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I am entering a public bathroom. It is made of what looks like tan stone and is very large. I believe it’s a men’s bathroom, as that’s why I entered it and I do see urinals. There is a row of toilets, pretty close together, with no stalls around them. There are two girls sitting, right next to each other, apparently sensing no lack of privacy. I can see down into the water in the bowl and it looks very dark and murky. Now, I am looking for a shooter? I think someone has sent me to do this. I am looking in a pretty large playground. I am now inside somewhere and I think I see him and/or he sees me. There may be some interaction even, but he doesn’t know my intent. We are now on some sort of small section of tiered seating, him directly in front of me. I grab his arms and twist them behind his back, holding tight so he cannot move. I notice that I’m wearing a tie dye Grateful Dead shirt and that a Slipknot song is playing. I wonder if it’s his music and about the dynamic between it and him being a shooter.

I am in what feels like but doesn’t exactly look like JCPenney. It seems dim and sort of atmospherically cold. There is a row of appliances, and I am looking for a credit card. I’ve started looking under the fridge, and it is dusty and dirty under here. I find quite a few JCP name tags and a couple pens. I set these aside. I think I see what looks like a red and under a metal piece close to the ground. I now tip the fridge over with someone - Scott? The bottom of it looks free of any foreign objects. There are two ovens, and we turn one on its side, finding nothing under it. Someone else is now about to flip over the other oven, but I know they shouldn’t because it is full of framed pictures (one is a picture of clouds, probably at sunset, and the others are of people). It’s too late now, as I hear it crash down and all the glass inside shatter. Those moving it seem shocked for a second. They open the door and survey the damage. I’m thinking they’ll sweep it out. I also wonder what would happen to a shard of glass left behind if the oven were to heat up. Now, I am done with this and I’m what seems like a different part of this building, I think with Scott and Laynie. It seems labyrinthine and warehouse/industrial. There are lower cement walls that make up rooms or at least little sectioned off portions. It seems like we are lower or downhill from the door we came in. To the right of the door is a sectioned off area that almost looks like a very small ride or some kind of equipment. It is on and running and moving around, but it seems like no one is on it. I then spot a girl on one part of it.

I am going to Starbucks with Brittney and I think one other. It is dark out. I’m not sure if we’re walking or driving, but either my leg or arm is pressed up slightly against Brittney. Her back feels hard and slightly warm through the soft shirt. Earlier, I had gone to a different Starbucks to pick up a mobile ordered Americano. I saw a tall cup about ¾ full that looked like the right color and with a little froth on top. I was impressed with how good it looked, but discovered that it was a hot chocolate after taking a few sips. I felt a little ashamed for assuming. We now enter the Starbucks and see Blake working. He casually greets us and points us to the right to mobile order pickup. The building seems low, long, and somewhat industrial and dim. We go to the pickup, and Blake comes over and begins making the drinks. He is now more friendly with us, striking up conversation. He is wearing shorter shorts and either no shirt or a see-through shirt/tank top? I notice his chest hair, brunette on his whole chest and torso, contouring his body.

I’m with Melissa at what seems to be a small concert or concert festival in the woods. We are standing very close to the smaller stage that really has nothing between it and the audience. The band that is on seems quiet and really isn’t that good. Melissa starts walking off to the right, in jeans and a black sweatshirt. I give it a second and then follow her, reasoning that there’d be no situation where my simply asking where she’s going would be inexcusable. This area looks like an orchard of deep olive green on a hill. I look back and see Dad and Makayla on the sloping lawn in front of the stage. When I catch up, Melissa informs me that she’s just going to go pee. I want to go with her, and I also think about sneaking off to have sex somewhere. I can feel myself becoming aroused. I look around to see if this could be feasible and see the orchard ending in a fairly steep dirt hill. I wonder what’s past it, but don’t think I’d actually go that far. This area seems too small and not secluded enough. In the other direction there is a tiny cliff that leads to water and a tiny beach. There’s a larger woman standing on the beach.

