags, but it still creeps me out.

At another point, I decide that I might as well actually do one of my dream goals: "feel my heartbeat." I press two fingers of my right hand against the artery in the side of my neck. Surprisingly, my pulse is very strong and rather rapid. It even seems to be accelerating slightly. I guess that fits, since I feel like I'm high on adrenaline.

At another point, I'm in the downstairs hallway when my mom calls everyone to dinner. Obviously, I'd rather keep working on dream control than go sit down with them. I know my dad's probably going to try to find me and insist that I come. But I also hope that since I'm dreaming, I can just sort of will him not to pay attention to me. I see him come out of a door at the end of the hallway and start walking towards me--and I'm very relieved when he walks by without even looking in my direction.

At another point, I'm practicing dream control in living room. The idea is this: every time I snap, I want it to be followed a moment later by a sharp crack and a small flare of light located wherever it is that I've directed my attention. It's like using those little firecrackers that you're supposed to throw against the ground. Anyway, the first time I try, I fail. I'm disappointed and worried that I'll never be able to do it. But I remind myself that all of this is imaginary: it's happening in my own mind, so I should have complete control over it. I try again. It works! I repeat it a few times, and then I notice that sometimes the little flash of light can affect its nearby surroundings, a little bit. I try to do this on purpose by directing my attention at a button which is hanging loose from the side of a cushion. When I snap, the flash of light breaks the thread, and the button rolls across the floor. Neat!

While I'm practicing, I notice that our dog is behaving strangely. She jumps up on a couch, then climbs some other furniture in order to jump onto a light that hangs by a chain from the ceiling. She climbs up the chain and touches her nose to the ceiling. A dog's paws should never have been able to achieve that, but I figure that since this is a dream, she may as well be able to do anything she wants to do.

Later, I consider stopping to review what I've done so far, to solidify it in my memory for easier dream recall. But, nah. Much more fun to keep trying to do new stuff.

I decide that the next thing to try would be snapping my fingers and having a little flame appear above them. I go into the family room, where I find a convenient bunch of lit candles. I sit in the couch. My hand has become wrapped in protective oily cloth, and I light a couple of fingers by sticking them into a candle flame. I contemplate this for a bit, then blow them out. Except I don't quite succeed, and the fire flares up again. I blow harder, and this time it goes out completely. I feel silly for working that hard to accomplish something so simple. For instance, there is a friendly dog in the room who would gladly put out the fire for me if I were to stick my hand in its mouth. I guess the saliva just put me off.

A few moments later, I realize that I haven't thought about anything for a few moments, and everything's gone black. I try to shout "Clarity!" but there's nothing to clarify. I open my eyes upon my new bedroom, then do an RC to make sure I'm awake. When I check the time, I'm surprised to find I've only been asleep for a couple of hours.

Evil Statue

The ceremony to release a powerful evil spirit on the world is scheduled to begin in a few hours. It'll take place at a museum. Unfortunately, the statue of the evil spirit has long been missing from the building, so we have no idea what exactly we'll be facing. Now, usually I would procrastinate, which is to say I would start setting up to face the spirit only a couple of minutes before its scheduled release. But this time, I call together the team and try to get us started with a few hours to spare. We hide out in the parking lot under an overturned rowboat. Every so often, an evil black dog comes along to snap at us through the gaps in the side, and we have to stab it to death. Those jaws look very dangerous, and I'm not really confident in my abilities. Especially when half the team is out scouting and I have to face the dogs with only about one other person.

Scare Game

Evil creatures are loose on the world. I'm headed to the basement, but I'm worried they might be waiting for me down there. There are rules about when and where they can attack you, but I don't remember them exactly. Mom happens to be in the living room with me, so I ask her. She says yes, they're allowed to attack at this time. I also check a rules handbook, and it says there are actually no limitations on when you can be attacked. Huh. It must have been that they don't like sunlight, so you're usually safe during the day. Anyway, I decide to go to the basement. I'll just be very careful.

When I'm about two steps into the room down there, a hand comes flying around a corner to try and grab me. I intercept it with my own arm and wrestle with it for a bit until my dad gives up and comes around the corner, laughing. He'd been trying to scare me, because in this game you get points for that.

The dream is very foggy now, but it was quite long. I remember starting out in a dark room, there were lots of green, dimly glowing xbox controllers laying around, and I went down a roller coaster in a seat next to some girl who was in a cheer leading outfit. She didn't look familiar, and her face is hard to remember, it just looked like a very generic face. She had brown hair I think, and her cheer leading colors were light blue and white (Nothing like my school's). Then I remember showing up at a school party. That's not even half the dream, but I can't remember the rest.

Non-Dream Dream

I recalled 3 decent fragments and a few other one liners today.

