non-lucid

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

I'm in Belarus, I meet a family of 4 American tourists who are downgrading Europe. I step in and tell them about an average life of an European, to try to convince them they are wrong. I am not convincing the father, so then I turn to the daughter who seems a bit more open to it. Then some lunatic appears out of nowhere with a knife and stabs the man several times. No one else wants to come close and stop the killer. I pick up different things to use as a weapon and I approach him. I hit him in the head with something heavy and knock him down. Meanwhile I spot a big tornado in the horizon. I look around for places to take cover and see an entrance to an underground market. Unfortunately it is not very safe place, because it is basically an open patio excavated on the ground. Still, it is safer than the surface, so I drag the Americans down there with me. We try to find places to shelter and hang on to. I see a storage room that is made of concrete with a metal door and I slam it open and get inside.

meta:
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bedtime ~23:30
video before bed
ate two muffins while watching
waking 02:20?
waking 04-05:00?
BTS not hard
snoozing 07:00-08:00
spend fair amount of time reviewing dreams during the night
out of bed: 08:15
feel a bit groggy in the morning like not completely well rested

dreams:
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earlier

+ I'm putting on a pair of white summer-style white pants. I'm not wearing underwear. I put them on and they stretch around my legs, and since the weave is not very tight, the tan color of my leg skin shows through. My wife mentions this and says that these are completely inappropriate. I am not convinced and want to first put on underwear before deciding.

+ In (mexican?) restaurant, I put on mariachi robes

+(f) close-up view of son S1's face/mouth while eating two candies at once, I tell him slow down eat one at a time

+ in room with my young kids with bins of candy like in candy store, I think this is too much candy

later:

+ [fairly vivid, moderately present] on boat turning counter-clockwise, sitting on edge legs over side, two othes to my right concerned falling pulled under chopped up or left floating alone in ocean. boat's going forwards over ocean, pass over sunken crashed boat/plane shallow, see (dead) pilots in cockpit, ~3 of them clearly. imagine govt sends team to recover black box, a panel of enemy govt officials are laughing because the material of the plane is too hard to open and there's no info left anyway

+ [fairly vivid, moderately present] arrive to parking lot in car, get out, and roof is gone, oh, it's convertible, but I need to close it now, inspect remote, people walk past, find a joystick on remote and press the joystick and it closes the roof, press lock and the car locks, walking to store, get shopping cart? inside store entry way long corridor turn towards food section. in food section very long large section fairly dark, there are many empty bins, I'm amazed how empty the produce section is. The produce I want is not here. I find a pack of thai chilis, I'm pretty sure. There is a clerk unloading produce and tells me I should wait for the <???> because they're being unloaded fresh right now and will be out shortly. I ignore her because I do not want to wait. The produce looks really sad, a lot of it is visibly moldy (fuzzy mold growing all around it). there is very little attractive in the produce section. turn to go, and pass a display with blueberries packaged in flexible plastic "squeeze" containers, orange colored package, I put two into my cart.

Some close ups of girls <ahem>s area, blurry can't tell if they're still dressed or not

At some point I'm trying to find my way back (?) to the produce section to get more blueberry packages but can't find the way?

+ young girl's birthday party, there is a single prize balloon, two girls are trying to get it and only one succeeds. view of young girl's drawing book, with flip-page animations, very colorful

+(f) scene with a driving instructor in a car driving down the street

+ restaurant counter scene, chinese restaurant, middle aged white man is standing up to leave, he didn't have to wait he says and was in and out very quickly, it was not busy. the cook is standing behind the counter, I approach the counter and sit down

Been pretty busy lately and too tired as a result, but still been able to make note of some loose fragments.

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17th September 2020

Scraps:

In a town or city. Doing some climbing with my old school friend C, in some old part of a town.

Something about a "debug" viewmode of a landscape set used as a backdrop like in Freelancer (I think I meant like a skysphere).

Something about a physically encoded (computer) memory that could be transmitted by light. A prize?

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19th September 2020

Fragment:

From a fairly long dream. In this part, the dream plot was about WW2. I was in Nazi Germany and I was coming out of a building just when I and someone I'm with suddenly receive word that America has declared war on Germany.

The two German soldiers (with their contextual Nazi outfits) standing guard by the doors just outside the building overheard this as we were coming down some steps and commenting or something. They turned their heads ever so slightly toward us, seeming surprised about the news but not moving an inch from their post. They turned their heads straight forward again as we continued walking and then we walked past them, into an open street, I think.

