non-lucid

Date of Dream: SUN 8 NOV - 2020



Dream No. 773 - I'll Fly Myself Home

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, some weird things were happening at Brandon Park Shopping Centre. I realised that I had to rush home; however I have forgotten the exact reason of why I had to do so. I ended up testing positions for travelling the road, in which I determined, ‘if it feels ‘soft’ and ‘comfortable’, then Riku’s there’. However, there was no extra energy on the entirety of the road, which meant Riku wasn’t there, and so I ended up reluctantly flying myself home.

As I was going along the road, I thought that my mum would be angry at me for staying out for so long. I ended up calling on a stranger to come and protect me. As I was coming into the driveway, a stranger man did appear indeed, and with a warm energy about him, he escorted me into the house, but my mum didn’t seem to be angry about this. The dream ended there.



Dream No. 773
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 6 NOV - 2020



Dream No. 772 - Obstacle Course

This dream started with me approaching some sort of distorted version of Playzone, in which a lot of girls from my high school congregated there to take an obstacle course, which I was also apparently a part of. Near the start, there were two babies that seemed to be in danger. I called out for Dreamy WB to come and collect the babies, in which two identical copies of her appeared and took one baby each. I then continued on to do the obstacle course. The girls that most prominently featured were the ones I spent year 7 and 8 with IRL, including SMa and QS.

Later on in the dream, still within the obstacle course complex, I entered into some sort of empty movie theatre. In there I saw Riku (KH3 appearance), but then he had his back turned to me. I went to him and hugged him on his side, in which then turned around and gave me the warmest hug back. I then went on to finish the obstacle course. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 772
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: THU 5 NOV - 2020



Dream No. 771 - Separated Sections

Dream 771 A - Strange Family Holiday
I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, my family were driving around an area of the Grampians where we were for a family getaway. The scene then showed me in my room at the holiday house, packing my suitcase. I remember packing earring of every single colour, and then when deciding what outfits to wear. I made sure I had a full outfit of my signature colours, aqua and silver.

Later on in the dream, apparently I was to make my way to some sort of chocolate factory slash general museum, however, I could not find my way back. The dream ended up turning into some sort of world map like in Mario and Luigi Superstar Saga and just like the actual game, I was made to explore the different corridors and dodge the ‘enemies’ that were there. At one point, I realised I was extremely lost and could not find where I had started. After looking at yet another map, a sub-map, I figured I could go through a place called Hurtlift which had a Siberian-like environment. I can’t remember anything about this dream.

Dream 771 B - Same Mistake
The dream started off with Riku in his KH1/CoM appearance venturing around Twlight Town as if it was a replay of his CoM story segment. However, after a while of the dream showing Riku, I came out from the side of one of the buildings and different music was playing (it was ‘Same Mistake’ by James Blunt); apparently this was my music for Twlight Town and I was doing missions of my own. First I started singing to ‘Same Mistake’, however not long into it, Riku actually joined in and sounded believably audible. I realised that Riku started singing because the song resonated with him (themes about being your own worst enemy and not being allowed choices to make the ‘same mistake’).

After our sing-song for a while, the dream then went to Riku doing another mission, fighting heartless, but I wasn’t visible anymore. As Riku swung his keyblade, Sora’s voices were being used, and I found it hard to subconsciously grasp why. Eventually, I figured that it was a metaphor for me fighting beside him, as if I was his ‘Sora’ in this part of the dream. For the last part of the dream, with Riku watching on, apparently I was to confront this version of Ansem who was then strangely revealed to be a severely distorted, dark Lexaeus. After a while of standing before this scary version of a dark matter Lexaeus, I woke up.



Dream 771 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 771 B
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: WED 4 NOV - 2020



Dream No. 770 - Separated Sections

Dream 770 A - Scary Mario Characters
The only thing I can remember about this dream (long time gap between draft recap and final recap) is that it involved scary Mario characters. They were real but something had seemed to posses them.

