non-lucid

Morning of February 12, 2019. Tuesday.

Dream #: 19,048-02. Reading time (optimized): 1 min.



I become aware of being in the Cubitis living room (last seen in 1978). There is the erroneous factor of Marilyn (a deceased half-sister on my mother’s side) living here. She appears as she was in the 1960s. On the west side of the living room is a tall chest of drawers. I am unaware of my parents.

I am recording something from television by way of a wired connection and monitoring the sound with headphones. Somehow, a plastic 1:24 scale model kit of a Limousine is connected as well, though there is difficulty in making sure the audio is loud enough. My orientation is unusual and illogical as I seem to be working on the top of the chest of drawers, but it does not make any physical sense. There is also a blanket atop it.

Eventually, I notice that the model is incomplete. There are several small parts, which may be optional. There is a part of a V8 engine and other pieces. One piece resembles a small tooth but falls behind the chest of drawers.

Before waking, I lift the hood, and instead of an engine, there is a little double bed.

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Beds often appear (sometimes in unusual locations) in the last part of a dream as a subliminal, liminal, or concurrent awareness of being in REM sleep. A car, or any vehicle, usually represents the illusory perception of my dream self’s fictitious body, though in some cases as here, it also correlates with the association of being in bed.

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Working at a new office. Me and colleagues are in charge of setting up the furniture but we fail to comply with our boss suggestions. On top of that, I accidentally cut the electricity that goes to his table.

Me and mom we moved to a new unsafe neighborhood. We are at the window and we watch a couple being mugged and the thieves taking their groceries. My mom says she also thinks she heard a girl asking for help at the parking lot nearby. We go check. we find signs that something appears to have been dragged through the ground but we don't see a soul. Then the thieves we saw before come by and I tell them to go away because I know martial arts. I have an umbrella and think about using it as weapon. They guys don't know if they believe me, so one approaches me and I strike. But I don't train for a while and I am afraid I might not keep going so well if they insist. Luckily they are convinced and they let me go unharmed. But my mom is frozen by fear and I basically have to drag her home.

Dreams
A1: Neighborhood - lost some details on this one
2: Hotel - night - cost $850, feels like a lodge, mattress and sheets are broken into three parts, very comfortable, owner of hotel walks in when I'm in a strange position, she says she didn't want us to be stuck in there and hands us a key
#125: Childhood home - night - start in kitchen, look out sliding door and see shadow running across backyard, walk down hallway to parent's bedroom, feel strong intuition and instantly become lucid!
3: FA - night - writing down these dreams in bed
B4: Classroom area - day - classmates (hs, college, various other) are constantly asking me to help/remind them of something, after a while I get mad and say "do it yourself!", suddenly they all turn on me and the class is assigned some really complicated work with no explanation; transition to mall area - walk past a "kpop store" with nicely dressed korean girls in long coats, walk around near a couple of old asian ladies who are weaving/decorating huge rugs with gold leaf and nice thread, I try to step around them but accidentally step on one and the old lady against the wall gets angry, I go talk to her and after I somehow explain myself, she says her name is "Garou Jin" and that she will pardon me for it, and I can take a letter to my teacher, however each time I try to repeat her name to her she corrects me. [Interesting setting]
5: Inside apartment - morning - waiting for F to go to work, mix myself a drink (it looks odd, much like the one I made yesterday), watching TV and listening to headphones; in this version of our apartment, it was as if light was flowing through from the gap where our stairs are, and it created a very pleasing effect. The rest of the room was painted in soft blue-green pastels; a comfortable dream environment.
6: Deja vu location - day - McDonald's location from a past dream when I was first starting a new job over a year ago; it's always cool to visit a generated dream location (not from real life) twice.
C7: Campus sidewalk - day - walking with two girls (I'm part of campus security?), suddenly transition to outside my apartment by the office - there's an older woman with a very young owl sitting on an ice chest. There is also a large convoluted chicken head and it opens its mouth wide as if it's going to feed the small owl. The owl sticks its head in but the chicken head quickly swallows it whole. The two girls are distraught and the tries and fails to pull the owl out, so instead she sets up a small grill with shish kebab. She eventually convinces me that since we can't save the owl, all we can do is kill it quickly and enjoy the food.
8: Inside apartment - I've taken apart my dog's leash and am trying to put it back together, but suddenly it's transformed into a vacuum cleaner and my dog falls backwards into the tank of the vacuum.
9: Childhood home - laundry room with dad, talking about where detergents(?) are located in various cabinets, suddenly his face has a pixelated mask on the front surface of it, some kind of luchadore. In the other room there is a movie on with Tom Cruise and some woman, they're dancing (it's a drama).

