non-lucid

I'm laying on an air mattress on the floor and waiting for the other people to walk out of the room. I just want to be left alone. A leader, about 25 years old, comes to me and ask me how I'm doing. I tell him I'm okay but I hear that my voice is trembling and I feel that my face is getting red because of tears. I look down on the ground. He says that he don't think that I am okay. When he says that I feel how my head is getting warmer. It is getting very warm. He takes me outside and I only feel worse. I puke on the porch and he seems upset. It comes in two waves, first a small one, and then a big one. The puke is slimey and won't leave my mouth easily. I have to spit the last out.

Notes: I had a bad presentation yesterday.

I'm with dad and my brother on a restaurant/store. We buy some things and sit down by a table. Dad and my brother eat some kinds of pastries with chocolate. I want to be nice to the cashier and want to buy him something he can eat. I ask dad if it is okay and he says it's okay. I buy him a chocolate pastry but regret my decision, the strawberry pastry with whipped cream looked better.

Notes: It was the same strawberry pastry dad and I ate by risk 2:an.

24th April 2021

Fragment:

In a train station hub or maybe it's a subway. It's a vast place, made mostly out of concrete as far as I can remember. Either way, it's busy. I remember daylight shining through in places and I am walking in a tunnel of sorts with someone, maybe JoCo.

Fragment:

I'm in the kitchen, looking in the cupboard with the tinned and packaged food, I think? I notice some tortellini packs are missing most of the tortellini and they look vacuum packed. Some have like three or four bits of pasta at most and that's it. I feel annoyed that I somehow missed this detail at the shop and feel it'll be annoying to have to return these. I think to myself something like "they clearly aren't fit for having a full meal like this".

Note:

- Later the same day I think, I was talking to H about the second fragment and it was pointed out to me that the tortellini is always vacuum packed. I had not consciously realised this until that point.

Jamie

Jamie seemed upset about something. that's all I can recall. Miss the longer dreams about her...


Death

A long dream but I only remember sectioned. An old co worker named K and I were in a town that looked like chilliwack. He was coercing me to help him kill people. We had to cut people up into tiny piece so we would stash them in baggies and them bury them in a park. I didn't enjoy this. I was terrified of doing this and wanted to get away from him. Later I was by chilliwack mountain and saw a youtuber moe sargi who i never watch anymore. I kept asking him about his videos and he told me they are all fake... I already knew that.


Some other dream i recall about Saad doing drywall like my dad. He seemed pissed at me.

I'm almost by Hemmakväll and walk with Albin. He invites me to train with him in a big hall, they have group training soon. There is a fee of 200 kr but it is free the first time. I join him and see Emma and greet her. When we go inside the big hall we aren't doing anything, just waiting and talking.

I'm outside with Therese, Klaus and my sister. Therese wants to start a fire since there is a big pile of wood there. My sister says it is a bad idéa and that we may start a fire in the forest. Klaus starts the fire and it burns really fast. Someone brings water and controls the fire. Klaus brings a metallic sheet and puts under the fire so that we get a grill. The fire is under control and there is no risk that it should turn in to a forest fire now. Most of the wood have turned into coal now. There are some crab meat in plastic on the floor. We are about to grill them but Klaus says that one of them is going old in some weeks. He asks my sister if she can take it home and fix it.

Strange star
I am viewing stars in a sort of program, but it's somehow also real, as if I am flying through space myself. There is a sort of feeling that is somewhat scary, and also a bit exciting. I come past stars that look like normal stars, glowing in their usual red, blue and yellow. But then I come across a massive structure. It reminds me of the death star, but as I look closely, the structure is much different. It seems artistic, with abstract geometry.

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There was something that happened before that, but I don't quite remember.

I'm in a bathroom and open the toilet lid. I see a really, really big poop in there. I at least think it is until I notice that it isn't. It is just some kind of cement. I try to remove it but it is stuck.