After some time of mindlessness (concentration on nothing) my consciousness started to expand... I felt buzzing sound in my head. And my consciousness slowly shifted out of body. And I walked. It was pitch black place... I felt myself to move but I had no reference points to tell that I'm really moving.
I came into light room. A few young women were chatting on one side of the room. I thought that I will come to them to hear what they're talking, but I was unable to steer to them. I was unable to stop walking. I had not enough will to do that. I walked straight to the wall and through it.
I was in darkness again. I heard mumbling, talking.... In that darkness... So I was trying to go toward the sound. the sound was going louder, louder, louder .. fainter. So I reoriented myself and again tried to walk toward the sound again.
After a few tries I got to lighted room with a few non moving women and men. I was walking straight again... Into wall. And I got stuck with head inside the wall. I thought that it was interesting and that to unstuck myself I have to walk backward... So I rotated my body and reversed into wall and through it without problem.
I was again in darkness. I wanted to meet someone interesting. Even scary ghost would be interesting. I thought that being in darkness and thinking on such topics would materialize something. Then I heard some deep rumbling. Ach something is coming, I thought. And I cleared my mind. Nothing came... I waited for some time
Then I walked again. I got again into lighted room. It was empty. I walked to window and through it. The glass was trailing as if it was transparent membrane. It didn't allow me to come through. Then it burst into bubbles and I was outside, in the nature.
There was nothing but meadow behind me. It was night, lighted by big Moon. A diffuse ghost like figure made of tiny light particles was walking by my side. She looked like my soulmate. Then she dispersed. Then she condensed in front of me... And again dispersed. And I was walking forward tirelessly.

Remarks:
I was listening yesterday this music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q02vovRNwFQ I heard parts of it through this experience.

Rob Dougan- Nothing at all
I want to be still
I want to walk into your grave
where I can shelter in peace
until all our cares have blown away

let the whole world fall away
and fall into my arms
stay with me
I don't know how long we've got left
and so I'm asking you
to forgive me

I learn as I go
to float far away
into silence
and just watch your face
and find some kind of grace
in that quiet bliss

can I stay and say nothing at all, at all

where will we go when we get old
when the bustle and the noise
get too frightning
when each and every angry word
is banished to the past
that when I think

we'll learn as we go
to float far away
into silence
and I'll watch your face
and read of patience and grace
in each line there

work each day
all for nothing at all, at all
and the few words I say
they mean nothing at all at all

will you walk into the grave with me
will you leave this empty world
soft and wistfull
to sink into the dark, dark earth
and never reappear would be blissful

to float far away
into eternal space
and God's silence
where I'll watch your face
and find patience and grace
in each line there

drift away into nothing at all at all
find the grace to be nothing at all at all
fade away and end up nothing at all
at all at all at all

Had 5 ld I think. I woke up at night , I sat up and meditated maybe 2 minutes. I couldn't keep my eyes open but I felt like I had almost the perfect amount of wakeful and sleepiness. I lay down and tried to keep my eyes open a little longer. Barely managed to keep them open while I stared into the darkness. I thought I needed to be able to maintain my eyes open a little at least to be able to be lucid in my dreams so I tried to keep my barely open eyes open. When I could keep them open about 10 seconds without closing I went to back to sleep.

May have also visualized meditating right before falling asleep here.

Did mild and shadow work before sleep. Did not try to do it for too long as the day before but just focused more on engaging the exciting feelings.

Ld1:
I have jotted that I was lucid and meditated

Ld2: I was in the center of a townhouse or a short apartment complex that were maybe 3-4 stories tall.. I find my friend Allison.

I lost lucidity around here.

I follow Allison and we head forward to her or her friends flat. I am there and we hang out. I got into fight with a dc and my kicks were not working. I began to wish I could train my kicks somehow

Ld3-5:
I meet the muay Thai champion Sagat, that undefeated muay Thai fighter that also inspired a video game character. I am at a kind of an open area indoors that looks like ymca. He instructs me a 3 times. Micro awakenings that changed location and training in each. Looks like the desire from earlier ld manifested.

In the first one he made me attack him to test my strikes.

In the second one he trains me to kick in a smaller gym like place.