Sleep Pattern
A: 10:00pm to 2:50am
B: 3:30am to 5:30am
C: 5:40am to 8:05am

Time Notes
Last food: 8pm
Alcohol: 5pm

I had been in my mom's kitchen with my mom. We had talked about doing mushrooms. She had a snake on her head, that or her head had turned into a snake's head. I thought she might've been mother ayahuasca. The dream also went to my high school for show choir.

I had another dream where I was in high school in my cafeteria line picking out food but I was vegetarian having a hard time finding food I could eat.

I was at some kind of major event on a city square. I think the city was Barcelona. There were LOADS of people. The person sitting next to me just so happened to be the one and only Vladimir Putin. We talked a bit, and he seemed like a really cool guy. I asked him how likely we were to get a nuclear war between Russia and the West. I guess I wanted to assuage my recent fears of nuclear holocaust. In the end, I grabbed his hand and took off to give him an aerial tour of the city (!!). I flew over the city a bit (another massive square), making a wide turn (I was surprised I pulled it off, I'm not the best at maneuvering in mid-flight) and returning to where we came from.

I was trying to find a place to jerk off at school. I tried many places until I came to a downstairs area in the office. It was full of lockers and in the front of the room was a long meeting room table with a projector screen in front of it. To the back of the room was an office cubicle room thing that I thought I was going to jerk off in until I realized that there was no bathroom. There was a windows 10 computer to the side of the room using an old 90's monitor. The clock on the computer read 11:14 PM, even though it was in the middle of the day at school. When I left, I was caught. The entire time I was in the room, I was overhearing what sounded like two people discussing a world changing plan. One of them came up to me. He was wearing normal business attire, but he had long hair that he put into a ponytail. Occasionally, his face would change and do strange glitchy things for a brief period of time, only to then go back to normal. He had a very unusual way of speaking. He was very calm, almost like he had nothing to lose. He asked for some basic information about me. I gave him what he asked for and he responded with "your friends will enjoy this too," or something like that. I left, but after that, the entire building started to shake and a behemoth-like song started playing. I ran to my house, which for some reason was part of the school, only to find that the school had disappeared. Everything was still shaking. I ran to my back yard and saw my sprinkler going nuts. I was going to go to the front yard through the back gate, but I saw what looked like a miniature 1910's era plane firing bullets in rapid succession coming towards me at a sluggish pace. I tried to run back, but then I woke up.

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Inspired in the latest Sandra Bullock movie, which I haven't seen, I am with some kids and friends in the country. There is a haunted house we are in, teaching the kids on how not to be attacked by the ghosts. They react to thoughts and emotions. When we think about it, they appear. We make a giant dark figure stretch his arms through a door, almost getting us. But as long as we have no fear they can't harm us, so I face the monster fearlessly and he can't touch me.
Then someone inspired by Game of Thrones or whatever, projects on us some hardcore body armors with helmets with long horns and secret weapons and turns us into ass kicking warriors, so no one is afraid of no ghosts anymore.