I'm with some friends I have never seen before. There is a prominent girl that is about 15 years old who is very annoying. We enter a shop and she tries to find bubble gums and I look for them. I find some kind of bubble gum but she tells me they are wrong. The ones she wanted is next to the ones I found. I have a dumle in my pocket but it is already opened. We walk to the counter and there are two big lines. A rude man walks in front of us and yells at us that it is going way to slow. We pay for our stuff but I don't pay for the dumle since I don't have any money. I make a plan in my head what I will do if anyone finds the dumle in my pocket. I think about corona safety because everyone in the line is right next to each other. The dumle melts in my pocket and I feel stupid. We walk out and I feel out of place. I walk in front of the other persons and feel that I should not be here.

Notes: My friend told me he ate a lot of bubble gum at a time yesterday.

I wake up in my bed and hear the alarm but it is very quiet. I turn it off and return to bed.

Date of Dream: TUE 13 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 762 - Distortion Medicine

The dream started off with me at some huge dreaming institution, where there were a large number of people; groups being split up into boys and girls, also with the gender of the teachers. Three of the boys were of a violent tendency and had ganged up to target me in a staged attack. This scene seemed to be brief.

In the next scene, five of the girls from the institution came to my house, and I was keen for them to meet Riku, showing them that he’s my dream guide. I asked Riku to come, in which an extra small room then appeared where my TV was situated. Though the dream was threatening to wake me up, as it counted to 3; and so I had no choice but to tell Riku to wait in the room until I took my medicine.

I ended up taking the medicine, but that made Riku distort. He and Mickey came out of the room and sat on my couch. Riku sat next to me with an arm around me, while Mickey sat further down. The five girls also appeared to fit on the couch, with some of them being on Riku’s lap. Then dream then changed scenes again.

SP was going to be heading to some shops, but I couldn’t follow her, as the elevators were the only way to get there. Before I would lose SP, I ended up calling out for Riku to come and for him to be quick. I ended up losing SP, but Riku came out of one of the elevators, this time, in his correct KH3 appearance, and was ready to take me in the appropriate one.

As Riku gently took me in and turned me around, he then stood beside me, but pretty close so that our bodies were touching (my eyes closed in the dream the whole time). After a while, I asked Riku why the elevator wasn’t stopping; it seemed to be going up AND like it was on rollercoaster rails (but slow) for a while. Riku said to me “I’m taking you down the scenic route so you can have more practise”. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 762
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 9 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 761 - Take Us Back To Church

The dream started with my family and I at the nearby Croatian church, with mass taking place, but in a weird way that I cannot describe. My brother and I ended leaving for some reason and ended up at JO’s house. Earlier on, I remember my grandma (dad’s side) saying that should would come to take us back to church, but she never did. She only hung around and didn’t really do much. My brother said something to her like “you should stop pandering to the girl”, but she didn’t listen.

I ended up asking Dreamy WB to take us back, in which she turned up as well as 18-Volt (in his realistic Game & Wario appearance). After a little while of talking on the trampoline in JO’s backyard, the dream guides took us to the front. Apparently Dreamy WB was going to go with me on one bus, and 18-Volt was going to go with my brother on a separate bus. As the buses took off, the dream had ended.



Dream No. 761
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & 18-Volt
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: THU 8 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 760 - Separated Sections

Dream 760 A - Riku's Tiny Car
I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was in my house, more aware than usual, and I recalled how I wanted to call Riku over. I didn’t seem to shout too loud, as to call into the sky like usual. Rather, I was just calling his name at a normal volume as I walked out the front door and casually strolled down the court.

As I turned the corner to get onto the connecting street, I saw a small car driving in from the other corner and I realised it was Riku. I couldn’t contain my excitement (after not seeing him in a while) as I stood as far on the nature strip towards the road as I could, eager for Riku to see me. At first, it seemed like Riku couldn’t find a place to park, but then I realised he was assessing the nature strip, and he turned around, parking in-front of me even though it was the wrong side of the road.

