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Our guests woke me up again, I spent about an hour trying to fall asleep, my mind was way too awake, and when I finally fell asleep I got into some WILD/OBE thing where I couldn’t move much.

Total sleep time: 6 hrs

HI dreamlet1: Some woman, her face was colored black with something like tar. She lives in the woods, in a hole under the trees. A scary story begins about the holes in the woods.

HI dreamlet2: I am an unknown street most likely in my home town, have different hairstyle

Dream3 WILD/OBE: I am in my hometown again, in front of me are my guests. I am looking at my hands, some blue pink ghost like double layer is also visible. My hands quickly stretch out, a familiar feeling, they stretch into infinity, space bends and the whole of me is quickly sucked forward. I also feel my dream body detaching. A short moment of darkness follows and then I find myself on our old balcony. It is dark, there is some light perhaps from the moon. I immediately notice my position and feel my dream body. Instead of my feet being on the floor of the balcony, my midsection is where the floor is and my feet are below it. Don’t feel the floor, I notice that my position and state is somewhat similar to when I sometimes meditate – I am physically sitting, but feel the rest of my body is standing. I decide not to pay too much attention to that because I have to stabilize. I run my fingers over the surface of the balcony, very realistic. Everything is rather clear, but I can’t move my legs. I try to but I can’t.

I decide that perhaps I should give my dream body some more time to adapt to the dream. I start rubbing my hands, now my elbows barely move! I decide to wait a bit, but black out for a second, then I am back to the dream still no improvement. I force my limbs to move, and I can feel a great force on them preventing them from moving. I try touching the wall again with my fingertips, but it doesn’t help. I look to my side, towards the end of the balcony and see many plants there, it looks like a small jungle, it is dark and there is a dark hole between the plants. Now, it is definitely not the time to expect something scary to come out of there, I tell myself. I try to be indifferent about it. I then notice that a song is playing “give me my love, give me my love”, a nice song, but then it gets stuck, the same part plays over and over again. I wake up.

Comments and Analysis: I was worried after waking up that I have finally managed to mess myself up and instead of having normal LDs, the more time I spend in the void, the more aware I become of my falling asleep and will begin to get stuck more in the middle. I really hope not! Now, I feel relaxed about the situation, but am sure I will be getting more experiences where I would need to remain calm.

The stretching hands and being pulled forward (not just the two bodies separating) experience plus ghost like layer is something I have seen before and I kind of relate to OBE types of experiences (if these can be differentiated from WILD). I can only say it is a different feeling altogether.

Such continuous dream paralysis is not something completely new, but the only memories I have of it are when I was a very young. I don’t remember getting stuck in the middle of a floor ever.

Some explantion why this happened: I am thinking that the longer time spent in WBTB, the more my mind is aware of my physical body. If I WBTB for 5 min, then I would transition to the dream much faster. An alternative explanation is that I am being increasingly aware of the void and this somehow affects me.

Future strategy: I really have to write a few key words on a piece of paper so that I don’t forget. 1. Patience and detachment. I didn’t panic today, but the situation could have been different. 2. Rubbing hands 3. Try zooming into something else or 4. Try floating up?

#1 - Dreamed about houses. Creepy houses that bothered me for some reason. The house we were in had a pool in the back that looked like a grave, and was full of black water. For some reason, the woman I was living with in the dream drove her ancient beater car into the pool to sink it.

#2 - Dreamed about a girl who looked like Bella from Twilight (I hate Twilight). She was out in the wilderness with a group of other people, they were riding horses. Somebody attacked them, possibly stole some of their horses. An enormously fat gross guy, who had been a member of their group before and smelled awful, showed up on horseback and stole the remaining horse. He was pissed off at the girl because earlier he'd been walking with the group with his shirt off, but his back was really gross and had boils all over it, and she had yelled at him to put some damn clothes on. Anyway, she did locate another horse that had run off into the brush, but didn't have a saddle, so she had to improvise and ride without a saddle.