Going to marry Jaime. I am organizing my own wedding and it is a vegan wedding. The music for the aisle walking is the Imperial March. I am doing all preparations myself. All guests are seated and I am in my dress but I am also with a mop and a bucket doing last minute cleanings. The groom is late so someone decides we should have the food first. Then some last minute guests come and Cory Booker is one of them. My friends don't know him, I tell them he is a candidate for president of the USA and vegan. One asks me if he is democrat or republican and I answer. We seat and we eat soup.

I was searching for some medical equipment in a doctor's pc, idk what.

The dream was fragmented, had bad, short sleep last night but vividness was better. I am convinced it's because of "nofap" as I head from too many sources that sexual energy is a must for awareness.

Created Friday 08 February 2019

Really need to start posting entries here more frequently again. Anyway, I got several dreams today, including an LD loop.

Spoiler for Kinda long again:

Scrap Group 1
Vaguely remembered clips from Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog.

Dream 1 - Gate Chat Panic

Several unknown scenes before this point. The visuals were slightly blurred. I was passing through a wide courtyard between a public building complex, clouded daylight providing illumination. Three other familiar figures were with me, My brother, Tamir, friend, Drake, and nephew, Jay, to be exact. A large crowd were in the area, each appearing hard on their luck. The air was laden with desperation and sorrow. I feared staying there for too long.

Soon, our group crossed through a gateway. Doing so immediately took us directly to a park within another nation. Trees formed a canopy above us, their leaves browned. I reckoned we were close to an embassy, but never got a good look of such. Anyway, more unfortunate folk were present. Among those were a gang of rowdy young men, of whom were bullying people and goading for a fight. Two of them momentarily accosted Tamir. There was nothing to prove, so we all just ignored them. I did, however, take precaution to keep my hands close to my jeans.

Not long after, I took a glimpse of an interesting figure standing beneath a tree. A closer look revealed it was F Sensei. She looked shorter and slightly older than I last saw her (indeed, its been quite some time), while her hair was lighter in color. My brother rushed towards her as soon as I pointed her out to him. I lagged behind nervously. On greeting her, I excused myself for my mood, claiming that I was a bit embarrassed of my hair being ruffled up a bit. For her part, F Sensei looked overall indifferent from illness or fatigue.

Just then, Drake warned us of a commotion. A look in his eyes revealed everything; a panic was brewing. Without a word, I took F Sensei by the wrist, and dragged her with me to the main gate. She seemed to understand quickly enough. But, her ailing form couldn't keep up too well, requiring even more pull from my part. Tamir, too, lagged behind with Jay momentarily, but the two eventually caught up and went well past me and F Sensei. Drake was already long gone by then.

By luck, we made it to the gate in time, at least, just enough for there to be only minor crowding ahead of us. Only now, instead of returning instantly, we were inside of a large facility. Steel barricades were lined up, forming a queue that zigzagged all throughout the place. This lead into an indented section. For some reason, Tamir purposefully belly-flopped down there with Jay in hand, smashing the kid into the floor. Jay was stunned momentarily, but somehow, was completely uninjured.

Later, we had to climb up a series of stairways and balconies. Halfway through, I almost collapsed from exhaustion, keeping up only so as to not upset people for holding up the line. And indeed, the line was being delayed, but instead of by me, it was from some kid with glasses dawdling around. Not that it mattered much, as the queue was also jammed up not too far ahead.

Don't think much else happened before I woke up.

Dream 2 - Driving Instructions and Lucid Dream

Scene 1 - Artifact Delivery Instructor
Various forgotten scenes before this point. The visuals were dim. I was a passenger in the back seat of an SUV, taking a ride through a suburbs during a cloudless night. An unknown younger figure was driving. He was apparently still learning to drive, requiring my guidance. Also there was Gene from Bob's Burgers.

Later on, we take a detour through a lakeside park, using its walkway as our road. Highly illegal, no doubt. Anyway, Gene got especially restless, asking endless questions, tossing things, and being an all around nuisance. These distractions lapsed the driver's attention. He even almost hit a woman jogging around there. I yelled at the two, heeding the driver pay attention, and to warn Gene to knock off his antics.