Dream 770 B - Grape Juice Water
I don’t remember much about this dream. Only that there was forced fading in the dream; however, I was able to keep the dream by powerfully stabilising it three times. I was able to get Riku in this dream, but forgot which appearance he was and what he was doing. I went into my kitchen to get some water from my tap, only grape juice ended up running out of it instead. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 770 C - Protection From Boys
The dream started off with my mum and I at Fountain Gate shopping centre, where we were first of all walking around and shopping for shoes. There was shoes of various different colours in shoe stores we remember from waking life, but the floor space of the stores was slightly distorted. My mum and I then went to the Food Court to get a treat. As my mum went to the cafe, I went by myself and lined up McDonalds as I wanted something savoury. However, there was all these boys over there that didn’t look too sane, and they started talking to me.

Thankfully, I didn’t have too much to do with the boys, and soon returned to the cafe. My mum was sitting on long table, and there were also 2 other ladies sitting with her, both having the face of my deceased year 12 english teacher, Ms. L. on them. One of the ladies spoke and said to me that she is protecting me from all men, but then she also mentioned that she didn’t have to do so with Riku; so she apparently was aware of mine and his dreamer and dream guide relationship. I then looked at one of the TVs in the food court, and there was a weather forecast projected of 115’C. Apparently the world was due to end due to the bout of extreme heat. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream 770 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 770 B
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Dream 770 C
Dream Guide: Ms. L.
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: TUE 3 NOV - 2020



Dream No. 769 - Separated Sections

Dream 769 A - Creepy Discord Music
The only thing I can remember about this dream is that I was on my usual discord server and there was some creepy music playing in the background, but nothing necessarily bad happened.

Dream 769 B - Other Guardians
I don’t remember much about this dream either. It took place in a location that was unknown to me. Aqua and Ventus appeared in the scene to help me out with something. Apparently it was originally going to be Riku and Sora but they didn’t have enough time on their hands. However, I did end still end up seeing Riku and he smiled at me. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 769 C - The Crumbling Island
The dream started with me at my house, as may dad was harassing me about job applications. I attempted to run away from him, having to move fast before he could find me and catch me. Shortly, I ended up at some large island made out of Lego. Flying further in, I noticed Riku (KH3 body but KH1 clothes) sitting on the sand at the other end of the island. This is when I realised that this was a distorted version of the Destiny Islands.

However shortly, the Destiny Islands started to crumble and sink, so I had to get out of there as quick as possible. I realised that Riku helped me get out of there in time, and for the rest of the dream, he was with me in the form of energy. I can’t remember what else happened in this dream.



Dream 769 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 769 B
Dream Guide: Riku, Aqua, Ventus
Lucid?: No

Dream 769 C
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 30 OCT - 2020



Dream No. 768 - Separated Sections

Dream 768 A - She's Back
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, all the guardians of light from KH (except Riku) were scattered, floating above a scene of the Keyblade Graveyard. They were all there as they realised I had ‘come back’. They all said something, however I can’t recall what everybody said. I think one of them said that they’d (collectively) better tell Riku. Some of the characters I do remember speaking were Lea, and then Terra and Aqua. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 768 B - Bouncing Around Dad
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was in the front driveway of my house, when the dream was playing a sub-scene about my dad yelling at me earlier. He was driving some sort of unknown car and as I was doing something in the backseat, I don’t remember what exactly, he scolded me. The dream then went back to the actual scene in my driveway, and my dad was still picking on me from before. However, this time, I knew straight away that Riku was the one to call.

As I called out for Riku to come, he did so very quickly. In his KH3 appearance, halfway between physical human and hologram, he scooped me up into his arms and held me against him as he bounced around and over my dad to stop my dad from getting me. After Riku bouncing me around for a while, I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 768 C - Kaizo Crash Bandicoot
This dream took place once again, starting off in my area. There was mention of this boy from my primary school, JSe, but he had a weird role that I can’t describe… The memory of his position is blurry. I have also forgotten what the first scenes were exactly. Though a bit later on in the dream, I was constantly riding a bike around a small area of my court; JSe was there, but once again, I have forgotten our association, still with his weird character role.