Then - same character, different setting - she and some other people are trying to get bikes out of a... grotto thing. It's a cave with a vertical shaft and a ramp and there are bikes hidden in there. Getting them up and out is tricky since the bottom of the cave has been flooded and they don't have any ropes or pulleys to work with.

The only thing I remember about this morning's dreams was something about recordings, mom and dad, and a town or something/a game??

Yesterday's dreams...

Dream 1:

- I was talking/arguing to dad about religion, specifically about how Paganism was infused in everything.
- Dad and someone else were going to ride on an oven pan (lol wat), but I needed it and was hoping they'd be done with it soon. I wondered how they'd fit on it, but I got an image in my head showing that they could fit a foot side by side.
- I was walking in the woods when I stumble across a group of bears huddled together. I freeze and drop down into a pile of leaves and stuff, but they've already noticed me. I remember that I should keep totally still.
- I'm cuddling up with the bears and they're talking to me, totally harmless.

Dream 2: I'm floating from sandbar to sandbar on a beach and collecting lost items from old campers. I'm a bit scared and sad as I think about what might have happened to the people who lost them. What the water's depths might be hiding. [I still remember that feeling, looking down into the deep water.]

When I reach the end, I step over and into a house with the stuff. The cats are sleeping in a cat bed or something down the hall and I get really worried about them getting outside and lost, so I make sure the door is really secure.

(I've lost some of the details since I didn't type this up sooner or try and remember them better.)

I had this dream a while ago, I wrote down and for some reason I kept thinking about it. I just randomly thought of it now, and feel like posting it.

Ok, So it starts off on a somewhat cloudy muggy day, with a weird purplish hue to the sky, Me, my two brothers, my sister, and my dad were driving a jeep grand cherokee down a long dirt drive way, with a farm house and a silo on the left side and an open field and and eventually woods on the right side. The driveway went down about 200 yards before it started turning right towards the woods. Once at the entrance of the woods, we got out of the car. We all started walking into the trail in the woods. My oldest brother somehow had his dirt bike at this point, just putting along side of us. A little bit into the woods a man about average height with long black hair in a ponytail kinda of looked a bit evil, came riding up on a dirt bike, and jumped off of it letting it fall on the ground next to us. He then said, "you need to get out of here." and then ran back the way he came leaving his dirt bike. My brother left his own drit bike in the woods and took the random guys bike. We then decided to go back to the car, as we came out of the woods where the car was parked, we realized the sky had a very odd darkish stormy look. So we walked up a bit so we could see the farm house and the open field. I then saw an extremely large tornado coming towards the farm house. I said, "Holy shit, there's a huge tornado!!" My brother than says, "No, what are you talking about Ryan?" I kept insisting there was a tornado, because there was, and he kept trying to tell me there wasn't. My oldest brother, my sister, and dad weren't even saying anything. I watched the tornado destroy the farm house, and it was coming our way. I ran back to the jeep while everyone else walked. I woke up before they got to the car.

Non lucid:
I'm doing an online survey about movies and TV shows. There are some questions about ARGs.

Non lucid:
Okay, this is a sorta weird, creepy one about a movie (the blair witch project). You guys ever dream that you are IN a movie you've just seen? As in, being a character (for example: you are a random Jedi in Star Wars) in the movie. Well, I kinda had that about this movie last night, I'm sure everyone here has seen it before, as it's quite famous. Okay, well the dream kind of followed the main plot, especially the part where they are first realizing that they are lost. Except in my dream we (me+main characters) climbed up a tree to see where we were (I really kept thinking they should do that while watching the movie, actually).

Lucid:
Walking around some weird office, I know I am dreaming. I remember I read about the task of the month, and decide to do it. First, I decide to sing a song, so I sing Jingle Bells, it's the only one I can think of. Then I decide to make it snow, as that was the other basic task, I look out of the window and imagine the sun disappearing and snow falling down. And of course it happens. I get excited, I want to do one of the advanced tasks but I lose lucidity too fast.

I was hiking in the woods when I came across a monster. It wasn't a scary monster. It was a butt monster and it's goal was to have the best butt in the world.