In the third one he makes me do squats I think.

-I had some FA here I think about jotting down the dreams 2-3 times

Nld: I am with my mom in the car, she is taking me to a school deep in the forest mountains. Stopped somewhere midway forget where. "archery range" keeps popping up though it was something similar to that I think outdoor place with lush greenery for target practice.

-mmay have missed a dream here

Ld/nld:

I am lucid in the beginning of the dream but I lose lucidity midway.

I'm at the Japanese school once again, I am at second floor I think where the library was. I am heading down to go outside and I meet a bunch of other students.

I think I lose lucidity around here swept by the dream plot.

All the students or people are heading somewhere to the left. I'm not sure where but I follow them for a bit.

We eventually arrive at a secret science facility sort of place. Each person wears a sort of suit that is filled with liquid that surrounds your body and creates a new sort of android body that surrounds yours. Our mission was to explore this place or something. We head down the hallways and down. There we find AI robots that are hunting us. We eliminate a few and keep on proceeding. I find some weapons I think were swords but eventually I run out of ammo and my armor is disabled from the engagenent w the robos. The robots ignore me and head off to hunt others after they sense no signal from me. I suppose the plot was that they were rogue AI that went berserk.

I am discovered by a trio one guy a doctor and scientist guy and lady. They do some repair to my suit and we proceed. I find a bathroom look at myself in the mirror. The suit was beautiful really, perhaps the image of a perfect human being in the perfect mathematical golden ratio. In awe, I lose myself for a moment I think, like the state of meditation.

I have sex there. I'll leave out the details. When I wake i am sore from the event. Too real.

Dreams felt very long, I thought I definitely slept way too long but I didn't.

Gonna try to journal daily for a bit maybe. Keep my motivation up.


Dream 1

Walking around in a Building with jamie. Dream was very vague. Just a couple seconds of walking with her.

Dream 2

At mcdonald's with the store manager that left. She made me lean till. Had to deal with this horrible woman customer. Saw her go outside angry, but outside was in a grassy field with trees.

Dream 3

Jesus is with me and Jamie on the hill. Me and Jamie are hugging in reconciliation. Jesus is smiling at us. Don't celebrate yet, I have yet to hear from her.

Dream 4

I'm at home but everything is out of place. I'm with my dog, when I notice and exact living replica of my dog. I pay attention to one dog and the other whines for attention. I realize this sucks. I have to spend twice the food, give double the attention and everything. I wonder if this will ever end when I wake up.

I had a pretty fun dream or dreams but they weren't lucid .What did I do differently ? One thing that was different was that i had more of a one long sleep period without wbtb while everything else was the same. I did awake in between but went back to sleep immediately. Maybe the eating pattern was also different. Spent more time Indoors as well.

Dream :
I first dreamt that I was eating food with classmates we ate just food and stuff for an afternoon. The last thing I ate was an ice cream shaped like banana where you could squeeze out ice cream. Pretty tasty.

Dream:
I was a demon king of some sort after getting defeated I think. Lost contact with followers and I had I collect the 12 elemental orbs (fire water nature etc .) to gain powers. Just going on adventures in different places to find them . One particular old tower had evil priests guarding the orb of darkness it was a purple black orb that was a little bigger than an walnut that gave a very beautiful lustre from within. Had procured about 4 or 5 of them in the end I think.

Part2:
In the part 2 of the dream I was the right hand of the previous demon king. I was a dark angel or fallen angel with black wings also on the quest of recovering orbs. There were old buildings and I encountered a big priest tall and pretty wide. I had to escape from him. He was really quick for his size but I had my pitch black wings. I just shook all my body s might and flew slowly. Had to level up my stats but decided to do it later since I did seem to be able to get away from my enemy although barely.

-influenced by some story

Side note: I was really sick when dreaming these and the dreams I get when I'm sick are often very vivid so I usually recall them easier than my other dreams. I seem to have forgotten a lot about these dreams, though.