I can, however, remember the last scenes of the dream a lot better. I was myself but then I also seemed to be a first-person replica of Coco from the Crash Bandicoot series. I was jumping around on roofs of various 2 or 3 storey apartments at day time, in this unknown area. The layout of boxes started out very normal. Though it became fascinating when there were TNTs in the mix, and the actually started counting down with the sound effect when I jumped on them.

Later on in the scene though, the layout of boxes started to become more ridiculous; there were more of them and they were stacked closer to each other. Eventually, there was no gap in-between any of the boxes and they were an entire group of those ‘metal’ boxes, however, in the dream, they did break when I spun them. My brother appeared and said that we had gotten 40,135 boxes and that we had to get 40,136. However, he was quick to change his sentence, as he said in a shocked manner that more boxes were now spawning back at the start of the level.

Dream 768 D - Showing Off Stunts
This dream wasn’t very long; also, I wasn’t in this dream, rather I was a spectator. Riku was the star of the dream and he was communicating to me, who in this case was the dream camera. Riku (KH3) seemed very excited to ‘have me back’ as he said he wanted to show me some cool new moves he could do with his keyblade.

The scene was in the Keyblade Graveyard as it showed Riku flying around, fighting his fellow guardians of light with what was evidently cool new keyblade stunts… With him flipping everywhere. Eventually, there became KH graphics health bars at the bottom right corner of the screen, but not just one or two or three… Rather ten to twelve of them. Some were the guardians Riku was fighting. Others were miscellaneous characters like Isa and even Master Yen Sid. And then there was Riku’s health icon, with his one uniquely smiling, showing his teeth! After minutes of Riku showing off, the dream ended.



Dream 768 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 768 B
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Dream 768 C
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 768 D
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

23rd June 2021

Fragment:

I'm mining in a cave with H. It's a mix of MC and BL, I find a block of ruby ore and dig it out. Disappointed with finding only one piece, I dig some more of the surrounding area, maybe two or three block radius. I don't find any more ore of any kind but I've uncovered this old and damaged wooden door. It leads into a 2x2 (blockwise) space, also mostly in wood and more realistic. It's all dark stain but looks old like watermarked and scratched.

There's another door opposite, it has cracks and through them and the bottom of the door blue-ish daylight comes through. I tell H to come or something and I open the door. Then on the other side I'm in a small hall I think. It's like many palaces like ones I've visited in my native country, in terms of style and so on. There's an arching double door made of wood, painted white, it has windows on the top half and the rest of the hall has several large latticed windows along the same wall.

Through the double door is a covered courtyard, kind of, it's more like a square and covered landing at the top of some stairs and apart from some iron bars and the stone-like roof, it's open to the elements. This roof is low and not far from my head, if I had claustrophobia I'd probably consider it to be a claustrophobic space. I look around. This bit has a pattern-decorated tile floor, white and yellow? It's relatively high here, some four or five stories at a guess and below I see a much bigger courtyard with a road and some dried-up stone fountains.

I also look upwards where I can. It's an overcast day I think and I see more of the palace building sections, understanding it to be a convoluted layout. In the dream, I'm excited and verbally share my excitement with H, I think implying that I'll be taking it over or something.

(recall gap)

Arriving at some prison in a car, a road curves around the bottom of a cliffside and it's relatively flat down here. There's a look of North American deserts to this cliffy area. I get out of the car and approach the prison entrance, there are some purple-clothed gangsters that seem to have come out of GTA:SA; I shoot their leader with an oversized desert eagle, the rest of them become agitated and I threaten them calmly not to try anything or they'll be next.

I walk past them, past the prison entrance and to a bit on the side of this prison complex. There's a garage and a damaged car. Someone fixes up the car and I take it away, with someone else sitting at the back. Then I see myself driving it in third person and when I go too fast, this other person sitting at the back gets whipped out from the rear window but holds on. There's some interface showing me their health rapidly decreasing and as I slow down, it returns a little. I determine that I can only do short bursts of speed because he must survive. Police chase after us but I am not too concerned, more annoyed than anything, expecting to lose them soon.