As Riku slowly got out of his low-positioned, tiny car, I couldn’t stand still anymore, waiting for him to come and speak to me. When he was close enough, I said “Riku! I miss you!”. For a short while he didn’t say anything; however, once he seemingly processed my words, he walked right up to me and hugged me, letting off a vibe as if he missed me too. He then went back to his car and drove off, not sure if he was leaving or was going to my house.

The dream went to the next scene in which I seemed to be demonstrating my own battle skills to Riku, with some Renee Geyer music playing in the background, which was supposedly my action theme. Aqua seemed to take an interest, coming into the scene; I gave her a sole demonstration of my abilities next, and she was fascinated by them. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 760 B - Ridiculous Maths
I can’t remember much about this dream, from where I can remember. My Year 6 teacher was at my old house, taking me for some sort of maths class. However, the maths was of a ridiculous difficulty and with the way he was teaching it, I could not remember anything. I seem to recall it was parabolas but the dream just made the whole concept non-understandable. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream 760 A
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Dream 760 B
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: WED 7 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 759 - Can You Help Me With My Dreams

I can’t remember much about this dream. From where I can remember, the dream started off at the local primary school near my house, but I can’t recall what I was doing there. Closer to the end of the dream, there was a sub-scene where I was supposedly at Riku’s house. He was walking me through the kitchen as he asked me if I could help him with something about his dreams. The dream then ended.



Dream No. 759
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: TUE 6 OCT - 2020

All Dream Titles:
Dream 758 A - Profile Picture Insect
Dream 758 B - An Arm Wrestling Win
Dream 758 C - Schnitzels With No Gravy
Dream 758 D - Monetary Distractions
Dream 758 E - Talk About The Dole
Dream 758 F - Reflective Mass
Dream 758 G - Look After Her

Dream Title In Summary:
Dream - Profile Picture Insect & An Arm Wrestling Win & Schnitzels With No Gravy & Monetary Distractions & Talk About The Dole & Reflective Mass & Look After Her



Dream No. 758 - Separated Sections

Dream 758 A - Profile Picture Insect
I can’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, there were this weird sorts of insects flying around on a group of buses. With the bus I was on, there were only one of these strange insects. Strangely, I thought that the insect would make a good profile picture for my social media accounts. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 758 B - An Arm Wrestling Win
This dream took place at the rooftop car park of Waverley Gardens Shopping Centre. I was arm-wrestling with someone when I beat them for an upset win. Riku, in his KH2 Organisation coat and blindfold, was seen laughing joyfully at my victory. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 758 C - Schnitzels With No Gravy
The only thing I can remember about this dream is that I had a dinner plate of schnitzels on the table, but the gravy wasn’t ready yet and so I decided to wait.

Dream 758 D - Monetary Distractions
The dream started with me being en-route to see my deceased grandfather, however, there was then a knock on the door to my room, by my dad. I opened the door and saw my brother standing there, offering me a five dollar note. I ended up taking the note, but the I was forced awake! I did not know that the five dollar note was indeed a temptation that I had to resist if I wanted to achieve my dream task.

Dream 758 E - Talk About The Dole
My dad and I were talking about the dole being offered in Australian. The decision was made to put $150 into my bank account, rather than just $100, as this would give a higher interest rate on the return. My dad then also mentioned that the dole would allow us to live in a place of our own, and so I could live independently. He suggested Mansfield to me, but I rejected it because of the current coronavirus conditions, as well as Australia’s fire season approaching. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 758 F - Reflective Mass
I was singing ‘Make Me A Channel of Your Peace’ at my local parish for church reflection. There was a big crowd at the mass, and through energy only, I could perceive Riku in the church. I did however, visually notice one of my mum’s friends sitting at the back of the church. The dream then ended.