Slenderman survival w/ a friend
I'm outside along with a friend. We own a mansion for shelter which is in the middle of the forest with paths leading around from the mansion through the forest. The next thing I remember is that we see static and start sprinting into any direction in the forest. As the static grows more intense, I remark that I don't want to play this 'game' anymore and that I don't like horror like this, before the slenderman popped out in front of me. I ran back towards the mansion, going in before my friend closes both doors, then swearing and quickly turning on the lights in the entrance hall. It's night now. We wait and I am scared of the fact that the slenderman can come out of the darkness and that the mansion is mostly dark.

Next day, I go out wandering for some reason, before later on my way back hearing strong breathing coming closer. I don't know what it is, but luckily it's staying in the bushes for now. Shortly before the entrance to the mansion, my friend tells me that what I heard is something which has a generic male name which I don't remember.

Skip to the monster running towards the house now. I run to the front door and quickly close it in third person view, using a cursor to close the doors. It's lagging so it's hard for me to hit the door, but I manage to do it, relieved as the breathing is right in front of the door but nothing came through. Though then I remember the side door left of me and also try to close that, but this time, it's lagging too much so I back away to a small table with a light on it. I think about going upstairs to hide, but it was too late. The breathing reveals itself to be a creepy dog-like creature which suddenly storms towards me, then I wake up. Soon after this, though, I fall asleep again. I don't remember the dream I got then, but when I woke up from that, I fell asleep once again and I remember that dream in many fragments.

Fake lucidity, false awakening
The next thing I remember is that I am in a strange place, a tiny bit of water seemingly flowing between two sidewalks, surrounded by brick walls running along very far. I do a reality check with my hand which doesn't work, so I try a nose reality check and I breathe through my pinched nose. Though, for some reason, I don't get lucid, I just dream about being lucid. I try controlling the dream, but nothing happened. Then I get a false awakening, before reentering the previous dream scene. I see another person who tells me something, while I try to control the dream again. I then end up in a sort of Subnautica scene, and then I don't remember anything else.

I was an old guy rotting away in a dungeon in which I had apparently been for a long, long time. This was a dungeon of Tobias Forge, the front man of the band Ghost. Even as a prisoner of his, I still loved the band. I overheard Forge say that at some hidden point, somewhere in the United States, he buried a capsule. In this capsule would be information one could use to get exclusive band merch, tickets, an exclusive EP, and perhaps even become a member of Ghost. I figured the capsule would be buried on the land on which I was imprisoned, because it was Ghost's main property. I looked out the window of the cell, and sure enough there looked like what was a recently buried hole! I bent the bars on my cell and escaped! I went outside, dug, and found the capsule. Inside was only a slip of paper with a person's name: Nick something (I don't remember the last name). I was excited because I thought this was the person I needed to contact to get the sweet Ghost stuff. At this point, I was "me" in the dream instead of the old, weak person. I walked down to a coffee shop, and a person was there with a Ghost CD I'd never seen before. I asked if he was Nick, and he said he was. He got to Forge's capsule first, left a note, and reburied the capsule. My old boss Doug was there talking with Nick, and Doug and I had a really awkward handshake; our fingers kept getting intertwined when we tried to shake hands. It took about three tries before we got a good handshake. I remember feeling pretty upset because the odds of me finding the capsule were very high, because I was right there on the property, and also the odds that some other Ghost fan was in the same area right when Forge announced the capsule's existence were extremely small.

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Second dream. Renee asked me to go to a park down the street and catch some insects to feed to our tarantula. I found what looked like two juvenile Madagascar hissing cockroaches and put them in a cup to bring home. I then had my first false awakening in years! In real life, my cell phone got a notification, and I was expecting a text from my sister-in-law. FA: I grabbed my phone to check the text, but it wasn't a text, but an email asking me if I wanted a job being park manager at the place I had just captured the roaches in my dream. I think I basically realized it was an FA right away, then woke up for real.