I'm home and my sister is expertly growing plants. She's growing them from seed, propogating them, and doing things with plants that I've never done, and I'm a plant guy. When she's telling me this, I'm laying on the floor and I'm so tired that I want to go to sleep. I tell her I had just been watching tv and that is why I'm tired. It's mid afternoon but I felt like I had just woken up. I had been watching a talk show and I feel like Frank Ocean was on it.

There is a scene somewhere in here with some young overweight black girls. One of the girls ordered underwear on the internet and was just about to open the package. Suddenly, the other girl had the underwear in her hands and she was walking away with them, proud of herself for having such a great pair of underwear. It is revealed that there will be a nice butt competition and these underwear will help her. Suddenly, they are stolen yet again by a strange, un-talking, black guy. He's creepy looking and has on black and white stripes like a prisoner of old. The girl is frustrated but she doesn't try to get them back because she thinks it would be impossible.

Later I am back by the same woods. I'm in a clearing in a house on a porch and the forest line is in the short distance. Some girls want to go into the woods where apparently, the best butt competition is to occur. They are stopped somehow by a women who is using some kind of force. I see my mother's cousin walk out of the woods. This is a women who is in her 60s but who is obsessed with her looks. She looks more scary than beautiful though with overdone make-up, push up bras, tight pants, and butt padding. She's at the edge of the woods and she's bending over doing some gardening work I think. She stays bent for a while. I suddenly realize that she is the butt monster . I tell my sister. Her motivation is to scare other people away from the woods so that she will win the prize of best butt.

The house i'm in turns out to be the home of my grandparents. My mom asks me if I'm going to some event that they are all going to. I say no, because I don't want to have to kiss everybody who she is going with, including, that cousin of hers who I know is the butt monster. Not that she's scary, even though she is a monster. It's because she's so strange looking. I see everyone arrive. It's my grandmother, her sister, her husband's brothers' sister, my two aunts, the butt monster and bringing up the rear, my grandfather. All women except for one guy. I'm surprised to see my grandfather because in real life he's in the hospital and is in bad shape. He looks healthy in the dream which excites me.

At this point I have, what I believe was a false awakening. I feel I'm awake and I want to write in my dream journal. I start writing it, more or less as I have above, though different. I get hung up on some details like the acreage of the woods or what sound volume to have your laptop on. Soon, the laptop closes and there is darkness and I feel like I'm losing recollection. Then I really wake up.

This Mornings OBE and Lucid

I am lying in bed and nod off for a few seconds. I wake up now and keep my eyes closed and don't move. I can feel the vibrations and hear the cracking and crunching noise. I think to myself "ok, I'll try and sit up now" but I wasn't ready yet so I relax again, after a few seconds I know I'm ready. I now begin to sit up and my Astral body sits up. I open my eyes, but realise that my real eyes have opened so I quickly shut them again.
I now feel my Astral body separate fully, so again I open my astral eyes and this time I have astral sight. I look at my bedroom window and just fly out of it hands first. I'm now flying over the green outside my house. I also remember flying around the woods opposite and flying around the streets behind me, it's fantastic and so exilerating!
My sight now goes a bit blurry around the edges ((I've never experienced this before)) I call out "clarity now!" My voice echoes a little. I rub my hands together and my scenery stabilises.
I love being fully conscious and in flight, I feel so free. I fly for ages and end up at a beautiful place where the fields are luscious green, and the flowers are beautiful and enhanced. I now see my 2 Daughters "L" and "S", they are flying and I call over to them, they see me and wave. I shout over to them "girls you're dreaming, this is just a dream!" "L" isn't too sure but "S" comes over to me and has a fly with me. I now wake up in real life and "L" and "S" are still in bed fast asleep

7/2

In this dream I was riding a BMX bike through trails in the woods with my buddy Trey. We have started to do this in real life so it explains why it would be in my dreams. Trey is more of a daredevil than I am because he flies through the woods and I feel like I am going to die the entire time, but it's still a rush. Anyway this dream took that fear and made it real. Going through the woods I hit a stump and crack my mouth on the handlebars of the bike. One fell out and the other one became loose and fell out later on.