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Notes:

- Apart from the fact that I had watched a Star Trek episode last night involving a prison planet, I can't really figure out where the GTA sequence might have stemmed from. It was an extremely casual sequence where I was not exactly myself and was more just a character myself.

- The palace matched all of my expectations for how that type of place would look, single pane glazing, somewhat old and not taken care of, in a certain style, etc. I have not been to any such palace or similar styled building in quite some time, years really.

- We have recently been thinking about playing Minecraft again but we haven't made any decisions yet, especially since we want to use some mods. I have some longing for mining and building, which both that part and the part about the palace seem to relate to.

- There was something in that recall gap but it seems to have evaporated. I can only vaguely recall some disjointed scenes.

20th June 2021

Fragment:

Outside, walking through a town area of some kind, it's mostly flat, maybe with some downwards incline. I'm with someone I know closely, maybe J or L. There's something about a lan party of some kind. Walking through the town, maybe food or fast food is mentioned. There are eight of us in total? I am carrying a laptop around in one of the laptop bags we have here at home in waking life. In the dream, I am aware of my laptop being inferior to everyone else's.

Something about eating beans? There's some kind of sauce, maybe chilli, but no rice. There's a familiar taste.

While reading the exercise on p.78 of Dream Gates:

I'm sitting down and reading this exercise thinking about desert, then beach and then home. From the windows of many of the flats people are banging pots and pans, my awareness or focus on this quickly fades and then I'm focusing on the cars parked around the cul-de-sac, which are warm to the touch from the sun, but there is a morning light so actually most were in shade. Suddenly S appears, her lead is in my hand and she licks my face; I lick her back for good measure because I always feel she needs to have perspective of how it feels. She reels a little as she would.

Then she starts pulling hard on the lead, barking or growling at some passer-by and making me trip over and fall to the floor, vaguely feeling myself being dragged along but without any of the friction I'd expect. She makes her way to the hills behind the garages, it looks as it did after the shanties were removed but before the supermarket built. The scene changes to be next to the eucalyptus on that hill. Then, I have a vague intent.

It changes to unfinished highway that would be visible from the hill. I'm under the unfinished underpass of a concrete bridge. I know there's a door to my left but I cannot turn or see it from my point of view. I feel it's a metal door, painted a deep blue, maybe a little rusty. Like ones I've seen somewhere before in my childhood.

I sort of unintentionally break away from this and then just continue reading a bit more and then write some notes down for this.

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Notes:

- Although the exercise asks for thinking of natural places and afterwards I found that my old home felt natural enough, because there's vegetation and bush in several parts and the building of where I used to live has always been pretty much on the edge of town, so nature of some kind has never been very far.

- The visualisation came about mostly unintentionally but it was pleasant, especially because although I couldn't see S very well, I appreciated the fact that she was there as some kind of animal guide. I was always told by mom that black dogs are considered luck charms in certain cultures, so I suppose that was present in my mind on some level. Thinking about it now, S appeared very well and despite vague visuals, she seemed just as I have always known her.

- The concrete underpass was shady and the unknown door could be a such a figurative entrance to the underworld and so on as the exercise suggests, even though the door might not lead down, it would go through earth.

17th June 2021

Mostly going from end to start.

Dream (DFLN):

I'm in a city, I'm walking outside with MoonageDaydream, HumbleDreamer and another woman that I don't recognise or recall anymore.

The dream ends when we are walking down a hill on a paved bit. It's cobbles and it mostly follows the hill but becomes stairs at some points where there's too much incline. Just before, I'm thinking out loud about how it reminds me of my native country, thinking that it looks to have more buildings however. I am beside the unknown woman, possibly slightly from behind and touching her shoulders, "It's funny, I don't remember getting here" and then I look at my right hand and begin counting the fingers from the back. The count seems normal at a glance but I feel self-conscious trying this RC in public. I think about M/M themes in this city but nothing manifests or changes.