Dream 1:

I am at an amusement park that is full of pedafiles. I am on top of a roller coaster with some asian guy and the roller coaster must have broken down because we have to climb down 1000 stories to the ground.

Dream 2:

My fiance and I acquire a lion for a pet. The lion turns on us and we are forced to set it free. We decide to do this on our street and the lion gets hit by a car.

Dream 3:

I am on vacation at some kind of country club or resort. There is a restaurant building surrounded by a large grassy area. About 100 yards from the restaurant there is a large spa with a bunch of people in it, me included. There is a man wearing a dress shirt, tie, and suit jacket fully submerged in the spa. When he gets up I can see that he has no pants on (lol) and his penis is popping out under his suit jacket. After the penis show, I head up the hill to the restaurant and meet my fiance. I am wearing a bad-ass robe. I make out with my fiance in our booth at the restaurant until the staff tells us to go to the sex room in the back. Awesome...

Moments later I find myself on the roof of the restaurant (alone). I roll off of the roof onto the grass. My mom brings me into the restaurant and I have to help our chef find some magical ingredients to save the day (or to save me, not too sure here).

Other dream snippets:

-Bowling on a Friday night
-I was back on Pam Ln again (childhood home)
-I went on a hike and there was a snake

I start off walking to a room that contains a roller coaster that's supposed to tour Europe, but I just ended up going over a map version. We don't even go on European countries for the most part, and end up going over a bunch of African and middle eastern ones. The thing goes in a circle, round trip, and I step off. When I step off, I notice that there are stepping stones and mud now, which were not there before. I want to get back to the room that contained the beginning of the roller coaster, but when I step on the stepping stones, they start to sink really fast. Someone calls the police to help us, and we go back to the roller coaster room. I walk in and see my parents having some weird experience, with something that seems like a mix of psychedelic drugs and magic, and I see my friend's mom sitting there, apparently she did that to them. She asks if I want to have the same experience and I say no. Then I see my friend, and realize that he was riding on the roller coaster with me.

I start off in a room sitting on a couch, next to a square table, and I'm talking to this really hot girl that I want to have sex with. There was something going on after that but I don't remember now. Her parents make her get a job at Barnes and Noble, and the scene cuts to that. I see her walking around with very covering clothes, unlike what she was wearing before. I think they had a black and white downwards stripe like t (Both pants and shirt.. Also I think she was wearing glasses now) I make out with her, and I don't remember what happens after that.

This Mornings Dream
((this one is Lucid))

I decided to try out the lucid dream flash timer this Morning and it worked!

I am lying on my back in bed and I have my earphones in. The beeps went off a few times which I heard but no sleep paralysis but then I suddenly felt like I was going up on a roller coaster..I keep my eyes closed and think "right then I'll imagine being on one to help things along" so my eyes are still closed and I can feel the same feeling as being on a roller coaster, I can't see anything yet but it felt so real and at the same time I could feel my body in bed. About 30 seconds passed like this and then I could see my dream and I'm on the roller coaster. My eldest daughter is downstairs and I think "if L comes up now and see's me making movement like I'm on a coaster she will laugh her socks off because I will look really silly". See when I felt myself in bed at the same time as being on the coaster it felt like I was pulling crazy faces like you do on a coaster lol. The movement now changes and I feel like I'm on a swing, you know how you can twist on one, it felt just like that. I now decide to open my eyes and see if I can see anything and I can.
I am in a tropical valley like place, the most beautiful and calm place I have ever seen or been to, I am amazed. I hold my nose and try to breathe and I can so I know I'm in my dream scene now, I say to myself "great, I done it"
To the sides of me are the greenest bushes..they go all along the side of the path, they are full of amazingly bright flowers and beautiful birds..the bushes are a lot taller than what I am. I walk forward and a bird, about the size of a Magpie which is pale blue in colour suddenly flys off the bush and lands in the palm of my right hand. The magpie stays with me for a while while I walk forward towards an open area, this area has green grassy mounds that are quite high. There are so many different Animals here, it's such an amazing sight and feeling. I touch some of the animals. I look towards the green mounds and see some small furry animals all gathered together on them, I reach up to one of them, he is quite chunky and I manage to reach his nose...I say to him "you'r a chubby one aren't you" lol I tickle him under his neck and chuckle, they are really friendly little things. I am still amazed by this place as I look around just taking in the sights.
I stand on my tip toes curious to see what's over the mounds and I see a big ocean behind them...the sky over there looks a bit grim not like where I am now. I decide not to go to the sea because it's always bad in my dreams. It's warm, calm and peacefully here..I now feel myself back in bed.
I open my eyes and hear my hubby come up, he says "you doing your dreaming stuff?" I say "yeah" and try to stay still and not move an inch. My hubby now gets into bed and his arse is in my face lol...he says "don't look at my arse will ya!" in a joking manner and I can't help but look as it's just there right in my face lmao (( this was a false awakening but it was so real that I didn't realise doh!!!))
I'm now awake for real and I think "I'd better not move too much or I'll ruin it" I now feel my head throb and hear the "swooshing" noise, my body starts to vibrate and I say to myself "yes! Ok just go with it" I feel myself swirl and twist about as I lie here but then it stops.