When we finished our ride we went to the beach. For some reason my brother had a whole crazy computer station set up on the beach and he was rushing to move it before the tide came in and ruined it all.

This dream is from a while ago... I was with my parents and they said that we had to go visit someone. So we left the house, but next thing I know I'm in a big log cabin in the woods and it's night time. My parents are talking to someone. It's pretty dark inside the cabin too. At this point, I realize I'm in the dream and I go lucid. Since I'm lucid, I decide to practice hovering/light flying inside. (The log cabin itself was big, like LONG) So I was jumping like a 20 ft distance. and was like 8 ft off the ground. Almost like there was no gravity. Then my mom or dad asked "What are you doing?" and I said "Trying to fly.", and then they all laughed... Meanwhile I was floating in the air when they asked. That's all I remember from this dream.

Surely enough, I would say that this dream is very video game related, most likely my dream sign, though I cannot fully verify this yet.

The dream began in a somewhat eerie tone, though in a seemingly happy event. I was with my mom, my brother and my mom's ex-husband. I don't remember much of what happened, but we went to a club or restaurant of sorts. Other than that, I remember us having a good time, doing whatever it is that we did, though as the dream progressed, it became night, and with a quick and sudden transition, I was now an infant in a basket, an infant that could suddenly walk out of said basket as well. It would seem that gang members or smugglers were out to get me, scarily.

The woods were of a somewhat blue-night variety, and there was a stone bridge where the basket was on. Under it was a waterfall, one that streamed downwards rapidly, and I was one to be able to move down that waterfall with ease.

In mere seconds, I was now grown into an adolescent, though a girl who at times seemed to switch back to a boy, rinse, repeat. There was a... well, stoner looking guy with me, one who warned me about a large creature who was out to get me. The sun was either rising or setting at this point, but I was in a green pasture with a cliff at the end that underlooked a large peninsula next to us. Between that cliff, suddenly arose a large, blue and strange female, medusa-like creature, who screeched and spat fireballs at me. Her health bar was at the top, and it would seem that every bit of the bar that went down would show a small image of the creature without a torso piece on, breasts fully exposed. All in all, she had a weakness that I don't remember, and I was getting frustrated because I was loosing so much, though I was unable to beat her before my dream ended.

2/10/2012
There are some little kids using a slide at a playground. The unpopular ones get teased.

I finally see a doctor. He says I have lung cancer advanced 10 months. That's just lovely.

I'm at my grandparents' house (they're different people than my real grandparents, but I won't realize that until I wake up). I have a boyfriend. I'm pretty sure it's a guy, anyway, because the grandparents want us staying in separate rooms (I often don't remember the gender of DC's). My boyfriend finds out that I am a virgin and insists I must have sex because it is amazing. I'm not too sure about this, but I go along for now. We cannot, of course, risk being caught by the grandparents. We are going to head to a place where we can experiment without being caught. I'm not at all sure about this intercourse thing because of the risks (pregnancy, etc.). I guess we could just, er, play around?

We're outside, walking toward the other building. It is up a steep, curving dirt slope. Like spiral staircase curving. There are a lot of trees around, mostly pines. We walk for some time. There may have been other people at some point. I'm really quite uncomfortable with what we're going to do. The other building had only a few rooms, and I don't think the lock on the bedroom door works. I've been telling my boyfriend for a while now that I want to turn back. I'm afraid of being caught. I am hurt, somehow, emotionally or physically. I don't quite remember. I don't think it was intentional. We turn back. There is some sort of ride or fall.

I woke up an hour earlier than usual, so I decide to try to sleep some more after writing down my dreams so far. I have a vague idea that I could try a WILD if I am actually tired enough to fall back asleep, but I don't really make much effort.

Two guys are coming out of the woods. There is a lot of snow. They're stuck above some railing, at the edge of a relatively short dropoff above a road. One asks for help getting down. Someone below helps him down, but too far. He does a faceplant on the road below and is run over before he can get up. The second guy is terrified and does not want 'help'.