Then at some point, I and other dream characters thought it was "high time" that we returned to our original time, in the "future". We had to get back to some sort of time machine pod.

I remember being in the room with the pod and it could only take one person at a time. This place was hidden somewhere in town? It was a concrete room and was very well lit, with large white fluorescent tube lights.

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20th September 2020

Fragment:

Something about plain old items being an example of how a new storage unit thing could store multiple types of items. Recall faded quickly for some reason. Some lingering feeling of being related to games I've played recently (BL, Fact).

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

I have a broken window and my cat Yéti escapes to outside. I go get him. A storm is coming and my mom screams when a thunder bangs at distance. I go back inside. Besides my actual cats, we have dozens more weird cats in the house. One is purple. Two black ones look like alien pigs. Also there is a nasty dog growling at mom. I growl back at him and he goes away. I put everybody and the cats on a bus and we go on a trip. A yellow cat gets out of the bus at some stop we make and doesn't want to come back inside. Seems to adopt a service station we stopped at. He finds other cats there he connects to. I accept him wanting to stay there. When I am ready to go away, I find a strange vase in the bus, with a message and a flower bouquet. I open the paper to read the message and the bouquet starts beeping and smoking. I tell everyone to run as it seems to be a bomb. It kind of explodes, but not a deadly blast, instead, it releases a swarm of tiny drones that first form a heart shape, but then start hunting us down. Most of them are locked on me. Others disperse and shoot at everyone else. I run into a building nearby, seems like a mall. The door is made of glass and does not lock on the inside. I managed to take cover inside and close it behind me, but someone else comes in and the drones take advantage of it and come inside too. I ask a Japanese girl where is the bathroom and she points me to a cabin on a corridor to the left. It's one of those Japanese public restrooms with glass walls that get opaque when we lock them from the inside. But it has some malfunction and the wall confining to the next toilet does not get opaque. A Japanese man comes in to the next stall and also realizes it. We try several things, then he says he is there just to nap anyway and clicks some button that pops out a small bed from a cabinet. I say I also just want to hide for a while, so I pull down the bed too and plan on staying there for some time. But the door keeps unlocking and opening, so at some point, I decide to get out and keep moving. I spot some drones looking for me, one comes face to face with me, identifies me and calls for backup. I open another door, it's a pediatrics clinic and a lady there finds weird that I have no baby with me, but I push my way in. I can watch through a window that outside one drone catches some dude that was not even part of my group and injects something on him. Then a kind of larvae comes out of his eye and soon his entire head is ripped apart by growing tentacles that attach to the wall with suckers, leaving his body hanging in there while being engulfed by the alien being. I decide again to face the drones outside and gather all my Jedi skills to avoid all their hits and knock them all down. I even rip them apart with my bare hands. Then I call for my friends and tell them to come out from their hiding places, because I've disarmed the swarm. They come and we gather around dozens of destroyed drones on the floor.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm in a car and Simon is also there. We argue very hard and there are many angry emotions involved.


Notes: My brother is annoying me when he is talking about all these games that I don't actually care about. He insists on telling me things that I don't want to hear.

Bacon..?
I don't remember the dream, but some sort of glimpse of memory was triggered by eating bacon. So maybe it was about bacon?

I was in a school gym that looked like the gym from Centre Acres back in MA that I think was also a gang hideout and I quickly got spooked and left. I walked outside and met a talking badger who was REALLY cute and fluffy and we talked about something I can't remember for a while before I got a call. A screen appeared in front of me and began transcribing the call in real time - there were two police officers on the other end, asking me what I knew about the gang and its members. I didn't know anything, and eventually the officers began bickering amongst themselves in another language; I briefly heard my brother's voice translating it for me, but it was displaying in English on the screen. A video appeared and it looked like a desert military base or a plateau or something getting overrun with what looked like ants - just a huge sweeping black mass. I hung up.

The badger began to talk again, expressing fear about his living conditions and loneliness that nobody ever came around to talk to him. I petted his fur and leaned down and gave him a hug and a chaste kiss on the forehead, and awoke shortly after. I recall him saying something very creepy, though he sounded like he was about to cry - "You're about to journey down a path worse than hell. This place is broken."

[16.09.2020]

Doing something that scares me
I do something that scares me, maybe with a tube shaped object. But then I do it again for some reason, maybe it achieves something, maybe even adrenaline.