6:17AM DILD

For some reason was going to church with my bro to get something that I forgot. Saw my mom in the yard being active and working. What is she doing. Oh well at least she's active. Go inside to a seat that was mine. Grabbed... something. I see other random stuff that's mine. I'll just get it all because I dont plan on coming back. I put it all in a bag. I look up and see my grandpa walking to a seat. Mouth gapped I look at Tim and point. I tell Tim This is a dream. Walk up to grandpa. How have you been? Feeling better? [Now that you're dead] He smiles and says Yeah doing good. I kiss him on forehead and laugh at what I did. I dont know why I kissed him like that. Laughing He says If I was still a live I'd whoop your ass.
I say Yeah I bet. Tim starts asking wierd questions with a lot of random numbers. I say that's too many number for me to think about right now and turn to leave. I hear him ask something about rainbows in the dark. I pause and why do dreams feel so real. I continue to leave but think it's just because you're convinced that it is. I go outside. I get hyper like a child and start fling low and screaming and yelling. I see a Willow tree and I feel drawn to it. For some reason I am still attached to whatever to went back to the church for. I look at my bag in my hands and want to set it down but dont want to forget to grab it before I wake up. I keep it by the willow tree to remember. I turn and see a tarp up behind me. I go around and see a dividing line of darkness. I start to move away from it but some glowing eyes gets my attention. I dont want to turn my back to it and I feel some initial fear. Knowing this is a dream I decide to confront it
I say Come one then. Yeah get over here. Let's go. Come on. The darkness around the glowing eyes clear a bit. It's a white wolf. It begins to look scared and confused as it starts to slowly pad toward me. I wait but suddenly the dream fades and I wake up.

Morning of June 18, 2019. Tuesday.

Dream #: 19,174-02. Reading time: 36 sec.



While in subliminal to emerging liminal mode, I engage in the imaginary pursuit of attempting to discern technology, including text, as a factor of cognitive arousal. I look at my computer in an undefined location. I have the idea to search for the most common words and imagery on the Internet.

Following a complete search with an unknown program, I see the most common image is one of two types of yellow pennant flags. One appears as a regular triangular form pointing down, and the other has a comma-like curve to the left. They are about the size of avatars, in random order.

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My dream includes three emergent factors. Yellow stands out when returning to consciousness. Flags represent confirmation of territory (in this case, upper liminal space). My use of technology comes about when I try to heighten my awareness while in the dream state (the same as trying to read).

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It's somewhat common for me to kind of "jump good" in my dreams, and easily leap over houses and onto telephone poles and stuff. So I was outside, and jumped onto the roof of a house with ease, and realized I was dreaming. I got so excited because this was my first time being lucid in YEARS. I knew I wanted to shoot a kameh-hame-ha, so I did. Then I jumped into the air and started flying, but for some reason I felt like I was running out of time. I let myself fall, because the falling sensation is one of my favorite things to do! And it felt amazing and so relaxing as I was just...falling.

A car moved forward on the road then litup
and span around its axis very fast then slowed and stopped

A second car in competition with the first,
drove up the same road,
passed the first car
and did a wheelie in the gutter
spraying a lot of water over a man on the pavement,
under a wooden bridge.

The boys in the cars were showing-off

I can't remember the dream before this or after this.

Wow is this site dying?

Time travel?

Me, Jamie, Asuka and Data enter one of those dream movies or something that Me and Asuka watch where we go right into the screen and participate in the scenario. The movie seems to be about Jamie. We apparently travel into Jamie's past to save her from certain things that would cause her to make bad decisions or something. She looks in her teens again like from the lucid where I found her. she's wearing the white shirt she used to wear under her work vest from when i worked with her. Jamie says to me in the middle of this, "You're saving me, are we going to get married?" and smiles. Well yes, if I have to. Might wanna really talk about this to me first.

Strange fight

Just remember I was in some downtown marketplace or something and got into a fight with some guy. He pulled out some circle thing like from doctor strange or something. It was a portal to himself from other dimensions. So if you punched him, he would deflect with the circle thing but himself from another dimension would block the punch or take the hit. He kept saying I was never going to win because I was fighting all of him from all dimensions.

Bus

Dreamed I was on a bus or something. Jamie was in the back with my cousin. they seemed to be ignoring me. I was sitting near the front arguing with some bald woman who was being really mean.

My recall is still pretty low.