I'm in a strange bathroom. It's small and awkward and dirty. I give up trying to use it. I vaguely remember something about my mom, like she was in the same building.

I am a magic-using shape-shifter named Simon (usually I just look human so as not to scare people though). We're fighting against some bad, evil stuff, including some black dragons. I have an older-mentor friend who is a shape-shifter like me. Everyone else (except maybe that one kid) is human though. Later, the humans trap and bind me, preventing me from using my special powers. I am miserable and resentful, being kept prisoner. And I think that mentor-guy may have betrayed me somehow.

I took notes about my dreams, so I'm not worried about writing down the whole thing right away, as I'm lying in bed after waking. Then I look over at my journal, and it's blank. I really need to learn to RC every time I write in my journal...

I am with a young boy, he is about 7 or 8 years old. I am also with 2 women, 1 woman is about 53 or so and the other woman is about 28 or so. The elder woman is the mother of the young boy and the younger woman. We are all looking around a big house and something happens ((I can't remember what)) and the 28 year old woman dies. ((dream skip)).
We are now sitting on a wooden bench and suddenly the 28 year olds ghost is sitting next to her mom and we can all see her, she winks as if to say "see, they can't get rid of me!" we are all really happy she is back, even if she is a ghost!! ((dream skip)).
Me, the older woman and the young boy are now in a big field and the grass is a lot taller than what we are. We make a noise just playing about with each other and then we hear someone in the distance make the same noise back to us, they are playing with us and keep copying us and we are all laughing about it. We are now driving down a steep hill in the woods on something, I am lying down at the front and I say to the woman behind me "what are we on" she says "a car" I'm a little puzzled now because I can't see a car around us but I feel like I'm on one. I have my blanket wrapped around me, I must have been a bit lucid here because I am questioning things but not enough to realise.
We now hear a noise again, it's a voice in the woods, the same voice that we heard earlier. The older woman copies it and again we hear it back, I say "shhhh!, it's a mans voice" she says "no it's a woman's" then we hear it again and I say "that was a woman's voice then". The person copies us a few times and we laugh, all of a sudden things change, we can now hear the man arguing with a woman, he's going mad and then we hear a gunshot, we are all shocked and shaken up hearing this knowing that a murder has just taken place!!! We now hear a young child crying then suddenly another gunshot and it all goes quiet.
We all jump off the car which I still can't see , myself and the young boy run to one side of the road and his mother runs to the side opposite us. The police come running down the road to us and I quickly grab the boy out of the road away from danger and hold him tightly, the policeman says "look at them just standing in the road" he's really angry and shoo's us away to the side of the road more. The boys mother is very shaken up so we go over to her and we all walk to the top of the very steep road together. We can see the big white house on our right where the murders have taken place and we all feel sick to our stomachs, I'm thinking "my god, we just heard them get killed in there in real life" we get to the top of the steep road and the boys mother walks off infront of us and goes into the woods. I now think "ha, I know what happens now" myself and the boy follow to where she went. We get to the entrance of the woods and she has disappeared just as I knew she would. I think to myself "yep....she's gone into the woods to die!, I knew it I've had this dream before!" I now look to the floor to see if there is a hedgehog there like there was when I last had this dream and there he is, a hedgehog the size of a dog! just like I expected, I now know for definite that it's the same dream. I look at the young boy and say "she's gone to die in peace", we now feel a gust of wind blow on us, it's her spirit letting us know she has now died but is still around us. The young boy smiles at me, he doesn't seem upset. I see a small bench and go over to it, there is a book on the bench for the boy from his mom, I knew there would be but this time there was also a letter. I open the letter and it's written in a child's writing, it said something like "from Bridget with lots of love, this is especially for you" there was more but I can't remember it all. Me and the boy sat down. The book was from the olden days, the cover is pale and the picture was an olden day drawing of a boy and a wheel barrow. I opened up the book and read to the boy, then wake up.

1.1.2012

Recruitment (DILD)

★★★★☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

What a mess. . .