[17.09.2020]

Some dream I forgot
There's simply something blurry, maybe with tones of yellow?

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School actively prevents me from documenting my dreams when I wake up since I can only do that on a laptop. Annoying.

Dreamt of desperately trying to clean up the house before my mother came home. I believe I was dimly distraught and panicking as her room alone was a complete mess, clothes covering the whole floor and the mattress physically stripped and flipped over with all the sheets and stuff half-on. I was also trying to submit a character for a roleplaying Discord while cleaning, and recall being frustrated. The dream ended when I found a prayer card with an image of a dog with a heart between its hindlegs where its genitalia would be on it.
I vaguely remember an OC of mine, Carne, being involved - I think he sent me a text or called? I hope not because he's a total sleazebag

The scene was generally taking place at jmu or atlee, there was a theater play about to go on in the near future. My vision was flying through the jungle looking at a hill. It shifted and I was now walking inside the building, a guy from my high school was talking to another girl, there was a parade of 1 by 1 people from the theater walking around the building and an audience on the sides. I kept thinking liz would be a major part in the play and would be in the parade, I was expecting her. At some point she was there but I was acting like I was paying attention to something else.

The dream was also generally at jmu, going to food locations, going to class, going back to the complex or cramped dorm system.

I remember a bright blue face, gigantic and taking up my whole field of vision. It looked like it was made of sapphire and it glittered intensely. It looked perfectly androgynous and didn't speak or do anything besides look at me with its huge beryl eyes.

I just remember a singular text-box GUI like from a video game. It was bright red and black and read "BLOATED" right in my face.

Two separate snippets of memory.
In one, I was playing some kind of VR, heavily-modded version of Minecraft. I was wielding a diamond sword and a torch, and I recall a feeling of danger, as though I was playing on Hardcore or something.
In another, I just remember a group of teachers in a gym yelling at me, most memorably a huge, muscular guy in red shorts and a sheer white tee-shirt.

15th September 2020

Fragment:

Think I have no body, I'm following or the view is following a man going around a natural park or lake. He has an AA20 shotgun and he keeps firing it randomly, but mostly at the ground. I feel concerned about stray shots hitting someone. It seems there's nobody else around though.

By the end there's a gravelled car parking area. At some point after that, it's revealed the man was supposedly firing blanks (but they weren't).

Dream:

Part of a long dream. Something about a mall, but it's also a school? It's really busy and I am trying to get somewhere specific. I remember talking to someone but I go up several staircases and walk around an upper level, trying to avoid busy routes, but still encountering a lot of other pupils or something.

I get to an internal bus station of some sort? A transit hub, at any rate.

(recall gap)

Then I'm following a person around, in an office-like place. We're in a stairwell, we go down several levels, spirally, but the tiers and bends are all perfectly square and large, the steps themselves aren't too deep. I remember seeing doors every so often. There are engraved plaques, made of blue granite, engraved with counter-relief lettering that's got a golden finish.

We reach floor "-2", I notice this written on a plaque. I look out a big latticed window and see another building across the way, not far (a few feet), lit by sunlight. I think about how -2 must be code, or only locally relevant, since I knew and could see we were several stories up. The place has tall ceilings, I realise this more because of the large window. The stairs had a running carpet all the way along and it continued on into the hallways. The walls were covered in a medium-dark stained wooden panelling.

We go into a room here at this level. Very vague recall of the room. There's a desk? A book? The book is ancient. There is a magical aura to it, but this is almost unclear in the dream, I realise this only on waking up. The ancient book has tattered and yellowed pages with coloured-coded and symbol-coded separators. The books' nature means they are constantly shifting in appearance (almost like a "quantic" book of some sort?). I remember opening it and reading some part of it but no recall of how it looked, other than the fact that things shifted around.

Fragment:

False awakening in our bed. I find snot on my shoulder? Apparently it's H's. My recall of the room is very vague, but the darkness was warmer in tone than it should have been and there seemed to be an absence of any light sources.

Fragment:

Related, or in sequence to, the office dream. Big mansion place, outdoors. Large open gardens area, I remember some hedges but not much else. The mansion had an oblong rectangular shape; ovoid at the lateral ends?

First I'm visiting the mansion but then later in the dream I take ownership of it or something. Everything goes wonky after I own it, and I have to go around on foot in some mountain crag areas to find power sources and set traps.