Dream 2

Myself and my friend EP are at a merry-go-round and we want to go on it, I'm not sure where we are but 2 men are in charge of the ride. We both pay 35p to go on ((lol)) I think to myself "that's dead cheap" EP gets onto the horse she wants and I follow and climb onto the ride and as I'm about to go over to her and sit on the horse next to her the ride suddenly starts, it's going really, really fast. I manage to grab hold of one of the bars next to me but it's going that fast that I start to loose my grip and I'm about to come flying off the bloody thing..I shout to the man "STOP THE RIDE!!" and he suddenly grabs hold of the bar and stops the ride dead with his bare hands, I think "blimey..he's strong if he can do that!" I now wake up.

I was being given a tour of Facebook's headquarters. Facebook was an 8-story tall building with items like a walk-in aquarium and robots. I kept running into people I knew (RL: people I know who actually work at Facebook), and a few I wasn't expecting. I told my tour guide I heard there was a roller coaster and asked if we could see it. We rode the coaster, which was technically impressive but didn't go very fast.

Still seemingly at Facebook, I was then helping an elderly man who was about to die. He asked me to take off my pants and pressed my knees down onto his I laughingly declined, but then someone told me this was "how it must be done." I took my pants off and kneeled on his knees. The man died, and I saw his essence being uploaded to another plane of existence, where it swirled and played with an infinitely large and beautiful data set. He had become a part of the code of life.

I followed a white man to his home in Jamaica, where he works as an aid worker. I was interested in becoming an aid worker there and asked about his experience. He gave me a tour and showed me the local population, telling me about the troubles he's had because the poverty is so severe.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in some large area like a high school gym or an assembly hall. The place was unlit, but there was natural light coming in through some windows high up on the walls. The hall was filled with folding chairs, arranged in two aisles of seats.

I was toward the back of the seats, maybe even standing a few meters behind the back row. The seats seemed to lose their order toward the back, and may just have been scattered all over the place.

Up at the front, people had been giving presentations. There were two presentations. Each presentation was given by two people. I don't remember the first presentation.

The second presentation was about the psychology of Carl Jung. The first person gave some kind of theoretical or philosophical overview of Jung's psychology. The second person then, apparently, acted as if he were Jung, though he seemed to be acting more like Sigmund Freud.

This presentation was now over. Everybody stood up(including me? - I guess I had been sitting, now) to leave. I seemed to be eager to leave. But now someone called for me. The person said that I still had to do my presentation, which was about Freud.

I realized I had been hoping to get away without having to do my presentation. But now that it turned out I'd have to do it after all, I was actually kind of looking forward to doing it.

Dream #2

I was in some gigantic, empty structure. It was like a parking garage: just an empty, dark structure with no walls. There were no lights in the structure. I was on the second floor, which was the top floor.

The structure looked out on a big, wooden ship. The day was grey and the waters the ship was in were getting rougher and rougher.

Now a lot of people were getting onto the ship. I was something like the ship's captain -- a tall, kind of big and strong man with a long, red-brown beard.

Another man told me that perhaps we shouldn't go out to sea today. The weather was looking worse and worse.

I didn't know whether to agree with the man. It seemed like all the people getting onto the ship -- a bunch of rich-looking men and women (mostly women, I think), dressed in nineteenth-century-style suits and dresses -- were still really looking forward to the trip.

But now I was flying down, from the top of the structure, toward the ship. I could see that the ship had two levels to it. Both of these levels could be seen through the sides of the ship. In fact, there was no protection at all in these levels, and that's where the passengers would be during the trip. I now even watched as a huge wave of water poured all the way through the levels.

I knew this was trouble. But I still thought I could get the passengers on the ship and take the trip. Perhaps we'd all have to stay on the top level. But then, perhaps, the waters would clear up, and we'd be fine.

Everybody was still loading onto the ship. But now I flew over the ship's deck. I now saw that the slate-grey waters were swelling up almost to the very deck of the ship. I realized now that there was no way we could go anywhere. I decided to get the passengers off the ship.

A terrible storm had come and passed. I was now in the water with the man who had been warning me against putting the ship to sea. I'm pretty sure that all the passengers had been evacuated from the ship before the storm. But the ship itself had been sunk. The man and I were in the water, looking for the ship.

It was black night, and the man and I were taking turns diving under water to look for the ship. Eventually the man seemed to come up with what looked to me like shattered fragments of the ship. I was sure this meant the ship was somewhere below us.