It's about near sunset and there's a sea visible from this hill. I start thinking about an airport and the name of the town, feeling dumb for not remembering and then I wake up.

Just before this part, the four of us were crossing a road. It's a busy place and there are loads of people (or so it feels). We're somewhere in the USA supposedly and people are generally amused by my presence, seeming to think I'm British despite having no such accent. We have just come out of a store and as we cross this road with crossing island, I think about how there's Covid but nobody is wearing any face coverings. I also think to myself about how I've had my first jab, on my right art. (In reality I haven't yet)

HumbleDreamer seems moody or perhaps overly serious for most of the walking around, but he doesn't really act that way. I am afraid that I have done something to upset him. At one point he says he got here from France and there's a segment where he's making a video for YouTube in a mostly white room, I forget what about.

Back to the store, it's like an airport shop come to think of it. It's very generic and enclosed, at the end of a corridor. People interact with me and the group and this is the main reason I end up thinking about Covid. The person behind the till, a white middle-aged American woman, with short hair, kisses my hand or something and another woman offers a bite of a pizza slice to the group but we decline politely. Just before we get to the till, I'm talking to the unknown woman about snacks and such and how they're much cheaper here, because we saw a vending machine in the corridor leading to the shop. It's dark in the corridor except for some strong hue lights, reds and greens mostly. The drinks are like little cartons of apple juice and so on and cost about thirty cents, making me think I could buy about three or four versus the cost that I'm used to. The snacks are mostly potato stuff.

We talk about how there's not a lot of importing around here, for some reason.

Before the corridor and some dark halls, we are in a church yard of some kind. It's all mostly paved, gritty or gravel. There's a dry fountain in the middle, made of stone? It's MoonageDaydream's school workplace apparently. We came all the way here from wherever we came from to give her a donation, but I'd forgotten my hundred and twenty five dollars that I was to give her. I fear the group is disappointed with me but suspect MoonageDaydream is fine with it. I decide to give it to her as soon as I can.

The church/school building itself is very grey and looks a bit like Gaudi's style, very bulbous and round shapes and some mini spires. I remark on this and comment on how it must be Spanish in origin, therefore. The outside of the building has a render made up with large smooth stones that can fit in a hand's palm. I talk about the building style with the group but I don't recall their comments.

There was more recall but I felt too tired writing my initial notes.

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Notes:

- When I woke up, I thought about how some of my conclusions during the dream were a bit hasty and I thought about how I could have become lucid at the end.
-- In a way, it's unusual that I thought about how I got there, I just found myself trying to think of the trip there and the airport and finding I couldn't remember, partly attributing it to tiredness from the trip.

- Unlike the other dream where I'd only heard MoonageDaydream, in this dream I could see her and HumbleDreamer clearly. Their details as characters seemed accurate to how I remember their profile pictures here.

Nice character died
There was an adventure beforehand. While I and a group of other people were fleeing from monsters that shoot some form of projectile, he was hit and immediately killed. I sort of got sad as if he was a character from a movie that died, thinking that it's sad that they didn't continue on with his story. The character might not have been human.

Disastrous tree portal
There was something about entering a portal through a tree. It's sort of like a certain tree, where you do a certain thing with the bark and it opens, letting you go in and freefall into a different world of some sort.

It appears it is like a trap, as I end up in a weird abandoned building, with strange lighting. It's like it's always dusk outside, the yellow light leading up the ghostly and dark hallways. It feels like the home of somebody who has died. All lights are off, and it seems like somebody just abruptly left. Everything seems like a still-life painting, with things laying around as if they were just about to be used. It's totally silent. I walk through the corridor, which is located on the second floor and on the east side of the building and is pretty narrow. On the right side are the aforementioned windows, and to the left are several doors. Suddenly, some sort of woman appears.