Then at some point I move the entire mansion so that it sits level. I feel myself do this with my hands physically and remember seeing it from above, but no other senses suggested that I was of gigantic scale.

It's daytime out here and it's half bright but not, it's cloudy and overcast but there are godrays in the distance. There's a sort of moody feel, like a literal storm is approaching. The light and atmospherics look grey but golden and warm, in part because of the distant godrays. I see them near some mountains in the distance, past a vast body of water. The mansion was atop a cliffy area overlooking this body of water. A massive lake or small sea.

I remember several small fragments of being in the house. Interactions with dream characters but during my initial notes I don't really care to recall most of them. Some early ones about being interviewed and recruited as a doctor. There was someone else attending the same things as me, in alternate pace, it was an older snobby woman, also applying.

Scraps:

(in waking life) Went back to bed after answering the door. I had many dream scraps but almost all of them faded. I tried getting back to sleep and tried to focus on my intent to go back to the earlier dream, especially the bit about being hired as a doctor, as I thought this may help with becoming lucid. But my intent faded and I transitioned in and out of lesser states of awareness.

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Notes:

- There's a great deal of internal and deeper themes here for me, especially around school, malls and office-type spaces. Some of these dreams felt like they were focused on consolidating my knowledge of certain features within buildings. In recent months I have felt that in drawings, my attention to detail in architecture is not well internalised and after recall these dreams I felt my associations of different features in buildings were expanded.
- Despite the crowds in the mall/school hybrid area, there was no covid pretext to any of my concerns about avoiding people. It was a mostly back-to-basics thing about not wanting to be in crowds.

- The view of the mountains and vast water was very picturesque; although I'm not sure of it being related in this case, on waking it did remind me of a picture we have on a wall of the bedroom, depicting an Italian lake.

- The ancient book was one of the most interesting features of these dreams. It's something I feel compelled to recreate in some artistic form now.
- Again its appearance may have been related to the fact that I have not internalised the details of books very well, which shows whenever I try to draw one from memory.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I just want to start with this. I had many dreams and all were long but I don't remember that much.

I'm at home and become semi lucid. I fly out the window and see two big airplanes about to crash into one another. They are about 20 meters long, one is red and the other one is blue. My pants are constantly being loose and it's hard to keep them on. I struggle with my pants for some moments but decide that it doesn't matter if I don't have any pants, it's a dream. I throw them away and isn't bothered by it for the rest of the dream. I use my telekinesis to make the airplanes change the course. I think it would be fun to see a big explosion so I fly with the big airplanes to the city and I'm looking for big buildings. The two airplanes I controlled have now turned into two big houses instead. I think it will still be a big explosion. I see four big houses and decide that I will target the two biggest of them. There is a church and another house. I lift the two houses I control up high and smash them into the two buildings on the ground. The church is not scratched at all and there is no explosion. The other house I crashed broke but there was not an explosion. I think to myself that the church was holy and therefore I could not destroy it. I fly to the ground and I want to pet a dog. I do the pet motion I would do if a dog were there. From thin air a dog is slowly coming alive. After a while I have a dog with me. I pet it for the rest of the dream.

Notes: I usually don't have this much control over big objects or being able to teleporting dogs to me. Cool dream.

I'm by church with Gustav and Klaus. I am semi lucid. I want to prove to Gustav that it's a dream so I tell him that I will take a picture of the moon on the moon. I fly to the sky, first pretty slowly but faster and faster I go. Suddenly I come to the sky and it appears the whole sky is just a hologram. The moon included. I take a picture of it and return down. When I show Gustav the picture it's not a picture of what I took. It's an orange picture of wheat or something like it. I couldn't prove it was a dream.

Notes: I wonder if the first dream with the church triggered this dream to be at our church. I have only tried to prove it's a dream to Gustav in my dreams. It has happened two or three times now.

I'm in a car with dad and he's driving. There are three turns and he fails at all of them. Accidents that could have gotten us killed. I am angry with dad because of this and he says I'm not wrong that we could have died. We arrive at some kind of tivoli/supermarket. Kalle J and Håkanssons are also there. I get some money by dad and I enter the glass house. The house has machines in it where you are supposed to put your money. I put two coins in one of the machines but don't bother to see if I got anything. I look to the left and see Kalle. I don't want to interact but he sees me and says hello. Håkanssons also come in and we greet.

Notes: I have had many dreams were people drive bad and almost crashes the car recently.