Eventually, I had them stop, probably to steady their moods. We exited the vehicle, then paced around and chatted for a bit. Suddenly, a booming voice called to us from the SUV, of which sounded much like Beerus from Dragon Ball Super. I'd just "recalled" that we were delivering magical artifacts, one of which was a glowing cube. Furthermore, each of the items housed powerful spirits. One of said spirits was the one growling at us. "Hurry it up, will ya?!" complained the spirit. "And if you so much as put a single solitary scratch on any of us, I'll kill all of you!"

Thought it best I should do the driving from then on. I entered the driver's seat, when I suddenly realized the dream. But, I could only take a brief look out to the lake, before the dream collapsed. DEILD transition a minute later.

Scene 2 - Ride on Water
Re-entry to the last portion of above. Only this time, the previous two characters were replaced with Nicholas and Tamir, respectively. At first, I thought I'd take us all home. But as I was driving, I decided to take a shortcut through the lake itself. Amusingly, the vehicle could actually drive on water. I turned up to the night sky. Stars filled the heavens, a grand display of scintillating, many-colored lights. Such a view made me opt to take us all into space. Within seconds, the vehicle rocketed past the stratosphere.

The dream destabilized, and collapsed shortly afterwards. DEILD attempt. Transition five minutes later.

Dream 3 - Celestial Warp Travel

The visuals started similarly blurred. I was flying out in deep space again. This time, I was alone. The stars were brighter than before, but glowed only in white. I took off at warp speeds, the cosmos appearing as a blurred tunnel around me..

Within a minute's time, I arrived at an Earth-like planet, if not an alternate version of Earth itself. A peninsula was readily in view. About a third of it (its northermost section, I presumed) was covered in a layer of ice. I opted to dive down to the colder parts.

Soon, I touched down on a frozen tundra. My landing, much rougher than I expected, left a deep crater in the ground, sending chunks of ice flying past me. Cold fog covered much of the blue sky, as well as an ocean not far from view. Tall ice formations, if not glaciers, covered much of the land.

I called out, curious to see if anyone was around. While waiting for a response, I climbed to higher ground.

The environment destabilized. Before I could react, the dream vanished.

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Slipping through an underground garage with someone. We need a trick to distract a security guard, so we attract the attention of another female guard outside and we manage to hide. We walk through a train track and we get caught by soldiers. They don't know us, think we're just lost, so we obey their orders and walk the direction they take us on. But we are on a mission, we have something or we know something and we need to escape. Then some other soldier who identifies us, sees us and starts shooting us all, including the soldiers. He's got a machine gun. I survive by pressing myself against a wall as I watch others going down. I manage to get closer to the soldier and I ambush the guy. I knock his gun out of his hands.

Giant killer alien outside. One has to move carefully around town. I go to some place but it is not safe. The alien infiltrates the building and we have to be masters of disguise to escape him. A friend of mine has no bones (?).

I am a researcher at a university. I write a letter to a teacher about a theory I have and want to deliver it in hand. I am a bit afraid of the elevators, so I enter a tower of stairs that leads to the lobby of his department. When I arrive there, there is a bunch of noisy guys coming out of an elevator and I get mingled with them as we walk to the entrance of the department. We need a card or someone to let us in. A man unlocks the door and lets me in. The other guys also want to, but he says one at a time. I arrive to the office of the teacher and he asks me about my theory, but it is a different one from what I want to deliver and she is puzzled. She asks her assistant something and they realize there was some mistake. She was expecting the other guys outside who also had sent some email with some theory and that's the ones she was expecting. They come in. I explain I didn't want to fool anybody, just wanted to hand my letter. She looks at me with contempt but I hand the letter anyway. I am sure once she reads it, she will be just as excited as with these guys' theory, but I don't know if she will even read it. They kick me out. I go back to my dorm room. It actually has great space, several extra beds like bunk bed and sofa bed, I can sleep in different beds everyday, but I clearly have no friends to make use it. It is so sad and pathetic I feel sorry for myself in this life.