Now I dived under the water -- or, rather, someone dived under the water whose viewpoint I had, though "I" was still above the water. As I saw from this other person's viewpoint, "I" myself was still wondering whether I should dive under the water.

I wondered how I would be able to see under the water. The person whose viewpoint I saw now had goggles and was wearing a scuba-diving suit. He also had a flashlight attached to his head. It shone just enough for him to see a couple meters in front of him.

The man (or I?) came upon stacks and stacks of beige, plastic cubes that almost looked like small stepping-blocks. These were apparently the basic elements that had made up the ship. The pieces were cluttered all over, almost like stacks of boxes. I knew that this meant the ship was here.

I surfaced. Now that we knew where the ship was, I thought, we would simply pull it up, and everything would be fine.

But I had surfaced into a gigantic, dark room. My headlight was still shining, I think. A few other people were also in this huge room. They probably had lights shining near them as well.

I waded in the water and looked around me. Jutting up out of the water were shattered pieces of the ship. Some of the pieces looked like the ship. Other pieces simply looked like wooden boxes or the plastic stepping-blocks. Some people were wading in the water. Others were sitting on the ship fragments.

Dream #3

I walked into "my mom's house." I came in on the first floor, through some kind of back door. The entire floor was charred, like a fire had hit it. But this seemed normal to me.

I saw a book of mine on a little counter-like space at the head of a stairwell to a basement. It was a white paperback book with red-pink lettering. It may have been a horror novel. I knew that there was a computer (perfectly fine) on a charred table a "room" over. The "rooms" were hardly rooms -- the walls had been almost completely burnt away.

I walked toward the table with the computer. My plan was to get on the internet and look at some kind of entertainment thing for a while.

But I had to walk quietly. My mom was downstairs with a few other family members. I didn't want them to hear me. I had lost my job. I was coming home really early in the afternoon. I knew if I was too loud and too obviously on the internet, my mom would wonder why I was home, and why I was wasting my time on the internet.

I heard a few of my footsteps creaking across the weak floor. I knew that I wasn't going to get through the house unnoticed. So I figured I'd just go down into the basement, let my mom know I was home, and let her know I'd lost my job.

Dream #4

I may have been looking at a website like YouTube. I had chosen a music video called "Freud Limp" from a list of video.

The video first began with some kind of Pampers diapers advertisement from the 1970s. A couple of little kids were in a place like a doctor's office with their mother. The kids all ran to a bookshelf on the left side of the room and began grabbing huge boxes of Pampers diapers off the shelves.

The music video now began. It also seemed to take place in a doctor's office. The view was of the waiting room of the office. The area was kind of small, lit with natural light and pale, fluorescent light.

There was a reception window on the right wall, possibly with an adjacent counter, which was lower than waist height, running along the back area. Behind the low counter was a wall of shelves of manila file folders holding patients' records.

As the song began, the main singer, perhaps a British man, bald, pale, kind of tough looking, was carted out with a woman and maybe two babies, on something that looked like a mix between a car for a really fast roller coaster and a grocery cart full of baby supplies.

The man sat at the back. The woman sat at the front, facing the man. The babies sat in the middle, huddled in between all the bay supplies. The man's and woman's seats may themselves had looked like car seats for little babies.

I heard the song very distinctly, and I can recall the melody. There were two verses. The first verse ended with some statement about the man seeing a smile on the woman's face and knowing that, despite all the uncaring stuff she'd said in the first part of the verse, that she really did care.

The second verse went something like:

"Sometimes I want to get away,
I want to get away, I try to get away.
But when I finally get away..."

I was at some amusement park, on a really lame ride. It was like a roller coaster, but it was slow and stayed indoors on the ground. The cars kept breaking apart, too.

After that, the place turned into a lake. Apparently there was a contest in which I was competing in. I had to get through an obstacle course above the lake against some other guy. It consisted of ropes and wooden panels. On each panel was a set of songs from different categories. I had to choose the right one. The last panel had love songs, and I was surprised to see Magnet on there. I picked something else though, and that was the right one.

At the end of the course, I was the winner. The other contestants were doing other things. The girl at the end of the lake did some kind of science experiment.

I'm at a supermarket with Braden and a boy. Braden goes off to get food, we shop around for a bit. In the dream, I like the boy, and he lets me use his phone to call my parents. We looks at some pottery, and we're content. Then, all of a sudden we're mad and yelling at each other. I mean, in a split second. Then we'd be fine for a while, then same thing. We FINALLY got to the checkout aisle, and he grabs my phone and puts it on a far shelf. I ask for it back, he refuses. Okay, now I'm mad and embarrassed, because other people are in front of me in line. I demand it back, he grabs one of those black item dividers and hits me without it. I scream at him to stop, not caring if others were watching. Then I wake up

Room Under a Roller Coaster

I only remember bits of this dream. I was with a group of people. I had a room where I kept my stuff in a closet. There was some guy, older than me, whom I did not trust. I had an old video camera that belonged to my father. There were some video cassette tapes with it (the camera would have taken film, but you know dream logic), a calculator (to time when transitions should start and end), razor blades (they looked like fingernail clippers) to make transitions (by scratching between frames [on film]), and other chachkas related to video.