Cut to some sort of video clip, showing several catastrophes, such as a rollercoaster accident. In the end, it always zooms into the face of the first person who dies, just a second before it happens, showing their scared, screaming faces.

At some point, I am in a sort of white void, with a single patch of forest as a representation of the tree portal and the area around it. There is some sort of large person about it, about 4 meters in height. He is male, and I seem to trust and know him. He gives me advice on how to get back into the normal world.

Cut back to the corridor. There is a woman there, I know she is a demon, presumably from the advice I got. I hide in a cupboard of sorts, or maybe behind a door that was set down in the corridor, but she finds me. Quickly, I think about the weak points of the human body, but I don't remember. Then, shortly after, I see a knife right of me on a window sill. I quickly grab it and ram it into the heart of the woman, but she just laughs, so I ram it into her stomach and then, finally, I slit her throat and then I ram it in her throat. Then, she is dead.

Fever dream
Something like having forgotten something, along with some sort of pain associated with it.

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Right before I went to sleep I had taken a medication against allergy symptoms which made me horribly tired as a side effect.

Another nap dream

I was at a hotel where we were filming, kind of resembled the Hilton Hotel in the south of Amsterdam, I can't recall exactly what I did in the dream again but for some reason, the security guards stationed in the small building across the hotel couldn't stop laughing at me after something I did. The film crew had finished the scene and got on the bus to move locations, they left without me. So I walked all the way to the next location.

The street I was running at resembled the busy street behind the neighbourhood I was born, as I kept running the location randomly went from that street into an alleyway from what seemed to be some sort of theme park castle. In the castle, there was an Elvis Presley impersonator working who was annoyed with me as I had to go down the stairs next to him, but he started jamming on his guitar and a large crowd of people slowly went down the stairs step by step while bumping on the rhythm of the guitar. I lost my patience and slid down the stairs via the railing where I exited through a window. I tried getting back into the building through other windows, but they were all too narrow for me to fit in. When I was finally able to enter one of the windows, I ended up in a storage space for a theme park. It had a bunch of decorations and animatronics stored on there behind security bars.

As I was walking through the storage space, I was completely visible to the outside public of the theme park, so I tried running back to the window but made the grave mistake of looking back if anybody saw me, and suddenly I hear police sirens and notice on a large monitor that there was a news report playing that showed live camera footage describing me as a "fugitive without a face mask" and I was so scared that I pretty much forced myself to wake up as I was hoping this was all a dream, and relieved when I did wake up.

Eyes

I was semi lucid. I was distracted because I was in a wooden floored room with people just standing there. They had blue bandanas hiding their right eye sockets. I had an uncontrollable urge to see what was behind them. I went to an older woman and I was trying to pull the bandana away but she was heavily resisting. When she realized I wasn't giving up she let me and I saw an empty eye socket when I lifted the bandana.

Note: I would not have remembered this dream unless I hadn't been browsing the FYP on tik tok. On it a Woman spoke of a dream where she had a vivid lucid where she kept telling her mother that it was a dream. Her mother covered her face with her hands and when she pulled them away she saw empty eye sockets.

Short Lucid

I was entering my home with someone but I forget who. I was lucid right away for no reason. I said aloud, "I have to find Jamie." I asked Asuka if she could tell me where Jamie was. Asuka was now a black man. I laughed and asked Her why she decided to look like that. Asuka began to gave an answer but the dream ended abruptly.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP


I am a college student and I hit and run a man and left him bleeding to death on the road. My thought was that he was going to die anyway, before help arrived and so I rationalized that fleeing wouldn't ruin even more lives, namely mine and of those around me who would suffer immensely if I was convicted of manslaughter. So I decided to run away and pretend I had nothing to do with it and act normally. I was absolutely sure I could pull it off, even when the police appeared on campus and started investigating the students.
I am heading to the library and the detectives are in the corridor talking to people and my paranoid mind believes a couple of them seem to be watching every movement I make and my facial expressions. I do get a bit nervous and I bump into a table and throw an ashtray to the ground, but I am already out of their sight. At the library I steal some chips from some kid who has a bag of chips open on his table. He doesn't even flinch. Wonder if that's because he is my friend or he just fears me. I go meet a friend at the most far back table and he is playing a computer game with cars and he is very proud that he managed to fit a car with a long hood into the back of a truck cabin and make a weird truck trailer, just to prove his smart and ability to bend the rules and codes of the game. I couldn't care less and cars actually trigger me at the moment, but I engage with his enthusiasm, to not raise suspicion. Later on I meet a group of friends, who are all very shocked with the events. One of the girls (looks my old friend Mara) says she would have no mercy for whomever the killer is. I feel very uncomfortable that I am the person and imagining if it is ever found out.
We go for a walk outside the campus and we pass by the road where the accident happened, but they don't know that. There is no longer any sign of what happened, besides a patch of sand the authorities spread to soak up the blood. But my friends don't know, they have no idea where the accident happened, so "Mara" asks what is this for and I swiftly say probably to cover some oil spill. They look at me a bit strangely and I say I am just guessing. We arrive at some snack-bar / pub by the side of the road, where they like to go, and the cops and detectives are gathered there. This makes me anxious. There is also Master Harry, a Scott who is like the keeper of the campus. He spots us and invite us along. But my friends feel super interested in talking to the cops. The owner of this place is a surfer and has a long board decorating the place, above our heads and one of the detectives apparently also surfs so they engage in conversation regarding the long board. I am not interested.
Then the older detective throws me a bate, by teasing me about a plant cared by the bar owner. I am not the least interested. He asks me stuff like if I can identify it, if I'd like to have one too and what I think about this guy managing to have one in this climate. And I am like "why should I care?". Then he shows me it is a pineapple and asks me if I shouldn't I be more enthusiastic about plants. I realize he already knows too much about me and my interests, which means I am a suspect. I do have a greenhouse that I care for meticulously at my parents house and I care a lot about plants, just not in this context with the stress I am feeling. I am seeing my life going down the drain. I don't know how they know, but they already suspect it was me, and are just trying to catch me. I think about my plants dying if I am arrested and I feel extremely sad for that, more than anything else.

Back to previous dream. I am not caught yet, but I am going crazy with the guilt and duplicity. I have to deal with several people related to the victim and the feeling that I am keeping this secret from them and they would hate me if they knew the truth is consuming me. I am wishing to go to some island where nobody knows me and start a new life.
I am staying at some pension of a lady who isn't particularly fond of me. She complains of something I supposedly did in the kitchen and asks me to clean it, but I am relieved to know it is just a silly thing I didn't even do. She has no clue that some other night I was drunk and peed in the kitchen. So I go look into the fridge and instead of cleaning whatever, I steal something, like some cheese and bread to make a sandwich. Then I hear her talking to her daughter, who just arrived from school and is complaining about something. Her mother says "well, you're not doing anything, because her mom is Carolina Herrera and nobody dares to upset that family at this moment, because of the terrible thing that happened to her dad."
They are talking about the man I killed. I feel guilty again and run to my room. The room looks like my mom's office and there are tigers outside of the window trying to come in, so I rush to shut all the openings and lock the door.

At my mom's house, It's night and I look outside. I spot a UFO, just a white light orb dancing around at distance. Then I spot another one, static and the first one moves towards the still one and then they both move away. During the day I spot one again in the sky. I start seeing them a lot. One day I spot one very small just hovering a street. I now am able to spot them all over the streets, spying on people, unaware of them. Only I seem to be able to see them. with the help of some friends, I capture one. It is the size of a basketball and it loses the ability to camouflage when offline. I show to my friends, who believed me but had never seen one themselves. I teach my friends how to spot them, and we can see them in the sky, in strategic places, positioned in geometric clusters. They form ice crystal like shapes with arms connecting them inside pentagonal areas. These bigger structures seem to be regulating the climate or other purposes. The little ones at the street level are watching us on a daily basis.