Helping two guys who are being chased by the police. Actually the cops don't know they are two, or three since I'm helping them. They are looking for just one guy, so they keep passing by us and letting us free. We are not simple thieves, it's something for a greater good and the cops are at the service of a corrupt system.

Walking through some artisans crafts market. Meet Zilla and her friends and tag along. Then meet Riverstone and we all head for a building. We find the elevator not working and two maintenance guys come. One of them is my pre-teen sweetheart Marco, don't know if he recognizes me, so I don't say anything, but he calls me by my name and asks for help. I leave my friends and go help him. He has to dangle from some cables and needs me to push him in a certain way, I help but at some point he swings out of a window and I see him falling to the ground outside. I am terrified to go check on him, but he is fine, just hurt. He fell on something soft, he said he knew it was there since he knew this could happen. I go downstairs and sit on the sidewalk as he recovers from his soreness.
Zilla and the others are passing by again and also sit to show me some cool things they bought at the market. Lovely boots and glasses, very steampunk. Marco also loves it, he is also into steampunk. As we talk I feel we have so much in common.
Then some people come take a car that is parked by our side and we notice they have a dent on the side caused by his fall, but we don't say anything.

Something about a vampire community and a bad vampire that has the power to kill others and is wiping them out. He just blasts some energy field and they are reduced to ashes. And I come to help them, because some of these vampires are my friends. He has two other very strong allies by his side. I get to fight the woman and I find that I can't defeat her, so I just distract her long enough so others can attack the bad vampire in the hope to win. The final fight between us is on top of a cliff by the ocean shore.

Harry Potter?

Haven't had a HP dream for a while. This one I'm on the back of a dragon following Harry who is also on a dragon that is Voldermort. Harry Jumps off the dragon mid air and throws something on the dragon's back. It looks like food. Harry floats down to the ground by himself. The dragon rolls whatever Harry through down it's back and flips it's tail up causing the object to float a bit and then the dragon eats it. The dragon then loses it's form and turns into voldermort on the ground. I'm following close behind them on a field. I see someone near the field pull up grass and it turns out all the grass is a fake plastic mesh sheet and he begins pulling it up. I keep watching Harry go up to Voldermort and they finally face eachother. They are about to duel when I wake up.

Jamie is quiet

Just a dream of sitting with Jamie on some steps. she is quiet and not talking but I have my arm around her.

Not this again.
Okay, before I started logging dreams again I did have a couple where I was working at Wal Mart again and Jamie was there, but was dissociating around me. These were extremely uncomfortable dreams. In this dream I am workign there and see her and say, "Hi," to her. She looks startled and uncomfortable, then makes an exit quickly. One of my mcdonald's co workers is there Chris. I start talking to him for a bit and the dream fades.

Steps again

I see Jamie on the steps again. She is totally quiet and not looking at me. I ask her a few questions or something and she doesn't respond. Just seems to ignore me. I ask her if she wants me to leave her alone for a while. She looks concerned about that and then pulls me close into a really tight hug. It feels nice. I guess that's a ,"no."

Had a lucid somewhere but forgot it.

No.

Had a dream I was in the fortnite game in fatal fields With roland from the Dark tower. Heis frantically searching for a gun. Dara emmerges from the house and hands him a gun. She says she made it herself. The gun looks like it's made of pipes made from under taps. Roland draws it so quickly that I can't almost see and shoots a bush. The bush explodes as if it were in game. I think it's cool. I ask Dara if I can have a similar gun. We walk into the house and she shows me how to make one. What's she doing back in my dreams...