I had a feeling the guy in charge of the dorm/apartment place wanted to steal my stuff. I got busy trying to take the video tapes so I wouldn't lose my work even if I lost the camera.

As I opened the box to rearrange stuff and get the tapes, I saw an old Macintosh laptop for editing the video. This older laptop was advanced even for today. It was made of clear, tinted plastic. Very cool. When you opened it, there was a mini laptop built into it that you would unfold and flip up.

The dream kind of changed, but I was still in the same room. I looked out a giant picture window to see a roller coaster. Every few minutes, it would go by the window. I liked to get up to the window and wave at the people going by. Some would see me and wave back.

Now I was outside, but it was kind of the same place. I had a bunch of items with me; likely carryover from the video stuff. I was keeping them arranged and in their proper place because of the commotion from the roller coaster. At this point, I noticed a very pretty girl (25 yrs old maybe), but she was troubled.

Her daughter was missing, and had been for years. Somehow she was able to send money to the girl to help her in life. Leonardo Decaprio was telling the girl not to waste her money on the girl. There was a poster of the girl the mother thought was her daughter. The poster-girl did favor the mother.. Decaprio said the mother wasn't even sure the girl was her daughter.

Someone had asked the mother how much she needed. She held up 10 fingers to signify 10,000 dollars. She apparently gave the little girl all her money. Then the poster-girl opened her eyes really wide and they looked more like real life. That was pretty freaky.

Then, Decaprio had thick, robotic fingers. He held them up and showed his bottomless pit. He spent all his money on transforming himself into some weird creature. Then the mother was spending all her money on plastic surgery to change her look. She looked great both ways, but her new look involved too much make-up...eye make-up specifically. Then Decaprio was her boyfriend (not Decaprio anymore), and he had some addiction. He said, "I have my addiction, and you have your carbonated oxygen." Looking at the mother again, she had an oxygen mask on. She didn't take pills or smoke or anything. She had a tank of whatever she was on.

Driving a Truck

I was driving a semi. There were intermodal containers on the side of the highway making it difficult to drive without an accident. Many truckers were hitting the containers. I maneuvered away without hitting any, but my truck was skidding.

I picked up a girl who said she was trying to get her CDL. I told her I had my Class A license. I told her to get in the driver's seat because like an idiot I was driving from the passenger's seat. I got scared at how I could do such a thing.

Real life Dream Lucid Nightmare Dream sign Thoughts

It's been a while. Remembered dreams pretty often, but not enough of them to make any sense of them.

Using powers at home dream

Don't remember much of this dream. Somewhat vivid, bad recall.

Don't remember anything of what happened until I was lucid. I was at home in the kitchen. My brother was going to bed. "Come back!" I said. He walked down the stairs. I kind of knew he was just a DC, but this was more fun. "Why?" He asked.

"You're dreaming."

His eyes lit up. We both made Harry Potter-style wands in our hands and did stuff. Don't remember what.

I did not remember my dream goals.

I woke up at 7:10 ish, went back to sleep, under the strange premonition from some other dream I had that night went to bed at 3AM. (I went to bed at a normal time that night lol)

Spooky dream

This dream is one of my darkest, scariest dreams. I have had it before, I swear I recognize it, whether I remembered it or not at the time. It is always dark as night and the ghost always gets me somehow. After I woke up for a while I was scared whenever I would open a door or turn a corner the ghost would be in front of me. This dream happened

As usual in most of my dreams, the beginning is fuzzy. I'm walking around in this... Place. How do I describe it? It is always black as night. Never day. The grass has a bluish green tint. It is a post-apocalyptic world of some sort. Most of the time, I'm in first person, but occasionally I'm in third person, like a video game. I have weapons and such. No one speaks my language until I do this power that shoots out blue light. on the ground. Anyone who stood on it spoke my language. I had to do it several times. I could also touch someone and

In third person perspective, I went into town. The dream switched to first person. Briefly, I saw a "ghost" pass by inside the tavern. It was this old person with a stubby top hat like in xckd, with a square head and a neutral face. It was an ethereal bright but transparent green color. He was not looking at me. As the ghost passed, he faded into view and out. it was a little weird, but did not scare me.