Back to the dream. Me and my friends are now a rebel force meeting in secret and collecting data on these UFOs, trying to understand what they are here for. One day, I am on a bus ride with one of this friends and we spot one in the sky, after a long time not seeing them. We wondered if they found a new way to cloak or had simply disappeared. Then we see two jets flying on each side of the orb but at some point leaving and the orb staying fixed in a position. Me and friend point to it but no one else seems to see it. As I point to it, I feel like I am pushing a button and the orb opens up into a square of squares of different size, like a virtual keyboard. On top rows are bigger blue squares and bellow are smaller red squares. So I do what I did before and also pretend to click them as if they are buttons. I push a random combination of keys. The UFO/keyboard disappears and immediately strange things happen, like some cars on the road going bananas as if they lost their electronics, and going over the rails and crashing. We rush to meet with the others and tell them what happened. They are a bit incredulous, but I explain maybe all orbs are programmable but we need to crack the code and see which combinations do what. Then the girl who usually brings us food comes in looking scared. Says the building is surrounded and they threatened her. Everyone wonders how they found us and I say I actually told them and it is part of a bigger plan, but they think I am just crazy and are in shock that I did that. I seem to have a really intricate plan, but I wake up before finding out.

Morning of June 13, 2021. Sunday.

Dream #: 19,900-04. 2 min 20 sec read.





After letting go of attention to post-hypnagogic navigation (lucid in every sleep cycle long before I ever heard the term), typical residual factors eventually become the foundation of a new dream. Often, staircases emerge from a wall and drop like a Murphy bed to correlate with my transitioning vestibular phasing response. (This process occurs after my first dream of walking and losing my footing with rapid falling, and in another dream signifying my loss of mobility of my arms - sometimes with another dream character dropping something. The third correlation typically displays REM atonia indicators such as a statue or sleep simulacrum as the corresponding feature in this dream.)

I become aware I am an unknown woman in a sheer white nightgown sleeping with her body draped over an outdoor staircase in daylight. I am also a giant tarantula about the size of a person. It is an ambiguous dual perception, though I am more focused as the spider on the woman’s left. I am still both. The building is on stumps with open space underneath, and its outdoor staircase is about five steps, leading to an open doorway into a large empty room with a wooden floor. There is a vague essence of the Arcadia, Florida school grounds in the 1960s, but with no correlation with its waking-life appearance.

I consider what I should do. I am not focused enough to viably navigate my present status, but I recall the dynamics of ASMR and summoning content to stimulate my emotions. I try to create another giant tarantula.

Another giant tarantula (protoconsciousness) appears. Its legs are as big as tree trunks as I hear its loud steps. It is exponentially larger than my tarantula form. It is so big that I only see its legs at times. Although it continues to walk past the part of the building I am near, I anticipate it will look through a different doorway (about 20 feet away), perpendicular to the entrance I am near, and it does. Even so, both my sleeping woman form and my spider form are below the doorway’s line of sight. (In this dreaming experience, I forget that waking a sleep simulacrum sometimes vivifies a dream.)

The giant tarantula speaks in a human voice, “You may be asleep now, but will you be asleep at this time tomorrow?” He is speaking to both my forms. I could pull the woman down the steps, and we could both go under the building and remain there for a time, but I decide not to do this. I do not feel much emotion as it is more like a surreal game.

I decide to leave my sleep simulacrum and run at an angle toward a beach. It feels strange running on my eight legs. I notice a long pipe that is open on its end, but I consider it might be too small to navigate.

The other giant tarantula keeps going in a direction away from me and is no longer in the area.

Now there is a duck hunter at a distance who shoots at me with a rifle with no effect. I consider I will be able to walk on water over the ocean. I think if the other tarantula returns, he will be too big to follow me. Additionally, the man has no boat.

I become annoyed by the duck hunter continuously shooting at me. I shoot small missiles at him from my eyes (REM ocular response) without any effect as my dream fades.

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