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Primary school reunion, I am looking hot in a tight dress and high heels, but can't recognize anyone and no one recognizes me. My mom shows up and joins me. It's in a cool bar with half the menu vegan. We sit down to chose a snack, my mom wants some potatoes they serve with different dressings, but I am more into sweets. It is so hard to choose so I just eat the sprouts they serve as salad. A girl that looks familiar sits with us and we start talking about the traffic in town, how it is always blocked for some construction.
Then I have to walk Hachi and she comes with me as I walk through town.
It turns day and I pass by the court. Inside I see Ben Affleck as a lawyer working there and decide to check it out. My dog is now a baby in a stroller, so I go inside with him. The baby is Joseph Gordon-Levitt (!). I see Ben Affleck talking to a client, then welcoming another client who comments he is using the same shirt from last week. He says it is just similar. I don't have a reason to be there so I just go look around discreetly. Meanwhile I no longer have the baby.
I go to the toilet and bump with a lady that acts strangely. Actually, I notice something very wrong about a few people that I saw in the hallway. And then the lady tries to attack me. They have been bit by vampires and are turning. Luckily I am a vampire slayer and I have some special daggers to kill them. Some are easy to kill with one blow, but others seem to resist magically and are only wounded, even when I stab them in the heart and the head. Don't know why they are so powerful and when I get surrounded by three of them I feel scared. Suddenly rays of light shine through the building and the vampires disappear.

so I was in the astral plane about April 1st 1991 may first then It Started To Eclipse from a Corner my voice sounded like a pinch girl then I was making out with a couple of girls on the tv screen I started try to move when I started to gain form to my motion I drench in Deep Unconscious pinch where my Voice Let out A grey Dull pinch wave as my voice was Eclipsing In A pain Dull gloss A Flamming Gloss Dull A hole in about six people in front of me then I walk up with a Permanente marker In my Hand Laying down In bed as I Woke up it fell on a floor in a Old Apartment complex that I use to live in

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Visiting a tv studio, a lady friend shows me old cameras and other old equipment, shows me a wardrobe she made, very basic stuff, she explains why they don't use normal clothes.

I am coughing blood.

At the beach, some kids from somewhere go trough an area of the ocean shore that is full of rocks and get trapped and are drowning. A media circus installs. I wanna go away,

I am with my friend Zilla in the 40s, we are taking the last cruise ship leaving London just before the war hits. People are very emotional saying bye to us and vice versa.

Had many non lucids that I don't remember.


Jamie dreams

First one I am out at some bar or something. I run into Someone that looks like Jamie from behind, she's wearing some tacky brown leather jacket. I say hello to her from behind but when she turns around she looks a bit different. Her friend is asking who I am Jamie also looks at me as If she's not sure she recognises me or not.

One dream I am with her in a bedroom um playing checkers. Very verbal checkers...

Another dream kind of like that.

Then a kissing dream.

All of those were a few seconds long.

Dreamed I was in a house sitting on a chair and Jesus came up to me and threw a sacred heart at me for some reason. But it was all green. FA, Get out of bed and I am dreaming from jamie's perspective. It's the middle of the night. I go to a walk in closet with some mirrors. I don't feel good so far so I check myself out in the mirror, I still look good and am at least happy with that. I go to pick out some things to wear. Then I notice another side mirror. This one isn't reflecting my face but another face instead. Some Demon girl. It scares the hell out of me.


Dreamed I was on a farm or something. Jamie is by a fence with a horse on the other side. She is looking at me and smiling. She says, "I wanna be with you." Ditto. Waiting on you, girl.

After, her attitude changes. I run into her downtown. We had planned some meeting but she didn't show up. I ask her about it and it seems like she doesn't know me.

In another dream I find her on a subway, She's with a friend. I talk to her but she seems distant. We decide to go somewhere but can't remember where. Her friend sys something like, "Why are you going with that trash anyway?" I get mad and grab her friends head and slam it against some metal thing the I start punching her in the face. Dream self is violent hehe.

Game

In a game where me and some people are in some shooting game. It's in some old asian setting. I have a sniper and quick scope a japanese girl right in the forehead. Her head tilts back but she's still aware She waves at me as if to say that was a good one and falls over. This all happened in super slow motion.