Someone I had to talk to was in the tavern. The tavern was dark. He was another adventurer type. I touched him so I could speak to him and then told him I needed him on a quest. We didn't know each other's names, nor did we need to. The culture of this place was like that.

Dreamskip. Still pitch black night. Me and him are getting horsemounts. We had found a bunch of horses in the wild. Each horse has its own symbol type thing and that gives it its own special abilities. The symbol glows on the horse's back. We have to use up "loyalty" points to make the horses loyal to us. We put our hands next to the horse we wanted's head and shiny green snakelike ribbions shot out of our hands into the horse. Those green things were loyalty points. Now we could ride it. We started riding. It was crazy but fun. The horses were really fast. We rode through a dark forest. The ghost "passed" again, this time looking straight at me with a frown on his face. A surge of fear bolted down my body. "Did you see that? I asked."

"See what?" he replied. "Nevermind..." We almost got to our goal: Kings Dominion. It was overrun with bushes and trees. One of the coasters collapsed in the distance. I could see the Eiffel Tower to the right. One of the coasters was straight above us, completely on fire. It briefly lit up the ground as we kept going. We crawled into one of the coasters. The adventurer guy was ahead of me. We followed the track, over to the side. I saw the ghost again frowning at me, almost to the point of being angry, fading into and out of view as it glided along the track to my left. I was really scared at this point. It was cramped. He crawled through a little hole the track went through. I followed. Once I got into the hole, I looked ahead.

I couldn't see him.

"Where are you?" I asked. "Over here, said his voice. It sounded a little strange. I looked behind me. It was the ghost man, gliding along the tracks, straight at me, wearing a sinister, evil smile on his face. I heard my adventurer partner's voice screaming inside the ghost's evil laugh as he sped towards me.

I woke up in extreme fear. I immediately checked if I was dreaming. Negative. I usually forget to do that.

Note: I have been continuing to use my dream recall self hypnosis program. These are the next few nights of dreams. The program seems to be helping with my recall at least… now if I can just remember to be lucid!

A M3 Short of a Ship
I am in a massive hanger filled with mechanical parts and space ships in various stages of completion. There are many people wandering around in there, though it is unclear if they are actually doing anything or not. I am working on constructing a space ship, I have a blueprint pulled up on a computer terminal as if I was playing EVE Online. There is a list of required minerals for constructing the ship, and I am sure I have everything I need to begin. But when I am going over the list one last time I realize I am one unit short of tritanium. The most common mineral in EVE Online, I should have no problem getting that. I use the computer to scan for asteroids that contain tritanium, there is surely a close one. However the computer returns that there is no remaining tritanium within 20 jumps. I stand there and look at that display… wtf? But it's only one unit…

Emergency Medical Tech
I at starting a new job, and once again, I am going to be working at a hospital. This is where this dream differs from past dreams, though. In most of these dreams I am going to be stuck as a computer operator / customer service / tech support person, but now I am in the emergency room looking at an array of equipment that I have absolutely no idea how to use. Several people are there with me and they are talking me through everything, though it seems they think I already know a lot. And somehow what they are saying is making sense. Maybe I know more than I thought I knew. We are talking about getting things ready for a possible emergency coming up. It seems they know about the emergency before it has even happened. One of the nurses suggests I go home and get a bit of sleep before we get swamped later, but just be sure to get back in time to help out. I say ok and leave, thinking how much easier this could be if it was a dream and I could use my healing powers.

The Hunt Is On
I am in a hospital, I'm not sure, I think it might be the same hospital as the previous dream. There is no incoming emergency going on, however, the trouble is entirely coming from within. Someone… or something… is loose in the hospital, and it is killing. On the third floor, something went through and eviscerated all of the patients, doctors, nurses… one doctor managed to escape and he activated the fire suppression system, which apparently has the capability of sealing off the entire floor. But now no one is sure what to do about the creature that is hopefully still trapped on the third floor. Some people just want to hunt it down and kill it. A bunch of scientists want to study it. A couple of other people are concerned it might be an endangered species. Those who want to kill it say it will be endangered when they find it. It is finally decided to go into the third floor, but only kill the creature if it proves necessary to protect ourselves. They want to know more about it before making that kind of decision. Then some dogs enter the room. They have telepathic powers. The dogs seem to be the smartest individuals in the room. The dogs tell us that the thing probably isn't even in the hospital any more… it ate its fill and no doubt returned to its home dimension. The people don't seem convinced, however, and insist on completely searching the third floor.