Dream 758 G - Look After Her
There was mention that some sort of stream would be going live at a certain time. In the meantime though, there was a sub-scene on Twitter, where there was a video of Terra, ‘posing a challenge’ to Riku (in his KH1 clothes). Terra said for Riku to ‘look after her’, in which he reluctantly agreed and went ‘oh alright’. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream Guides
A - none, B - Riku, C - none, D - none, E - none, F - Riku, G - Terra&Riku

Date of Dream: SUN 4 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 757 - Separated Sections

Dream 757 A - No To Jobs
This dream started with my in my house, in the middle of the night. My dad seemed to ‘threatening’ me with a job application plight, in which I said no to, but then my parents ended up getting angry with me. I fought with my mum as she tried to take the paper Rikus and Sora from me that I was holding. I succeed as I managed to hold onto them, but mentally, I was still at war with my parents.

I went out into the backyard and ended up singing ‘My Heart Is Broken’ by Evanescence. Going back closer to the house, I realise I’ve been holding a paper Sora this whole time, and his energy radiates to comfort me. This is all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 757 B - The Battle of Wills
This dream took place on the Destiny Islands, with a battle of wills between me and ‘Dr. Xehanort (basically just the old Xehanort)’. Dr. Xehanort would win if I was without Riku, but it would be the reciprocal with what I want. Riku ended up appearing in his KH2 Organisation coat, but didn’t do much. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream 757 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 757 B
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SAT 3 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 756 - Separated Sections

Dream 756 A - Twenty Floor Office Building
The dream started with me inside an office building in the centre of Dandenong. Even though the building had 20 floors, all floors were easily accessible by stairs. My supervisor, who was an older lady, came up to me and said that I wasn’t allowed to interact with anyone else in the building, and that I would have to report my activities to her. She said that she would be located on the 4th floor.

Later on in the dream, I seemed to be in a different area of the office building; still on the ground floor (G). There were a whole bunch of people there, mostly girls that were from my high school in real life, them in the dream being fellow employees. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 756 B - Energised Paper
There wasn’t much that happened in this dream. I seemed to be walking through the bushy area beside the creek of the Tirhatuan Park train, when I had a KH2 paper version of Riku in my hands. As his energy seemed to be emanating from the paper, I pressed him up against me. I can’t remember anything about this dream.



Dream 756 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 756 B
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 2 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 755 - Separated Sections

Dream 755 A - Unethical Dreamer Behaviour
I can’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, Riku (in his KH2 appearance) came to help me with the bathroom fan, but as the dream was threatening a wake up on me, I chose to eliminate him! I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 755 B - Army of Evil Luigis
The dream started off in the dining room of my house, with my brother seemingly being upset about something, in a distressed and distraught way. As I walked off to my mum’s bathroom, I called a dream guide on my phone to see if they could help my brother, and I got Murray (Sly Cooper). I spoke to him for a while but I can’t remember what was said exactly.

The dream then went back to the dining room, where Murray was back in the scene with me. There were all these holograms of evil Luigis present that Murray was helping me fight off. However, there were too many of these holograms for just the two of us to handle. It was then that various guardians of light from Kingdom Hearts, including Sora, came to help me. I said to everybody that we needed to put in a team effort to take out these Luigis. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream 755 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 755 B
Dream Guide: Murray
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: THU 1 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 754 - Separated Sections

Dream 754 A - Schnitzel Burger
I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, this dream was once again full of coronavirus regulations, but I have forgotten the ridiculous specifications of the rules this time. I was at some unknown large shopping centre when I was looking for a place that sold good schnitzel burgers. It was the second shop where I liked the look of the food and working at the counter was someone I knew from primary school. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 754 B - The Land of Departure
There wasn’t much in this dream. From where I can remember, Aqua and Ventus were seen in the throne room of The Land of Departure. Shortly after, Riku came in and he briefly hugged me. That was it.

Dream 754 C - Changing Voices
The dream took place in my sitting room. David Gallagher, who is the voice of Riku IRL, was speaking to me. He asked if I would be willing to take his place in voicing Riku after he had done so for 46 years. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 754 D - Watching Her Sleep
This was also a short dream. I was lying sideways on my bed, looking at Riku (KH3) as he softly smiled at me. The dream then ended.



Dream 754 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 754 B
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Dream 754 C
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 754 D
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No