Overturned shipping crates and semi-trailers lay strewn about my dishevelled court. Patches of barely-living, pale-green grass permeate the dead, yellow lawns. Every house sits in disrepair, some are even missing, replaced by strange, red statues and rocks.

A large, armored eighteen-wheeler pulls into the court. It stops, suddenly. Waiting.

Somehow, I understand I need to clear a path for this thing. Sighing at the inconvenience, I use TK to lift the first shipping crate out of the way without difficulty. The truck moves forward, and I use another bit of TK to remove the remaining trailer from the road.

Interesting that I can do that so easily, I catch myself thinking, Oh, right. Must be dreaming.

With my newfound lucidity, I finally take notice of all the red in this scene, and, to my left, there’s a statue that catches my interest. It’s that little imp fellow from a previous dream, and the statue is located exactly where that school used to be. Disgusted with myself more than anything else, I pull from an FPS archetype, toss some C4 onto it, and hit the detonator, leaving only a smoldering stump of a neck where the statue’s head used to be.

Slightly pleased with myself, my mood sours as I’m approached by a weaselly man in a nice grey suit. He starts pestering me with questions and hurried pleasantries; his nasally voice and unplaceable drawl grate at my nerve. I try to walk away, but he follows me as I move towards the old back-woods.

”Tell me,” he insists, struggling to get each word across, “Have you ever experienced. . . recruitment?”

The word choice makes me roll my eyes, as I respond with an indignant question: ”You tell me.”

Of course, he ignores my inquiry, going on to talk about what a great opportunity this is for me, and other nonsense I try to tune out; I’m not at all interested in playing along. . .

Damned sheep.

Note: I later learned the two sheep I had heard “baa”-ing behind my house all day long were, in fact, go-karts or something.

I am in a car with kirsty and the girls, its daytime and to my left is pavement then a field. I am driving and everybody gets out the car, they tell me to meet them at theirs, they wanna walk from here cause there is too much traffic. I say thats ok but i know this car is kirsty's car and not my own so i have to be careful.

I get annoyed that i havent moved in a while and decide to 3-point turn and leave, i crash into an oncoming car as im beginning to turn, stick it in reverse and hit another car, im scared now so i speed off and park the car outside kirstys house. I go in for a bit to chill with them and act like nothing has happened.

at some point i decide to nose plug RC I can breathe. "im dreaming" i say. i do some stabilisation techniques and leave the house. I walk out into a wooded area and its dark, i try to yell out, wanting to call for my dream guide but i couldnt make any sound at all. I rub my hands together for a while and chant "this is a dream, this is a dream, this is a dream..." I try again to call out. "i need to speak to my dream guide. Are you there!?" i wait for a few seconds, then hear an answer, it sounds like its coming from inside my head and remember thinking that is weird. "yes" i hear.
" Can you please meet me? I'd very much like to talk to you" a figure appears before me, it has silver skin, he introduces himself but i forget the name.

We walk and talk, he tells me lots of things but i forget most of the conversation. He tells me i was a dog in a past life, he also says he needs to show me something. He takes me to a friend, i recognise it as an old school friend called Becky. We are hovering above her bed, she is laying there crying. She looks so thin and upset. He tells me that i should talk to her, try to help her as she is going through a really hard time at the moment. i tell him that i will.

I ask him about the page i reserved for him in my DJ, if its ok for me to fill that in with his information, he tells me no and i get the impression that, at least for now, i should leave it empty.

I wake up. Later that day i send a message to my old school mate becky, i haven't talked to her in maybe a year and a half, so i look at her FB and her statuses tell me she is depressed atm, i message her saying "might sound crazy, i had a dream bout you last night and it seemed you were having a hard time, is everything ok? etc" she replied straight away telling me how weird that is because she is currently battling a eating disorder and her bf is in rehab and she cannot contact him for 1 year.

This freaked me out, maybe it was a coincidence and maybe i just already knew deep down that something was wrong.

A house in the woods, the house is tall, made of wood, it´s like a church, the house is painted white and has a dark look.