Loop the Loop Squared
I am with Alicia and we are driving out in the middle of the desert in my car, though I don't remember where we were going. There is a wide open area of green grass that is somehow staying green even in the desert heat. I wonder how much water is getting wasted in order to maintain this place, it seems like a foolish thing to do in a desert. I look across the grassy field, wondering what it is for, then I see a single structure out there. A roller coaster. There is a roller coaster that goes way into the sky. The track drops at what is nearly a vertical angle and then goes into a series of loops… one, two, three, four… four loops in a row. The track makes a swooping turn and goes through one final loop before returning to the station. The final loop actually passes through the middle of the first loop. I think it looks like fun, and I want to check it out. Alicia comes with me and it turns out they are running the ride right now. Alicia and I get on and ride, when the train drops, it feels like I have left my stomach behind. It is an exciting ride, a couple times it feels like the train has left the tracks and is just flying… but the ride ends safely. That was great! I want to do it again! Alicia looks a bit green, not too excited to ride again…

You Are Loved
I am in a strange place with MoSh and a woman I do not recognize, but MoSh indicates the woman is Sam. She has long dark hair and looks oriental, a pretty face, but she looks so sad… When she forces a smile I can see that the smile does not reach her eyes. I use a healing spell on her, the song "Don't Give Up" by Josh Groban. "Don't give up, it's just the weight of the worlds, when your heart's heavy I will lift it for you…" I notice she seems to be staring off into space, looking at something perhaps only she can see, or maybe at nothing at all. "Don't give up, because you want to be heard, if silence keeps you I will break it for you." She tells me to not bother, there is nothing to be done for her, she and MoSh get into an argument about whether or not there is anything she can do to improve her situation. I keep up with the song. "Everyone wants to be understood, well I can hear you, everyone wants to be loved, don't give up, you are loved." Sam turns towards me and yells that she is not loved, there will be no love for her. She and MoSh end up arguing more, I continue with the song. "Don't give up, if you're lost inside I will come to find you…" More arguing… is the song having any effect at all? "Don't give up, if darkness blinds you I will shine to guide you… don't give up, you are loved." It is pretty clear MoSh is getting very sick and tired of arguing about this when it doesn't seem to be getting anywhere. He disappears, he wakes up. Sam stands there looking at the place where he was, then she drops to her knees right there and cries, then disappears. I wonder if my healing song did anything at all, no way for me to know.

Nightmare Mountain
I am in an amusement park that is similar to Disney Land but not exactly, I can tell right away that it isn't Disney Land. For one thing there seems to be real magic being used by the people in the park. Disney Land may be called the magic kingdom, but there is no real magic there… here there is real magic. That is awesome. I am with some other people there. MoSh is one of those people, he looks like he is still a bit upset from some previous incident. I have the idea I should remember what has upset him, but I don't. I briefly wonder if it is something I did… Asuka is there with him, she is snuggled up next to him, she seems to be trying to comfort him. I try to not pay any attention to that, it is reminding me that I am on my own. I quickly get distracted from negative thoughts by the rides and excitement going on around us. I see a sign for a roller coaster called Nightmare Mountain. I look at the sign a bit closer, there is the usual message of not going on it if you are pregnant or have a heart condition, blah, blah, blah. The next line says to make sure and keep all wands put away, it said there are some startling moments and they don't want random spells flying around because some idiot got scared. We all get onto the roller coaster. It is a very exciting ride. A lot of tall hills, twists, turns, through tunnels, dark caves, along narrow ledges. The interior of the mountain is like a volcano, lava flowing down below. Near the end of the ride there are three loops, one right after the other. We all get out of the roller coaster and move away, I want to go on it again, but MoSh and Asuka are heading to get snacks. I follow them to the snack bar where they purchase ice cream and I get a couple of hotdogs. There goes my diet! But the hotdogs are delicious! I eat the both of them while thinking about what other rides to try.

Dream - Lucid

I was outside at night, looking for my coworker, Nate. I was on some sort of drug. I found him sitting on a park bench. I sat down next to him and talked to him for awhile, talking about a dream I had that night.

Then, he asked me something about the drug I was on. I told him it was some kind of fake weed. Then, we started making out. It was really intense and really good. I remember him pulling away once, and me involuntarily gnashing and grinding my teeth. I smiled and we started making out again.

Then, I remember being in his room, and laying on his bed. He had taken all his clothes off except for his underwear. He looked nothing like he does in waking life. He was all muscular and tan and was wearing a blue thong. I instantly found him unattractive. He started talking to me about his figure or something.

I then was sitting on a bench outside talking to some girl who was supposedly his sister. Her name was Emilee. She was very blonde. They had another sister as well, who was also blonde. Anyway, I was talking to her, and she started talking about sex. Then, her mom approached us. She sat on the bench and started asking why I was there and what we were doing since it was so late. Emilee started to make up some weird story about my boyfriend since high school breaking up with me, and something about elephants. Her mom thought it was bullshit and asked Emilee to leave. She left, and her mom started talking to me, asking me what really happened. I didn't think I could make up a believable story in that short amount of time, so I just winged it. I told her that Emilee was right, I had just broken up with my boyfriend since high school and I needed a friend. I also told her I had no idea what she was talking about with the elephants. Her mom seemed to believe me.

~

I was entering Disney World before they opened. The sun was just starting to come up. I walked by this roller coaster that they were testing out before they opened. It had weird cars, they were all bugs. I remember specifically some being smiling, yellow caterpillars. I remembered I had ridden that coaster before.

There was nowhere to walk by the roller coaster except for super close to and between the tracks. I'm not sure how I ended up there, but I tried to avoid the carts as they were run through the track over and over. The sun was up now as well. As the carts were continually run through, the coaster started falling apart. Pieces started to fly off. I had to dodge a few. I even saw a whole section of cart fly out into a field somewhere. I started to think that they should probably close that ride.

Then, I remembered I was meeting my family there. I saw a huge line by the entrance to the park closest to the messed up coaster. I don't remember where I met my family, but we found each other. My dad started talking about how we were under a tornado warning. I looked into the sunny sky, and in the distance, I saw a huge wall of dark clouds coming towards us.

We all went to look for shelter. We came across this tent that had lots of wicker furniture under it. My parents wanted to stay there, but I lifted a piece of it up, and it was super light. There was no way we could hang on to anything there. I told them we should go to the arcade instead. We left and entered an arcade. Perfect, we'd be safe here. My brother started to play ski ball while we were there. I decided to play as well. For some reason, I was having trouble throwing the ball up into the goals. The thing was built weird, to where I had to roll the ball on the edge of the machine for it to get it into any goals. After the ball getting rolled back to me a few times, I finally started to get the hang of it. I felt like I was doing pretty well. Our games ended, and the machines started to feed out our tickets. My brother had scored higher than me, and got a few more tickets. I remember my score being 21.6 or something like that. I took my tickets and started trying to fold them up, but was having problems. My dad asked me something about the tickets.

The next thing I knew, we were in the car, driving through Disney World. My dad was driving. He said
"Doesn't that look like a funnel cloud?"
I looked to the right. Sure enough, a huge, billowing funnel had formed out of the wall of clouds. What was eerie about it, was that everything else was light and sunny, save for that area. My brother said something, I don't remember what, but as we drove, the funnel started making its way towards us. It was a full-blown tornado now, and a huge one at that. My dad said, frantically,
"Why is it coming this way?!"
I told him to drive. It made its way behind us...right behind us. But it kept going to the left instead of following us. It was tearing the park apart. I could see a ride with people in it caught in the middle of the tornado. We were safe, though. We were out of its path.

Then, I remember being outside under some structure. We were all sitting down on the ground. We were talking. I asked my mom where my phone was. She said she didn't know. I started thinking about where I had been, and figured out I may have left it at Nate's (going back to my previous dream). I got super pissed at my mom about it though, blaming her and asking her why she didn't pick it up or remember it. My brother pulled a bulky phone out of my mom's pocket, and said something about how she had taken that instead. I was yelling and screaming at her about it, saying I hated her and such. I had a glass in my hand, and I threw it to the ground. It just bounced. Fuck that. I picked it back up and threw it to the ground again. It smashed everywhere. My mom started yelling at me.

Then, I figured out where we were. We were by that crazy messed up roller coaster. They were running it again, testing it out. We were alright where we were; we wouldn't get hit by the carts in the area we were in, but we were still very close to the tracks. They were randomly firing off the carts. I looked to my left, and my brother was standing on the track. He was going to try to jump out of the way right before the cart hit him.
"Move, B, move! Get off of there!", I said.
He stood there. I saw the chain start to move under the track.
"Move! Now! MOVE!", I yelled at him.
The cart started coming towards him. It was the smiling yellow caterpillar cart. He tried to jump, but he didn't move in time. The cart hit him and he was thrown off to the side. He looked up at his legs. As he did so, I did the same. They were bloody and gored. I ran to him, screaming
"Hospital. Now. Call the hospital! Now!"
He started to cry. I knelt down beside him and held him, crying, telling him it would be ok. He hugged me as I tried to comfort him.

I woke up with a grimace on my face. I was still very sad. It took me awhile to fall asleep again.

~

I remember something about entering a Shoney's (ew), and seeing some really tall fat lady who was supposed to be their mascot. She approached me and handed me some fried thing. She was talking to me in character. I started to eat it. It wasn't too bad, a little chewy, but not awful. The end of it was sweet, almost like it was an M&M. I tried to ask the lady what it was, but she was talking to someone she worked with, she seemed upset about something.

~

I was with my friend Mike at a restaurant. We were drinking. I had an almost empty glass of wine and a full cup of beer. I sipped the beer. It was really good. Mike told me it was Sweetwater Blue. I loved it. I knew I needed to finish my wine. Mike suggested that I just down it.